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Jude the Obscure

by Thomas Hardy

Part First


Yea, many there be that have run out of their wits for women,
and become servants for their sakes. Many also have perished,
have erred, and sinned, for women.... O ye men, how can it be
but women should be strong, seeing they do thus?--ESDRAS.

THE schoolmaster was leaving the villageand everybody seemed sorry.
The miller at Cresscombe lent him the small white tilted cart and horse
to carry his goods to the city of his destinationabout twenty miles off
such a vehicle proving of quite sufficient size for the departing
teacher's effects. For the schoolhouse had been partly furnished by
the managersand the only cumbersome article possessed by the master
in addition to the packing-case of bookswas a cottage piano that he had
bought at an auction during the year in which he thought of learning
instrumental music. But the enthusiasm having waned he had never acquired
any skill in playingand the purchased article had been a perpetual trouble
to him ever since in moving house.

The rector had gone away for the daybeing a man who disliked
the sight of changes. He did not mean to return till the evening
when the new school-teacher would have arrived and settled in
and everything would be smooth again.

The blacksmiththe farm bailiffand the schoolmaster himself were
standing in perplexed attitudes in the parlour before the instrument.
The master had remarked that even if he got it into the cart he should
not know what to do with it on his arrival at Christminsterthe city
he was bound forsince he was only going into temporary lodgings just
at first.

A little boy of elevenwho had been thoughtfully assisting
in the packingjoined the group of menand as they rubbed
their chins he spoke upblushing at the sound of his own voice:
Aunt have got a great fuel-house, and it could be put there,
perhaps, till you've found a place to settle in, sir.

A proper good notion,said the blacksmith.

It was decided that a deputation should wait on the boy's aunt-an
old maiden resident--and ask her if she would house the piano
till Mr. Phillotson should send for it. The smith and the bailiff
started to see about the practicability of the suggested shelter

and the boy and the schoolmaster were left standing alone.

Sorry I am going, Jude?asked the latter kindly.

Tears rose into the boy's eyesfor he was not among the regular day scholars
who came unromantically close to the schoolmaster's lifebut one who had
attended the night school only during the present teacher's term of office.
The regular scholarsif the truth must be toldstood at the present moment
afar offlike certain historic disciplesindisposed to any enthusiastic
volunteering of aid.

The boy awkwardly opened the book he held in his hand
which Mr. Phillotson had bestowed on him as a parting gift
and admitted that he was sorry.

So am I,said Mr. Phillotson.

Why do you go, sir?asked the boy.

Ah--that would be a long story. You wouldn't understand my reasons, Jude.
You will, perhaps, when you are older.

I think I should now, sir.

Well--don't speak of this everywhere. You know what a university is,
and a university degree? It is the necessary hallmark of a man
who wants to do anything in teaching. My scheme, or dream,
is to be a university graduate, and then to be ordained. By going
to live at Christminster, or near it, I shall be at headquarters,
so to speak, and if my scheme is practicable at all, I consider
that being on the spot will afford me a better chance of carrying it
out than I should have elsewhere.

The smith and his companion returned. Old Miss Fawley's fuel-house was dry
and eminently practicable; and she seemed willing to give the instrument
standing-room there. It was accordingly left in the school till the evening
when more hands would be available for removing it; and the schoolmaster gave
a final glance round.

The boy Jude assisted in loading some small articlesand at nine o'clock
Mr. Phillotson mounted beside his box of books and other IMPEDIMENTA
and bade his friends good-bye.

I shan't forget you, Jude,he saidsmilingas the cart moved off.
Be a good boy, remember; and be kind to animals and birds, and read all
you can. And if ever you come to Christminster remember you hunt me out
for old acquaintance' sake.

The cart creaked across the greenand disappeared round
the corner by the rectory-house. The boy returned to the draw-well
at the edge of the greenswardwhere he had left his buckets
when he went to help his patron and teacher in the loading.
There was a quiver in his lip now and after opening the well-cover
to begin lowering the bucket he paused and leant with his forehead
and arms against the frameworkhis face wearing the fixity
of a thoughtful child's who has felt the pricks of life somewhat
before his time. The well into which he was looking was as
ancient as the village itselfand from his present position
appeared as a long circular perspective ending in a shining
disk of quivering water at a distance of a hundred feet down.
There was a lining of green moss near the topand nearer still
the hart's-tongue fern.

He said to himselfin the melodramatic tones of a whimsical boy

that the schoolmaster had drawn at that well scores of times
on a morning like thisand would never draw there any more.
I've seen him look down into it, when he was tired with his drawing,
just as I do now, and when he rested a bit before carrying
the buckets home! But he was too clever to bide here any longer--
a small sleepy place like this!

A tear rolled from his eye into the depths of the well.
The morning was a little foggyand the boy's breathing
unfurled itself as a thicker fog upon the still and heavy air.
His thoughts were interrupted by a sudden outcry:

Bring on that water, will ye, you idle young harlican!

It came from an old woman who had emerged from her door towards
the garden gate of a green-thatched cottage not far off.
The boy quickly waved a signal of assentdrew the water
with what was a great effort for one of his staturelanded and
emptied the big bucket into his own pair of smaller ones
and pausing a moment for breathstarted with them across
the patch of clammy greensward whereon the well stood--
nearly in the centre of the little villageor rather hamlet
of Marygreen.

It was as old-fashioned as it was smalland it rested in the lap
of an undulating upland adjoining the North Wessex downs.
Old as it washoweverthe well-shaft was probably the only
relic of the local history that remained absolutely unchanged.
Many of the thatched and dormered dwelling-houses had been
pulled down of late yearsand many trees felled on the green.
Above allthe original churchhump-backedwood-turreted
and quaintly hippedhad been taken downand either cracked
up into heaps of road-metal in the laneor utilized
as pig-sty wallsgarden seatsguard-stones to fences
and rockeries in the flower-beds of the neighbourhood.
In place of it a tall new building of modern Gothic design
unfamiliar to English eyeshad been erected on a new piece
of ground by a certain obliterator of historic records who had run
down from London and back in a day. The site whereon so long
had stood the ancient temple to the Christian divinities was
not even recorded on the green and level grass-plot that had
immemorially been the churchyardthe obliterated graves being
commemorated by eighteen-penny castiron crosses warranted to last
five years.

SLENDER as was Jude Fawley's frame he bore the two brimming
house-buckets of water to the cottage without resting.
Over the door was a little rectangular piece of blue board
on which was painted in yellow lettersDrusilla Fawley, Baker.
Within the little lead panes of the window--this being one
of the few old houses left--were five bottles of sweets
and three buns on a plate of the willow pattern.

While emptying the buckets at the back of the house he could hear
an animated conversation in progress within-doors between his
great-auntthe Drusilla of the sign-boardand some other villagers.
Having seen the school-master departthey were summing up particulars
of the eventand indulging in predictions of his future.

And who's he?asked onecomparatively a strangerwhen the boy entered.

Well ye med ask it, Mrs. Williams. He's my great-nephew--come since you
was last this way.The old inhabitant who answered was a tallgaunt woman
who spoke tragically on the most trivial subjectand gave a phrase
of her conversation to each auditor in turn. "He come from Mellstock
down in South Wessexabout a year ago--worse luck for 'nBelinda"
(turning to the right) "where his father was livingand was took wi'
the shakings for deathand died in two daysas you knowCaroline"
(turning to the left). "It would ha' been a blessing if Goddy-mighty
had took thee toowi' thy mother and fatherpoor useless boy!
But I've got him here to stay with me till I can see what's to be
done with unthough I am obliged to let him earn any penny he can.
Just now he's a-scaring of birds for Farmer Troutham. It keeps him
out of mischty. Why do ye turn awayJude?" she continuedas the boy
feeling the impact of their glances like slaps upon his face
moved aside.

The local washerwoman replied that it was perhaps a very good
plan of Miss or Mrs. Fawley's (as they called her indifferently)
to have him with her--"to kip 'ee company in your loneliness
fetch watershet the winder-shet-ters o' nightsand help in
the bit o' baking."

Miss Fawley doubted it.... "Why didn't ye get the schoolmaster
to take 'ee to Christminster wi' unand make a scholar of 'ee
she continued, in frowning pleasantry. I'm sure he couldn't ha'
took a better one. The boy is crazy for booksthat he is.
It runs in our family rather. His cousin Sue is just the same--
so I've heard; but I have not seen the child for yearsthough she
was born in this placewithin these four wallsas it happened.
My niece and her husbandafter they were marrieddidn' get a house
of their own for some year or more; and then they only had one till--
WellI won't go into that. Judemy childdon't you ever marry.
'Tisn't for the Fawleys to take that step any more. Shetheir only one
was like a child o' my ownBelindatill the split come!
Ahthat a little maid should know such changes!"

Judefinding the general attention again centering on himself
went out to the bakehousewhere he ate the cake provided
for his breakfast. The end of his spare time had now arrived
and emerging from the garden by getting over the hedge at
the back he pursued a path northwardtill he came to a wide
and lonely depression in the general level of the upland
which was sown as a corn-field. This vast concave was the scene
of his labours for Mr Troutham the farmerand he descended into
the midst of it.

The brown surface of the field went right up towards the sky all round
where it was lost by degrees in the mist that shut out the actual verge
and accentuated the solitude. The only marks on the uniformity of the scene
were a rick of last year's produce standing in the midst of the arable
the rooks that rose at his approachand the path athwart the fallow
by which he had cometrodden now by he hardly knew whomthough once
by many of his own dead family.

How ugly it is here!he murmured.

The fresh harrow-lines seemed to stretch like the channellings
in a piece of new corduroylending a meanly utilitarian air
to the expansetaking away its gradationsand depriving it of all
history beyond that of the few recent monthsthough to every clod
and stone there really attached associations enough and to spare--
echoes of songs from ancient harvest-daysof spoken words

and of sturdy deeds. Every inch of ground had been the site
first or lastof energygaietyhorse-playbickeringsweariness.
Groups of gleaners had squatted in the sun on every square yard.
Love-matches that had populated the adjoining hamlet had been
made up there between reaping and carrying. Under the hedge
which divided the field from a distant plantation girls had given
themselves to lovers who would not turn their heads to look at them
by the next harvest; and in that ancient cornfield many a man
had made love-promises to a woman at whose voice he had trembled
by the next seed-time after fulfilling them in the church adjoining.
But this neither Jude nor the rooks around him considered.
For them it was a lonely placepossessingin the one viewonly the
quality of a work-groundand in the other that of a granary good to
feed in.

The boy stood under the rick before mentionedand every few seconds used
his clacker or rattle briskly. At each clack the rooks left off pecking
and rose and went away on their leisurely wingsburnished like tassets
of mailafterwards wheeling back and regarding him warilyand descending
to feed at a more respectful distance.

He sounded the clacker till his arm achedand at length
his heart grew sympathetic with the birds' thwarted desires.
They seemedlike himselfto be living in a world which did
not want them. Why should he frighten them away? They took
upon more and more the aspect of gentle friends and pensioners--
the only friends he could claim as being in the least degree
interested in himfor his aunt had often told him that she was not.
He ceased his rattlingand they alighted anew.

Poor little dears!said Judealoud. "You SHALL have some dinner--
you shall. There is enough for us all. Farmer Troutham can afford
to let you have some. Eatthen my dear little birdiesand make
a good meal!"

They stayed and ateinky spots on the nut-brown soil and Jude
enjoyed their appetite. A magic thread of fellow-feeling united
his own life with theirs. Puny and sorry as those lives were
they much resembled his own.

His clacker he had by this time thrown away from himas being a mean
and sordid instrumentoffensive both to the birds and to himself
as their friend. All at once he became conscious of a smart blow upon
his buttocksfollowed by a loud clackwhich announced to his surprised
senses that the clacker had been the instrument of offence used.
The birds and Jude started up simultaneouslyand the dazed eyes
of the latter beheld the farmer in personthe great Troutham himself
his red face glaring down upon Jude's cowering framethe clacker swinging
in his hand.

So it's 'Eat my dear birdies,' is it, young man?
'Eat, dear birdies,' indeed! I'll tickle your breeches,
and see if you say, 'Eat, dear birdies,' again in a hurry!
And you've been idling at the schoolmaster's too, instead of
coming here, ha'n't ye, hey? That's how you earn your sixpence
a day for keeping the rooks off my corn!

Whilst saluting Jude's ears with this impassioned rhetoric
Troutham had seized his left hand with his own leftand swinging
his slim frame round him at arm's-lengthagain struck Jude
on the hind parts with the flat side of Jude's own rattle
till the field echoed with the blowswhich were delivered once
or twice at each revolution.

Don't 'ee, sir--please don't 'ee!cried the whirling childas helpless
under the centrifugal tendency of his person as a hooked fish swinging
to landand beholding the hillthe rickthe plantationthe path
and the rooks going round and round him in an amazing circular race.
I--I sir--only meant that--there was a good crop in the ground-I
saw 'em sow it--and the rooks could have a little bit for dinner-and
you wouldn't miss it, sir--and Mr. Phillotson said I was to be kind to
'em--oh, oh, oh!

This truthful explanation seemed to exasperate the farmer even more
than if Jude had stoutly denied saying anything at alland he still
smacked the whirling urchinthe clacks of the instrument continuing
to resound all across the field and as far as the ears of distant workers-who
gathered thereupon that Jude was pursuing his business of clacking
with great assiduity--and echoing from the brand-new church tower just
behind the misttowards the building of which structure the farmer
had largely subscribedto testify his love for God and man.

Presently Troutham grew tired of his punitive taskand depositing
the quivering boy on his legstook a sixpence from his pocket
and gave it him in payment for his day's worktelling him to go
home and never let him see him in one of those fields again.

Jude leaped out of arm's reachand walked along the trackway weeping-not
from the painthough that was keen enough; not from the perception
of the flaw in the terrestrial schemeby which what was good for God's
birds was bad for God's gardener; but with the awful sense that he had
wholly disgraced himself before he had been a year in the parish
and hence might be a burden to his great-aunt for life.

With this shadow on his mind he did not care to show himself in the village
and went homeward by a roundabout track behind a high hedge and across
a pasture. Here he beheld scores of coupled earthworms lying half their
length on the surface of the damp groundas they always did in such weather
at that time of the year. It was impossible to advance in regular steps
without crushing some of them at each tread.

Though Farmer Troutham had just hurt himhe was a boy who could not
himself bear to hurt anything. He had never brought home a nest of young
birds without lying awake in misery half the night afterand often
re-instating them and the nest in their original place the next morning.
He could scarcely bear to see trees cut down or loppedfrom a fancy
that it hurt them; and late pruningwhen the sap was up and the tree
bled profuselyhad been a positive grief to him in his infancy.
This weakness of characteras it may be calledsuggested that he was the
sort of man who was born to ache a good deal before the fall of the curtain
upon his unnecessary life should signify that all was well with him again.
He carefully picked his way on tiptoe among the earthwormswithout killing
a single one.

On entering the cottage he found his aunt selling a penny loaf
to a little girland when the customer was gone she said
Well, how do you come to be back here in the middle
of the morning like this?

I'm turned away.


Mr. Troutham have turned me away because I let the rooks have a few
peckings of corn. And there's my wages--the last I shall ever hae!

He threw the sixpence tragically on the table.

Ah!said his auntsuspending her breath. And she opened upon him a lecture
on how she would now have him all the spring upon her hands doing nothing.
If you can't skeer birds, what can ye do? There! don't ye look so deedy!
Farmer Troutham is not so much better than myself, come to that.
But 'tis as Job said, 'Now they that are younger than I have me in derision,
whose fathers I would have disdained to have set with the dogs of my flock.'
His father was my father's journeyman, anyhow, and I must have been a fool
to let 'ee go to work for 'n, which I shouldn't ha' done but to keep 'ee out
of mischty.

More angry with Jude for demeaning her by coming there than for dereliction
of dutyshe rated him primarily from that point of viewand only secondarily
from a moral one.

Not that you should have let the birds eat what Farmer Troutham planted.
Of course you was wrong in that. Jude, Jude, why didstn't go off with
that schoolmaster of thine to Christminster or somewhere? But, oh no--
poor or'nary child--there never was any sprawl on thy side of the family,
and never will be!

Where is this beautiful city, Aunt--this place where Mr. Phillotson
is gone to?asked the boyafter meditating in silence.

Lord! you ought to know where the city of Christminster is.
Near a score of miles from here. It is a place much
too good for you ever to have much to do with, poor boy,
I'm a-thinking.

And will Mr. Phillotson always be there?

How can I tell?

Could I go to see him?

Lord, no! You didn't grow up hereabout, or you wouldn't ask such as that.
We've never had anything to do with folk in Christminster, nor folk in
Christminster with we.

Jude went outandfeeling more than ever his existence to be
an undemanded onehe lay down upon his back on a heap of litter
near the pig-sty. The fog had by this time become more translucent
and the position of the sun could be seen through it. He pulled
his straw hat over his faceand peered through the interstices
of the plaiting at the white brightnessvaguely reflecting.
Growing up brought responsibilitieshe found. Events did not rhyme
quite as he had thought. Nature's logic was too horrid for him
to care for. That mercy towards one set of creatures was cruelty
towards another sickened his sense of harmony. As you got older
and felt yourself to be at the centre of your timeand not at
a point in its circumferenceas you had felt when you were little
you were seized with a sort of shudderinghe perceived. All around you
there seemed to be something glaringgarishrattlingand the noises
and glares hit upon the little cell called your lifeand shook it
and warped it.

If he could only prevent himself growing up! He did not want to be a man.

Thenlike the natural boyhe forgot his despondencyand sprang up.
During the remainder of the morning he helped his auntand in the afternoon
when there was nothing more to be donehe went into the village.
Here he asked a man whereabouts Christminster lay.

Christminster? Oh, well, out by there yonder; though I've never bin there--
not I. I've never had any business at such a place.

The man pointed north-eastwardin the very direction where lay that
field in which Jude had so disgraced himself. There was something
unpleasant about the coincidence for the momentbut the fearsomeness
of this fact rather increased his curiosity about the city.
The farmer had said he was never to be seen in that field again;
yet Christminster lay across itand the path was a public one.
Sostealing out of the hamlethe descended into the same hollow
which had witnessed his punishment in the morningnever swerving
an inch from the pathand climbing up the long and tedious ascent
on the other side till the track joined the highway by a little clump
of trees. Here the ploughed land endedand all before him was bleak
open down.

NOT a soul was visible on the hedgeless highwayor on either side of it
and the white road seemed to ascend and diminish till it joined the sky.
At the very top it was crossed at right angles by a green "ridgeway"--the
Ickneild Street and original Roman road through the district. This ancient
track ran east and west for many milesand down almost to within living
memory had been used for driving flocks and herds to fairs and markets.
But it was now neglected and overgrown.

The boy had never before strayed so far north as this from the nestling
hamlet in which he had been deposited by the carrier from a railway
station southwardone dark evening some few months earlierand till
now he had had no suspicion that such a wideflatlow-lying country
lay so near at handunder the very verge of his upland world.
The whole northern semicircle between east and westto a distance
of forty or fifty milesspread itself before him; a bluer
moister atmosphereevidentlythan that he breathed up here.

Not far from the road stood a weather-beaten old barn of reddish-grey brick
and tile. It was known as the Brown House by the people of the locality.
He was about to pass it when he perceived a ladder against the eaves;
and the reflection that the higher he gotthe further he could see
led Jude to stand and regard it. On the slope of the roof two men
were repairing the tiling. He turned into the ridgeway and drew towards
the barn.

When he had wistfully watched the workmen for some time he took courage
and ascended the ladder till he stood beside them.

Well, my lad, and what may you want up here?

I wanted to know where the city of Christminster is, if you please.

Christminster is out across there, by that clump. You can see it-at
least you can on a clear day. Ah, no, you can't now.

The other tilerglad of any kind of diversion from the monotony
of his labourhad also turned to look towards the quarter designated.
You can't often see it in weather like this,he said. "The time
I've noticed it is when the sun is going down in a blaze of flame
and it looks like--I don't know what."

The heavenly Jerusalem,suggested the serious urchin.

Ay--though I should never ha' thought of it myself.... But
I can't see no Christminster to-day.

The boy strained his eyes also; yet neither could he see the far-off city.
He descended from the barnand abandoning Christminster with the versatility
of his age he walked along the ridge-tracklooking for any natural objects
of interest that might lie in the banks thereabout. When he repassed the barn
to go back to Marygreen he observed that the ladder was still in its place
but that the men had finished their day's work and gone away.

It was waning towards evening; there was still a faint mist
but it had cleared a little except in the damper tracts
of subjacent country and along the river-courses. He thought
again of Christminsterand wishedsince he had come two or
three miles from his aunt's house on purposethat he could have
seen for once this attractive city of which he had been told.
But even if he waited here it was hardly likely that the air
would clear before night. Yet he was loth to leave the spot
for the northern expanse became lost to view on retreating towards
the village only a few hundred yards.

He ascended the ladder to have one more look at the point the men
had designatedand perched himself on the highest rungoverlying
the tiles. He might not be able to come so far as this for many days.
Perhaps if he prayedthe wish to see Christminster might be forwarded.
People said thatif you prayedthings sometimes came to you
even though they sometimes did not. He had read in a tract that a man
who had begun to build a churchand had no money to finish it
knelt down and prayedand the money came in by the next post.
Another man tried the same experimentand the money did not come;
but he found afterwards that the breeches he knelt in were made
by a wicked Jew. This was not discouragingand turning on the ladder
Jude knelt on the third rungwhereresting against those above it
he prayed that the mist might rise.

He then seated himself againand waited. In the course of ten or fifteen
minutes the thinning mist dissolved altogether from the northern horizon
as it had already done elsewhereand about a quarter of an hour before
the time of sunset the westward clouds partedthe sun's position being
partially uncoveredand the beams streaming out in visible lines between two
bars of slaty cloud. The boy immediately looked back in the old direction.

Some way within the limits of the stretch of landscapepoints of light
like the topaz gleamed. The air increased in transparency with the lapse
of minutestill the topaz points showed themselves to be the vanes
windowswet roof slatesand other shining spots upon the spires
domesfreestone-workand varied outlines that were faintly revealed.
It was Christminsterunquestionably; either directly seenor miraged
in the peculiar atmosphere.

The spectator gazed on and on till the windows and vanes lost their shine
going out almost suddenly like extinguished candles. The vague city became
veiled in mist. Turning to the westhe saw that the sun had disappeared.
The foreground of the scene had grown funereally darkand near objects put on
the hues and shapes of chimaeras.

He anxiously descended the ladderand started homewards
at a runtrying not to think of giantsHerne the Hunter
Apollyon lying in wait for Christianor of the captain
with the bleeding hole in his forehead and the corpses round
him that remutinied every night on board the bewitched ship.
He knew that he had grown out of belief in these horrors
yet he was glad when he saw the church tower and the lights in
the cottage windowseven though this was not the home of his birth
and his great-aunt did not care much about him.

Inside and round about that old woman's "shop" windowwith its twenty-four
little panes set in lead-workthe glass of some of them oxidized with age
so that you could hardly see the poor penny articles exhibited within
and forming part of a stock which a strong man could have carriedJude had
his outer being for some long tideless time. But his dreams were as gigantic
as his surroundings were small.

Through the solid barrier of cold cretaceous upland to the northward
he was always beholding a gorgeous city--the fancied place
he had likened to the new Jerusalemthough there was perhaps more
of the painter's imagination and less of the diamond merchant's
in his dreams thereof than in those of the Apocalyptic writer.
And the city acquired a tangibilitya permanencea hold on his life
mainly from the one nucleus of fact that the man for whose knowledge
and purposes he had so much reverence was actually living there;
not only sobut living among the more thoughtful and mentally shining
ones therein.

In sad wet seasonsthough he knew it must rain at Christminster too
he could hardly believe that it rained so drearily there.
Whenever he could get away from the confines of the hamlet
for an hour or twowhich was not oftenhe would steal off
to the Brown House on the hill and strain his eyes persistently;
sometimes to be rewarded by the sight of a dome or spire
at other times by a little smokewhich in his estimate had some of
the mysticism of incense.

Then the day came when it suddenly occurred to him that if he ascended
to the point of view after darkor possibly went a mile or two further
he would see the night lights of the city. It would be necessary to come
back alonebut even that consideration did not deter himfor he could
throw a little manliness into his moodno doubt.

The project was duly executed. It was not late when he arrived
at the place of outlookonly just after duskbut a black
north-east skyaccompanied by a wind from the same quarter
made the occasion dark enough. He was rewarded; but what
he saw was not the lamps in rowsas he had half expected.
No individual light was visibleonly a halo or glow-fog
over-arching the place against the black heavens behind it
making the light and the city seem distant but a mile
or so.

He set himself to wonder on the exact point in the glow
where the schoolmaster might be--he who never communicated
with anybody at Marygreen now; who was as if dead to them here.
In the glow he seemed to see Phillotson promenading at ease
like one of the forms in Nebuchadnezzar's furnace.

He had heard that breezes travelled at the rate of ten miles an hour
and the fact now came into his mind. He parted his lips as he faced
the north-eastand drew in the wind as if it were a sweet liquor.

You,he saidaddressing the breeze caressingly "were in Christminster city
between one and two hours agofloating along the streetspulling round
the weather-cockstouching Mr. Phillotson's facebeing breathed by him;
and now you are herebreathed by me--youthe very same."

Suddenly there came along this wind something towards him--
a message from the place--from some soul residing thereit seemed.
Surely it was the sound of bellsthe voice of the city
faint and musicalcalling to himWe are happy here!

He had become entirely lost to his bodily situation during this mental leap

and only got back to it by a rough recalling. A few yards below the brow
of the hill on which he paused a team of horses made its appearance
having reached the place by dint of half an hour's serpentine progress from
the bottom of the immense declivity. They had a load of coals behind them--
a fuel that could only be got into the upland by this particular route.
They were accompanied by a cartera second manand a boywho now kicked a
large stone behind one of the wheelsand allowed the panting animals to have
a long restwhile those in charge took a flagon off the load and indulged in
a drink round.

They were elderly menand had genial voices. Jude addressed them
inquiring if they had come from Christminster.

Heaven forbid, with this load!said they.

The place I mean is that one yonder.He was getting so romantically
attached to Christminster thatlike a young lover alluding to his mistress
he felt bashful at mentioning its name again. He pointed to the light
in the sky--hardly perceptible to their older eyes.

Yes. There do seem a spot a bit brighter in the nor'-east
than elsewhere, though I shouldn't ha' noticed it myself,
and no doubt it med be Christminster.

Here a little book of tales which Jude had tucked up under his arm
having brought them to read on his way hither before it grew dark
slipped and fell into the road. The carter eyed him while he picked it
up and straightened the leaves.

Ah, young man,he observedyou'd have to get your head screwed
on t'other way before you could read what they read there.

Why?asked the boy.

Oh, they never look at anything that folks like we can understand,
the carter continuedby way of passing the time.
On'y foreign tongues used in the days of the Tower of Babel,
when no two families spoke alike. They read that sort of thing
as fast as a night-hawk will whir. 'Tis all learning there--
nothing but learning, except religion. And that's learning too,
for I never could understand it. Yes, 'tis a serious-minded place.
Not but there's wenches in the streets o' nights.... You know,
I suppose, that they raise pa'sons there like radishes in a bed?
And though it do take--how many years, Bob?--five years to turn
a lirruping hobble-de-hoy chap into a solemn preaching man
with no corrupt passions, they'll do it, if it can be done,
and polish un off like the workmen they be, and turn un out wi'
a long face, and a long black coat and waistcoat, and a religious
collar and hat, same as they used to wear in the Scriptures,
so that his own mother wouldn't know un sometimes.... There,
'tis their business, like anybody else's.

But how should you know

Now don't you interrupt, my boy. Never interrupt your senyers.
Move the fore hoss aside, Bobby; here's som'at coming.... You must mind
that I be a-talking of the college life. 'Em lives on a lofty level;
there's no gainsaying it, though I myself med not think much of 'em.
As we be here in our bodies on this high ground, so be they in their minds--
noble-minded men enough, no doubt--some on 'em--able to earn hundreds
by thinking out loud. And some on 'em be strong young fellows that can
earn a'most as much in silver cups. As for music, there's beautiful
music everywhere in Christminster. You med be religious, or you med not,
but you can't help striking in your homely note with the rest.

And there's a street in the place--the main street--that ha'n't
another like it in the world. I should think I did know a little
about Christminster!

By this time the horses had recovered breath and bent to their collars again.
Judethrowing a last adoring look at the distant haloturned and walked
beside his remarkably well-informed friendwho had no objection to telling
him as they moved on more yet of the city--its towers and halls and churches.
The waggon turned into a cross-roadwhereupon Jude thanked the carter warmly
for his informationand said he only wished he could talk half as well about
Christminster as he.

Well, 'tis oonly what has come in my way,said the carter unboastfully.
I've never been there, no more than you; but I've picked up the knowledge
here and there, and you be welcome to it. A-getting about the world as I do,
and mixing with all classes of society, one can't help hearing of things.
A friend o' mine, that used to clane the boots at the Crozier Hotel in
Christminster when he was in his prime, why, I knowed un as well as my own
brother in his later years.

Jude continued his walk homeward alonepondering so deeply
that he forgot to feel timid. He suddenly grew older.
It had been the yearning of his heart to find something to anchor on
to cling to--for some place which he could call admirable.
Should he find that place in this city if he could get there?
Would it be a spot in whichwithout fear of farmersor hindrance
or ridiculehe could watch and waitand set himself to some
mighty undertaking like the men of old of whom he had heard?
As the halo had been to his eyes when gazing at it a quarter of an
hour earlierso was the spot mentally to him as he pursued his
dark way.

It is a city of light,he said to himself.

The tree of knowledge grows there,he added a few steps further on.

It is a place that teachers of men spring from and go to.

It is what you may call a castle, manned by scholarship and religion.

After this figure he was silent a long whiletill he added:

It would just suit me.

WALKING somewhat slowly by reason of his concentrationthe boy--an ancient
man in some phases of thoughtmuch younger than his years in others--
was overtaken by a light-footed pedestrianwhomnotwithstanding the gloom
he could perceive to be wearing an extraordinarily tall hat
a swallow-tailed coatand a watch-chain that danced madly and threw
around scintillations of sky-light as its owner swung along upon a pair
of thin legs and noiseless boots. Judebeginning to feel lonely
endeavoured to keep up with him.

Well, my man! I'm in a hurry, so you'll have to walk pretty fast
if you keep alongside of me. Do you know who I am?

Yes, I think. Physician Vilbert?

Ah--I'm known everywhere, I see! That comes of being a public benefactor.

Vilbert was an itinerant quack-doctorwell known to the rustic population
and absolutely unknown to anybody elseas heindeedtook care to be
to avoid inconvenient investigations. Cottagers formed his only patients
and his Wessex-wide repute was among them alone. His position was
humbler and his field more obscure than those of the quacks with capital
and an organized system of advertising. He wasin facta survival.
The distances he traversed on foot were enormousand extended nearly
the whole length and breadth of Wessex. Jude had one day seen him selling
a pot of coloured lard to an old woman as a certain cure for a bad leg
the woman arranging to pay a guineain instalments of a shilling
a fortnightfor the precious salvewhichaccording to the physician
could only be obtained from a particular animal which grazed on Mount Sinai
and was to be captured only at great risk to life and limb. Judethough he
already had his doubts about this gentleman's medicinesfelt him to be
unquestionably a travelled personageand one who might be a trustworthy
source of information on matters not strictly professional.

I s'pose you've been to Christminster, Physician?

I have--many times,replied the long thin man. "That's one of my centres."

It's a wonderful city for scholarship and religion?

You'd say so, my boy, if you'd seen it. Why, the very sons of the old
women who do the washing of the colleges can talk in Latin--not good Latin,
that I admit, as a critic: dog-Latin--cat-Latin, as we used to call it in my
undergraduate days.

And Greek?

Well--that's more for the men who are in training for bishops,
that they may be able to read the New Testament in the original.

I want to learn Latin and Greek myself.

A lofty desire. You must get a grammar of each tongue.

I mean to go to Christminster some day.

Whenever you do, you say that Physician Vilbert is the only proprietor
of those celebrated pills that infallibly cure all disorders of
the alimentary system, as well as asthma and shortness of breath.
Two and threepence a box--specially licensed by the government stamp.

Can you get me the grammars if I promise to say it hereabout?

I'll sell you mine with pleasure--those I used as a student.

Oh, thank you, sir!said Jude gratefullybut in gasps
for the amazing speed of the physician's walk kept him
in a dog-trot which was giving him a stitch in the side.
I think you'd better drop behind, my young man.
Now I'll tell you what I'll do. I'll get you the grammars,
and give you a first lesson, if you'll remember, at every house
in the village, to recommend Physician Vilbert's golden ointment,
life-drops, and female pills.

Where will you be with the grammars?

I shall be passing here this day fortnight at precisely this hour
of five-and-twenty minutes past seven. My movements are as truly
timed as those of the planets in their courses.

Here I'll be to meet you,said Jude.

With orders for my medicines?

Yes, Physician.

Jude then dropped behindwaited a few minutes to recover breath
and went home with a consciousness of having struck a blow
for Christminster.

Through the intervening fortnight he ran about and smiled outwardly at
his inward thoughtsas if they were people meeting and nodding to him-smiled
with that singularly beautiful irradiation which is seen
to spread on young faces at the inception of some glorious idea
as if a supernatural lamp were held inside their transparent natures
giving rise to the flattering fancy that heaven lies about them then.

He honestly performed his promise to the man of many cures
in whom he now sincerely believedwalking miles hither and thither
among the surrounding hamlets as the Physician's agent in advance.
On the evening appointed he stood motionless on the plateau
at the place where he had parted from Vilbertand there
awaited his approach. The road-physician was fairly up
to time; butto the surprise of Jude on striking into his pace
which the pedestrian did not diminish by a single unit of force
the latter seemed hardly to recognize his young companion
though with the lapse of the fortnight the evenings had grown light.
Jude thought it might perhaps be owing to his wearing another hat
and he saluted the physician with dignity.

Well, my boy?said the latter abstractedly.

I've come,said Jude.

You? who are you? Oh yes--to be sure! Got any orders, lad?

Yes.And Jude told him the names and addresses of the cottagers who
were willing to test the virtues of the world-renowned pills and salve.
The quack mentally registered these with great care.

And the Latin and Greek grammars?Jude's voice trembled with anxiety.

What about them?

You were to bring me yours, that you used before you took your degree.

Ah, yes, yes! Forgot all about it--all! So many lives depending
on my attention, you see, my man, that I can't give so much thought
as I would like to other things.

Jude controlled himself sufficiently long to make sure of the truth;
and he repeatedin a voice of dry miseryYou haven't brought 'em!

No. But you must get me some more orders from sick people,
and I'll bring the grammars next time.

Jude dropped behind. He was an unsophisticated boybut the gift
of sudden insight which is sometimes vouchsafed to children showed
him all at once what shoddy humanity the quack was made of.
There was to be no intellectual light from this source. The leaves
dropped from his imaginary crown of laurel; he turned to a gate
leant against itand cried bitterly.

The disappointment was followed by an interval of blankness.

He mightperhapshave obtained grammars from Alfredston
but to do that required moneyand a knowledge of what books to order;
and though physically comfortablehe was in such absolute
dependence as to be without a farthing of his own.

At this date Mr. Phillotson sent for his pianoforteand it gave Jude a lead.
Why should he not write to the schoolmasterand ask him to be so kind
as to get him the grammars in Christminster? He might slip a letter inside
the case of the instrumentand it would be sure to reach the desired eyes.
Why not ask him to send any old second-hand copieswhich would have the charm
of being mellowed by the university atmosphere?

To tell his aunt of his intention would be to defeat it.
It was necessary to act alone.

After a further consideration of a few days he did act
and on the day of the piano's departurewhich happened
to be his next birthdayclandestinely placed the letter
inside the packing-casedirected to his much-admired friend
being afraid to reveal the operation to his aunt Drusilla
lest she should discover his motiveand compel him to abandon
his scheme.

The piano was despatchedand Jude waited days and weekscalling every
morning at the cottage post office before his great-aunt was stirring.
At last a packet did indeed arrive at the villageand he saw from the ends
of it that it contained two thin books. He took it away into a lonely place
and sat down on a felled elm to open it.

Ever since his first ecstasy or vision of Christminster
and its possibilitiesJude had meditated much and curiously
on the probable sort of process that was involved in turning
the expressions of one language into those of another.
He concluded that a grammar of the required tongue
would containprimarilya ruleprescriptionor clue
of the nature of a secret cipherwhichonce known
would enable himby merely applying itto change at will
all words of his own speech into those of the foreign one.
His childish idea wasin facta pushing to the extremity of
mathematical precision what is everywhere known as Grimm's Law--
an aggrandizement of rough rules to ideal completeness.
Thus he assumed that the words of the required language were
always to be found somewhere latent in the words of the given
language by those who had the art to uncover themsuch art being
furnished by the books aforesaid.

Whenthereforehaving noted that the packet bore the postmark
of Christminsterhe cut the stringopened the volumes
and turned to the Latin grammarwhich chanced to come uppermost
he could scarcely believe his eyes.

The book was an old one--thirty years oldsoiledscribbled wantonly
over with a strange name in every variety of enmity to the letterpress
and marked at random with dates twenty years earlier than his own day.
But this was not the cause of Jude's amazement. He learnt for the first time
that there was no law of transmutationas in his innocence he had supposed
(there wasin some degreebut the grammarian did not recognize it)
but that every word in both Latin and Greek was to be individually committed
to memory at the cost of years of plodding.

Jude flung down the bookslay backward along the broad trunk of the elm
and was an utterly miserable boy for the space of a quarter of an hour.
As he had often done beforehe pulled his hat over his face and watched
the sun peering insidiously at him through the interstices of the straw.

This was Latin and Greekthenwas it this grand delusion! The charm
he had supposed in store for him was really a labour like that of Israel
in Egypt.

What brains they must have in Christminster and the great schools
he presently thoughtto learn words one by one up to tens of thousands!
There were no brains in his head equal to this business; and as the little
sun-rays continued to stream in through his hat at himhe wished he had
never seen a bookthat he might never see anotherthat he had never
been born.

Somebody might have come along that way who would have asked him his trouble
and might have cheered him by saying that his notions were further advanced
than those of his grammarian. But nobody did comebecause nobody does;
and under the crushing recognition of his gigantic error Jude continued to
wish himself out of the world.

DURING the three or four succeeding years a quaint and singular vehicle
might have been discerned moving along the lanes and by-roads near Marygreen
driven in a quaint and singular way.

In the course of a month or two after the receipt of the books Jude
had grown callous to the shabby trick played him by the dead languages.
In facthis disappointment at the nature of those tongues hadafter a while
been the means of still further glorifying the erudition of Christminster.
To acquire languagesdeparted or living in spite of such obstinacies
as he now knew them inherently to possesswas a herculean performance
which gradually led him on to a greater interest in it than in the presupposed
patent process. The mountain-weight of material under which the ideas
lay in those dusty volumes called the classics piqued him into a dogged
mouselike subtlety of attempt to move it piecemeal.

He had endeavoured to make his presence tolerable to his crusty maiden
aunt by assisting her to the best of his abilityand the business
of the little cottage bakery had grown in consequence. An aged horse
with a hanging head had been purchased for eight pounds at a sale
a creaking cart with a whity-brown tilt obtained for a few pounds more
and in this turn-out it became Jude's business thrice a week to carry
loaves of bread to the villagers and solitary cotters immediately
round Marygreen.

The singularity aforesaid layafter allless in the conveyance
itself than in Jude's manner of conducting it along its route.
Its interior was the scene of most of Jude's education by "private study."
As soon as the horse had learnt the road and the houses at which he was
to pause awhilethe boyseated in frontwould slip the reins over
his armingeniously fix openby means of a strap attached to the tilt
the volume he was readingspread the dictionary on his knees
and plunge into the simpler passages from CaesarVirgilor Horace
as the case might bein his purblind stumbling wayand with an expenditure
of labour that would have made a tender-hearted pedagogue shed tears;
yet somehow getting at the meaning of what he readand divining rather than
beholding the spirit of the originalwhich often to his mind was something
else than that which he was taught to look for.

The only copies he had been able to lay hands on were old Delphin editions
because they were supersededand therefore cheap. Butbad for
idle schoolboysit did so happen that they were passably good for him.
The hampered and lonely itinerant conscientiously covered up the marginal

readingsand used them merely on points of constructionas he would
have used a comrade or tutor who should have happened to be passing by.
And though Jude may have had little chance of becoming a scholar by these
rough and ready meanshe was in the way of getting into the groove
he wished to follow.

While he was busied with these ancient pageswhich had already been thumbed
by hands possibly in the gravedigging out the thoughts of these minds
so remote yet so nearthe bony old horse pursued his roundsand Jude would
be aroused from the woes of Dido by the stoppage of his cart and the voice
of some old woman cryingTwo to-day, baker, and I return this stale one.

He was frequently met in the lanes by pedestrians and others without
his seeing themand by degrees the people of the neighbourhood
began to talk about his method of combining work and play
(such they considered his reading to be)whichthough probably
convenient enough to himselfwas not altogether a safe proceeding
for other travellers along the same roads. There were murmurs.
Then a private resident of an adjoining place informed the local
policeman that the baker's boy should not be allowed to read
while drivingand insisted that it was the constable's duty to catch
him in the actand take him to the police court at Alfredston
and get him fined for dangerous practices on the highway.
The policeman thereupon lay in wait for Judeand one day accosted him
and cautioned him.

As Jude had to get up at three o'clock in the morning to heat the oven
and mix and set in the bread that he distributed later in the day
he was obliged to go to bed at night immediately after laying the sponge;
so that if he could not read his classics on the highways he could hardly
study at all. The only thing to be done wasthereforeto keep a sharp
eye ahead and around him as well as he could in the circumstances
and slip away his books as soon as anybody loomed in the distance
the policeman in particular. To do that official justicehe did
not put himself much in the way of Jude's bread-cartconsidering
that in such a lonely district the chief danger was to Jude himself
and often on seeing the white tilt over the hedges he would move in
another direction.

On a day when Fawley was getting quite advancedbeing now
about sixteenand had been stumbling through the "Carmen Saeculare
on his way home, he found himself to be passing over the high
edge of the plateau by the Brown House. The light had changed,
and it was the sense of this which had caused him to look up.
The sun was going down, and the full moon was rising simultaneously
behind the woods in the opposite quarter. His mind had become
so impregnated with the poem that, in a moment of the same impulsive
emotion which years before had caused him to kneel on the ladder,
he stopped the horse, alighted, and glancing round to see that nobody
was in sight, knelt down on the roadside bank with open book.
He turned first to the shiny goddess, who seemed to look so softly
and critically at his doings, then to the disappearing luminary on
the other hand, as he began:

Phoebe silvarumque potens Diana!"

The horse stood still till he had finished the hymnwhich Jude repeated
under the sway of a polytheistic fancy that he would never have thought
of humouring in broad daylight.

Reaching homehe mused over his curious superstitioninnate or acquired
in doing thisand the strange forgetfulness which had led to such a lapse

from common sense and custom in one who wishednext to being a scholarto be
a Christian divine. It had all come of reading heathen works exclusively.
The more he thought of it the more convinced he was of his inconsistency.
He began to wonder whether he could be reading quite the right books for his
object in life. Certainly there seemed little harmony between this pagan
literature and the mediaeval colleges at Christminsterthat ecclesiastical
romance in stone.

Ultimately he decided that in his sheer love of reading
he had taken up a wrong emotion for a Christian young man.
He had dabbled in Clarke's Homerbut had never yet worked
much at the New Testament in the Greekthough he possessed
a copyobtained by post from a second-hand bookseller.
He abandoned the now familiar Ionic for a new dialect
and for a long time onward limited his reading almost
entirely to the Gospels and Epistles in Griesbach's text.
Moreoveron going into Alfredston one dayhe was introduced
to patristic literature by finding at the bookseller's some
volumes of the Fathers which had been left behind by an insolvent
clergyman of the neighbourhood.

As another outcome of this change of groove he visited
on Sundays all the churches within a walkand deciphered
the Latin inscriptions on fifteenth-century brasses and tombs.
On one of these pilgrimages he met with a hunch-backed old
woman of great intelligencewho read everything she could lay
her hands onand she told him more yet of the romantic charms
of the city of light and lore. Thither he resolved as firmly
as ever to go.

But how live in that city? At present he had no income at all.
He had no trade or calling of any dignity or stability whatever
on which he could subsist while carrying out an intellectual labour
which might spread over many years.

What was most required by citizens? Foodclothingand shelter.
An income from any work in preparing the first would
be too meagre; for making the second he felt a distaste;
the preparation of the third requisite he inclined to.
They built in a city; therefore he would learn to build.
He thought of his unknown unclehis cousin Susanna's father
an ecclesiastical worker in metaland somehow mediaeval art
in any material was a trade for which he had rather a fancy.
He could not go far wrong in following his uncle's footsteps
and engaging himself awhile with the carcases that contained the
scholar souls.

As a preliminary he obtained some small blocks of freestone
metal not being availableand suspending his studies awhile
occupied his spare half-hours in copying the heads and capitals
in his parish church.

There was a stone-mason of a humble kind in Alfredstonand as soon
as he had found a substitute for himself in his aunt's little business
he offered his services to this man for a trifling wage.
Here Jude had the opportunity of learning at least the rudiments
of freestone-working. Some time later he went to a church-builder
in the same placeand under the architect's direction became handy
at restoring the dilapidated masonries of several village churches
round about.

Not forgetting that he was only following up this handicraft
as a prop to lean on while he prepared those greater engines
which he flattered himself would be better fitted for him

he yet was interested in his pursuit on its own account.
He now had lodgings during the week in the little town
whence he returned to Marygreen village every Saturday evening.
And thus he reached and passed his nineteenth year.

AT this memorable date of his life he wasone Saturday
returning from Alfredston to Marygreen about three o'clock
in the afternoon. It was finewarmand soft summer weather
and he walked with his tools at his backhis little chisels
clinking faintly against the larger ones in his basket.
It being the end of the week he had left work earlyand had
come out of the town by a round-about route which he did not
usually frequenthaving promised to call at a flour-mill near
Cresscombe to execute a commission for his aunt.

He was in an enthusiastic mood. He seemed to see his way
to living comfortably in Christminster in the course of a year
or twoand knocking at the doors of one of those strongholds
of learning of which he had dreamed so much. He might
of coursehave gone there nowin some capacity or other
but he preferred to enter the city with a little more assurance
as to means than he could be said to feel at present.
A warm self-content suffused him when he considered
what he had already done. Now and then as he went along
he turned to face the peeps of country on either side of him.
But he hardly saw them; the act was an automatic repetition
of what he had been accustomed to do when less occupied;
and the one matter which really engaged him was the mental
estimate of his progress thus far.

I have acquired quite an average student's power to read the common
ancient classics, Latin in particular.This was trueJude possessing
a facility in that language which enabled him with great ease to himself
to beguile his lonely walks by imaginary conversations therein.

I have read two books of the ILIAD, besides being pretty familiar
with passages such as the speech of Phoenix in the ninth book,
the fight of Hector and Ajax in the fourteenth, the appearance
of Achilles unarmed and his heavenly armour in the eighteenth,
and the funeral games in the twenty-third. I have also done some Hesiod,
a little scrap of Thucydides, and a lot of the Greek Testament.... I
wish there was only one dialect all the same.

I have done some mathematicsincluding the first six and the eleventh
and twelfth books of Euclid; and algebra as far as simple equations.

I know something of the Fathers, and something of Roman and English history.

These things are only a beginning. But I shall not make much
farther advance herefrom the difficulty of getting books. Hence I
must next concentrate all my energies on settling in Christminster.
Once there I shall so advancewith the assistance I shall there get
that my present knowledge will appear to me but as childish ignorance.
I must save moneyand I will; and one of those colleges shall open
its doors to me--shall welcome whom now it would spurnif I wait twenty
years for the welcome.

I'll be D.D. before I have done!

And then he continued to dreamand thought he might become even
a bishop by leading a pureenergeticwiseChristian life.
And what an example he would set! If his income were 5000 pounds
a yearhe would give away 4500 pounds in one form and another
and live sumptuously (for him) on the remainder. Wellon second thoughts
a bishop was absurd. He would draw the line at an archdeacon.
Perhaps a man could be as good and as learned and as useful in
the capacity of archdeacon as in that of bishop. Yet he thought of
the bishop again.

Meanwhile I will read, as soon as I am settled in Christminster,
the books I have not been able to get hold of here:
Livy, Tacitus, Herodotus, AEschylus, Sophocles, Aristophanes--

Ha, ha, ha! Hoity-toity!The sounds were expressed in light
voices on the other side of the hedgebut he did not notice them.
His thoughts went on:

--Euripides, Plato, Aristotle, Lucretius, Epictetus, Seneca, Antoninus.
Then I must master other things: the Fathers thoroughly;
Bede and ecclesiastical history generally; a smattering of Hebrew--
I only know the letters as yet--


--but I can work hard. I have staying power in abundance, thank God!
and it is that which tells.... Yes, Christminster shall be my Alma Mater;
and I'll be her beloved son, in whom she shall be well pleased.

In his deep concentration on these transactions of the future Jude's
walk had slackenedand he was now standing quite stilllooking at
the ground as though the future were thrown thereon by a magic lantern.
On a sudden something smacked him sharply in the earand he became aware
that a soft cold substance had been flung at himand had fallen at
his feet.

A glance told him what it was--a piece of fleshthe characteristic part
of a barrow-pigwhich the countrymen used for greasing their bootsas it
was useless for any other purpose. Pigs were rather plentiful hereabout
being bred and fattened in large numbers in certain parts of North Wessex.

On the other side of the hedge was a streamwhenceas he now
for the first time realizedhad come the slight sounds of voices
and laughter that had mingled with his dreams. He mounted the bank
and looked over the fence. On the further side of the stream
stood a small homesteadhaving a garden and pig-sties attached;
in front of itbeside the brookthree young women were kneeling
with buckets and platters beside them containing heaps of pigs'
chitterlingswhich they were washing in the running water.
One or two pairs of eyes slyly glanced upand perceiving that his
attention had at last been attractedand that he was watching them
they braced themselves for inspection by putting their mouths
demurely into shape and recommencing their rinsing operations
with assiduity.

Thank you!said Jude severely.

I DIDN'T throw it, I tell you!asserted one girl to her neighbour
as if unconscious of the young man's presence.

Nor I,the second answered.

Oh, Anny, how can you!said the third.

If I had thrown anything at all, it shouldn't have been THAT!

Pooh! I don't care for him!And they laughed and continued their work
without looking upstill ostentatiously accusing each other.

Jude grew sarcastic as he wiped his faceand caught their remarks.

YOU didn't do it--oh no!he said to the up-stream one of the three.

She whom he addressed was a fine dark-eyed girlnot exactly handsome
but capable of passing as such at a little distancedespite some
coarseness of skin and fibre. She had a round and prominent bosom
full lipsperfect teethand the rich complexion of a Cochin hen's egg.
She was a complete and substantial female animal--no moreno less;
and Jude was almost certain that to her was attributable the enterprise
of attracting his attention from dreams of the humaner letters to what was
simmering in the minds around him.

That you'll never be told,said she deedily.

Whoever did it was wasteful of other people's property.

Oh, that's nothing.

But you want to speak to me, I suppose?

Oh yes; if you like to.

Shall I clamber across, or will you come to the plank above here?

Perhaps she foresaw an opportunity; for somehow or other the eyes
of the brown girl rested in his own when he had said the words
and there was a momentary flash of intelligencea dumb announcement
of affinity IN POSSE between herself and himwhichso far
as Jude Fawley was concernedhad no sort of premeditation in it.
She saw that he had singled her out from the threeas a woman is singled
out in such casesfor no reasoned purpose of further acquaintance
but in commonplace obedience to conjunctive orders from headquarters
unconsciously received by unfortunate men when the last intention of
their lives is to be occupied with the feminine.

Springing to her feetshe said: "Bring back what is lying there."

Jude was now aware that no message on any matter connected
with her father's business had prompted her signal to him.
He set down his basket of toolspicked up the scrap of offal
beat a pathway for himself with his stickand got over the hedge.
They walked in parallel linesone on each bank of the stream
towards the small plank bridge. As the girl drew nearer to it
she gave without Jude perceiving itan adroit little
suck to the interior of each of her cheeks in succession
by which curious and original manoeuvre she brought as by
magic upon its smooth and rotund surface a perfect dimple
which she was able to retain there as long as she continued
to smile. This production of dimples at will was a not
unknown operationwhich many attemptedbut only a few succeeded
in accomplishing.

They met in the middle of the plankand Judetossing back her missile
seemed to expect her to explain why she had audaciously stopped him by this
novel artillery instead of by hailing him.

But sheslyly looking in another directionswayed herself
backwards and forwards on her hand as it clutched the rail

of the bridge; tillmoved by amatory curiosityshe turned
her eyes critically upon him.

You don't think I would shy things at you?

Oh no.

We are doing this for my father, who naturally doesn't
want anything thrown away. He makes that into dubbin.
She nodded towards the fragment on the grass.

What made either of the others throw it, I wonder?Jude asked
politely accepting her assertionthough he had very large doubts
as to its truth.

Impudence. Don't tell folk it was I, mind!

How can I? I don't know your name.

Ah, no. Shall I tell it to you?


Arabella Donn. I'm living here.

I must have known it if I had often come this way. But I mostly
go straight along the high-road.

My father is a pig-breeder, and these girls are helping me wash
the innerds for black-puddings and such like.

They talked a little more and a little moreas they stood regarding
each other and leaning against the hand-rail of the bridge.
The unvoiced call of woman to manwhich was uttered very distinctly
by Arabella's personalityheld Jude to the spot against his intention-almost
against his willand in a way new to his experience.
It is scarcely an exaggeration to say that till this moment Jude
had never looked at a woman to consider her as suchbut had
vaguely regarded the sex as beings outside his life and purposes.
He gazed from her eyes to her mouththence to her bosomand to her full
round naked armswetmottled with the chill of the waterand firm
as marble.

What a nice-looking girl you are!he murmuredthough the words
had not been necessary to express his sense of her magnetism.

Ah, you should see me Sundays!she said piquantly.

I don't suppose I could?he answered

That's for you to think on. There's nobody after me just now,
though there med be in a week or two.She had spoken this without
a smileand the dimples disappeared.

Jude felt himself drifting strangelybut could not help it.
Will you let me?

I don't mind.

By this time she had managed to get back one dimple by turning
her face aside for a moment and repeating the odd little sucking
operation before mentionedJude being still unconscious of more than
a general impression of her appearance. "Next Sunday?" he hazarded.
To-morrow, that is?


Shall I call?


She brightened with a little glow of triumphswept him almost tenderly
with her eyes in turningand retracing her steps down the brookside
grass rejoined her companions.

Jude Fawley shouldered his tool-basket and resumed his lonely way
filled with an ardour at which he mentally stood at gaze.
He had just inhaled a single breath from a new atmosphere
which had evidently been hanging round him everywhere
he wentfor he knew not how longbut had somehow been
divided from his actual breathing as by a sheet of glass.
The intentions as to readingworkingand learning
which he had so precisely formulated only a few minutes earlier
were suffering a curious collapse into a cornerhe knew
not how.

Well, it's only a bit of fun,he said to himselffaintly conscious
that to common sense there was something lackingand still
more obviously something redundant in the nature of this girl
who had drawn him to her which made it necessary that he should
assert mere sportiveness on his part as his reason in seeking her--
something in her quite antipathetic to that side of him which had been
occupied with literary study and the magnificent Christminster dream.
It had been no vestal who chose THAT missile for opening her attack
on him. He saw this with his intellectual eyejust for a short;
fleeting whileas by the light of a falling lamp one might momentarily
see an inscription on a wall before being enshrouded in darkness.
And then this passing discriminative power was withdrawnand Jude
was lost to all conditions of things in the advent of a fresh
and wild pleasurethat of having found a new channel for emotional
interest hitherto unsuspectedthough it had lain close beside him.
He was to meet this enkindling one of the other sex on the
following Sunday.

Meanwhile the girl had joined her companionsand she silently resumed
her flicking and sousing of the chitterlings in the pellucid stream.

Catched un, my dear?laconically asked the girl called Anny.

I don't know. I wish I had thrown something else than that!
regretfully murmured Arabella.

Lord! he's nobody, though you med think so. He used to drive old
Drusilla Fawley's bread-cart out at Marygreen, till he 'prenticed himself
at Alfredston. Since then he's been very stuck up, and always reading.
He wants to be a scholar, they say.

Oh, I don't care what he is, or anything about 'n. Don't you think it,
my child!

Oh, don't ye! You needn't try to deceive us!
What did you stay talking to him for, if you didn't want un?
Whether you do or whether you don't, he's as simple as a child.
I could see it as you courted on the bridge, when he looked
at 'ee as if he had never seen a woman before in his born days.
Well, he's to be had by any woman who can get him to care
for her a bit, if she likes to set herself to catch him the
right way.

THE next day Jude Fawley was pausing in his bedroom with the sloping ceiling
looking at the books on the tableand then at the black mark on the plaster
above themmade by the smoke of his lamp in past months.

It was Sunday afternoonfour-and-twenty hours after his meeting
with Arabella Donn. During the whole bygone week he had been
resolving to set this afternoon apart for a special purpose--
the re-reading of his Greek Testament--his new onewith better
type than his old copyfollowing Griesbach's text as amended
by numerous correctorsand with variorum readings in the margin.
He was proud of the bookhaving obtained it by boldly writing
to its London publishera thing he had never done before.

He had anticipated much pleasure in this afternoon's reading
under the quiet roof of his great-aunt's house as formerly
where he now slept only two nights a week. But a new thing
a great hitchhad happened yesterday in the gliding and noiseless
current of his lifeand he felt as a snake must feel who has
sloughed off its winter skinand cannot understand the brightness
and sensitiveness of its new one.

He would not go out to meet herafter all. He sat downopened the book
and with his elbows firmly planted on the tableand his hands to his temples
began at the beginning:

[Three Greek words]

Had he promised to call for her? Surely he had! She would wait indoors
poor girland waste all her afternoon on account of him. There was
a something in hertoowhich was very winningapart from promises.
He ought not to break faith with her. Even though he had only Sundays
and week-day evenings for reading he could afford one afternoon
seeing that other young men afforded so many. After to-day he would
never probably see her again. Indeedit would be impossible
considering what his plans were.

In shortas if materiallya compelling arm of extraordinary muscular
power seized hold of him--something which had nothing in common
with the spirits and influences that had moved him hitherto.
This seemed to care little for his reason and his will
nothing for his so-called elevated intentionsand moved him along
as a violent schoolmaster a schoolboy he has seized by the collar
in a direction which tended towards the embrace of a woman for whom
he had no respectand whose life had nothing in common with his own
except locality.

[Three Greek words] was no more heededand the predestinate Jude sprang up
and across the room. Foreseeing such an event he had already arrayed himself
in his best clothes. In three minutes he was out of the house and descending
by the path across the wide vacant hollow of corn-ground which lay between
the village and the isolated house of Arabella in the dip beyond the upland.

As he walked he looked at his watch. He could be back in two hours
easilyand a good long time would still remain to him for reading after tea.

Passing the few unhealthy fir-trees and cottage where the path

joined the highway he hastened alongand struck away to the left
descending the steep side of the country to the west of the Brown House.
Here at the base of the chalk formation he neared the brook that oozed
from itand followed the stream till he reached her dwelling.
A smell of piggeries came from the backand the grunting of the
originators of that smell. He entered the gardenand knocked at
the door with the knob of his stick.

Somebody had seen him through the windowfor a male voice on the inside said:

Arabella! Here's your young man come coorting! Mizzle, my girl!

Jude winced at the words. Courting in such a business-like aspect as it
evidently wore to the speaker was the last thing he was thinking of.
He was going to walk with herperhaps kiss her; but "courting" was too
coolly purposeful to be anything but repugnant to his ideas. The door
was opened and he enteredjust as Arabella came downstairs in radiant
walking attire.

Take a chair, Mr. What's-your-name?said her fatheran energetic
black-whiskered manin the same businesslike tones Jude had heard
from outside.

I'd rather go out at once, wouldn't you?she whispered to Jude.

Yes,said he. "We'll walk up to the Brown House and back
we can do it in half an hour."

Arabella looked so handsome amid her untidy surroundings that he felt glad
he had comeand all the misgivings vanished that had hitherto haunted him.

First they clambered to the top of the great downduring which
ascent he had occasionally to take her hand to assist her.
Then they bore off to the left along the crest into the ridgeway
which they followed till it intersected the high-road at
the Brown House aforesaidthe spot of his former fervid
desires to behold Christminster. But he forgot them now.
He talked the commonest local twaddle to Arabella with greater
zest than he would have felt in discussing all the philosophies
with all the Dons in the recently adored universityand passed
the spot where he had knelt to Diana and Phoebus without
remembering that there were any such people in the mythology
or that the sun was anything else than a useful lamp for
illuminating Arabella's face. An indescribable lightness of heel
served to lift him along; and Judethe incipient scholar
prospective D.D.professorbishopor what notfelt himself
honoured and glorified by the condescension of this handsome
country wench in agreeing to take a walk with him in her Sunday
frock and ribbons.

They reached the Brown House barn--the point at which he had
planned to turn back. While looking over the vast northern
landscape from this spot they were struck by the rising of a
dense volume of smoke from the neighbourhood of the little
town which lay beneath them at a distance of a couple of miles.

It is a fire,said Arabella. "Let's run and see it--do! It is not far!"

The tenderness which had grown up in Jude's bosom left him no will
to thwart her inclination now--which pleased him in affording him
excuse for a longer time with her. They started off down the hill
almost at a trot; but on gaining level ground at the bottom
and walking a milethey found that the spot of the fire was much
further off than it had seemed.

Having begun their journeyhoweverthey pushed on; but it was
not till five o'clock that they found themselves on the scene--
the distance being altogether about half-a-dozen miles from Marygreen
and three from Arabella's. The conflagration had been got
under by the time they reached itand after a short inspection
of the melancholy ruins they retraced their steps--their course
lying through the town of Alfredston.

Arabella said she would like some teaand they entered an inn
of an inferior classand gave their order. As it was not for beer
they had a long time to wait. The maid-servant recognized Jude
and whispered her surprise to her mistress in the background
that hethe student "who kept hisself up so particular
should have suddenly descended so low as to keep company with Arabella.
The latter guessed what was being said, and laughed as she met
the serious and tender gaze of her lover--the low and triumphant laugh
of a careless woman who sees she is winning her game.

They sat and looked round the room, and at the picture of Samson
and Delilah which hung on the wall, and at the circular beer-stains
on the table, and at the spittoons underfoot filled with sawdust.
The whole aspect of the scene had that depressing effect on Jude
which few places can produce like a tap-room on a Sunday evening
when the setting sun is slanting in, and no liquor is going,
and the unfortunate wayfarer finds himself with no other haven
of rest.

It began to grow dusk. They could not wait longer, really, for the tea,
they said. Yet what else can we do?" asked Jude. "It is a three-mile
walk for you."

I suppose we can have some beer,said Arabella.

Beer, oh yes. I had forgotten that. Somehow it seems odd
to come to a public-house for beer on a Sunday evening.

But we didn't.

No, we didn't.Jude by this time wished he was out of
such an uncongenial atmosphere; but he ordered the beer
which was promptly brought.

Arabella tasted it. "Ugh!" she said.

Jude tasted. "What's the matter with it?" he asked.
I don't understand beer very much now, it is true. I like it
well enough, but it is bad to read on, and I find coffee better.
But this seems all right.

Adulterated--I can't touch it!She mentioned three or four
ingredients that she detected in the liquor beyond malt and hops
much to Jude's surprise.

How much you know!he said good-humouredly.

Nevertheless she returned to the beer and drank her share
and they went on their way. It was now nearly darkand as soon
as they had withdrawn from the lights of the town they walked
closer togethertill they touched each other. She wondered
why he did not put his arm round her waistbut he did not;
he merely said what to himself seemed a quite bold enough thing:
Take my arm.

She took itthoroughlyup to the shoulder. He felt the warmth
of her body against hisand putting his stick under his other arm
held with his right hand her right as it rested in its place.

Now we are well together, dear, aren't we?he observed.

Yes,said she; adding to herself: "Rather mild!"

How fast I have become!he was thinking.

Thus they walked till they reached the foot of the uplandwhere they
could see the white highway ascending before them in the gloom.
From this point the only way of getting to Arabella's was by going
up the inclineand dipping again into her valley on the right.
Before they had climbed far they were nearly run into by two men who had
been walking on the grass unseen.

These lovers--you find 'em out o' doors in all seasons and weathers--
lovers and homeless dogs only,said one of the men as they vanished down
the hill.

Arabella tittered lightly.

Are we lovers?asked Jude.

You know best.

But you can tell me?

For answer she inclined her head upon his shoulder.
Jude took the hintand encircling her waist with his arm
pulled her to him and kissed her.

They walked now no longer arm in arm butas she had desired
clasped together. After allwhat did it matter since it was dark
said Jude to himself. When they were half-way up the long
hill they paused as by arrangementand he kissed her again.
They reached the topand he kissed her once more.

You can keep your arm there, if you would like to,she said gently.

He did sothinking how trusting she was.

Thus they slowly went towards her home. He had left his cottage at
half-past threeintending to be sitting down again to the New Testament
by half-past five. It was nine o'clock whenwith another embrace
he stood to deliver her up at her father's door.

She asked him to come inif only for a minuteas it would seem
so odd otherwiseand as if she had been out alone in the dark.
He gave wayand followed her in. Immediately that the door was opened
he foundin addition to her parentsseveral neighbours sitting round.
They all spoke in a congratulatory mannerand took him seriously as
Arabella's intended partner.

They did not belong to his set or circleand he felt out of place
and embarrassed. He had not meant this: a mere afternoon
of pleasant walking with Arabellathat was all he had meant.
He did not stay longer than to speak to her stepmothera simple
quiet woman without features or character; and bidding them all
good night plunged with a sense of relief into the track over
the down.

But that sense was only temporary: Arabella soon re-asserted her sway

in his soul. He walked as if he felt himself to be another man from the Jude
of yesterday. What were his books to him? what were his intentions
hitherto adhered to so strictlyas to not wasting a single minute of time
day by day? "Wasting!" It depended on your point of view to define that:
he was just living for the first time: not wasting life. It was better to
love a woman than to be a graduateor a parson; ayor a pope!

When he got back to the house his aunt had gone to bedand a general
consciousness of his neglect seemed written on the face of all things
confronting him. He went upstairs without a lightand the dim interior
of his room accosted him with sad inquiry. There lay his book open
just as he had left itand the capital letters on the title-page regarded
him with fixed reproach in the grey starlightlike the unclosed eyes
of a dead man:

[Three Greek words.]

Jude had to leave early next morning for his usual week of absence
at lodgings; and it was with a sense of futility that he threw
into his basket upon his tools and other necessaries the unread
book he had brought with him.

He kept his impassioned doings a secret almost from himself.
Arabellaon the contrarymade them public among all her
friends and acquaintance.

Retracing by the light of dawn the road he had followed a few hours
earlier under cover of darknesswith his sweetheart by his side
he reached the bottom of the hillwhere he walked slowlyand stood still.
He was on the spot where he had given her the first kiss. As the sun
had only just risen it was possible that nobody had passed there since.
Jude looked on the ground and sighed. He looked closelyand could
just discern in the damp dust the imprints of their feet as they had
stood locked in each other's arms. She was not there nowand "the
embroidery of imagination upon the stuff of nature" so depicted her
past presence that a void was in his heart which nothing could fill.
A pollard willow stood close to the placeand that willow was different
from all other willows in the world. Utter annihilation of the six
days which must elapse before he could see her again as he had promised
would have been his intensest wish if he had had only the week
to live.

An hour and a half later Arabella came along the same way with her two
companions of the Saturday. She passed unheedingly the scene of the kiss
and the willow that marked itthough chattering freely on the subject
to the other two.

And what did he tell 'ee next?

Then he said--And she related almost word for word some of his
tenderest speeches. If Jude had been behind the fence he would
have felt not a little surprised at learning how very few of his
sayings and doings on the previous evening were private.

You've got him to care for 'ee a bit, 'nation if you han't!
murmured Anny judicially. "It's well to be you!"

In a few moments Arabella replied in a curiously low
hungry tone of latent sensuousness: "I've got him to care
for me: yes! But I want him to more than care for me;
I want him to have me--to marry me! I must have him.
I can't do without him. He's the sort of man I long for.
I shall go mad if I can't give myself to him altogether! I felt I

should when I first saw him!"

As he is a romancing, straightfor'ard, honest chap, he's to be had,
and as a husband, if you set about catching him in the right way.

Arabella remained thinking awhile. "What med be the right way?"
she asked.

Oh you don't know--you don't!said Sarahthe third girl.

On my word I don't!--No further, that is, than by plain courting,
and taking care he don't go too far!

The third girl looked at the second. "She DON'T know!"

'Tis clear she don't!said Anny.

And having lived in a town, too, as one may say! Well, we can teach
'ee som'at then, as well as you us.

Yes. And how do you mean--a sure way to gain a man?
Take me for an innocent, and have done wi' it!

As a husband.

As a husband.

A countryman that's honourable and serious-minded such as he;
God forbid that I should say a sojer, or sailor, or commercial gent
from the towns, or any of them that be slippery with poor women!
I'd do no friend that harm!

Well, such as he, of course!

Arabella's companions looked at each otherand turning up their eyes
in drollery began smirking. Then one went up close to Arabellaand
although nobody was nearimparted some information in a low tone
the other observing curiously the effect upon Arabella.

Ah!said the last-named slowly. "I own I didn't think of that way! ...
But suppose he ISN'T honourable? A woman had better not have tried it!"

Nothing venture nothing have! Besides, you make sure that he's
honourable before you begin. You'd be safe enough with yours.
I wish I had the chance! Lots of girls do it; or do you think they'd
get married at all?

Arabella pursued her way in silent thought. "I'll try it!"
she whispered; but not to them.

ONE week's end Jude was as usual walking out to his aunt's at Marygreen
from his lodging in Alfredstona walk which now had large attractions
for him quite other than his desire to see his aged and morose relative.
He diverged to the right before ascending the hill with the single
purpose of gainingon his waya glimpse of Arabella that should not
come into the reckoning of regular appointments. Before quite reaching
the homestead his alert eye perceived the top of her head moving
quickly hither and thither over the garden hedge. Entering the gate
he found that three young unfattened pigs had escaped from their sty

by leaping clean over the topand that she was endeavouring unassisted
to drive them in through the door which she had set open. The lines
of her countenance changed from the rigidity of business to the softness
of love when she saw Judeand she bent her eyes languishingly upon him.
The animals took a vantage of the pause by doubling and bolting out of
the way.

They were only put in this morning!she criedstimulated to pursue
in spite of her lover's presence. "They were drove from Spaddleholt
Farm only yesterdaywhere Father bought 'em at a stiff price enough.
They are wanting to get home againthe stupid toads! Will you shut
the garden gatedearand help me to get 'em in. There are no men folk
at homeonly Motherand they'll be lost if we don't mind."

He set himself to assistand dodged this way and that over
the potato rows and the cabbages. Every now and then they
ran togetherwhen he caught her for a moment an kissed her.
The first pig was got back promptly; the second with some difficulty;
the third a long-legged creaturewas more obstinate and agile.
He plunged through a hole in the garden hedgeand into
the lane.

He'll be lost if I don't follow 'n!said she. "Come along with me!"

She rushed in full pursuit out of the gardenJude alongside her
barely contriving to keep the fugitive in sight. Occasionally they
would shout to some boy to stop the animalbut he always wriggled
past and ran on as before.

Let me take your hand, darling,said Jude. "You are getting out
of breath." She gave him her now hot hand with apparent willingness
and they trotted along together.

This comes of driving 'em home,she remarked. "They always know the way
back if you do that. They ought to have been carted over."

By this time the pig had reached an unfastened gate admitting
to the open downacross which he sped with all the agility
his little legs afforded. As soon as the pursuers had entered
and ascended to the top of the high ground it became apparent
that they would have to run all the way to the farmer's if they
wished to get at him. From this summit he could be seen
as a minute speckfollowing an unerring line towards his old home.

It is no good!cried Arabella. "He'll be there long before we get there.
It don't matter now we know he's not lost or stolen on the way. They'll see
it is oursand send un back. Oh dearhow hot I be!"

Without relinquishing her hold of Jude's hand she swerved
aside and flung herself down on the sod under a stunted thorn
precipitately pulling Jude on to his knees at the same time.

Oh, I ask pardon--I nearly threw you down, didn't I!
But I am so tired!

She lay supineand straight as an arrowon the sloping
sod of this hill-topgazing up into the blue miles of sky
and still retaining her warm hold of Jude's hand. He reclined
on his elbow near her.

We've run all this way for nothing,she went onher form
heaving and falling in quick pantsher face flushedher full
red lips partedand a fine dew of perspiration on her skin.
Well--why don't you speak, deary?

I'm blown too. It was all up hill.

They were in absolute solitude--the most apparent of all solitudes
that of empty surrounding space. Nobody could be nearer than
a mile to them without their seeing him. They werein fact
on one of the summits of the countyand the distant landscape
around Christminster could be discerned from where they lay.
But Jude did not think of that then.

Oh, I can see such a pretty thing up this tree,said Arabella.
A sort of a--caterpillar, of the most loveliest green and yellow you
ever came across!

Where?said Judesitting up.

You can't see him there--you must come here,said she.

He bent nearer and put his head in front of hers. "No--I can't see it
he said.

Whyon the limb there where it branches off--close to
the moving leaf--there!" She gently pulled him down beside her.

I don't see it,he repeatedthe back of his head against her cheek.
But I can, perhaps, standing up.He stood accordinglyplacing himself
in the direct line of her gaze.

How stupid you are!she said crosslyturning away her face.

I don't care to see it, dear: why should I?he replied looking
down upon her. "Get upAbby."


I want you to let me kiss you. I've been waiting to ever so long!

She rolled round her faceremained a moment looking deedily aslant at him;
then with a slight curl of the lip sprang to her feetand exclaiming abruptly
I must mizzle!walked off quickly homeward. Jude followed and rejoined her.

Just one!he coaxed

Shan't!she said

Hesurprised: "What's the matter?"

She kept her two lips resentfully togetherand Jude followed
her like a pet lamb till she slackened her pace and walked
beside himtalking calmly on indifferent subjectsand always
checking him if he tried to take her hand or clasp her waist.
Thus they descended to the precincts of her father's homestead
and Arabella went innodding good-bye to him with a supercilious
affronted air.

I expect I took too much liberty with her, somehow,Jude said to himself
as he withdrew with a sigh and went on to Marygreen.

On Sunday morning the interior of Arabella's home wasas usualthe scene
of a grand weekly cookingthe preparation of the special Sunday dinner.
Her father was shaving before a little glass hung on the mullion of
the windowand her mother and Arabella herself were shelling beans hard by.
A neighbour passed on her way home from morning service at the nearest church
and seeing Donn engaged at the window with the razornodded and came in.

She at once spoke playfully to Arabella: "I zeed 'ee running
with 'un--hee-hee! I hope 'tis coming to something?"

Arabella merely threw a look of consciousness into her face
without raising her eyes.

He's for Christminster, I hear, as soon as he can get there.

Have you heard that lately--quite lately?asked Arabella with a jealous
tigerish indrawing of breath.

Oh no! But it has been known a long time that it is his plan.
He's on'y waiting here for an opening. Ah well: he must
walk about with somebody, I s'pose. Young men don't mean
much now-a-days. 'Tis a sip here and a sip there with 'em.
'Twas different in my time.

When the gossip had departed Arabella said suddenly to her mother:
I want you and Father to go and inquire how the Edlins be,
this evening after tea. Or no--there's evening service at Fensworth--
you can walk to that.

Oh? What's up to-night, then?

Nothing. Only I want the house to myself. He's shy;
and I can't get un to come in when you are here. I shall let
him slip through my fingers if I don't mind, much as I care
for 'n!

If it is fine we med as well go, since you wish.

In the afternoon Arabella met and walked with Judewho had now for weeks
ceased to look into a book of GreekLatinor any other tongue.
They wandered up the slopes till they reached the green track along the ridge
which they followed to the circular British earth-bank adjoining
Jude thinking of the great age of the trackwayand of the drovers
who had frequented itprobably before the Romans knew the country.
Up from the level lands below them floated the chime of church bells.
Presently they were reduced to one notewhich quickened
and stopped.

Now we'll go back,said Arabellawho had attended to the sounds.

Jude assented. So long as he was near her he minded little where he was.
When they arrived at her house he said lingeringly: "I won't come in.
Why are you in such a hurry to go in to-night? It is not near dark."

Wait a moment,said she. She tried the handle of the door and found
it locked.

Ah--they are gone to church,she added. And searching
behind the scraper she found the key and unlocked the door.
Now, you'll come in a moment?she asked lightly. "We shall be
all alone."

Certainly,said Jude with alacritythe case being unexpectedly altered.

Indoors they went. Did he want any tea? Noit was too late:
he would rather sit and talk to her. She took off her jacket and hat
and they sat down--naturally enough close together.

Don't touch me, please,she said softly. "I am part
egg-shell. Or perhaps I had better put it in a safe place."

She began unfastening the collar of her gown.

What is it?said her lover.

An egg--a cochin's egg. I am hatching a very rare sort.
I carry it about everywhere with me, and it will get hatched
in less than three weeks.

Where do you carry it?

Just here.She put her hand into her bosom and drew out the egg
which was wrapped in wooloutside it being a piece of pig's bladder
in case of accidents. Having exhibited it to him she put it back
Now mind you don't come near me. I don't want to get it broke,
and have to begin another.

Why do you do such a strange thing?

It's an old custom. I suppose it is natural for a woman to want
to bring live things into the world.

It is very awkward for me just now,he saidlaughing.

It serves you right. There--that's all you can have of me

She had turned round her chairandreaching over the back of it
presented her cheek to him gingerly.

That's very shabby of you!

You should have catched me a minute ago when I had put
the egg down! There!she said defiantlyI am without
it now!She had quickly withdrawn the egg a second time;
but before he could quite reach her she had put it back
as quicklylaughing with the excitement of her strategy.
Then there was a little struggleJude making a plunge for it
and capturing it triumphantly. Her face flushed; and becoming
suddenly conscious he flushed also.

They looked at each otherpanting; till he rose and said:
One kiss, now I can do it without damage to property;
and I'll go!

But she had jumped up too. "You must find me first!" she cried.

Her lover followed her as she withdrew. It was now dark inside the room
and the window being small he could not discover for a long time what had
become of hertill a laugh revealed her to have rushed up the stairs
whither Jude rushed at her heels.

IT was some two months later in the yearand the pair had met
constantly during the interval. Arabella seemed dissatisfied;
she was always imaginingand waitingand wondering.

One day she met the itinerant Vilbert. Shelike all
the cottagers thereaboutknew the quack welland she began
telling him of her experiences. Arabella had been gloomy
but before he left her she had grown brighter. That evening
she kept an appointment with Judewho seemed sad.

I am going away,he said to her. "I think I ought to go.
I think it will be better both for you and for me. I wish
some things had never begun! I was much to blameI know.
But it is never too late to mend."

Arabella began to cry. "How do you know it is not too late?"
she said. "That's all very well to say! I haven't told you yet!"
and she looked into his face with streaming eyes.

What?he askedturning pale. "Not ... ?"

Yes! And what shall I do if you desert me?

Oh, Arabella--how can you say that, my dear! You _know_ I
wouldn't desert you!

Well then---

I have next to no wages as yetyou know; or perhaps I should have thought
of this before.... Butof course if that's the casewe must marry!
What other thing do you think I could dream of doing?"

I thought--I thought, deary, perhaps you would go away all the more for that,
and leave me to face it alone!

You knew better! Of course I never dreamt six months ago,
or even three, of marrying. It is a complete smashing up
of my plans--I mean my plans before I knew you, my dear.
But what are they, after all! Dreams about books, and degrees,
and impossible fellowships, and all that. Certainly we'll marry:
we must!

That night he went out aloneand walked in the dark self-communing. He
knew welltoo wellin the secret centre of his brainthat Arabella
was not worth a great deal as a specimen of womankind. Yetsuch being
the custom of the rural districts among honourable young men who had
drifted so far into intimacy with a woman as he unfortunately had done
he was ready to abide by what he had saidand take the consequences.
For his own soothing he kept up a factitious belief in her. His idea
of her was the thing of most consequencenot Arabella herselfhe sometimes
said laconically.

The banns were put in and published the very next Sunday.
The people of the parish all said what a simple fool
young Fawley was. All his reading had only come to this
that he would have to sell his books to buy saucepans.
Those who guessed the probable state of affairsArabella's parents
being among themdeclared that it was the sort of conduct
they would have expected of such an honest young man as Jude
in reparation of the wrong he had done his innocent sweetheart.
The parson who married them seemed to think it satisfactory too.
And sostanding before the aforesaid officiatorthe two swore
that at every other time of their lives till death took them
they would assuredly believefeeland desire precisely
as they had believedfeltand desired during the few
preceding weeks. What was as remarkable as the undertaking
itself was the fact that nobody seemed at all surprised at what
they swore.

Fawley's aunt being a baker she made him a bride-cakesaying
bitterly that it was the last thing she could do for him
poor silly fellow; and that it would have been far better if
instead of his living to trouble herhe had gone underground

years before with his father and mother. Of this cake Arabella
took some sliceswrapped them up in white note-paperand
sent them to her companions in the pork-dressing business
Anny and Sarahlabelling each packet _"In remembrance of good

The prospects of the newly married couple were certainly
not very brilliant even to the most sanguine mind.
Hea stone-mason's apprenticenineteen years of age
was working for half wages till he should be out of his time.
His wife was absolutely useless in a town-lodgingwhere he at
first had considered it would be necessary for them to live.
But the urgent need of adding to income in ever so little a degree
caused him to take a lonely roadside cottage between the Brown House
and Marygreenthat he might have the profits of a vegetable garden
and utilize her past experiences by letting her keep a pig.
But it was not the sort of life he had bargained for
and it was a long way to walk to and from Alfredston
every day. Arabellahoweverfelt that all these make-shifts
were temporary; she had gained a husband; that was the thing--
a husband with a lot of earning power in him for buying her
frocks and hats when he should begin to get frightened a bit
and stick to his tradeand throw aside those stupid books for
practical undertakings.

So to the cottage he took her on the evening of the marriage
giving up his old room at his aunt's--where so much of the hard
labour at Greek and Latin had been carried on.

A little chill overspread him at her first unrobing. A long tail of hair
which Arabella wore twisted up in an enormous knob at the back of her head
was deliberately unfastenedstroked outand hung upon the looking-glass
which he had bought her.

What--it wasn't your own?he saidwith a sudden distaste for her.

Oh no--it never is nowadays with the better class.

Nonsense! Perhaps not in towns. But in the country it is supposed
to be different. Besides, you've enough of your own, surely?

Yes, enough as country notions go. But in town the men expect more,
and when I was barmaid at Aldbrickham----

Barmaid at Aldbrickham?

Well, not exactly barmaid--I used to draw the drink at
a public-house there--just for a little time; that was all.
Some people put me up to getting this, and I bought it just
for a fancy. The more you have the better in Aldbrickham,
which is a finer town than all your Christminsters. Every lady
of position wears false hair--the barber's assistant told
me so.

Jude thought with a feeling of sickness that though this might be true to
some extentfor all that he knewmany unsophisticated girls would and did go
to towns and remain there for years without losing their simplicity of life
and embellishments. Othersalashad an instinct towards artificiality
in their very bloodand became adepts in counterfeiting at the first glimpse
of it. Howeverperhaps there was no great sin in a woman adding to her hair
and he resolved to think no more of it.

A new-made wife can usually manage to excite interest for a few weeks
even though the prospects of the house-hold ways and means are cloudy.

There is a certain piquancy about her situationand her manner to her
acquaintance at the sense of itwhich carries off the gloom of facts
and renders even the humblest bride independent awhile of the real.
Mrs. Jude Fawley was walking in the streets of Alfredston one market-day
with this quality in her carriage when she met Anny her former friend
whom she had not seen since the wedding.

As usual they laughed before talking; the world seemed funny
to them without saying it.

So it turned out a good plan, you see!remarked the girl to the wife.
I knew it would with such as him. He's a dear good fellow, and you ought
to be proud of un.

I am,said Mrs. Fawley quietly.

And when do you expect?

Ssh! Not at all.


I was mistaken.

Oh, Arabella, Arabella; you be a deep one! Mistaken! well, that's clever-it's
a real stroke of genius! It is a thing I never thought o', wi'
all my experience! I never thought beyond bringing about the real thing-not
that one could sham it!

Don't you be too quick to cry sham! 'Twasn't sham.
I didn't know.

My word--won't he be in a taking! He'll give it to 'ee o'
Saturday nights! Whatever it was, he'll say it was a trick-a
double one, by the Lord!

I'll own to the first, but not to the second.... Pooh-he
won't care! He'll be glad I was wrong in what I said.
He'll shake down, bless 'ee--men always do. What can 'em
do otherwise? Married is married.

Nevertheless it was with a little uneasiness that Arabella
approached the time when in the natural course of things she
would have to reveal that the alarm she had raised had been
without foundation. The occasion was one evening at bedtime
and they were in their chamber in the lonely cottage by the
wayside to which Jude walked home from his work every day.
He had worked hard the whole twelve hoursand had retired
to rest before his wife. When she came into the room he was
between sleeping and wakingand was barely conscious of her
undressing before the little looking-glass as he lay.

One action of hershoweverbrought him to full cognition.
Her face being reflected towards him as she sathe could perceive
that she was amusing herself by artificially producing in each
cheek the dimple before alluded toa curious accomplishment
of which she was mistresseffecting it by a momentary suction.
It seemed to him for the first time that the dimples were
far oftener absent from her face during his intercourse
with her nowadays than they had been in the earlier weeks of
their acquaintance.

Don't do that, Arabella!he said suddenly. "There is no harm
in itbut--I don't like to see you."

She turned and laughed. "LordI didn't know you were awake!" she said.
How countrified you are! That's nothing.

Where did you learn it?
Nowhere that I know of. They used to stay without any trouble when I
was at the public-house; but now they won't. My face was fatter then.

I don't care about dimples. I don't think they improve a woman--
particularly a married woman, and of full-sized figure like you.
Most men think otherwise.
I don't care what most men think, if they do. How do you know?
I used to be told so when I was serving in the tap-room.

Ah--that public-house experience accounts for your knowing
about the adulteration of the ale when we went and had some
that Sunday evening. I thought when I married you that you
had always lived in your father's house.

You ought to have known better than that, and seen I was a little
more finished than I could have been by staying where I was born.
There was not much to do at home, and I was eating my head off, so I
went away for three months.

You'll soon have plenty to do now, dear, won't you?
How do you mean?
Why, of course--little things to make.
When will it be? Can't you tell me exactly, instead of in such general

terms as you have used?
Tell you?
Yes--the date.
There's nothing to tell. I made a mistake.
It was a mistake.
He sat bolt upright in bed and looked at her. "How can that be?"
Women fancy wrong things sometimes.
But--! Why, of course, so unprepared as I was, without a stick of furniture,

and hardly a shilling, I shouldn't have hurried on our affair, and brought you
to a half-furnished hut before I was ready, if it had not been for the news
you gave me, which made it necessary to save you, ready or no.... Good God!

Don't take on, dear. What's done can't be undone.
I have no more to say!
He gave the answer simplyand lay down; and there was silence between them.

When Jude awoke the next morning he seemed to see the world
with a different eye. As to the point in question he was
compelled to accept her word; in the circumstances he could
not have acted otherwise while ordinary notions prevailed.
But how came they to prevail?

There seemed to himvaguely and dimlysomething wrong in a social ritual
which made necessary a cancelling of well-formed schemes involving years
of thought and labourof foregoing a man's one opportunity of showing
himself superior to the lower animalsand of contributing his units
of work to the general progress of his generationbecause of a momentary
surprise by a new and transitory instinct which had nothing in it
of the nature of viceand could be only at the most called weakness.
He was inclined to inquire what he had doneor she lostfor that matter
that he deserved to be caught in a gin which would cripple him
if not her alsofor the rest of a lifetime? There was perhaps something
fortunate in the fact that the immediate reason of his marriage had proved
to be non-existent. But the marriage remained.

THE time arrived for killing the pig which Jude and his wife had
fattened in their sty during the autumn monthsand the butchering
was timed to take place as soon as it was light in the morning
so that Jude might get to Alfredston without losing more than
a quarter of a day.

The night had seemed strangely silent. Jude looked out of the window
long before dawnand perceived that the ground was covered with snow-snow
rather deep for the seasonit seemeda few flakes still falling.

I'm afraid the pig-killer won't be able to come,he said to Arabella.

Oh, he'll come. You must get up and make the water hot,
if you want Challow to scald him. Though I like singeing best.

I'll get up,said Jude. "I like the way of my own county."

He went downstairslit the fire under the copperand began
feeding it with bean-stalksall the time without a candle
the blaze flinging a cheerful shine into the room; though for
him the sense of cheerfulness was lessened by thoughts on
the reason of that blaze--to heat water to scald the bristles
from the body of an animal that as yet livedand whose voice
could be continually heard from a corner of the garden.
At half-past sixthe time of appointment with the butcher
the water boiledand Jude's wife came downstairs.

Is Challow come?she asked.


They waitedand it grew lighterwith the dreary light of a snowy dawn.
She went outgazed along the roadand returning saidHe's not coming.
Drunk last night, I expect. The snow is not enough to hinder him, surely!

Then we must put it off. It is only the water boiled for nothing.
The snow may be deep in the valley.

Can't be put off. There's no more victuals for the pig.

He ate the last mixing o' barleymeal yesterday morning.

Yesterday morning? What has he lived on since?


What--he has been starving?

Yes. We always do it the last day or two, to save bother with the innerds.
What ignorance, not to know that!

That accounts for his crying so. Poor creature!

Well--you must do the sticking--there's no help for it.
I'll show you how. Or I'll do it myself--I think I could.
Though as it is such a big pig I had rather Challow had done it.
However, his basket o' knives and things have been already sent
on here, and we can use 'em.

Of course you shan't do it,said Jude. "I'll do itsince it must be done."

He went out to the styshovelled away the snow for the space
of a couple of yards or moreand placed the stool in front
with the knives and ropes at hand. A robin peered down at
the preparations from the nearest treeandnot liking
the sinister look of the sceneflew awaythough hungry.
By this time Arabella had joined her husbandand Juderope in hand
got into the styand noosed the affrighted animalwhobeginning
with a squeak of surpriserose to repeated cries of rage.
Arabella opened the sty-doorand together they hoisted
the victim on to the stoollegs upwardand while Jude held
him Arabella bound him downlooping the cord over his legs
to keep him from struggling.

The animal's note changed its quality. It was not now rage
but the cry of despair; long-drawnslow and hopeless.

Upon my soul I would sooner have gone without the pig than have had this
to do!said Jude. "A creature I have fed with my own hands."

Don't be such a tender-hearted fool! There's the sticking-knife--
the one with the point. Now whatever you do, don't stick un
too deep.

I'll stick him effectually, so as to make short work of it.
That's the chief thing.

You must not!she cried. "The meat must be well bled
and to do that he must die slow. We shall lose a shilling a score
if the meat is red and bloody! Just touch the veinthat's all.
I was brought up to itand I know. Every good butcher keeps
un bleeding long. He ought to be eight or ten minutes dying
at least."

He shall not be half a minute if I can help it, however the meat may look,
said Jude determinedly. Scraping the bristles from the pig's upturned throat
as he had seen the butchers dohe slit the fat; then plunged in the knife
with all his might.

'Od damn it all!she criedthat ever I should say it!
You've over-stuck un! And I telling you all the time----

Do be quiet, Arabella, and have a little pity on the creature!

Hold up the pail to catch the blood, and don't talk!

However unworkmanlike the deedit had been mercifully done. The blood
flowed out in a torrent instead of in the trickling stream she had desired.
The dying animal's cry assumed its third and final tonethe shriek of agony;
his glazing eyes riveting themselves on Arabella with the eloquently keen
reproach of a creature recognizing at last the treachery of those who had
seemed his only friends.

Make un stop that!said Arabella. "Such a noise will bring somebody or
other up hereand I don't want people to know we are doing it ourselves."
Picking up the knife from the ground whereon Jude had flung itshe slipped it
into the gashand slit the windpipe. The pig was instantly silenthis dying
breath coming through the hole

That's better,she said.

It is a hateful business!said he.

Pigs must be killed.

The animal heaved in a final convulsionanddespite the rope
kicked out with all his last strength. A tablespoonful of black clot
came forththe trickling of red blood having ceased for some seconds.

That's it; now he'll go,said she. "Artful creatures-they
always keep back a drop like that as long as they can!"

The last plunge had come so unexpectedly as to make Jude stagger
and in recovering himself he kicked over the vessel in which the blood
had been caught.

There!she criedthoroughly in a passion. "Now I can't make any blackpot.
There's a wasteall through you!"

Jude put the pail uprightbut only about a third of the whole
steaming liquid was left in itthe main part being splashed
over the snowand forming a dismalsordidugly spectacle-to
those who saw it as other than an ordinary obtaining of meat.
The lips and nostrils of the animal turned lividthen white
and the muscles of his limbs relaxed.

Thank God!Jude said. "He's dead."

What's God got to do with such a messy job as a pig-killing, I
should like to know!she said scornfully. "Poor folks must live."

I know, I know,said he. "I don't scold you."

Suddenly they became aware of a voice at hand.

Well done, young married volk! I couldn't have carried it out much
better myself, cuss me if I could!The voicewhich was husky
came from the garden-gateand looking up from the scene of slaughter
they saw the burly form of Mr. Challow leaning over the gate
critically surveying their performance.

'Tis well for 'ee to stand there and glane!said Arabella.
Owing to your being late the meat is blooded and half spoiled!
'Twon't fetch so much by a shilling a score!

Challow expressed his contrition. "You should have waited
a bit" he saidshaking his headand not have done this-in
the delicate state, too, that you be in at present,

ma'am. 'Tis risking yourself too much.

You needn't be concerned about that,said Arabellalaughing.
Jude too laughedbut there was a strong flavour of bitterness
in his amusement.

Challow made up for his neglect of the killing by zeal in the scalding
and scraping. Jude felt dissatisfied with himself as a man at what
he had donethough aware of his lack of common senseand that the deed
would have amounted to the same thing if carried out by deputy.
The white snowstained with the blood of his fellow-mortalwore
an illogical look to him as a lover of justicenot to say a Christian;
but he could not see how the matter was to be mended. No doubt he was
as his wife had called hima tender-hearted fool.

He did not like the road to Alfredston now. It stared him
cynically in the face. The wayside objects reminded him so much
of his courtship of his wife thatto keep them out of his eyes
he read whenever he could as he walked to and from his work.
Yet he sometimes felt that by caring for books he was not escaping
common-place nor gaining rare ideasevery working-man being
of that taste now. When passing near the spot by the stream
on which he had first made her acquaintance he one day
heard voices just as he had done at that earlier time.
One of the girls who had been Arabella's companions was talking
to a friend in a shedhimself being the subject of discourse
possibly because they had seen him in the distance. They were
quite unaware that the shed-walls were so thin that he could hear
their words as he passed.

Howsomever, 'twas I put her up to it! 'Nothing venture nothing have,'
I said. If I hadn't she'd no more have been his mis'ess than I.

'Tis my belief she knew there was nothing the matter when she told him she
was ...

What had Arabella been put up to by this womanso that he should make
her his "mis'ess otherwise wife? The suggestion was horridly unpleasant,
and it rankled in his mind so much that instead of entering his own cottage
when he reached it he flung his basket inside the garden-gate and passed on,
determined to go and see his old aunt and get some supper there.

This made his arrival home rather late. Arabella however,
was busy melting down lard from fat of the deceased pig,
for she had been out on a jaunt all day, and so delayed her work.
Dreading lest what he had heard should lead him to say something
regrettable to her he spoke little. But Arabella was very talkative,
and said among other things that she wanted some money.
Seeing the book sticking out of his pocket she added that he ought
to earn more.

An apprentice's wages are not meant to be enough to keep a wife on
as a rulemy dear."

Then you shouldn't have had one.

Come, Arabella! That's too bad, when you know how it came about.

I'll declare afore Heaven that I thought what I told you was true.
Doctor Vilbert thought so. It was a good job for you that it
wasn't so!

I don't mean that,he said hastily. "I mean before that time.
I know it was not your fault; but those women friends of yours

gave you bad advice. If they hadn'tor you hadn't taken it
we should at this moment have been free from a bond whichnot to
mince mattersgalls both of us devilishly. It may be very sad
but it is true."

Who's been telling you about my friends? What advice?
I insist upon you telling me.

Pooh--I d rather not.

But you shall--you ought to. It is mean of 'ee not to!

Very well.And he hinted gently what had been revealed to him.
But I don't wish to dwell upon it. Let us say no more about it.

Her defensive manner collapsed. "That was nothing she said,
laughing coldly. Every woman has a right to do such as that.
The risk is hers."

I quite deny it, Bella. She might if no lifelong penalty
attached to it for the man, or, in his default, for herself;
if the weakness of the moment could end with the moment,
or even with the year. But when effects stretch so far she
should not go and do that which entraps a man if he is honest,
or herself if he is otherwise.

What ought I to have done?

Given me time.... Why do you fuss yourself about melting down that pig's
fat to-night? Please put it away!

Then I must do it to-morrow morning. It won't keep.

Very well--do.

NEXT morningwhich was Sundayshe resumed operations about ten o'clock;
and the renewed work recalled the conversation which had accompanied it
the night beforeand put her back into the same intractable temper.

That's the story about me in Marygreen, is it--that I entrapped 'ee?
Much of a catch you were, Lord send!As she warmed she saw some of Jude's
dear ancient classics on a table where they ought not to have been laid.
I won't have them books here in the way!she cried petulantly; and seizing
them one by one she began throwing them upon the floor.

Leave my books alone!he said. "You might have thrown them aside
if you had likedbut as to soiling them like thatit is disgusting!"
In the operation of making lard Arabella's hands had become smeared
with the hot greaseand her fingers consequently left very perceptible
imprints on the book-covers. She continued deliberately to toss
the books severally upon the floortill Judeincensed beyond bearing
caught her by the arms to make her leave off. Somehowin going so
he loosened the fastening of her hairand it rolled about her ears.

Let me go!she said.

Promise to leave the books alone.

She hesitated. "Let me go!" she repeated.


After a pause: "I do."

Jude relinquished his holdand she crossed the room to the door
out of which she went with a set faceand into the highway. Here she
began to saunter up and downperversely pulling her hair into a worse
disorder than he had causedand unfastening several buttons of her gown.
It was a fine Sunday morningdryclear and frostyand the bells
of Alfredston Church could be heard on the breeze from the north.
People were going along the roaddressed in their holiday clothes;
they were mainly lovers--such pairs as Jude and Arabella had been
when they sported along the same track some months earlier.
These pedestrians turned to stare at the extraordinary spectacle she
now presentedbonnetlessher dishevelled hair blowing in the wind
her bodice apart her sleeves rolled above her elbows for her workand her
hands reeking with melted fat. One of the passers said in mock terror:
Good Lord deliver us!

See how he's served me!she cried. "Making me work Sunday mornings
when I ought to be going to my churchand tearing my hair off my head
and my gown off my back!"

Jude was exasperatedand went out to drag her in by main force.
Then he suddenly lost his heat. Illuminated with the sense that all
was over between themand that it mattered not what she didor he
her husband stood stillregarding her. Their lives were ruined
he thought; ruined by the fundamental error of their matrimonial union:
that of having based a permanent contract on a temporary feeling which
had no necessary connection with affinities that alone render a lifelong
comradeship tolerable.

Going to ill-use me on principle, as your father ill-used
your mother, and your father's sister ill-used her husband?
she asked. "All you be a queer lot as husbands and wives!"

Jude fixed an arrestedsurprised look on her. But she said
no moreand continued her saunter till she was tired.
He left the spotandafter wandering vaguely a little while
walked in the direction of Marygreen. Here he called upon his
great-auntwhose infirmities daily increased.

Aunt--did my father ill-use my mother, and my aunt her husband?
said Jude abruptlysitting down by the fire.

She raised her ancient eyes under the rim of the by-gone
bonnet that she always wore. "Who's been telling you that?"
she said.

I have heard it spoken of, and want to know all.

You med so well, I s'pose; though your wife--I reckon 'twas she--
must have been a fool to open up that! There isn't much to know after all.
Your father and mother couldn't get on together, and they parted.
It was coming home from Alfredston market, when you were a baby--
on the hill by the Brown House barn--that they had their last difference,
and took leave of one another for the last time. Your mother soon
afterwards died--she drowned herself, in short, and your father went away
with you to South Wessex, and never came here any more.

Jude recalled his father's silence about North Wessex and Jude's mother
never speaking of either till his dying day.

It was the same with your father's sister. Her husband offended her,
and she so disliked living with him afterwards that she went away
to London with her little maid. The Fawleys were not made for wedlock:
it never seemed to sit well upon us. There's sommat in our blood that
won't take kindly to the notion of being bound to do what we do readily
enough if not bound. That's why you ought to have hearkened to me,
and not ha' married.

Where did Father and Mother part--by the Brown House, did you say?

A little further on--where the road to Fenworth branches off,
and the handpost stands. A gibbet once stood there not onconnected
with our history. But let that be.

In the dusk of that evening Jude walked away from his old
aunt's as if to go home. But as soon as he reached the open
down he struck out upon it till he came to a large round pond.
The frost continuedthough it was not particularly sharp
and the larger stars overhead came out slow and flickering.
Jude put one foot on the edge of the iceand then the other:
it cracked under his weight; but this did not deter him.
He ploughed his way inward to the centrethe ice making sharp
noises as he went. When just about the middle he looked
around him and gave a jump. The cracking repeated itself;
but he did not go down. He jumped againbut the cracking
had ceased. Jude went back to the edgeand stepped upon
the ground.

It was curioushe thought. What was he reserved for?
He supposed he was not a sufficiently dignified person for suicide.
Peaceful death abhorred him as a subjectand would not
take him.

What could he do of a lower kind than self-extermination; what was
there less noblemore in keeping with his present degraded position?
He could get drunk. Of course that was it; he had forgotten.
Drinking was the regularstereotyped resource of the despairing worthless.
He began to see now why some men boozed at inns. He struck down the hill
northwards and came to an obscure public-house. On entering and sitting
down the sight of the picture of Samson and Delilah on the wall caused him
to recognize the place as that he had visited with Arabella on that first
Sunday evening of their courtship. He called for liquor and drank briskly
for an hour or more.

Staggering homeward late that nightwith all his sense of depression gone
and his head fairly clear stillhe began to laugh boisterously
and to wonder how Arabella would receive him in his new aspect.
The house was in darkness when he enteredand in his stumbling state
it was some time before he could get a light. Then he found that
though the marks of pig-dressingof fats and scallopswere visible
the materials themselves had been taken away. A line written by his wife
on the inside of an old envelope was pinned to the cotton blower of
the fireplace:


All the next day he remained at homeand sent off the carcase
of the pig to Alfredston. He then cleaned up the premises
locked the doorput the key in a place she would know if she
came backand returned to his masonry at Alfredston.

At night when he again plodded home he found she had not visited the house.
The next day went in the same wayand the next. Then there came a letter
from her.

That she had gone tired of him she frankly admitted. He was such
a slow old coachand she did not care for the sort of life he led.
There was no prospect of his ever bettering himself or her.
She further went on to say that her parents hadas he knew
for some time considered the question of emigrating to Australia
the pig-jobbing business being a poor one nowadays. They had at last
decided to goand she proposed to go with themif he had no objection.
A woman of her sort would have more chance over there than in this
stupid country.

Jude replied that he had not the least objection to her going.
He thought it a wise coursesince she wished to go
and one that might be to the advantage of both. He enclosed
in the packet containing the letter the money that had been
realized by the sale of the pigwith all he had besides
which was not much.

From that day he heard no more of her except indirectly
though her father and his household did not immediately leave
but waited till his goods and other effects had been sold off.
When Jude learnt that there was to be an auction at the house
of the Donns he packed his own household goods into a waggon
and sent them to her at the aforesaid homesteadthat she
might sell them with the restor as many of them as she
should choose.

He then went into lodgings at Alfredstonand saw in a shopwindow
the little handbill announcing the sale of his father-in-law's furniture.
He noted its datewhich came and passed without Jude's going
near the placeor perceiving that the traffic out of Alfredston
by the southern road was materially increased by the auction.
A few days later he entered a dingy broker's shop in the main street
of the townand amid a heterogeneous collection of saucepans
a clothes-horserolling-pinbrass candlestickswing looking-glass
and other things at the back of the shopevidently just brought
in from a salehe perceived a framed photographwhich turned out to
be his own portrait.

It was one which he had had specially taken and framed by a
local man in bird's-eye mapleas a present for Arabella
and had duly given her on their wedding-day. On the back
was still to be readJUDE TO ARABELLA,with the date.
She must have thrown it in with the rest of her property at
the auction.

Oh,said the brokerseeing him look at this and the other
articles in the heapand not perceiving that the portrait
was of himself: "It is a small lot of stuff that was knocked
down to me at a cottage sale out on the road to Marygreen.
The frame is a very useful oneif you take out the likeness.
You shall have it for a shilling."

The utter death of every tender sentiment in his wifeas brought home to him
by this mute and undesigned evidence of her sale of his portrait and gift
was the conclusive little stroke required to demolish all sentiment in him.
He paid the shillingtook the photograph away with himand burnt it
frame and allwhen he reached his lodging.

Two or three days later he heard that Arabella and her parents had departed.
He had sent a message offering to see her for a formal leave-takingbut she
had said that it would be better otherwisesince she was bent on going
which perhaps was true. On the evening following their emigration
when his day's work was donehe came out of doors after supperand strolled

in the starlight along the too familiar road towards the upland whereon
had been experienced the chief emotions of his life. It seemed to be his
own again.

He could not realize himself. On the old track he seemed to be
a boy stillhardly a day older than when he had stood dreaming at
the top of that hillinwardly fired for the first time with ardours
for Christminster and scholarship. "Yet I am a man he said.
I have a wife. MoreI have arrived at the still riper stage
of having disagreed with herdisliked herhad a scuffle with her
and parted from her."

He remembered then that he was standing not far from the spot at which
the parting between his father and his mother was said to have occurred.

A little further on was the summit whence Christminster
or what he had taken for that cityhad seemed to be visible.
A milestonenow as alwaysstood at the roadside hard by.
Jude drew near itand felt rather than read the mileage
to the city. He remembered that once on his way home
he had proudly cut with his keen new chisel an inscription
on the back of that milestoneembodying his aspirations.
It had been done in the first week of his apprenticeship
before he had been diverted from his purposes by an unsuitable woman.
He wondered if the inscription were legible stilland going
to the back of the milestone brushed away the nettles.
By the light of a match he could still discern what he had cut so
enthusiastically so long ago:


J. F.
[with a pointing finger]
The sight of itunimpairedwithin its screen of grass
and nettleslit in his soul a spark of the old fire.
Surely his plan should be to move onward through good and ill-to
avoid morbid sorrow even though he did see uglinesses
in the world? BENE AGERE ET LOETARI--to do good cheerfully-which
he had heard to be the philosophy of one Spinoza
might be his own even now.

He might battle with his evil starand follow out his original intention.

By moving to a spot a little way off he uncovered the horizon
in a north-easterly direction. There actually rose the faint halo
a small dim nebulousnesshardly recognizable save by the eye of faith.
It was enough for him. He would go to Christminster as soon as the term
of his apprenticeship expired.

He returned to his lodgings in a better moodand said his prayers.

Part Second


Save his own soul he hath no star.--SWINBURNE.

Notitiam primosque gradus vicinia fecit;
Tempore crevit amor.--OVID.

THE next noteworthy move in Jude's life was that in which he appeared
gliding steadily onward through a dusky landscape of some three years'
later leafage than had graced his courtship of Arabellaand the
disruption of his coarse conjugal life with her. He was walking towards
Christminster Cityat a point a mile or two to the south-west of it.

He had at last found himself clear of Marygreen and Alfredston:
he was out of his apprenticeshipand with his tools at his back
seemed to be in the way of making a new start--the start to which
barring the interruption involved in his intimacy and married
experience with Arabellahe had been looking forward for about
ten years.

Jude would now have been described as a young man with a forcible
meditativeand earnest rather than handsome cast of countenance.
He was of dark complexionwith dark harmonizing eyes
and he wore a closely trimmed black beard of more advanced growth
than is usual at his age; thiswith his great mass of black
curly hairwas some trouble to him in combing and washing out
the stone-dust that settled on it in the pursuit of his trade.
His capabilities in the latterhaving been acquired in the country
were of an all-round sortincluding monumental stone-cuttinggothic
free-stone work for the restoration of churchesand carving of a
general kind. In London he would probably have become specialized
and have made himself a "moulding mason a foliage sculptor"-perhaps
a "statuary."

He had that afternoon driven in a cart from Alfredston to the village
nearest the city in this directionand was now walking the remaining
four miles rather from choice than from necessityhaving always fancied
himself arriving thus.

The ultimate impulse to come had had a curious origin-one
more nearly related to the emotional side of him than
to the intellectualas is often the case with young men.
One day while in lodgings at Alfredston he had gone to Marygreen
to see his old auntand had observed between the brass
candlesticks on her mantlepiece the photograph of a pretty
girlish facein a broad hat with radiating folds under
the brim like the rays of a halo. He had asked who she was.
His grand-aunt had gruffly replied that she was his cousin
Sue Brideheadof the inimical branch of the family; and on
further questioning the old woman had replied that the girl lived
in Christminsterthough she did not know whereor what she
was doing.

His aunt would not give him the photograph. But it haunted him;
and ultimately formed a quickening ingredient in his latent intent
of following his friend the school master thither.

He now paused at the top of a crooked and gentle declivityand obtained
his first near view of the city. Grey-stoned and dun-roofedit stood
within hail of the Wessex borderand almost with the tip of one small
toe within itat the northernmost point of the crinkled line along
which the leisurely Thames strokes the fields of that ancient kingdom.
The buildings now lay quiet in the sunseta vane here and there on their

many spires and domes giving sparkle to a picture of sober secondary and
tertiary hues.

Reaching the bottom he moved along the level way between
pollard willows growing indistinct in the twilightand soon
confronted the outmost lamps of the town--some of those lamps
which had sent into the sky the gleam and glory that caught
his strained gaze in his days of dreamingso many years ago.
They winked their yellow eyes at him dubiouslyand as if
though they had been awaiting him all these years in disappointment
at his tarryingthey did not much want him now.

He was a species of Dick Whittington whose spirit was touched
to finer issues than a mere material gain. He went along
the outlying streets with the cautious tread of an explorer.
He saw nothing of the real city in the suburbs on this side.
His first want being a lodging he scrutinized carefully such
localities as seemed to offer on inexpensive terms the modest
type of accommodation he demanded; and after inquiry took a room
in a suburb nicknamed "Beersheba though he did not know this
at the time. Here he installed himself, and having had some tea
sallied forth.

It was a windy, whispering, moonless night. To guide himself he opened
under a lamp a map he had brought. The breeze ruffled and fluttered it,
but he could see enough to decide on the direction he should take to reach
the heart of the place.

After many turnings he came up to the first ancient
mediaeval pile that he had encountered. It was a college,
as he could see by the gateway. He entered it, walked round,
and penetrated to dark corners which no lamplight reached.
Close to this college was another; and a little further
on another; and then he began to be encircled as it were
with the breath and sentiment of the venerable city.
When he passed objects out of harmony with its general
expression he allowed his eyes to slip over them as if he did
not see them.

A bell began clanging, and he listened till a hundred-and-one
strokes had sounded. He must have made a mis-take, he thought:
it was meant for a hundred.

When the gates were shut, and he could no longer get into the quadrangles,
he rambled under the walls and doorways, feeling with his fingers
the contours of their mouldings and carving. The minutes passed,
fewer and fewer people were visible, and still he serpentined among
the shadows, for had he not imagined these scenes through ten bygone years,
and what mattered a night's rest for once? High against the black sky
the flash of a lamp would show crocketed pinnacles and indented battlements.
Down obscure alleys, apparently never trodden now by the foot of man,
and whose very existence seemed to be forgotten, there would jut into
the path porticoes, oriels, doorways of enriched and florid middle-age design,
their extinct air being accentuated by the rottenness of the stones.
It seemed impossible that modern thought could house itself in such decrepit
and superseded chambers.

Knowing not a human being here, Jude began to be impressed with the
isolation of his own personality, as with a self-spectre, the sensation
being that of one who walked but could not make himself seen or heard.
He drew his breath pensively, and, seeming thus almost his own ghost,
gave his thoughts to the other ghostly presences with which the nooks
were haunted.

During the interval of preparation for this venture, since his wife
and furniture's uncompromising disappearance into space, he had read
and learnt almost all that could be read and learnt by one in his position,
of the worthies who had spent their youth within these reverend walls,
and whose souls had haunted them in their maturer age. Some of them,
by the accidents of his reading, loomed out in his fancy disproportionately
large by comparison with the rest. The brushings of the wind against
the angles, buttresses, and door-jambs were as the passing of these
only other inhabitants, the tappings of each ivy leaf on its neighbour
were as the mutterings of their mournful souls, the shadows as their
thin shapes in nervous movement, making him comrades in his solitude.
In the gloom it was as if he ran against them without feeling their
bodily frames.

The streets were now deserted, but on account of these things he could
not go in. There were poets abroad, of early date and of late, from the
friend and eulogist of Shakespeare down to him who has recently passed
into silence, and that musical one of the tribe who is still among us.
Speculative philosophers drew along, not always with wrinkled foreheads
and hoary hair as in framed portraits, but pink-faced, slim, and active as
in youth; modern divines sheeted in their surplices, among whom the most real
to Jude Fawley were the founders of the religious school called Tractarian;
the well-known three, the enthusiast, the poet, and the formularist,
the echoes of whose teachings had influenced him even in his obscure home.
A start of aversion appeared in his fancy to move them at sight of those
other sons of the place, the form in the full-bottomed wig, statesman rake,
reasoner and sceptic; the smoothly shaven historian so ironically civil
to Christianity; with others of the same incredulous temper, who knew
each quad as well as the faithful, and took equal freedom in haunting
its cloisters.

He regarded the statesmen in their various types, men of firmer
movement and less dreamy air; the scholar, the speaker, the plodder;
the man whose mind grew with his growth in years, and the man whose
mind contracted with the same.

The scientists and philologists followed on in his mind-sight
in an odd impossible combination, men of meditative faces,
strained foreheads, and weak-eyed as bats with constant research;
then official characters--such men as governor-generals
and lord-lieutenants, in whom he took little interest;
chief-justices and lord chancellors, silent thin-lipped
figures of whom he knew barely the names. A keener regard
attached to the prelates, by reason of his own former hopes.
Of them he had an ample band--some men of heart, others rather
men of head; he who apologized for the Church in Latin;
the saintly author of the Evening Hymn; and near them the great
itinerant preacher, hymn-writer, and zealot, shadowed like Jude
by his matrimonial difficulties.

Jude found himself speaking out loud, holding conversations
with them as it were, like an actor in a melodrama who
apostrophizes the audience on the other side of the footlights;
till he suddenly ceased with a start at his absurdity.
Perhaps those incoherent words of the wanderer were heard
within the walls by some student or thinker over his lamp;
and he may have raised his head, and wondered what voice it was,
and what it betokened. Jude now perceived that, so far
as solid flesh went, he had the whole aged city to himself
with the exception of a belated townsman here and there,
and that he seemed to be catching a cold.

A voice reached him out of the shade; a real and local voice:

You've been a-settin' a long time on that plinth-stoneyoung man.
What med you be up to?"

It came from a policeman who had been observing Jude without
the latter observing him.

Jude went home and to bedafter reading up a little about these men
and their several messages to the world from a book or two that
he had brought with him concerning the sons of the university.
As he drew towards sleep various memorable words of theirs that he had
just been conning seemed spoken by them in muttering utterances;
some audiblesome unintelligible to him. One of the spectres
(who afterwards mourned Christminster as "the home of lost causes
though Jude did not remember this) was now apostrophizing
her thus:

Beautiful city! so venerableso lovelyso unravaged by the fierce
intellectual life of our centuryso serene! ... Her ineffable charm
keeps ever calling us to the true goal of all of usto the ideal
to perfection."

Another voice was that of the Corn Law convertwhose phantom
he had just seen in the quadrangle with a great bell.
Jude thought his soul might have been shaping the historic words
of his master-speech:

Sir, I may be wrong, but my impression is that my duty towards a country
threatened with famine requires that that which has been the ordinary remedy
under all similar circumstances should be resorted to now, namely, that there
should be free access to the food of man from whatever quarter it may come....
Deprive me of office to-morrow, you can never deprive me of the consciousness
that I have exercised the powers committed to me from no corrupt or
interested motives, from no desire to gratify ambition, for no personal gain.

Then the sly author of the immortal Chapter on Christianity:
How shall we excuse the supine inattention of the Pagan
and philosophic world, to those evidences [miracles] which were
presented by Omnipotence? ... The sages of Greece and Rome
turned aside from the awful spectacle, and appeared unconscious
of any alterations in the moral or physical government of
the world.

Then the shade of the poetthe last of the optimists:

How the world is made for each of us!

. . . . . . . . . . .
And each of the Many helps to recruit
The life of the race by a general plan.

Then one of the three enthusiasts he had seen just now
the author of the APOLOGIA:

My argument was ... that absolute certitude as to the truths of natural
theology was the result of an assemblage of concurring and converging
probabilities ... that probabilities which did not reach to logical
certainty might create a mental certitude.

The second of themno polemicmurmured quieter things:

Why should we faintand fear to live alone
Since all aloneso Heaven has will'dwe die?

He likewise heard some phrases spoken by the phantom with the short face
the genial Spectator:

When I look upon the tombs of the great, every motion of envy dies in me;
when I read the epitaphs of the beautiful, every inordinate desire goes out;
when I meet with the grief of parents upon a tombstone, my heart melts
with compassion; when I see the tombs of the parents themselves, I consider
the vanity of grieving for those whom we must quickly follow.

And lastly a gentle-voiced prelate spokeduring whose meek
familiar rhymeendeared to him from earliest childhood
Jude fell asleep:

Teach me to livethat I may dread

The grave as little as my bed.

Teach me to die ...

He did not wake till morning. The ghostly past seemed to have gone
and everything spoke of to-day. He started up in bedthinking he had
overslept himself and then said:

By Jove--I had quite forgotten my sweet-faced cousin, and that she's
here all the time! ... and my old schoolmaster, too.His words
about his schoolmaster hadperhapsless zest in them than his words
concerning his cousin.

NECESSARY meditations on the actualincluding the mean
bread-and-cheese questiondissipated the phantasmal for a while
and compelled Jude to smother high thinkings under immediate needs.
He had to get upand seek for workmanual work; the only kind
deemed by many of its professors to be work at all.

Passing out into the streets on this errand he found that the colleges had
treacherously changed their sympathetic countenances: some were pompous;
some had put on the look of family vaults above ground; something barbaric
loomed in the masonries of all. The spirits of the great men had disappeared.

The numberless architectural pages around him he readnaturallyless as
an artist-critic of their forms than as an artizan and comrade of the dead
handicraftsmen whose muscles had actually executed those forms.
He examined the mouldingsstroked them as one who knew their beginning
said they were difficult or easy in the workinghad taken little or
much timewere trying to the armor convenient to the tool.

What at night had been perfect and ideal was by day the more
or less defective real. Crueltiesinsultshadhe perceived
been inflicted on the aged erections. The condition of several
moved him as he would have been moved by maimed sentient beings.
They were woundedbrokensloughing off their outer shape in
the deadly struggle against yearsweatherand man.

The rottenness of these historical documents reminded him that he was not
after allhastening on to begin the morning practically as he had intended.
He had come to workand to live by workand the morning had nearly gone.
It wasin one senseencouraging to think that in a place of crumbling

stones there must be plenty for one of his trade to do in the business
of renovation. He asked his way to the workyard of the stone-mason whose name
had been given him at Alfredston; and soon heard the familiar sound of the
rubbers and chisels.

The yard was a little centre of regeneration. Herewith keen
edges and smooth curveswere forms in the exact likeness
of those he had seen abraded and time-eaten on the walls.
These were the ideas in modern prose which the lichened
colleges presented in old poetry. Even some of those
antiques might have been called prose when they were new.
They had done nothing but waitand had become poetical.
How easy to the smallest building; how impossible to
most men.

He asked for the foremanand looked round among the new traceries
mullionstransomsshaftspinnaclesand battlements standing on
the bankers half workedor waiting to be removed. They were marked
by precisionmathematical straightnesssmoothnessexactitude:
there in the old walls were the broken lines of the original idea;
jagged curvesdisdain of precisionirregularitydisarray.

For a moment there fell on Jude a true illumination; that here in
the stone yard was a centre of effort as worthy as that dignified
by the name of scholarly study within the noblest of the colleges.
But he lost it under stress of his old idea. He would accept any
employment which might be offered him on the strength of his late
employer's recommendation; but he would accept it as a provisional
thing only. This was his form of the modern vice of unrest.

Moreover he perceived that at best only copyingpatching and imitating went
on here; which he fancied to be owing to some temporary and local cause.
He did not at that time see that mediaevalism was as dead as a fern-leaf in a
lump of coal; that other developments were shaping in the world around him
in which Gothic architecture and its associations had no place. The deadly
animosity of contemporary logic and vision towards so much of what he held in
reverence was not yet revealed to him.

Having failed to obtain work here as yet he went away
and thought again of his cousinwhose presence somewhere at hand
he seemed to feel in wavelets of interestif not of emotion.
How he wished he had that pretty portrait of her!
At last he wrote to his aunt to send it. She did so
with a requesthoweverthat he was not to bring disturbance
into the family by going to see the girl or her relations.
Judea ridiculously affectionate fellowpromised nothing
put the photograph on the mantel-piecekissed it--he did not
know why--and felt more at home. She seemed to look down and
preside over his tea. It was cheering--the one thing uniting
him to the emotions of the living city.

There remained the schoolmaster--probably now a reverend parson.
But he could not possibly hunt up such a respectable man just yet;
so raw and unpolished was his conditionso precarious
were his fortunes. Thus he still remained in loneliness.
Although people moved round him he virtually saw none.
Not as yet having mingled with the active life of the place it
was largely non-existent to him. But the saints and prophets
in the window-tracerythe paintings in the galleriesthe statues
the buststhe gargoylesthe corbel-heads--these seemed to breathe
his atmosphere. Like all new comers to a spot on which the past
is deeply graven he heard that past announcing itself with an
emphasis altogether unsuspected byand even incredible to
the habitual residents.

For many days he haunted the cloisters and quadrangles of the colleges at odd
minutes in passing themsurprised by impish echoes of his own footsteps
smart as the blows of a mallet. The Christminster "sentiment as it
had been called, ate further and further into him; till he probably knew
more about those buildings materially, artistically, and historically,
than any one of their inmates.

It was not till now, when he found himself actually on the spot
of his enthusiasm, that Jude perceived how far away from the object
of that enthusiasm he really was. Only a wall divided him
from those happy young contemporaries of his with whom he shared
a common mental life; men who had nothing to do from morning till
night but to read, mark, learn, and inwardly digest. Only a wall--
but what a wall!

Every day, every hour, as he went in search of labour,
he saw them going and coming also, rubbed shoulders
with them, heard their voices, marked their movements.
The conversation of some of the more thoughtful among them
seemed oftentimes, owing to his long and persistent preparation
for this place, to be peculiarly akin to his own thoughts.
Yet he was as far from them as if he had been at the antipodes.
Of course he was. He was a young workman in a white blouse,
and with stone-dust in the creases of his clothes; and in passing
him they did not even see him, or hear him, rather saw through
him as through a pane of glass at their familiars beyond.
Whatever they were to him, he to them was not on the spot at all;
and yet he had fancied he would be close to their lives by
coming there.

But the future lay ahead after all; and if he could only be so fortunate
as to get into good employment he would put up with the inevitable.
So he thanked God for his health and strength, and took courage.
For the present he was outside the gates of everything, colleges included:
perhaps some day he would be inside. Those palaces of light and leading;
he might some day look down on the world through their panes.

At length he did receive a message from the stone-mason's yard--
that a job was waiting for him. It was his first encouragement,
and he closed with the offer promptly.

He was young and strong, or he never could have executed with such zest
the undertakings to which he now applied himself, since they involved
reading most of the night after working all the day. First he bought
a shaded lamp for four and six-pence, and obtained a good light.
Then he got pens, paper, and such other necessary books as he had been
unable to obtain elsewhere. Then, to the consternation of his landlady,
he shifted all the furniture of his room--a single one for living
and sleeping--rigged up a curtain on a rope across the middle,
to make a double chamber out of one, hung up a thick blind that no-body
should know how he was curtailing the hours of sleep, laid out his books,
and sat down.

Having been deeply encumbered by marrying, getting a cottage,
and buying the furniture which had disappeared in the wake
of his wife, he had never been able to save any money since
the time of those disastrous ventures, and till his wages
began to come in he was obliged to live in the narrowest way.
After buying a book or two he could not even afford himself
a fire; and when the nights reeked with the raw and cold air
from the Meadows he sat over his lamp in a great-coat, hat,
and woollen gloves.

From his window he could perceive the spire of the cathedral,
and the ogee dome under which resounded the great bell of the city.
The tall tower, tall belfry windows, and tall pinnacles of the college
by the bridge he could also get a glimpse of by going to the staircase.
These objects he used as stimulants when his faith in the future
was dim.

Like enthusiasts in general he made no inquiries into details of procedure.
Picking up general notions from casual acquaintance, he never dwelt
upon them. For the present, he said to himself, the one thing necessary
was to get ready by accumulating money and knowledge, and await whatever
chances were afforded to such an one of becoming a son of the University.
For wisdom is a defenceand money is a defence; but the excellency
of knowledge isthat wisdom giveth life to them that have it." His desire
absorbed himand left no part of him to weigh its practicability.

At this time he received a nervously anxious letter from his poor
old aunton the subject which had previously distressed her-a
fear that Jude would not be strong-minded enough to keep
away from his cousin Sue Bridehead and her relations.
Sue's fatherhis aunt believedhad gone back to London
but the girl remained at Christminster. To make her still
more objectionable she was an artist or designer of some
sort in what was called an ecclesiastical warehouse
which was a perfect seed-bed of idolatryand she was no doubt
abandoned to mummeries on that account--if not quite a Papist.
(Miss Drusilla Fawley was of her dateEvangelical.)

As Jude was rather on an intellectual track than a theological
this news of Sue's probable opinions did not much influence him one way
or the otherbut the clue to her whereabouts was decidedly interesting.
With an altogether singular pleasure he walked at his earliest spare
minutes past the shops answering to his great-aunt's description;
and beheld in one of them a young girl sitting behind a desk
who was suspiciously like the original of the portrait.
He ventured to enter on a trivial errandand having made his purchase
lingered on the scene. The shop seemed to be kept entirely by women.
It contained Anglican booksstationerytextsand fancy goods:
little plaster angels on bracketsGothic-framed pictures of saints
ebony crosses that were almost crucifixesprayer-books that were
almost missals. He felt very shy of looking at the girl in the desk;
she was so pretty that he could not believe it possible that she
should belong to him. Then she spoke to one of the two older
women behind the counter; and he recognized in the accents certain
qualities of his own voice; softened and sweetenedbut his own.
What was she doing? He stole a glance round. Before her lay a piece
of zinccut to the shape of a scroll three or four feet long
and coated with a dead-surface paint on one side. Hereon she was
designing or illuminatingin characters of Church textthe single


A sweet, saintly, Christian business, hers!thought he.

Her presence here was now fairly enough explainedher skill
in work of this sort having no doubt been acquired from her
father's occupation as an ecclesiastical worker in metal.
The lettering on which she was engaged was clearly intended to be
fixed up in some chancel to assist devotion.

He came out. It would have been easy to speak to her there and then
but it seemed scarcely honourable towards his aunt to disregard her request
so incontinently. She had used him roughlybut she had brought him up:

and the fact of her being powerless to control him lent a pathetic force
to a wish that would have been inoperative as an argument.

So Jude gave no sign. He would not call upon Sue just yet.
He had other reasons against doing so when he had walked away.
She seemed so dainty beside himself in his rough working-jacket
and dusty trousers that he felt he was as yet unready
to encounter heras he had felt about Mr. Phillotson.
And how possible it was that she had inherited the antipathies
of her familyand would scorn himas far as a Christian could
particularly when he had told her that unpleasant part of his history
which had resulted in his becoming enchained to one of her own
sex whom she would certainly not admire.

Thus he kept watch over herand liked to feel she was there.
The consciousness of her living presence stimulated him.
But she remained more or less an ideal character
about whose form he began to weave curious and fantastic

Between two and three weeks afterwards Jude was engaged with some
more menoutside Crozier College in Old-time Streetin getting
a block of worked freestone from a waggon across the pavement
before hoisting it to the parapet which they were repairing.
Standing in position the head man saidSpaik when he heave!
He-ho!And they heaved.

All of a suddenas he liftedhis cousin stood close to his elbow
pausing a moment on the bend of her foot till the obstructing object
should have been removed. She looked right into his face with liquid
untranslatable eyesthat combinedor seemed to him to combine
keenness with tendernessand mystery with boththeir expression
as well as that of her lipstaking its life from some words just spoken
to a companionand being carried on into his face quite unconsciously.
She no more observed his presence than that of the dust-motes which his
manipulations raised into the sunbeams.

His closeness to her was so suggestive that he trembledand turned
his face away with a shy instinct to prevent her recognizing him
though as she had never once seen him she could not possibly
do so; and might very well never have heard even his name.
He could perceive that though she was a country-girl at bottom
a latter girlhood of some years in Londonand a womanhood here
had taken all rawness out of her.

When she was gone he continued his workreflecting on her.
He had been so caught by her influence that he had taken
no count of her general mould and build. He remembered now
that she was not a large figurethat she was light and slight
of the type dubbed elegant. That was about all he had seen.
There was nothing statuesque in her; all was nervous motion.
She was mobilelivingyet a painter might not have called her
handsome or beautiful. But the much that she was surprised him.
She was quite a long way removed from the rusticity that was his.
How could one of his cross-grainedunfortunatealmost accursed
stockhave contrived to reach this pitch of niceness? London had
done ithe supposed.

From this moment the emotion which had been accumulating in his breast
as the bottled-up effect of solitude and the poetized locality he dwelt in
insensibly began to precipitate itself on this half-visionary form;
and he perceived thatwhatever his obedient wish in a contrary direction
he would soon be unable to resist the desire to make himself known
to her.

He affected to think of her quite in a family waysince there were crushing
reasons why he should not and could not think of her in any other.

The first reason was that he was marriedand it would be wrong.
The second was that they were cousins. It was not well for cousins
to fall in love even when circumstances seemed to favour the passion.
The third: even were he freein a family like his own where marriage
usually meant a tragic sadnessmarriage with a blood-relation would
duplicate the adverse conditionsand a tragic sadness might be
intensified to a tragic horror.

Thereforeagainhe would have to think of Sue with only
a relation's mutual interest in one belonging to him;
regard her in a practical way as some one to be proud of;
to talk and nod to; later onto be invited to tea by
the emotion spent on her being rigorously that of a kinsman
and well-wisher. So would she be to him a kindly star
an elevating powera companion in Anglican worshipa tender

BUT under the various deterrent influences Jude's instinct
was to approach her timidlyand the next Sunday he went
to the morning service in the Cathedral church of Cardinal
College to gain a further view of herfor he had found
that she frequently attended there.

She did not comeand he awaited her in the afternoonwhich was finer.
He knew that if she came at all she would approach the building
along the eastern side of the great green quadrangle from which it
was accessibleand he stood in a corner while the bell was going.
A few minutes before the hour for service she appeared as one of
the figures walking along under the college wallsand at sight of her
he advanced up the side oppositeand followed her into the building
more than ever glad that he had not as yet revealed himself.
To see herand to be himself unseen and unknownwas enough for him
at present.

He lingered awhile in the vestibuleand the service was some way advanced
when he was put into a seat. It was a louringmournfulstill afternoon
when a religion of some sort seems a necessity to ordinary practical men
and not only a luxury of the emotional and leisured classes. In the dim
light and the baffling glare of the clerestory windows he could discern the
opposite worshippers indistinctly onlybut he saw that Sue was among them.
He had not long discovered the exact seat that she occupied when the chanting
of the 119th Psalm in which the choir was engaged reached its second part
IN QUO CORRIGETthe organ changing to a pathetic Gregorian tune as the
singers gave forth:

Wherewithal shall a young man cleanse his way?

It was the very question that was engaging Jude's attention at this moment.
What a wicked worthless fellow he had been to give vent as he had
done to an animal passion for a womanand allow it to lead to such
disastrous consequences; then to think of putting an end to himself;
then to go recklessly and get drunk. The great waves of pedal music
tumbled round the choirandnursed on the supernatural as he had been

it is not wonderful that he could hardly believe that the psalm was not
specially set by some regardful Providence for this moment of his first
entry into the solemn building. And yet it was the ordinary psalm for
the twenty-fourth evening of the month.

The girl for whom he was beginning to nourish an extraordinary
tenderness was at this time ensphered by the same harmonies as those
which floated into his ears; and the thought was a delight to him.
She was probably a frequenter of this placeandsteeped body and soul
in church sentiment as she must be by occupation and habithadno doubt
much in common with him. To an impressionable and lonely young man
the consciousness of having at last found anchorage for his thoughts
which promised to supply both social and spiritual possibilities
was like the dew of Hermonand he remained throughout the service in a
sustaining atmosphere of ecstasy.

Though he was loth to suspect itsome people might have said to him
that the atmosphere blew as distinctly from Cyprus as from Galilee.

Jude waited till she had left her seat and passed under the screen
before he himself moved. She did not look towards himand by
the time he reached the door she was half-way down the broad path.
Being dressed up in his Sunday suit he was inclined to follow
her and reveal himself. But he was not quite ready; andalas
ought he to do so with the kind of feeling that was awakening in him?

For though it had seemed to have an ecclesiastical basis during
the serviceand he had persuaded himself that such was the case
he could not altogether be blind to the real nature of the magnetism.
She was such a stranger that the kinship was affectationand he said
It can't be! I, a man with a wife, must not know her!Still Sue
WAS his own kinand the fact of his having a wifeeven though she
was not in evidence in this hemispheremight be a help in one sense.
It would put all thought of a tender wish on his part out of
Sue's mindand make her intercourse with him free and fearless.
It was with some heartache that he saw how little he cared
for the freedom and fearlessness that would result in her from
such knowledge.

Some little time before the date of this service in the cathedral
the prettyliquid-eyedlight-footed young woman Sue Bridehead
had an afternoon's holidayand leaving the ecclesiastical
establishment in which she not only assisted but lodged
took a walk into the country with a book in her hand.
It was one of those cloudless days which sometimes occur
in Wessex and elsewhere between days of cold and wet
as if intercalated by caprice of the weather-god. She went
along for a mile or two until she came to much higher
ground than that of the city she had left behind her.
The road passed between green fieldsand coming to a stile
Sue paused thereto finish the page she was reading
and then looked back at the towers and domes and pinnacles new
and old.

On the other side of the stilein the footpathshe beheld
a foreigner with black hair and a sallow facesitting on the grass
beside a large square board whereon were fixedas closely as they
could standa number of plaster statuettessome of them bronzed
which he was re-arranging before proceeding with them on his way.
They were in the main reduced copies of ancient marblesand comprised
divinities of a very different character from those the girl was
accustomed to see portrayedamong them being a Venus of standard pattern
a Dianaandof the other sexApolloBacchusand Mars.

Though the figures were many yards away from her the south-west sun
brought them out so brilliantly against the green herbage that she could
discern their contours with luminous distinctness; and being almost
in a line between herself and the church towers of the city they awoke
in her an oddly foreign and contrasting set of ideas by comparison.
The man roseandseeing herpolitely took off his capand cried
I-i-i-mages!in an accent that agreed with his appearance.
In a moment he dexterously lifted upon his knee the great board
with its assembled notabilities divine and humanand raised
it to the top of his headbringing them on to her and resting
the board on the stile. First he offered her his smaller wares--
the busts of kings and queensthen a minstrelthen a winged Cupid.
She shook her head.

How much are these two?she saidtouching with her finger the Venus
and the Apollo--the largest figures on the tray.

He said she should have them for ten shillings.

I cannot afford that,said Sue. She offered considerably less
and to her surprise the image-man drew them from their wire stay
and handed them over the stile. She clasped them as treasures.

When they were paid forand the man had goneshe began to be
concerned as to what she should do with them. They seemed so very
large now that they were in her possessionand so very naked.
Being of a nervous temperament she trembled at her enterprise.
When she handled them the white pipeclay came off on her gloves
and jacket. After carrying them along a little way openly an idea
came to herandpulling some huge burdock leavesparsley
and other rank growths from the hedgeshe wrapped up her burden
as well as she could in theseso that what she carried appeared
to be an enormous armful of green stuff gathered by a zealous lover
of nature.

Well, anything is better than those everlasting church fallals!she said.
But she was still in a trembling stateand seemed almost to wish she had not
bought the figures.

Occasionally peeping inside the leaves to see that Venus's
arm was not brokenshe entered with her heathen load into
the most Christian city in the country by an obscure street
running parallel to the main oneand round a corner to
the side door of the establishment to which she was attached.
Her purchases were taken straight up to her own chamber
and she at once attempted to lock them in a box that was her
very own property; but finding them too cumbersome she wrapped
them in large sheets of brown paperand stood them on the floor
in a corner.

The mistress of the houseMiss Fontoverwas an elderly lady in spectacles
dressed almost like an abbess; a dab at Ritualas become one of her business
and a worshipper at the ceremonial church of St. Silasin the suburb
of Beersheba before-mentionedwhich Jude also had begun to attend.
She was the daughter of a clergyman in reduced circumstances
and at his deathwhich had occurred several years before this date
she boldly avoided penury by taking over a little shop of church
requisites and developing it to its present creditable proportions.
She wore a cross and beads round her neck as her only ornamentand knew
the Christian Year by heart.

She now came to call Sue to teaandfinding that the girl did not respond
for a momententered the room just as the other was hastily putting a string
round each parcel.

Something you have been buying, Miss Bridehead?she asked
regarding the enwrapped objects.

Yes--just something to ornament my room,said Sue.

Well, I should have thought I had put enough here already,
said Miss Fontoverlooking round at the Gothic-framed prints
of saintsthe Church-text scrollsand other articles which
having become too stale to sellhad been used to furnish
this obscure chamber. "What is it? How bulky!" She tore
a little holeabout as big as a waferin the brown paper
and tried to peep in. "Whystatuary? Two figures?
Where did you get them?"

Oh--I bought them of a travelling man who sells casts

Two saints?


What ones?

St. Peter and St.--St. Mary Magdalen.

Well--now come down to tea, and go and finish that organ-text, if there's
light enough afterwards.

These little obstacles to the indulgence of what had been
the merest passing fancy created in Sue a great zest for unpacking
her objects and looking at them; and at bedtimewhen she was sure
of being undisturbedshe unrobed the divinities in comfort.
Placing the pair of figures on the chest of drawers
a candle on each side of themshe withdrew to the bed
flung herself down thereonand began reading a book she
had taken from her boxwhich Miss Fontover knew nothing of.
It was a volume of Gibbonand she read the chapter dealing
with the reign of Julian the Apostate. Occasionally she looked
up at the statuetteswhich appeared strange and out of place
there happening to be a Calvary print hanging between them
andas if the scene suggested the actionshe at length jumped
up and withdrew another book from her box--a volume of verse-and
turned to the familiar poem-

Thou hast conqueredO pale Galilean:
The world has grown grey from thy breath!

which she read to the end. Presently she put out the candlesundressed
and finally extinguished her own light.

She was of an age which usually sleeps soundlyyet to-night
she kept waking upand every time she opened her eyes there
was enough diffused light from the street to show her the white
plaster figuresstanding on the chest of drawers in odd contrast
to their environment of text and martyrand the Gothic-framed
Crucifix-picture that was only discernible now as a Latin cross
the figure thereon being obscured by the shades.

On one of these occasions the church clocks struck some small hour.
It fell upon the ears of another person who sat bending
over his books at a not very distant spot in the same city.
Being Saturday night the morrow was one on which Jude had not

set his alarm-clock to call him at his usually early time
and hence he had stayed upas was his customtwo or three hours
later than he could afford to do on any other day of the week.
Just then he was earnestly reading from his Griesbach's text.
At the very time that Sue was tossing and staring at her figures
the policeman and belated citizens passing along under his window
might have heardif they had stood stillstrange syllables
mumbled with fervour within--words that had for Jude an
indescribable enchantment: inexplicable sounds something
like these:--


Till the sounds rolled with reverent loudnessas a book was heard to close:--


HE was a handy man at his tradean all-round manas artizans
in country-towns are apt to be. In London the man who carves
the boss or knob of leafage declines to cut the fragment of moulding
which merges in that leafageas if it were a degradation to do
the second half of one whole. When there was not much Gothic
moulding for Jude to runor much window-tracery on the bankers
he would go out lettering monuments or tombstonesand take
a pleasure in the change of handiwork.

The next time that he saw her was when he was on a ladder
executing a job of this sort inside one of the churches.
There was a short morning serviceand when the parson entered
Jude came down from his ladderand sat with the half-dozen
people forming the congregationtill the prayer should be ended
and he could resume his tapping. He did not observe till
the service was half over that one of the women was Suewho had
perforce accompanied the elderly Miss Fontover thither.

Jude sat watching her pretty shouldersher easycuriously nonchalant
risings and sittingsand her perfunctory genuflexionsand thought what
a help such an Anglican would have been to him in happier circumstances.
It was not so much his anxiety to get on with his work that made him
go up to it immediately the worshipers began to take their leave:
it was that he dared notin this holy spotconfront the woman
who was beginning to influence him in such an indescribable manner.
Those three enormous reasons why he must not attempt intimate acquaintance
with Sue Brideheadnow that his interest in her had shown itself
to be unmistakably of a sexual kindloomed as stubbornly as ever.
But it was also obvious that man could not live by work alone;
that the particular man Judeat any ratewanted something to love.
Some men would have rushed incontinently to hersnatched the pleasure of easy
friendship which she could hardly refuseand have left the rest to chance.
Not so Jude--at first.

But as the daysand still more particularly the lonely evenings
dragged alonghe found himselfto his moral consternation
to be thinking more of her instead of thinking less of her
and experiencing a fearful bliss in doing what was erratic
informaland unexpected. Surrounded by her influence all day
walking past the spots she frequentedhe was always thinking
of herand was obliged to own to himself that his conscience
was likely to be the loser in this battle.

To be sure she was almost an ideality to him still. Perhaps to know her
would be to cure himself of this unexpected and unauthorized passion.
A voice whispered thatthough he desired to know herhe did not desire
to be cured.

There was not the least doubt that from his own orthodox point
of view the situation was growing immoral. For Sue to be the loved
one of a man who was licensed by the laws of his country to love
Arabella and none other unto his life's endwas a pretty bad second
beginning when the man was bent on such a course as Jude purposed.
This conviction was so real with him that one day when
as was frequenthe was at work in a neighbouring village church alone
he felt it to be his duty to pray against his weakness. But much
as he wished to be an exemplar in these things he could not get on.
It was quite impossiblehe foundto ask to be delivered from
temptation when your heart's desire was to be tempted unto seventy
times seven. So he excused himself. "After all he said,
it is not altogether an EROTOLEPSY that is the matter with me
as at that first time. I can see that she is exceptionally bright;
and it is partly a wish for intellectual sympathyand a craving
for loving-kindness in my solitude." Thus he went on adoring her
fearing to realize that it was human perversity. For whatever
Sue's virtuestalentsor ecclesiastical saturationit was
certain that those items were not at all the cause of his affection
for her.

On an afternoon at this time a young girl entered the stone-mason's yard
with some hesitationandlifting her skirts to avoid draggling them
in the white dustcrossed towards the office.

That's a nice girl,said one of the men known as Uncle Joe.

Who is she?asked another.

I don't know--I've seen her about here and there. Why, yes, she's the
daughter of that clever chap Bridehead who did all the wrought ironwork
at St. Silas' ten years ago, and went away to London afterwards.
I don't know what he's doing now--not much I fancy--as she's come
back here.

Meanwhile the young woman had knocked at the office door and asked
if Mr. Jude Fawley was at work in the yard. It so happened
that Jude had gone out somewhere or other that afternoon
which information she received with a look of disappointment
and went away immediately. When Jude returned they told him
and described herwhereupon he exclaimedWhy--that's my
cousin Sue!

He looked along the street after herbut she was out of sight.
He had no longer any thought of a conscientious avoidance
of herand resolved to call upon her that very evening.
And when he reached his lodging he found a note from her-a
first note--one of those documents whichsimple and commonplace
in themselvesare seen retrospectively to have been pregnant with
impassioned consequences. The very unconsciousness of a looming
drama which is shown in such innocent first epistles from women
to menor VICE VERSAmakes themwhen such a drama follows
and they are read over by the purple or lurid light of it
all the more impressivesolemnand in casesterrible.

Sue's was of the most artless and natural kind. She addressed
him as her dear cousin Jude; said she had only just learnt
by the merest accident that he was living in Christminster

and reproached him with not letting her know. They might have
had such nice times togethershe saidfor she was thrown
much upon herselfand had hardly any congenial friend.
But now there was every probability of her soon going away
so that the chance of companionship would be lost perhaps
for ever.

A cold sweat overspread Jude at the news that she was going away.
That was a contingency he had never thought ofand it spurred
him to write all the more quickly to her. He would meet her that
very eveninghe saidone hour from the time of writingat the cross
in the pavement which marked the spot of the Martyrdoms.

When he had despatched the note by a boy he regretted that in his
hurry he should have suggested to her to meet him out of doors
when he might have said he would call upon her. It wasin fact
the country custom to meet thusand nothing else had occurred to him.
Arabella had been met in the same wayunfortunatelyand it might not
seem respectable to a dear girl like Sue. Howeverit could not be
helped nowand he moved towards the point a few minutes before the hour
under the glimmer of the newly lighted lamps.

The broad street was silentand almost desertedalthough it was not late.
He saw a figure on the other sidewhich turned out to be hersand they both
converged towards the crossmark at the same moment. Before either had reached
it she called out to him:

I am not going to meet you just there, for the first time in my life!
Come further on.

The voicethough positive and silveryhad been tremulous.
They walked on in parallel linesandwaiting her pleasure
Jude watched till she showed signs of closing in
when he did likewisethe place being where the carriers'
carts stood in the daytimethough there was none on the
spot then.

I am sorry that I asked you to meet me, and didn't call,
began Jude with the bashfulness of a lover. "But I thought it
would save time if we were going to walk."

Oh--I don't mind that,she said with the freedom of a friend.
I have really no place to ask anybody in to. What I meant was that
the place you chose was so horrid--I suppose I ought not to say horrid-I
mean gloomy and inauspicious in its associations.... But
isn't it funny to begin like this, when I don't know you yet?
She looked him up and down curiouslythough Jude did not look much
at her.

You seem to know me more than I know you,she added.

Yes--I have seen you now and then.

And you knew who I was, and didn't speak? And now I am going away!

Yes. That's unfortunate. I have hardly any other friend.
I have, indeed, one very old friend here somewhere, but I
don't quite like to call on him just yet. I wonder if you
know anything of him--Mr. Phillotson? A parson somewhere
about the county I think he is.

No--I only know of one Mr. Phillotson. He lives a little way
out in the country, at Lumsdon. He's a village schoolmaster.

Ah! I wonder if he's the same. Surely it is impossible!
Only a schoolmaster still! Do you know his Christian name-is
it Richard?

Yes--it is; I've directed books to him, though I've never seen him.

Then he couldn't do it!

Jude's countenance fellfor how could he succeed in an enterprise
wherein the great Phillotson had failed? He would have had a day
of despair if the news had not arrived during his sweet Sue's presence
but even at this moment he had visions of how Phillotson's failure
in the grand university scheme would depress him when she had gone.

As we are going to take a walk, suppose we go and call upon him?
said Jude suddenly. "It is not late."

She agreedand they went along up a hilland through some prettily
wooded country. Presently the embattled tower and square turret
of the church rose into the skyand then the school-house. They
inquired of a person in the street if Mr. Phillotson was likely
to be at homeand were informed that he was always at home.
A knock brought him to the school-house doorwith a candle in his hand
and a look of inquiry on his facewhich had grown thin and careworn
since Jude last set eyes on him.

That after all these years the meeting with Mr. Phillotson should be of this
homely complexion destroyed at one stroke the halo which had surrounded
the school-master's figure in Jude's imagination ever since their parting.
It created in him at the same time a sympathy with Phillotson as an obviously
much chastened and disappointed man. Jude told him his nameand said
he had come to see him as an old friend who had been kind to him in his
youthful days.

I don't remember you in the least,said the school-master thoughtfully.
You were one of my pupils, you say? Yes, no doubt; but they number so many
thousands by this time of my life, and have naturally changed so much, that I
remember very few except the quite recent ones.

It was out at Marygreen,said Judewishing he had not come.

Yes. I was there a short time. And is this an old pupil, too?

No--that's my cousin.... I wrote to you for some grammars,
if you recollect, and you sent them?

Ah--yes!--I do dimly recall that incident.

It was very kind of you to do it. And it was you who first
started me on that course. On the morning you left Marygreen,
when your goods were on the waggon, you wished me good-bye, and said
your scheme was to be a university man and enter the Church-that
a degree was the necessary hall-mark of one who wanted to do
anything as a theologian or teacher.

I remember I thought all that privately; but I wonder I did not keep
my own counsel. The idea was given up years ago.

I have never forgotten it. It was that which brought me to this
part of the country, and out here to see you to-night.

Come in,said Phillotson. "And your cousintoo."

They entered the parlour of the school-housewhere there was a lamp

with a paper shadewhich threw the light down on three or four books.
Phillotson took it offso that they could see each other better
and the rays fell on the nervous little face and vivacious dark
eyes and hair of Sueon the earnest features of her cousin
and on the schoolmaster's own maturer face and figureshowing him
to be a spare and thoughtful personage of five-and-fortywith a
thin-lippedsomewhat refined moutha slightly stooping habit
and a black frock coatwhich from continued frictions shone
a little at the shoulder-bladesthe middle of the back
and the elbows.

The old friendship was imperceptibly renewedthe schoolmaster
speaking of his experiencesand the cousins of theirs.
He told them that he still thought of the Church sometimes
and that though he could not enter it as he had intended
to do in former years he might enter it as a licentiate.
Meanwhilehe saidhe was comfortable in his present position
though he was in want of a pupil-teacher.

They did not stay to supperSue having to be indoors before
it grew lateand the road was retraced to Christminster.
Though they had talked of nothing more than general subjects
Jude was surprised to find what a revelation of woman
his cousin was to him. She was so vibrant that everything
she did seemed to have its source in feeling. An exciting
thought would make her walk ahead so fast that he could
hardly keep up with her; and her sensitiveness on some
points was such that it might have been misread as vanity.
It was with heart-sickness he perceived thatwhile her sentiments
towards him were those of the frankest friendliness only
he loved her more than before becoming acquainted with her;
and the gloom of the walk home lay not in the night overhead
but in the thought of her departure.

Why must you leave Christminster?he said regretfully.
How can you do otherwise than cling to a city in whose history
such men as Newman, Pusey, Ward, Keble, loom so large!

Yes--they do. Though how large do they loom in the history
of the world? ... What a funny reason for caring to stay!
I should never have thought of it!She laughed.

Well--I must go,she continued. "Miss Fontoverone of the partners
whom I serveis offended with meand I with her; and it is best to go."

How did that happen?

She broke some statuary of mine.

Oh? Wilfully?

Yes. She found it in my room, and though it was my property she threw it
on the floor and stamped on it, because it was not according to her taste,
and ground the arms and the head of one of the figures all to bits with
her heel--a horrid thing!

Too Catholic-Apostolic for her, I suppose? No doubt she called
them popish images and talked of the invocation of saints.

No.... No, she didn't do that. She saw the matter quite differently.

Ah! Then I am surprised!

Yes. It was for quite some other reason that she didn't

like my patron-saints. So I was led to retort upon her;
and the end of it was that I resolved not to stay, but to get
into an occupation in which I shall be more independent.

Why don't you try teaching again? You once did, I heard.

I never thought of resuming it; for I was getting on as an art-designer.

DO let me ask Mr. Phillotson to let you try your hand in his school?
If you like it, and go to a training college, and become a first-class
certificated mistress, you get twice as large an income as any designer or
church artist, and twice as much freedom.

Well--ask him. Now I must go in. Good-bye, dear Jude!
I am so glad we have met at last. We needn't quarrel because our
parents did, need we?

Jude did not like to let her see quite how much he agreed with her
and went his way to the remote street in which he had his lodging.

To keep Sue Bridehead near him was now a desire which operated without
regard of consequencesand the next evening he again set out for Lumsdon
fearing to trust to the persuasive effects of a note only. The school-master
was unprepared for such a proposal.

What I rather wanted was a second year's transfer, as it is called,
he said. "Of course your cousin would dopersonally; but she has had
no experience. Oh--she hashas she? Does she really think of adopting
teaching as a profession?"

Jude said she was disposed to do sohe thoughtand his ingenious
arguments on her natural fitness for assisting Mr. Phillotson
of which Jude knew nothing whateverso influenced the schoolmaster
that he said he would engage herassuring Jude as a friend that
unless his cousin really meant to follow on in the same course
and regarded this step as the first stage of an apprenticeship
of which her training in a normal school would be the second stage
her time would be wasted quitethe salary being merely nominal.

The day after this visit Phillotson received a letter from Jude
containing the information that he had again consulted his cousin
who took more and more warmly to the idea of tuition; and that she
had agreed to come. It did not occur for a moment to the schoolmaster
and recluse that Jude's ardour in promoting the arrangement arose
from any other feelings towards Sue than the instinct of co-operation
common among members of the same family.

THE schoolmaster sat in his homely dwelling attached to the schoolboth being
modern erections; and he looked across the way at the old house in which his
teacher Sue had a lodging. The arrangement had been concluded very quickly.
A pupil-teacher who was to have been transferred to Mr. Phillotson's school
had failed himand Sue had been taken as stop-gap. All such provisional
arrangements as these could only last till the next annual visit of H.M.
Inspectorwhose approval was necessary to make them permanent. Having taught
for some two years in Londonthough she had abandoned that vocation of late
Miss Bridehead was not exactly a noviceand Phillotson thought there would
be no difficulty in retaining her serviceswhich he already wished to do
though she had only been with him three or four weeks. He had found her quite
as bright as Jude had described her; and what master-tradesman does not wish

to keep an apprentice who saves him half his labour?

It was a little over half-past eight o'clock in the morning and he was
waiting to see her cross the road to the schoolwhen he would follow.
At twenty minutes to nine she did crossa light hat tossed on her head;
and he watched her as a curiosity. A new emanationwhich had nothing
to do with her skill as a teacherseemed to surround her this morning.
He went to the school alsoand Sue remained governing her class at
the other end of the roomall day under his eye. She certainly was an
excellent teacher.

It was part of his duty to give her private lessons in the evening
and some article in the Code made it necessary that a respectable
elderly woman should be present at these lessons when the teacher
and the taught were of different sexes. Richard Phillotson thought
of the absurdity of the regulation in this casewhen he was old
enough to be the girl's father; but he faithfully acted up to it;
and sat down with her in a room where Mrs. Hawesthe widow
at whose house Sue lodgedoccupied herself with sewing.
The regulation wasindeednot easy to evadefor there was no other
sitting-room in the dwelling.

Sometimes as she figured--it was arithmetic that they were working at--
she would involuntarily glance up with a little inquiring smile at him
as if she assumed thatbeing the masterhe must perceive all that was
passing in her brainas right or wrong. Phillotson was not really thinking
of the arithmetic at allbut of herin a novel way which somehow seemed
strange to him as preceptor. Perhaps she knew that he was thinking of
her thus.

For a few weeks their work had gone on with a monotony which in
itself was a delight to him. Then it happened that the children
were to be taken to Christminster to see an itinerant exhibition
in the shape of a model of Jerusalemto which schools were
admitted at a penny a head in the interests of education.
They marched along the road two and twoshe beside her
class with her simple cotton sunshadeher little thumb
cocked up against its stem; and Phillotson behind in his
long dangling coathandling his walking-stick genteelly
in the musing mood which had come over him since her arrival.
The afternoon was one of sun and dustand when they entered
the exhibition room few people were present but themselves.
The model of the ancient city stood in the middle of the apartment
and the proprietorwith a fine religious philanthropy written
on his featureswalked round it with a pointer in his hand
showing the young people the various quarters and places known
to them by name from reading their BiblesMount Moriah
the Valley of Jehoshaphatthe City of Zionthe walls and the gates
outside one of which there was a large mound like a tumulus
and on the mound a little white cross. The spothe said
was Calvary.

I think,said Sue to the schoolmasteras she stood with him
a little in the backgroundthat this model, elaborate as it is,
is a very imaginary production. How does anybody know that Jerusalem
was like this in the time of Christ? I am sure this man doesn't.

It is made after the best conjectural maps, based on actual
visits to the city as it now exists.

I fancy we have had enough of Jerusalem,she saidconsidering we are
not descended from the Jews. There was nothing first-rate about the place,
or people, after all--as there was about Athens, Rome, Alexandria, and other
old cities.

But my dear girl, consider what it is to us!

She was silentfor she was easily repressed; and then perceived
behind the group of children clustered round the model a young man
in a white flannel jackethis form being bent so low in his intent
inspection of the Valley of Jehoshaphat that his face was almost
hidden from view by the Mount of Olives. "Look at your cousin Jude
continued the schoolmaster. He doesn't think we have had enough
of Jerusalem!"

Ah--I didn't see him!she cried in her quicklight voice.
Jude--how seriously you are going into it!

Jude started up from his reverieand saw her. "Oh--Sue!" he said
with a glad flush of embarrassment. "These are your school-children
of course! I saw that schools were admitted in the afternoons
and thought you might come; but I got so deeply interested that I
didn't remember where I was. How it carries one backdoesn't it!
I could examine it for hoursbut I have only a few minutesunfortunately;
for I am in the middle of a job out here."

Your cousin is so terribly clever that she criticizes it unmercifully,
said Phillotsonwith good-humoured satire. "She is quite sceptical
as to its correctness."

No, Mr. Phillotson, I am not--altogether! I hate to be what is
called a clever girl--there are too many of that sort now!
answered Sue sensitively. "I only meant--I don't know what I meant--
except that it was what you don't understand!"

I know your meaning,said Jude ardently (although he did not).
And I think you are quite right.

That's a good Jude--I know you believe in me!She impulsively
seized his handand leaving a reproachful look on the schoolmaster
turned away to Judeher voice revealing a tremor which she
herself felt to be absurdly uncalled for by sarcasm so gentle.
She had not the least conception how the hearts of the twain went
out to her at this momentary revelation of feelingand what a
complication she was building up thereby in the futures of both.

The model wore too much of an educational aspect for the children
not to tire of it soonand a little later in the afternoon they
were all marched back to LumsdonJude returning to his work.
He watched the juvenile flock in their clean frocks and pinafores
filing down the street towards the country beside Phillotson and Sue
and a saddissatisfied sense of being out of the scheme of the latters'
lives had possession of him. Phillotson had invited him to walk
out and see them on Friday eveningwhen there would be no lessons
to give to Sueand Jude had eagerly promised to avail himself of
the opportunity.

Meanwhile the scholars and teachers moved homewardsand the next day
on looking on the blackboard in Sue's classPhillotson was surprised
to find upon itskilfully drawn in chalka perspective view of Jerusalem
with every building shown in its place.

I thought you took no interest in the model, and hardly looked at it?
he said.

I hardly did,said shebut I remembered that much of it.

It is more than I had remembered myself.

Her Majesty's school-inspector was at that time paying "surprise-visits"
in this neighbourhood to test the teaching unawares; and two days later
in the middle of the morning lessonsthe latch of the door was softly lifted
and in walked my gentlemanthe king of terrors--to pupil-teachers.

To Mr. Phillotson the surprise was not great; like the lady in the story
he had been played that trick too many times to be unprepared.
But Sue's class was at the further end of the roomand her back was towards
the entrance; the inspector therefore came and stood behind her and watched
her teaching some half-minute before she became aware of his presence.
She turnedand realized that an oft-dreaded moment had come.
The effect upon her timidity was such that she uttered a cry of fright.
Phillotsonwith a strange instinct of solicitude quite beyond his control
was at her side just in time to prevent her falling from faintness.
She soon recovered herselfand laughed; but when the inspector had gone there
was a reactionand she was so white that Phillotson took her into his room
and gave her some brandy to bring her round. She found him holding
her hand.

You ought to have told me,she gasped petulantlythat one of
the inspector's surprise-visits was imminent! Oh, what shall I do!
Now he'll write and tell the managers that I am no good, and I shall
be disgraced for ever!

He won't do that, my dear little girl. You are the best teacher ever I had!

He looked so gently at her that she was movedand regretted that she
had upbraided him. When she was better she went home.

Jude in the meantime had been waiting impatiently for Friday.
On both Wednesday and Thursday he had been so much under
the influence of his desire to see her that he walked
after dark some distance along the road in the direction
of the villageandon returning to his room to read
found himself quite unable to concentrate his mind on the page.
On Fridayas soon as he had got himself up as he thought
Sue would like to see himand made a hasty teahe set out
notwithstanding that the evening was wet. The trees overhead
deepened the gloom of the hourand they dripped sadly upon him
impressing him with forebodings--illogical forebodings;
for though he knew that he loved her he also knew that he could
not be more to her than he was.

On turning the corner and entering the village the first sight
that greeted his eyes was that of two figures under one umbrella
coming out of the vicarage gate. He was too far back for them
to notice himbut he knew in a moment that they were Sue
and Phillotson. The latter was holding the umbrella over her head
and they had evidently been paying a visit to the vicar--
probably on some business connected with the school work.
And as they walked along the wet and deserted lane Jude saw
Phillotson place his arm round the girl's waist; whereupon she
gently removed it; but he replaced it; and she let it remain
looking quickly round her with an air of misgiving. She did
not look absolutely behind herand therefore did not see Jude
who sank into the hedge like one struck with a blight.
There he remained hidden till they had reached Sue's cottage
and she had passed inPhillotson going on to the school
hard by.

Oh, he's too old for her--too old!cried Jude in all the terrible sickness
of hopelesshandicapped love.

He could not interfere. Was he not Arabella's? He was unable
to go on furtherand retraced his steps towards Christminster.
Every tread of his feet seemed to say to him that he must
on no account stand in the schoolmaster's way with Sue.
Phillotson was perhaps twenty years her seniorbut many a happy
marriage had been made in such conditions of age. The ironical
clinch to his sorrow was given by the thought that the intimacy
between his cousin and the schoolmaster had been brought about
entirely by himself.

JUDE'S old and embittered aunt lay unwell at Marygreenand on the following
Sunday he went to see her--a visit which was the result of a victorious
struggle against his inclination to turn aside to the village of Lumsdon
and obtain a miserable interview with his cousinin which the word nearest
his heart could not be spokenand the sight which had tortured him could
not be revealed.

His aunt was now unable to leave her bedand a great part of Jude's
short day was occupied in making arrangements for her comfort.
The little bakery business had been sold to a neighbourand with
the proceeds of this and her savings she was comfortably supplied
with necessaries and morea widow of the same village living
with her and ministering to her wants. It was not till the time had
nearly come for him to leave that he obtained a quiet talk with her
and his words tended insensibly towards his cousin.

Was Sue born here?

She was--in this room. They were living here at that time.
What made 'ee ask that?

Oh--I wanted to know.

Now you've been seeing her!said the harsh old woman.
And what did I tell 'ee?

Well--that I was not to see her.

Have you gossiped with her?


Then don't keep it up. She was brought up by her father
to hate her mother's family; and she'll look with no favour
upon a working chap like you--a townish girl as she's become
by now. I never cared much about her. A pert little thing,
that's what she was too often, with her tight-strained nerves.
Many's the time I've smacked her for her impertinence.
Why, one day when she was walking into the pond with her shoes
and stockings off, and her petticoats pulled above her knees,
afore I could cry out for shame, she said: 'Move on, Aunty!
This is no sight for modest eyes!'

She was a little child then.

She was twelve if a day.

Well--of course. But now she's older she's of a thoughtful,
quivering, tender nature, and as sensitive as--

Jude!cried his auntspringing up in bed. "Don't you be a fool about her!"

No, no, of course not.

Your marrying that woman Arabella was about as bad a thing
as a man could possibly do for himself by trying hard.
But she's gone to the other side of the world, and med never
trouble you again. And there'll be a worse thing if you,
tied and bound as you be, should have a fancy for Sue. If your
cousin is civil to you, take her civility for what it is worth.
But anything more than a relation's good wishes it is stark
madness for 'ee to give her. If she's townish and wanton it
med bring 'ee to ruin.

Don't say anything against her, Aunt! Don't, please!

A relief was afforded to him by the entry of the companion
and nurse of his auntwho must have been listening to
the conversationfor she began a commentary on past years
introducing Sue Bridehead as a character in her recollections.
She described what an odd little maid Sue had been when
a pupil at the village school across the green opposite
before her father went to London--howwhen the vicar arranged
readings and recitationsshe appeared on the platform
the smallest of them allin her little white frock,
and shoes, and pink sash; how she recited "Excelsior
There was a sound of revelry by night and The Raven";
how during the delivery she would knit her little brows and glare
round tragicallyand say to the empty airas if some real
creature stood there-

Ghastly, grim, and ancient Raven, wandering from the Nightly shore,
Tell me what thy lordly name is on the Night's Plutonian shore!

She'd bring up the nasty carrion bird that clear,corroborated the sick
woman reluctantlyas she stood there in her little sash and things,
that you could see un a'most before your very eyes. You too, Jude,
had the same trick as a child of seeming to see things in the air.

The neighbour told also of Sue's accomplishments in other kinds:

She was not exactly a tomboy, you know; but she could do things
that only boys do, as a rule. I've seen her hit in and steer
down the long slide on yonder pond, with her little curls blowing,
one of a file of twenty moving along against the sky like shapes
painted on glass, and up the back slide without stopping.
All boys except herself; and then they'd cheer her, and then
she'd say, 'Don't be saucy, boys,' and suddenly run indoors.
They'd try to coax her out again. But 'a wouldn't come.

These retrospective visions of Sue only made Jude the more miserable
that he was unable to woo herand he left the cottage of his aunt
that day with a heavy heart. He would fain have glanced into the school
to see the room in which Sue's little figure had so glorified itself;
but he checked his desire and went on.

It being Sunday evening some villagers who had known him during
his residence here were standing in a group in their best clothes.
Jude was startled by a salute from one of them:

Ye've got there right enough, then!

Jude showed that he did not understand.

Why, to the seat of l'arning--the 'City of Light' you used
to talk to us about as a little boy! Is it all you expected
of it?

Yes; more!cried Jude.

When I was there once for an hour I didn't see much in it for my part;
auld crumbling buildings, half church, half almshouse, and not much going
on at that.

You are wrong, John; there is more going on than meets the eye of a man
walking through the streets. It is a unique centre of thought and religion-the
intellectual and spiritual granary of this country. All that silence
and absence of goings-on is the stillness of infinite motion--the sleep of
the spinning-top, to borrow the simile of a well-known writer.

Oh, well, it med be all that, or it med not. As I say,
I didn't see nothing of it the hour or two I was there;
so I went in and had a pot o' beer, and a penny loaf,
and a ha'porth o' cheese, and waited till it was time
to come along home. You've j'ined a college by this time,
I suppose?

Ah, no!said Jude. "I am almost as far off that as ever."

How so?

Jude slapped his pocket.

Just what we thought! Such places be not for such as you-only
for them with plenty o' money.

There you are wrong,said Judewith some bitterness.
They are for such ones!

Stillthe remark was sufficient to withdraw Jude's attention
from the imaginative world he had lately inhabitedin which an
abstract figuremore or less himselfwas steeping his mind
in a sublimation of the arts and sciencesand making his calling
and election sure to a seat in the paradise of the learned.
He was set regarding his prospects in a cold northern light.
He had lately felt that he could not quite satisfy himself
in his Greek--in the Greek of the dramatists particularly.
So fatigued was he sometimes after his day's work that
he could not maintain the critical attention necessary
for thorough application. He felt that he wanted a coach-a
friend at his elbow to tell him in a moment what sometimes
would occupy him a weary month in extracting from unanticipative
clumsy books.

It was decidedly necessary to consider facts a little more closely
than he had done of late. What was the goodafter allof using up
his spare hours in a vague labour called "private study" without giving
an outlook on practicabilities?

I ought to have thought of this before,he saidas he journeyed back.
It would have been better never to have embarked in the scheme at all
than to do it without seeing clearly where I am going, or what I am aiming
at.... This hovering outside the walls of the colleges, as if expecting
some arm to be stretched out from them to lift me inside, won't do!
I must get special information.

The next week accordingly he sought it. What at first seemed an opportunity
occurred one afternoon when he saw an elderly gentlemanwho had been
pointed out as the head of a particular collegewalking in the public path
of a parklike enclosure near the spot at which Jude chanced to be sitting.
The gentleman came nearerand Jude looked anxiously at his face.
It seemed benignconsiderateyet rather reserved. On second thoughts
Jude felt that he could not go up and address him; but he was sufficiently
influenced by the incident to think what a wise thing it would be for him
to state his difficulties by letter to some of the best and most judicious of
these old mastersand obtain their advice.

During the next week or two he accordingly placed himself in such positions
about the city as would afford him glimpses of several of the most
distinguished among the provostswardensand other heads of houses;
and from those he ultimately selected five whose physiognomies seemed
to say to him that they were appreciative and far-seeing men.
To these five he addressed lettersbriefly stating his difficulties
and asking their opinion on his stranded situation.

When the letters were posted Jude mentally began to criticize them;
he wished they had not been sent. "It is just one of those intrusive
vulgarpushingapplications which are so common in these days he thought.
Why couldn't I know better than address utter strangers in such a way?
I may be an impostorand idle scampa man with a bad character
for all that they know to the contrary.... Perhaps that's what I am!"

Neverthelesshe found himself clinging to the hope of some reply
as to his one last chance of redemption. He waited day after day
saying that it was perfectly absurd to expectyet expecting.
While he waited he was suddenly stirred by news about Phillotson.
Phillotson was giving up the school near Christminsterfor a larger
one further southin Mid-Wessex. What this meant; how it would
affect his cousin; whetheras seemed possibleit was a practical
move of the schoolmaster's towards a larger incomein view of a
provision for two instead of onehe would not allow himself to say.
And the tender relations between Phillotson and the young girl
of whom Jude was passionately enamoured effectually made it
repugnant to Jude's tastes to apply to Phillotson for advice on his
own scheme.

Meanwhile the academic dignitaries to whom Jude had written vouchsafed
no answerand the young man was thus thrown back entirely on himself
as formerlywith the added gloom of a weakened hope. By indirect
inquiries he soon perceived clearly what he had long uneasily suspected
that to qualify himself for certain open scholarships and exhibitions
was the only brilliant course. But to do this a good deal of coaching
would be necessaryand much natural ability. It was next to impossible
that a man reading on his own systemhowever widely and thoroughly
even over the prolonged period of ten yearsshould be able to compete
with those who had passed their lives under trained teachers and had worked
to ordained lines.

The other coursethat of buying himself inso to speakseemed the only one
really open to men like himthe difficulty being simply of a material kind.
With the help of his information he began to reckon the extent of this
material obstacleand ascertainedto his dismaythatat the rate at which
with the best of fortunehe would be able to save moneyfifteen years must
elapse before he could be in a position to forward testimonials to the head
of a college and advance to a matriculation examination. The undertaking
was hopeless.

He saw what a curious and cunning glamour the neighbourhood of the place
had exercised over him. To get there and live thereto move among

the churches and halls and become imbued with the GENIUS LOCI
had seemed to his dreaming youthas the spot shaped its charms to him
from its halo on the horizonthe obvious and ideal thing to do.
Let me only get there,he had said with the fatuousness of Crusoe
over his big boatand the rest is but a matter of time and energy.
It would have been far better for him in every way if he had never come
within sight and sound of the delusive precinctshad gone to some busy
commercial town with the sole object of making money by his wits
and thence surveyed his plan in true perspective. Wellall that was
clear to him amounted to thisthat the whole scheme had burst up
like an iridescent soap-bubbleunder the touch of a reasoned inquiry.
He looked back at himself along the vista of his past yearsand his thought
was akin to Heine's:

Above the youth's inspired and flashing eyes
I see the motley mocking fool's-cap rise!

Fortunately he had not been allowed to bring his disappointment
into his dear Sue's life by involving her in this collapse.
And the painful details of his awakening to a sense of his
limitations should now be spared her as far as possible.
After allshe had only know a little part of the miserable
struggle in which he had been engaged thus unequippedpoor
and unforeseeing.

He always remembered the appearance of the afternoon on which
he awoke from his dream. Not quite knowing what to do with himself
he went up to an octagonal chamber in the lantern of a singularly
built theatre that was set amidst this quaint and singular city.
It had windows all roundfrom which an outlook over the whole
town and its edifices could be gained. Jude's eyes swept all
the views in successionmeditativelymournfullyyet sturdily.
Those buildings and their associations and privileges were not for him.
From the looming roof of the great libraryinto which he hardly
ever had time to enterhis gaze travelled on to the varied spires
hallsgablesstreetschapelsgardensquadrangleswhich composed
the ensemble of this unrivalled panorama. He saw that his destiny lay
not with thesebut among the manual toilers in the shabby purlieu
which he himself occupiedunrecognized as part of the city at all
by its visitors and panegyristsyet without whose denizens the hard
readers could not read nor the high thinkers live.

He looked over the town into the country beyondto the trees
which screened her whose presence had at first been the support
of his heartand whose loss was now a maddening torture.
But for this blow he might have borne with his fate. With Sue
as companion he could have renounced his ambitions with a smile.
Without her it was inevitable that the reaction from the long
strain to which he had subjected himself should affect
him disastrously. Phillotson had no doubt passed through a similar
intellectual disappointment to that which now enveloped him.
But the schoolmaster had been since blest with the consolation of
sweet Suewhile for him there was no consoler.

Descending to the streetshe went listlessly along till he arrived at an inn
and entered it. Here he drank several glasses of beer in rapid succession
and when he came out it was night. By the light of the flickering
lamps he rambled home to supperand had not long been sitting at table
when his landlady brought up a letter that had just arrived for him.
She laid it down as if impressed with a sense of its possible importance
and on looking at it Jude perceived that it bore the embossed stamp
of one of the colleges whose heads he had addressed. "ONE--at last!"

cried Jude.

The communication was briefand not exactly what he had expected;
though it really was from the master in person. It ran thus:


SIR--I have read your letter with interest; andjudging from your
description of yourself as a working-manI venture to think that you
will have a much better chance of success in life by remaining
in your own sphere and sticking to your trade than by adopting
any other course. Thatthereforeis what I advise you to do.
Yours faithfullyT. TETUPHENAY. To Mr. J. FAWLEYStone-mason."

This terribly sensible advice exasperated Jude. He had known all
that before. He knew it was true. Yet it seemed a hard slap after
ten years of labourand its effect upon him just now was to make him
rise recklessly from the tableandinstead of reading as usual
to go downstairs and into the street. He stood at a bar and tossed
off two or three glassesthen unconsciously sauntered along till
he came to a spot called The Fourways in the middle of the city
gazing abstractedly at the groups of people like one in a trance
tillcoming to himselfhe began talking to the policeman fixed there.

That officer yawnedstretched out his elbowselevated himself
an inch and a half on the balls of his toessmiledand looking
humorously at JudesaidYou've had a wet, young man.

No; I've only begun,he replied cynically.

Whatever his wetnesshis brains were dry enough.
He only heard in part the policeman's further remarks
having fallen into thought on what struggling people like himself
had stood at that crosswaywhom nobody ever thought of now.
It had more history than the oldest college in the city.
It was literally teemingstratifiedwith the shades of
human groupswho had met there for tragedycomedyfarce;
real enactments of the intensest kind. At Fourways men had stood
and talked of Napoleonthe loss of Americathe execution
of King Charlesthe burning of the Martyrsthe Crusades
the Norman Conquestpossibly of the arrival of Caesar.
Here the two sexes had met for lovinghatingcouplingparting;
had waitedhad sufferedfor each other; had triumphed over
each other; cursed each other in jealousyblessed each other
in forgiveness.

He began to see that the town life was a book of humanity infinitely
more palpitatingvariedand compendious than the gown life.
These struggling men and women before him were the reality
of Christminsterthough they knew little of Christ or Minster.
That was one of the humours of things. The floating population
of students and teacherswho did know both in a waywere not
Christminster in a local sense at all.

He looked at his watchandin pursuit of this ideahe went on till
he came to a public hallwhere a promenade concert was in progress.
Jude enteredand found the room full of shop youths and girls
soldiersapprenticesboys of eleven smoking cigarettes
and light women of the more respectable and amateur class.
He had tapped the real Christminster life. A band was playing
and the crowd walked about and jostled each otherand every now and then
a man got upon a platform and sang a comic song.

The spirit of Sue seemed to hover round him and prevent his
flirting and drinking with the frolicsome girls who made advances--
wistful to gain a little joy. At ten o'clock he came away
choosing a circuitous route homeward to pass the gates of
the college whose head had just sent him the note.

The gates were shutandby an impulsehe took from his pocket
the lump of chalk which as a workman he usually carried there
and wrote along the wall:


THE stroke of scorn relieved his mindand the next morning
he laughed at his self-conceit. But the laugh was not a healthy one.
He re-read the letter from the masterand the wisdom in its lines
which had at first exasperated himchilled and depressed him now.
He saw himself as a fool indeed.

Deprived of the objects of both intellect and emotionhe could not proceed
to his work. Whenever he felt reconciled to his fate as a student
there came to disturb his calm his hopeless relations with Sue.
That the one affined soul he had ever met was lost to him through his
marriage returned upon him with cruel persistencytillunable to bear
it longerhe again rushed for distraction to the real Christminster life.
He now sought it out in an obscure and low-ceiled tavern up a court
which was well known to certain worthies of the placeand in brighter
times would have interested him simply by its quaintness. Here he sat more
or less all the dayconvinced that he was at bottom a vicious character
of whom it was hopeless to expect anything.

In the evening the frequenters of the house dropped in one by one
Jude still retaining his seat in the cornerthough his money was all spent
and he had not eaten anything the whole day except a biscuit. He surveyed
his gathering companions with all the equanimity and philosophy of a man
who has been drinking long and slowlyand made friends with several:
to witTinker Taylora decayed church-ironmonger who appeared to have been
of a religious turn in earlier yearsbut was somewhat blasphemous now;
also a red-nosed auctioneer; also two Gothic masons like himself
called Uncle Jim and Uncle Joe. There were presenttoosome clerks
and a gown- and surplice-maker's assistant; two ladies who sported moral
characters of various depths of shadeaccording to their company
nicknamed "Bower o' Bliss" and "Freckles"; some horsey men "in the know"
of betting circles; a travelling actor from the theatreand two
devil-may-care young men who proved to be gownless undergraduates;
they had slipped in by stealth to meet a man about bull-pupsand stayed
to drink and smoke short pipes with the racing gents aforesaidlooking at
their watches every now and then.

The conversation waxed general. Christminster society was criticized
the donsmagistratesand other people in authority being sincerely
pitied for their shortcomingswhile opinions on how they ought to conduct
themselves and their affairs to be properly respectedwere exchanged
in a large-minded and disinterested manner.

Jude Fawleywith the self-conceiteffronteryand APLOMB
of a strong-brained fellow in liquorthrew in his remarks
somewhat peremptorily; and his aims having been what they

were for so many yearseverything the others said turned upon
his tongueby a sort of mechanical crazeto the subject
of scholarship and studythe extent of his own learning
being dwelt upon with an insistence that would have appeared
pitiable to himself in his sane hours.

I don't care a damn,he was sayingfor any provost, warden,
principal, fellow, or cursed master of arts in the university!
What I know is that I'd lick 'em on their own ground if they'd
give me a chance, and show 'em a few things they are not up to yet!

Hear, hear!said the undergraduates from the cornerwhere they
were talking privately about the pups

You always was fond o' books, I've heard,said Tinker Taylor
and I don't doubt what you state. Now with me 'twas different.
I always saw there was more to be learnt outside a book than in;
and I took my steps accordingly, or I shouldn't have been the man
I am.

You aim at the Church, I believe?said Uncle Joe.
If you are such a scholar as to pitch yer hopes so high
as that, why not give us a specimen of your scholarship?
Canst say the Creed in Latin, man? That was how they once put it
to a chap down in my country.

I should think so!said Jude haughtily.

Not he! Like his conceit!screamed one of the ladies.

Just you shut up, Bower o' Bliss!said one of the undergraduates.
Silence!He drank off the spirits in his tumblerrapped with it
on the counterand announcedThe gentleman in the corner is
going to rehearse the Articles of his Belief, in the Latin tongue,
for the edification of the company.

I won't!said Jude.

Yes--have a try!said the surplice-maker.

You can't!said Uncle Joe.

Yes, he can!said Tinker Taylor.

I'll swear I can!said Jude. "Wellcome nowstand me a small Scotch cold
and I'll do it straight off."

That's a fair offer,said the undergraduatethrowing down the money
for the whisky.

The barmaid concocted the mixture with the bearing of a person
compelled to live amongst animals of an inferior species
and the glass was handed across to Judewhohaving drunk
the contentsstood up and began rhetoricallywithout hesitation:


Good! Excellent Latin!cried one of the undergraduates
whohoweverhad not the slightest conception of a single word.

A silence reigned among the rest in the barand the maid stood still
Jude's voice echoing sonorously into the inner parlourwhere the
landlord was dozingand bringing him out to see what was going on.

Jude had declaimed steadily aheadand was continuing:


That's the Nicene,sneered the second undergraduate.
And we wanted the Apostles'!

You didn't say so! And every fool knows, except you, that the Nicene
is the most historic creed!

Let un go on, let un go on!said the auctioneer.

But Jude's mind seemed to grow confused soonand he could not get on.
He put his hand to his foreheadand his face assumed an expression
of pain.

Give him another glass--then he'll fetch up and get through it,
said Tinker Taylor.

Somebody threw down threepencethe glass was handedJude stretched
out his arm for it without lookingand having swallowed the liquor
went on in a moment in a revived voiceraising it as he neared the end
with the manner of a priest leading a congregation:



Well done!said severalenjoying the last wordas being
the first and only one they had recognized.

Then Jude seemed to shake the fumes from his brainas he stared
round upon them.

You pack of fools!he cried. "Which one of you knows whether I
have said it or no? It might have been the Ratcatcher's Daughter
in double Dutch for all that your besotted heads can tell!
See what I have brought myself to--the crew I have come among!"

The landlordwho had already had his license endorsed for harbouring
queer charactersfeared a riotand came outside the counter; but Jude
in his sudden flash of reasonhad turned in disgust and left the scene
the door slamming with a dull thud behind him.

He hastened down the lane and round into the straight
broad streetwhich he followed till it merged in the highway
and all sound of his late companions had been left behind.
Onward he still wentunder the influence of a childlike yearning
for the one being in the world to whom it seemed possible to fly--
an unreasoning desirewhose ill judgement was not apparent
to him now. In the course of an hourwhen it was between
ten and eleven o'clockhe entered the village of Lumsdon
and reaching the cottagesaw that a light was burning in a
downstairs roomwhich he assumedrightly as it happened
to be hers.

Jude stepped close to the walland tapped with his finger on the pane
saying impatientlySue, Sue!

She must have recognized his voicefor the light disappeared from
the apartmentand in a second or two the door was unlocked and opened
and Sue appeared with a candle in her hand.

Is it Jude? Yes, it is! My dear, dear cousin, what's the matter?

Oh, I am--I couldn't help coming, Sue!said hesinking down upon
the doorstep. "I am so wickedSue--my heart is nearly brokenand I could
not bear my life as it was! So I have been drinkingand blaspheming
or next door to itand saying holy things in disreputable quarters--
repeating in idle bravado words which ought never to be uttered
but reverently! Ohdo anything with meSue--kill me--I don't care!
Only don't hate me and despise me like all the rest of the world!"

You are ill, poor dear! No, I won't despise you; of course I
won't! Come in and rest, and let me see what I can do for you.
Now lean on me, and don't mind.With one hand holding
the candle and the other supporting himshe led him indoors
and placed him in the only easy chair the meagrely furnished
house affordedstretching his feet upon anotherand pulling
off his boots. Judenow getting towards his sober senses
could only sayDear, dear Sue!in a voice broken by grief
and contrition.

She asked him if he wanted anything to eatbut he shook his head.
Then telling him to go to sleepand that she would come down early
in the morning and get him some breakfastshe bade him good-night
and ascended the stairs.

Almost immediately he fell into a heavy slumberand did not wake till dawn.
At first he did not know where he wasbut by degrees his situation
cleared to himand he beheld it in all the ghastliness of a right mind.
She knew the worst of him--the very worst. How could he face her now?
She would soon be coming down to see about breakfastas she had said
and there would he be in all his shame confronting her. He could not
bear the thoughtand softly drawing on his bootsand taking his hat
from the nail on which she had hung ithe slipped noiselessly out of
the house.

His fixed idea was to get away to some obscure spot and hide
and perhaps pray; and the only spot which occurred to him
was Marygreen. He called at his lodging in Christminster
where he found awaiting him a note of dismissal from his employer;
and having packed up he turned his back upon the city that had
been such a thorn in his sideand struck southward into Wessex.
He had no money left in his pockethis small savings
deposited at one of the banks in Christminsterhaving fortunately
been left untouched. To get to Marygreenthereforehis only
course was walking; and the distance being nearly twenty miles
he had ample time to complete on the way the sobering process begun
in him.

At some hour of the evening he reached Alfredston. Here he pawned
his waistcoatand having gone out of the town a mile or two
slept under a rick that night. At dawn he roseshook off
the hayseeds and stems from his clothesand started again
breasting the long white road up the hill to the downs
which had been visible to him a long way offand passing
the milestone at the topwhereon he had carved his hopes
years ago.

He reached the ancient hamlet while the people were at breakfast.
Weary and mud-bespatteredbut quite possessed of his ordinary
clearness of brainhe sat down by the wellthinking as he did

so what a poor Christ he made. Seeing a trough of water near
he bathed his faceand went on to the cottage of his great-aunt
whom he found breakfasting in bedattended by the woman who lived
with her.

What--out o' work?asked his relativeregarding him through
eyes sunken deepunder lids heavy as pot-coversno other cause
for his tumbled appearance suggesting itself to one whose whole
life had been a struggle with material things.

Yes,said Jude heavily. "I think I must have a little rest."

Refreshed by some breakfasthe went up to his old room and lay
down in his shirt-sleevesafter the manner of the artizan.
He fell asleep for a short whileand when he awoke it
was as if he had awakened in hell. It WAS hell--"the hell
of conscious failure both in ambition and in love.
He thought of that previous abyss into which he had fallen
before leaving this part of the country; the deepest deep
he had supposed it then; but it was not so deep as this.
That had been the breaking in of the outer bulwarks of his hope:
this was of his second line.

If he had been a woman he must have screamed under the nervous
tension which he was now undergoing. But that relief being
denied to his virility, he clenched his teeth in misery,
bringing lines about his mouth like those in the Laocoon,
and corrugations between his brows.

A mournful wind blew through the trees, and sounded in the chimney
like the pedal notes of an organ. Each ivy leaf overgrowing
the wall of the churchless church-yard hard by, now abandoned,
pecked its neighbour smartly, and the vane on the new Victorian-Gothic
church in the new spot had already begun to creak. Yet apparently
it was not always the outdoor wind that made the deep murmurs;
it was a voice. He guessed its origin in a moment or two;
the curate was praying with his aunt in the adjoining room.
He remembered her speaking of him. Presently the sounds ceased,
and a step seemed to cross the landing. Jude sat up,
and shouted Hoi!"

The step made for his doorwhich was openand a man looked in.
It was a young clergyman.

I think you are Mr. Highridge,said Jude. "My aunt has
mentioned you more than once. Wellhere I amjust come home;
a fellow gone to the bad; though I had the best intentions
in the world at one time. Now I am melancholy madwhat with
drinking and one thing and another."

Slowly Jude unfolded to the curate his late plans and movements
by an unconscious bias dwelling less upon the intellectual
and ambitious side of his dreamand more upon the theological
though this hadup till nowbeen merely a portion of the general
plan of advancement.

Now I know I have been a fool, and that folly is with me,
added Jude in conclusion. "And I don't regret the collapse of my
university hopes one jot. I wouldn't begin again if I were sure
to succeed. I don't care for social success any more at all.
But I do feel I should like to do some good thing; and I bitterly
regret the Churchand the loss of my chance of being her
ordained minister."

The curatewho was a new man to this neighbourhood
had grown deeply interestedand at last he said: "If you
feel a real call to the ministryand I won't say from your
conversation that you do notfor it is that of a thoughtful
and educated manyou might enter the Church as a licentiate.
Only you must make up your mind to avoid strong drink."

I could avoid that easily enough, if I had any kind of hope to support me!

Part Third


For there was no other girl, O bridegroom, like her!--SAPPHO (H.T. Wharton).

IT was a new idea--the ecclesiastical and altruistic life
as distinct from the intellectual and emulative life.
A man could preach and do good to his fellow-creatures
without taking double-firsts in the schools of Christminster
or having anything but ordinary knowledge. The old fancy
which had led on to the culminating vision of the bishopric
had not been an ethical or theological enthusiasm at all
but a mundane ambition masquerading in a surplice.
He feared that his whole scheme had degenerated toeven though
it might not have originated ina social unrest which had no
foundation in the nobler instincts; which was purely an artificial
product of civilization. There were thousands of young
men on the same self-seeking track at the present moment.
The sensual hind who atedrankand lived carelessly with his
wife through the days of his vanity was a more likable being
than he.

But to enter the Church in such an unscholarly way that he could not
in any probability rise to a higher grade through all his career than
that of the humble curate wearing his life out in an obscure village
or city slum--that might have a touch of goodness and greatness in it;
that might be true religionand a purgatorial course worthy of being
followed by a remorseful man.

The favourable light in which this new thought showed itself by contrast
with his foregone intentions cheered Judeas he sat thereshabby and lonely;
and it may be said to have givenduring the next few daysthe COUP DE GRACE
to his intellectual career--a career which had extended over the greater
part of a dozen years. He did nothinghoweverfor some long stagnant
time to advance his new desireoccupying himself with little local jobs
in putting up and lettering headstones about the neighbouring villages
and submitting to be regarded as a social failurea returned purchase
by the half-dozen or so of farmers and other country-people who condescended
to nod to him.

The human interest of the new intention--and a human interest
is indispensable to the most spiritual and self-sacrificing-was
created by a letter from Suebearing a fresh postmark.

She evidently wrote with anxietyand told very little
about her own doingsmore than that she had passed some sort
of examination for a Queen's Scholarshipand was going
to enter a training college at Melchester to complete herself
for the vocation she had chosenpartly by his influence.
There was a theological college at Melchester; Melchester was a quiet
and soothing placealmost entirely ecclesiastical in its tone;
a spot where worldly learning and intellectual smartness had
no establishment; where the altruistic feeling that he did
possess would perhaps be more highly estimated than a brilliancy
which he did not.

As it would be necessary that he should continue for a time to work at his
trade while reading up Divinitywhich he had neglected at Christminster
for the ordinary classical grindwhat better course for him than to get
employment at the further cityand pursue this plan of reading?
That his excessive human interest in the new place was entirely of
Sue's makingwhile at the same time Sue was to be regarded even less
than formerly as proper to create ithad an ethical contradictoriness
to which he was not blind. But that much he conceded to human frailty
and hoped to learn to love her only as a friend and kinswoman.

He considered that he might so mark out his coming years as to begin
his ministry at the age of thirty--an age which much attracted him
as being that of his exemplar when he first began to teach in Galilee.
This would allow him plenty of time for deliberate studyand for acquiring
capital by his trade to help his aftercourse of keeping the necessary terms
at a theological college.

Christmas had come and passedand Sue had gone to the Melchester
Normal School. The time was just the worst in the year for Jude to get
into new employmentand he had written suggesting to her that he should
postpone his arrival for a month or sotill the days had lengthened.
She had acquiesced so readily that he wished he had not proposed it--
she evidently did not much care about himthough she had never once
reproached him for his strange conduct in coming to her that night
and his silent disappearance. Neither had she ever said a word about her
relations with Mr. Phillotson.

Suddenlyhoweverquite a passionate letter arrived from Sue. She was
quite lonely and miserableshe told him. She hated the place she was in;
it was worse than the ecclesiastical designer's; worse than anywhere.
She felt utterly friendless; could he come immediately?--though when he did
come she would only be able to see him at limited timesthe rules
of the establishment she found herself in being strict to a degree.
It was Mr. Phillotson who had advised her to come thereand she wished she
had never listened to him.

Phillotson's suit was not exactly prosperingevidently; and Jude felt
unreasonably glad. He packed up his things and went to Melchester
with a lighter heart than he had known for months.

This being the turning over a new leaf he duly looked about
for a temperance hoteland found a little establishment
of that description in the street leading from the station.
When he had had something to eat he walked out into the dull winter
light over the town bridgeand turned the corner towards the Close.
The day was foggyand standing under the walls of the most
graceful architectural pile in England he paused and looked up.
The lofty building was visible as far as the roofridge;
abovethe dwindling spire rose more and more remotelytill its
apex was quite lost in the mist drifting across it.

The lamps now began to be lightedand turning to the west front
he walked round. He took it as a good omen that numerous blocks
of stone were lying aboutwhich signified that the cathedral
was undergoing restoration or repair to a considerable extent.
It seemed to himfull of the superstitions of his beliefs
that this was an exercise of forethought on the part of a ruling Power
that he might find plenty to do in the art he practised while waiting
for a call to higher labours.

Then a wave of warmth came over him as he thought how near he now
stood to the bright-eyed vivacious girl with the broad forehead
and pile of dark hair above it; the girl with the kindling glance
daringly soft at times--something like that of the girls he had seen
in engravings from paintings of the Spanish school. She was here--
actually in this Close--in one of the houses confronting this very
west facade.

He went down the broad gravel path towards the building.
It was an ancient edifice of the fifteenth centuryonce a palace
now a training-schoolwith mullioned and transomed windows
and a courtyard in front shut in from the road by a wall.
Jude opened the gate and went up to the door through which
on inquiring for his cousinhe was gingerly admitted to a
waiting-roomand in a few minutes she came.

Though she had been here such a short whileshe was not
as he had seen her last. All her bounding manner was gone;
her curves of motion had become subdued lines. The screens
and subtleties of convention had likewise disappeared.
Yet neither was she quite the woman who had written the letter
that summoned him. That had plainly been dashed off
in an impulse which second thoughts had somewhat regretted;
thoughts that were possibly of his recent self-disgrace. Jude
was quite overcome with emotion.

You don't--think me a demoralized wretch--for coming to you as I was--
and going so shamefully, Sue?

Oh, I have tried not to! You said enough to let me know what had caused it.
I hope I shall never have any doubt of your worthiness, my poor Jude! And I
am glad you have come!

She wore a murrey-coloured gown with a little lace collar.
It was made quite plainand hung about her slight figure with
clinging gracefulness. Her hairwhich formerly she had worn
according to the custom of the day was now twisted up tightly
and she had altogether the air of a woman clipped and pruned
by severe disciplinean under-brightness shining through
from the depths which that discipline had not yet been able
to reach.

She had come forward prettilybut Jude felt that she had
hardly expected him to kiss heras he was burning to do
under other colours than those of cousinship. He could not
perceive the least sign that Sue regarded him as a lover
or ever would do sonow that she knew the worst of him
even if he had the right to behave as one; and this helped on
his growing resolve to tell her of his matrimonial entanglement
which he had put off doing from time to time in sheer dread of
losing the bliss of her company.

Sue came out into the town with himand they walked and
talked with tongues centred only on the passing moments.
Jude said he would like to buy her a little present of some sort

and then she confessedwith something of shamethat she was
dreadfully hungry. They were kept on very short allowances
in the collegeand a dinnerteaand supper all in one was
the present she most desired in the world. Jude thereupon
took her to an inn and ordered whatever the house afforded
which was not much. The placehowevergave them a delightful
opportunity for a TETE-A-TETEnobody else being in the room
and they talked freely.

She told him about the school as it was at that dateand the rough living
and the mixed character of her fellow-studentsgathered together from all
parts of the dioceseand how she had to get up and work by gas-light in
the early morningwith all the bitterness of a young person to whom restraint
was new. To all this he listened; but it was not what he wanted especially
to know--her relations with Phillotson. That was what she did not tell.
When they had sat and eatenJude impulsively placed his hand upon hers;
she looked up and smiledand took his quite freely into her own little
soft onedividing his fingers and coolly examining themas if they were the
fingers of a glove she was purchasing.

Your hands are rather rough, Jude, aren't they?she said.

Yes. So would yours be if they held a mallet and chisel all day.

I don't dislike it, you know. I think it is noble to see a man's
hands subdued to what he works in.... Well, I'm rather glad I came
to this training-school, after all. See how independent I shall be
after the two years' training! I shall pass pretty high, I expect,
and Mr. Phillotson will use his influence to get me a big school.

She had touched the subject at last. "I had a suspicion
a fear said Jude, that he--cared about you rather warmly
and perhaps wanted to marry you."

Now don't be such a silly boy!

He has said something about it, I expect.

If he had, what would it matter? An old man like him!

Oh, come, Sue; he's not so very old. And I know what I saw him doing

Not kissing me--that I'm certain!"

No. But putting his arm round your waist.

Ah--I remember. But I didn't know he was going to.

You are wriggling out if it, Sue, and it isn't quite kind!

Her ever-sensitive lip began to quiverand her eye to blink
at something this reproof was deciding her to say.

I know you'll be angry if I tell you everything, and that's why
I don't want to!

Very well, then, dear,he said soothingly. "I have no real
right to ask youand I don't wish to know."

I shall tell you!said shewith the perverseness that was part of her.
This is what I have done: I have promised--I have promised--that I
will marry him when I come out of the training-school two years hence,
and have got my certificate; his plan being that we shall then take
a large double school in a great town--he the boys' and I the girls'-

as married school-teachers often do, and make a good income between us.

Oh, Sue! ... But of course it is right--you couldn't have done better!

He glanced at her and their eyes metthe reproach in his own
belying his words. Then he drew his hand quite away from hers
and turned his face in estrangement from her to the window.
Sue regarded him passively without moving.

I knew you would be angry!she said with an air of no emotion whatever.
Very well--I am wrong, I suppose! I ought not to have let you come
to see me! We had better not meet again; and we'll only correspond at
long intervals, on purely business matters!

This was just the one thing he would not be able to bear
as she probably knewand it brought him round at once.
Oh yes, we will,he said quickly. "Your being engaged can make
no difference to me whatever. I have a perfect right to see you
when I want to; and I shall!"

Then don't let us talk of it any more. It is quite spoiling
our evening together. What does it matter about what one
is going to do two years hence!

She was something of a riddle to himand he let the subject drift away.
Shall we go and sit in the cathedral?he askedwhen their meal
was finished.

Cathedral? Yes. Though I think I'd rather sit in the railway station,
she answereda remnant of vexation still in her voice. "That's the centre
of the town life now. The cathedral has had its day!"

How modern you are!

So would you be if you had lived so much in the Middle Ages as I have done
these last few years! The cathedral was a very good place four or five
centuries ago; but it is played out now ... I am not modern, either. I am
more ancient than mediaevalism, if you only knew.

Jude looked distressed.

There--I won't say any more of that!she cried. "Only you
don't know how bad I amfrom your point of viewor you wouldn't
think so much of meor care whether I was engaged or not.
Now there's just time for us to walk round the Closethen I must
go inor I shall be locked out for the night."

He took her to the gate and they parted. Jude had a conviction
that his unhappy visit to her on that sad night had precipitated this
marriage engagementand it did anything but add to his happiness.
Her reproach had taken that shapethenand not the shape
of words. Howevernext day he set about seeking employment
which it was not so easy to get as at Christminsterthere being
as a ruleless stone-cutting in progress in this quiet city
and hands being mostly permanent. But he edged himself in by degrees.
His first work was some carving at the cemetery on the hill;
and ultimately he became engaged on the labour he most desired--
the cathedral repairswhich were very extensivethe whole interior
stonework having been overhauledto be largely replaced by new.
It might be a labour of years to get it all doneand he had
confidence enough in his own skill with the mallet and chisel
to feel that it would be a matter of choice with himself how long
he would stay.

The lodgings he took near the Close Gate would not have
disgraced a curatethe rent representing a higher percentage
on his wages than mechanics of any sort usually care to pay.
His combined bed and sitting-room was furnished with framed
photographs of the rectories and deaneries at which his landlady
had lived as trusted servant in her timeand the parlour
downstairs bore a clock on the mantelpiece inscribed to
the effect that it was presented to the same serious-minded
woman by her fellow-servants on the occasion of her marriage.
Jude added to the furniture of his room by unpacking photographs
of the ecclesiastical carvings and monuments that he had executed
with his own hands; and he was deemed a satisfactory acquisition
as tenant of the vacant apartment.

He found an ample supply of theological books in the city
book-shopsand with these his studies were recommenced
in a different spirit and direction from his former course.
As a relaxation from the Fathersand such stock works as Paley
and Butlerhe read NewmanPuseyand many other modern lights.
He hired a harmoniumset it up in his lodgingand practised
chants thereonsingle and double.

TO-MORROW is our grand day, you know. Where shall we go?

I have leave from three till nine. Wherever we can get to and come
back from in that time. Not ruins, Jude--I don't care for them.

Well--Wardour Castle. And then we can do Fonthill if we like-all
in the same afternoon.

Wardour is Gothic ruins--and I hate Gothic!

No. Quite otherwise. It is a classic building--Corinthian, I think;
with a lot of pictures.

Ah--that will do. I like the sound of Corinthian. We'll go.

Their conversation had run thus some few weeks laterand next
morning they prepared to start. Every detail of the outing
was a facet reflecting a sparkle to Judeand he did not venture
to meditate on the life of inconsistency he was leading.
His Sue's conduct was one lovely conundrum to him; he could say
no more.

There duly came the charm of calling at the college door for her;
her emergence in a nunlike simplicity of costume that was rather
enforced than desired; the traipsing along to the station
the porters' "B'your leave! the screaming of the trains-everything
formed the basis of a beautiful crystallization.
Nobody stared at Sue, because she was so plainly dressed,
which comforted Jude in the thought that only himself knew
the charms those habiliments subdued. A matter of ten pounds
spent in a drapery-shop, which had no connection with her real
life or her real self, would have set all Melchester staring.
The guard of the train thought they were lovers, and put them into a
compartment all by themselves.

That's a good intention wasted!" said she.

Jude did not respond. He thought the remark unnecessarily cruel

and partly untrue.

They reached the park and castle and wandered through the picture-galleries
Jude stopping by preference in front of the devotional pictures by Del Sarto
Guido ReniSpagnolettoSassoferratoCarlo Dolciand others. Sue paused
patiently beside himand stole critical looks into his face asregarding
the VirginsHoly Familiesand Saintsit grew reverent and abstracted.
When she had thoroughly estimated him at thisshe would move on and wait
for him before a Lely or Reynolds. It was evident that her cousin deeply
interested heras one might be interested in a man puzzling out his way along
a labyrinth from which one had one's self escaped.

When they came out a long time still remained to them and Jude
proposed that as soon as they had had something to eat they should
walk across the high country to the north of their present position
and intercept the train of another railway leading back to Melchester
at a station about seven miles off. Suewho was inclined for any
adventure that would intensify the sense of her day's freedom
readily agreed; and away they wentleaving the adjoining station
behind them.

It was indeed open countrywide and high. They talked and bounded on
Jude cutting from a little covert a long walking-stick for Sue as tall
as herselfwith a great crookwhich made her look like a shepherdess.
About half-way on their journey they crossed a main road running
due east and west--the old road from London to Land's End.
They pausedand looked up and down it for a momentand remarked upon
the desolation which had come over this once lively thoroughfare
while the wind dipped to earth and scooped straws and hay-stems from
the ground.

They crossed the road and passed onbut during the next half-mile
Sue seemed to grow tiredand Jude began to be distressed for her.
They had walked a good distance altogetherand if they could not reach
the other station it would be rather awkward. For a long time there
was no cottage visible on the wide expanse of down and turnip-land;
but presently they came to a sheepfoldand next to the shepherd
pitching hurdles. He told them that the only house near was his mother's
and hispointing to a little dip ahead from which a faint blue smoke arose
and recommended them to go on and rest there.

This they didand entered the houseadmitted by an old woman without
a single toothto whom they were as civil as strangers can be when their
only chance of rest and shelter lies in the favour of the householder.

A nice little cottage,said Jude.

Oh, I don't know about the niceness. I shall have to thatch it soon,
and where the thatch is to come from I can't tell, for straw do get
that dear, that 'twill soon be cheaper to cover your house wi'
chainey plates than thatch.

They sat restingand the shepherd came in. "Don't 'ee mind I
he said with a deprecating wave of the hand bide here as long as ye will.
But mid you be thinking o' getting back to Melchester to-night by train?
Because you'll never do it in this worldsince you don't know the lie
of the country. I don't mind going with ye some o' the waysbut even then
the train mid be gone."

They started up.

You can bide here, you know, over the night--can't 'em, Mother?
The place is welcome to ye. 'Tis hard lying, rather, but volk
may do worse.He turned to Jude and asked privately: "Be you a

married couple?"

Hsh--no!said Jude.

Oh--I meant nothing ba'dy--not I! Well then, she can go into Mother's room,
and you and I can lie in the outer chimmer after they've gone through.
I can call ye soon enough to catch the first train back. You've lost this
one now.

On consideration they decided to close with this offerand drew
up and shared with the shepherd and his mother the boiled bacon
and greens for supper.

I rather like this,said Suewhile their entertainers were clearing
away the dishes. "Outside all laws except gravitation and germination."

You only think you like it; you don't: you are quite a product
of civilization,said Judea recollection of her engagement
reviving his soreness a little.

Indeed I am not, Jude. I like reading and all that, but I crave
to get back to the life of my infancy and its freedom.

Do you remember it so well? You seem to me to have nothing
unconventional at all about you.

Oh, haven't I! You don't know what's inside me.


The Ishmaelite.

An urban miss is what you are.

She looked severe disagreementand turned away.

The shepherd aroused them the next morningas he had said.
It was bright and clearand the four miles to the train were
accomplished pleasantly. When they had reached Melchester
and walked to the Closeand the gables of the old building
in which she was again to be immured rose before Sue's eyes
she looked a little scared. "I expect I shall catch it!"
she murmured.

They rang the great bell and waited.

Oh, I bought something for you, which I had nearly forgotten,
she said quicklysearching her pocket. "It is a new little
photograph of me. Would you like it?"

WOULD I!He took it gladlyand the porter came. There seemed
to be an ominous glance on his face when he opened the gate.
She passed inlooking back at Judeand waving her hand.

THE seventy young womenof ages varying in the main from nineteen
to one-and-twentythough several were olderwho at this date
filled the species of nunnery known as the Training-School
at Melchesterformed a very mixed communitywhich included
the daughters of mechanicscuratessurgeonsshopkeepersfarmers

dairy-mensoldierssailorsand villagers. They sat in the large
school-room of the establishment on the evening previously describedand
word was passed round that Sue Bridehead had not come in at closing-time.

She went out with her young man,said a second-year's studentwho knew
about young men. "And Miss Traceley saw her at the station with him.
She'll have it hot when she does come."

She said he was her cousin,observed a youthful new girl.

That excuse has been made a little too often in this school to be effectual
in saving our souls,said the head girl of the yeardrily.

The fact was thatonly twelve months beforethere had occurred
a lamentable seduction of one of the pupils who had made
the same statement in order to gain meetings with her lover.
The affair had created a scandaland the management had
consequently been rough on cousins ever since.

At nine o'clock the names were calledSue's being pronounced three times
sonorously by Miss Traceley without eliciting an answer.

At a quarter past nine the seventy stood up to sing the "Evening Hymn
and then knelt down to prayers. After prayers they went in to supper,
and every girl's thought was, Where is Sue Bridehead? Some of the students,
who had seen Jude from the window, felt that they would not mind risking her
punishment for the pleasure of being kissed by such a kindly-faced young men.
Hardly one among them believed in the cousinship.

Half an hour later they all lay in their cubicles, their tender feminine
faces upturned to the flaring gas-jets which at intervals stretched
down the long dormitories, every face bearing the legend The Weaker"
upon itas the penalty of the sex wherein they were mouldedwhich by no
possible exertion of their willing hearts and abilities could be made
strong while the inexorable laws of nature remain what they are.
They formed a prettysuggestivepathetic sightof whose pathos and
beauty they were themselves unconsciousand would not discover till
amid the storms and strains of after-yearswith their injustice
lonelinesschild-bearingand bereavementtheir minds would revert
to this experience as to something which had been allowed to slip past them
insufficiently regarded.

One of the mistresses came in to turn out the lightsand before
doing so gave a final glance at Sue's cotwhich remained empty
and at her little dressing-table at the footwhichlike all
the restwas ornamented with various girlish trifles
framed photographs being not the least conspicuous among them.
Sue's table had a moderate showtwo men in their filigree and
velvet frames standing together beside her looking-glass.

Who are these men--did she ever say?asked the mistress.
Strictly speaking, relations' portraits only are allowed on
these tables, you know.

One--the middle-aged man,said a student in the next bed--"is
the schoolmaster she served under--Mr. Phillotson."

And the other--this undergraduate in cap and gown--who is he?

He is a friend, or was. She has never told his name.

Was it either of these two who came for her?


You are sure 'twas not the undergraduate?

Quite. He was a young man with a black beard.

The lights were promptly extinguishedand till they fell asleep the girls
indulged in conjectures about Sueand wondered what games she had carried
on in London and at Christminster before she came heresome of the more
restless ones getting out of bed and looking from the mullioned windows at
the vast west front of the cathedral oppositeand the spire rising behind it.

When they awoke the next morning they glanced into Sue's nook
to find it still without a tenant. After the early lessons
by gas-lightin half-toiletand when they had come up to dress
for breakfastthe bell of the entrance gate was heard to ring loudly.
The mistress of the dormitory went awayand presently came back
to say that the principal's orders were that nobody was to speak to
Bridehead without permission.

WhenaccordinglySue came into the dormitory to hastily tidy herself
looking flushed and tiredshe went to her cubicle in silencenone of them
coming out to greet her or to make inquiry. When they had gone downstairs
they found that she did not follow them into the dining-hall to breakfast
and they then learnt that she had been severely reprimandedand ordered
to a solitary room for a weekthere to be confinedand take her meals
and do all her reading.

At this the seventy murmuredthe sentence beingthey thought
too severe. A round robin was prepared and sent in to the principal
asking for a remission of Sue's punishment. No notice was taken.
Towards eveningwhen the geography mistress began dictating her subject
the girls in the class sat with folded arms.

You mean that you are not going to work?said the mistress at last.
I may as well tell you that it has been ascertained that the young
man Bridehead stayed out with was not her cousin, for the very good
reason that she has no such relative. We have written to Christminster
to ascertain.

We are willing to take her word,said the head girl.

This young man was discharged from his work at Christminster
for drunkenness and blasphemy in public-houses, and he has
come here to live, entirely to be near her.

Howeverthey remained stolid and motionlessand the mistress left the room
to inquire from her superiors what was to be done.

Presentlytowards duskthe pupilsas they satheard exclamations
from the first-year's girls in an adjoining classroomand one rushed
in to say that Sue Bridehead had got out of the back window of the room
in which she had been confinedescaped in the dark across the lawn
and disappeared. How she had managed to get out of the garden nobody
could tellas it was bounded by the river at the bottomand the side
door was locked.

They went and looked at the empty roomthe casement between the middle
mullions of which stood open. The lawn was again searched with a lantern
every bush and shrub being examinedbut she was nowhere hidden.
Then the porter of the front gate was interrogatedand on reflection he said
that he remembered hearing a sort of splashing in the stream at the back
but he had taken no noticethinking some ducks had come down the river
from above.

She must have walked through the river!said a mistress.

Or drownded herself,said the porter.

The mind of the matron was horrified--not so much at the possible
death of Sue as at the possible half-column detailing that event
in all the newspaperswhichadded to the scandal of the year before
would give the college an unenviable notoriety for many months
to come.

More lanterns were procuredand the river examined; and then
at laston the opposite shorewhich was open to the fields
some little boot-tracks were discerned in the mud
which left no doubt that the too excitable girl had waded
through a depth of water reaching nearly to her shoulders--
for this was the chief river of the countyand was mentioned
in all the geography books with respect. As Sue had not brought
disgrace upon the school by drowning herselfthe matron began
to speak superciliously of herand to express gladness that she
was gone.

On the self-same evening Jude sat in his lodgings by the Close Gate.
Often at this hour after dusk he would enter the silent Close
and stand opposite the house that contained Sueand watch
the shadows of the girls' heads passing to and fro upon the blinds
and wish he had nothing else to do but to sit reading and
learning all day what many of the thoughtless inmates despised.
But to-nighthaving finished tea and brushed himself up
he was deep in the perusal of the Twenty-ninth Volume of Pusey's
Library of the Fathersa set of books which he had purchased
of a second-hand dealer at a price that seemed to him
to be one of miraculous cheapness for that invaluable work.
He fancied he heard something rattle lightly against his window;
then he heard it again. Certainly somebody had thrown gravel.
He rose and gently lifted the sash.

Jude!(from below).


Yes--it is! Can I come up without being seen?

Oh yes!

Then don't come down. Shut the window.

Jude waitedknowing that she could enter easily enoughthe front
door being opened merely by a knob which anybody could turn
as in most old country towns. He palpitated at the thought that she
had fled to him in her trouble as he had fled to her in his.
What counterparts they were! He unlatched the door of his room
heard a stealthy rustle on the dark stairsand in a moment she
appeared in the light of his lamp. He went up to seize her hand
and found she was clammy as a marine deityand that her clothes clung
to her like the robes upon the figures in the Parthenon frieze.

I'm so cold!she said through her chattering teeth.
Can I come by your fire, Jude?

She crossed to his little grate and very little firebut as the water
dripped from her as she movedthe idea of drying herself was absurd.
Whatever have you done, darling?he askedwith alarmthe tender epithet
slipping out unawares.

Walked through the largest river in the county--that's what I've done!
They locked me up for being out with you; and it seemed so unjust that I
couldn't bear it, so I got out of the window and escaped across the stream!
She had begun the explanation in her usual slightly independent tones
but before she had finished the thin pink lips trembledand she could hardly
refrain from crying.

Dear Sue!he said. "You must take off all your things!
And let me see--you must borrow some from the landlady.
I'll ask her."

No, no! Don't let her know, for God's sake! We are so near
the school that they'll come after me!

Then you must put on mine. You don't mind?

Oh no.

My Sunday suit, you know. It is close here.In fact
everything was close and handy in Jude's single chamber
because there was not room for it to be otherwise. He opened
a drawertook out his best dark suitand giving the garments
a shakesaidNow, how long shall I give you?

Ten minutes.

Jude left the room and went into the streetwhere he walked up
and down. A clock struck half-past sevenand he returned.
Sitting in his only arm-chair he saw a slim and fragile being
masquerading as himself on a Sundayso pathetic in her
defencelessness that his heart felt big with the sense of it.
On two other chairs before the fire were her wet garments.
She blushed as he sat down beside herbut only for
a moment.

I suppose, Jude, it is odd that you should see me like this
and all my things hanging there? Yet what nonsense!
They are only a woman's clothes--sexless cloth and linen.... I
wish I didn't feel so ill and sick! Will you dry my clothes now?
Please do, Jude, and I'll get a lodging by and by. It is not
late yet.

No, you shan't, if you are ill. You must stay here. Dear, dear Sue,
what can I get for you?

I don't know! I can't help shivering. I wish I could get warm.
Jude put on her his great-coat in additionand then ran out to the nearest
public-housewhence he returned with a little bottle in his hand.
Here's six of best brandy,he said. "Now you drink itdear;
all of it."

I can't out of the bottle, can I?Jude fetched the glass from
the dressing-tableand administered the spirit in some water.
She gasped a littlebut gulped it downand lay back in the armchair.

She then began to relate circumstantially her experiences since they
had parted; but in the middle of her story her voice faltered
her head noddedand she ceased. She was in a sound sleep.
Judedying of anxiety lest she should have caught a chill which might
permanently injure herwas glad to hear the regular breathing.
He softly went nearer to herand observed that a warm flush now rosed
her hitherto blue cheeksand felt that her hanging hand was no
longer cold. Then he stood with his back to the fire regarding her
and saw in her almost a divinity.

JUDE'S reverie was interrupted by the creak of footsteps ascending the stairs.

He whisked Sue's clothing from the chair where it was drying
thrust it under the bedand sat down to his book.
Somebody knocked and opened the door immediately. It was
the landlady.

Oh, I didn't know whether you was in or not, Mr. Fawley.
I wanted to know if you would require supper. I see you've a
young gentleman----

Yes, ma'am. But I think I won't come down to-night. Will you bring supper
up on a tray, and I'll have a cup of tea as well.

It was Jude's custom to go downstairs to the kitchen
and eat his meals with the familyto save trouble.
His landlady brought up the supperhoweveron this occasion
and he took it from her at the door.

When she had descended he set the teapot on the hob
and drew out Sue's clothes anew; but they were far from dry.
A thick woollen gownhe foundheld a deal of water.
So he hung them up againand enlarged his fire and mused as
the steam from the garments went up the chimney.

Suddenly she saidJude!

Yes. All right. How do you feel now?

Better. Quite well. Why, I fell asleep, didn't I? What time is it?
Not late surely?

It is past ten.

Is it really? What SHALL I do!she saidstarting up.

Stay where you are.

Yes; that's what I want to do. But I don't know what they would say!
And what will you do?

I am going to sit here by the fire all night, and read.
To-morrow is Sunday, and I haven't to go out anywhere.
Perhaps you will be saved a severe illness by resting there.
Don't be frightened. I'm all right. Look here, what I have got
for you. Some supper.

When she had sat upright she breathed plaintively and saidI do feel rather
weak still. l thought I was well; and I ought not to be here, ought I?
But the supper fortified her somewhatand when she had had some tea and had
lain back again she was bright and cheerful.

The tea must have been greenor too long drawnfor she seemed
preternaturally wakeful afterwardsthough Judewho had not taken any
began to feel heavy; till her conversation fixed his attention.

You called me a creature of civilization, or something, didn't you?
she saidbreaking a silence. "It was very odd you should have done that."


Well, because it is provokingly wrong. I am a sort of negation of it.

You are very philosophical. 'A negation' is profound talking.

Is it? Do I strike you as being learned?she askedwith a touch
of raillery.

No--not learned. Only you don't talk quite like a girl--well, a girl
who has had no advantages.

I have had advantages. I don't know Latin and Greek, though I
know the grammars of those tongues. But I know most of the Greek
and Latin classics through translations, and other books too.
I read Lempriere, Catullus, Martial, Juvenal, Lucian, Beaumont
and Fletcher, Boccaccio, Scarron, De Brantame, Sterne, De Foe,
Smollett, Fielding, Shakespeare, the Bible, and other such;
and found that all interest in the unwholesome part of those books
ended with its mystery.

You have read more than I,he said with a sigh. "How came you
to read some of those queerer ones?"

Well,she said thoughtfullyit was by accident. My life has
been entirely shaped by what people call a peculiarity in me.
I have no fear of men, as such, nor of their books.
I have mixed with them--one or two of them particularly--
almost as one of their own sex. I mean I have not felt
about them as most women are taught to feel--to be on their
guard against attacks on their virtue; for no average man--
no man short of a sensual savage--will molest a woman by day
or night, at home or abroad, unless she invites him.
Until she says by a look 'Come on' he is always afraid to,
and if you never say it, or look it, he never comes. However, what I
was going to say is that when I was eighteen I formed a friendly
intimacy with an undergraduate at Christminster, and he taught me
a great deal, and lent me books which I should never have got hold
of otherwise.

Is your friendship broken off?

Oh yes. He died, poor fellow, two or three years after he had taken
his degree and left Christminster.

You saw a good deal of him, I suppose?

Yes. We used to go about together--on walking tours,
reading tours, and things of that sort--like two men almost.
He asked me to live with him, and I agreed to by letter.
But when I joined him in London I found he meant a different
thing from what I meant. He wanted me to be his mistress,
in fact, but I wasn't in love with him--and on my saying I
should go away if he didn't agree to MY plan, he did so.
We shared a sitting-room for fifteen months; and he became
a leader-writer for one of the great London dailies; till he was
taken ill, and had to go abroad. He said I was breaking his
heart by holding out against him so long at such close quarters;
he could never have believed it of woman. I might play that
game once too often, he said. He came home merely to die.
His death caused a terrible remorse in me for my cruelty--
though I hope he died of consumption and not of me entirely.
l went down to Sandbourne to his funeral, and was his only mourner.

He left me a little money--because I broke his heart, I suppose.
That's how men are--so much better than women!

Good heavens!--what did you do then?

Ah--now you are angry with me!she saida contralto note of tragedy
coming suddenly into her silvery voice. "I wouldn't have told you if I
had known!"

No, I am not. Tell me all.

Well, I invested his money, poor fellow, in a bubble scheme,
and lost it. I lived about London by myself for some time,
and then I returned to Christminster, as my father-who
was also in London, and had started as an art metal-worker
near Long-Acre--wouldn't have me back; and I got that occupation
in the artist-shop where you found me.... I said you didn't know
how bad I was!

Jude looked round upon the arm-chair and its occupantas if
to read more carefully the creature he had given shelter to.
His voice trembled as he said: "However you have livedSue
I believe you are as innocent as you are unconventional!"

I am not particularly innocent, as you see, now that I have

'twitched the robe
From that blank lay-figure your fancy draped,'

said shewith an ostensible sneerthough he could hear that she was
brimming with tears. "But I have never yielded myself to any lover
if that's what you mean! I have remained as I began."

I quite believe you. But some women would not have remained as they began.

Pehaps not. Better women would not. People say I must
be cold-natured--sexless--on account of it. But I won't have it!
Some of the most passionately erotic poets have been the most
self-contained in their daily lives.

Have you told Mr. Phillotson about this university scholar friend?

Yes--long ago. I have never made any secret of it to anybody.

What did he say?

He did not pass any criticism--only said I was everything to him,
whatever I did; and things like that.

Jude felt much depressed; she seemed to get further and further away
from him with her strange ways and curious unconsciousness of gender.

Aren't you REALLY vexed with me, dear Jude?she suddenly asked
in a voice of such extraordinary tenderness that it hardly seemed
to come from the same woman who had just told her story so lightly.
I would rather offend anybody in the world than you, I think!

I don't know whether I am vexed or not. I know I care very much about you!

I care as much for you as for anybody I ever met.

You don't care MORE! There, I ought not to say that.

Don't answer it!

There was another long silence. He felt that she was treating
him cruellythough he could not quite say in what way.
Her very helplessness seemed to make her so much stronger
than he.

I am awfully ignorant on general matters, although I have worked so hard,
he saidto turn the subject. "I am absorbed in theologyyou know.
And what do you think I should be doing just about nowif you weren't here?
I should be saying my evening prayers. I suppose you wouldn't like----"

Oh no, no,she answeredI would rather not, if you don't mind.
I should seem so--such a hypocrite.

I thought you wouldn't join, so I didn't propose it.
You must remember that I hope to be a useful minister some day.

To be ordained, I think you said?


Then you haven't given up the idea?--I thought that perhaps you
had by this time.

Of course not. I fondly thought at first that you felt as I do
about that, as you were so mixed up in Christminster Anglicanism.
And Mr. Phillotson----

I have no respect for Christminster whatever, except, in a
qualified degree, on its intellectual side,said Sue
Bridehead earnestly. "My friend I spoke of took that out of me.
He was the most irreligious man I ever knewand the most moral.
And intellect at Christminster is new wine in old bottles.
The mediaevalism of Christminster must gobe sloughed off
or Christminster itself will have to go. To be sureat times
one couldn't help having a sneaking liking for the traditions
of the old faithas preserved by a section of the thinkers there
in touching and simple sincerity; but when I was in my saddest
rightest mind I always felt

'O ghastly glories of saintsdead limbs of
gibbeted Gods!'"...

Sue, you are not a good friend of mine to talk like that!

Then I won't, dear Jude!The emotional throat-note had come back
and she turned her face away.

I still think Christminster has much that is glorious;
though I was resentful because I couldn't get there.
He spoke gentlyand resisted his impulse to pique her on
to tears.

It is an ignorant place, except as to the townspeople, artizans, drunkards,
and paupers,she saidperverse still at his differing from her.
THEY see life as it is, of course; but few of the people in the colleges do.
You prove it in your own person. You are one of the very men Christminster
was intended for when the colleges were founded; a man with a passion
for learning, but no money, or opportunities, or friends. But you were
elbowed off the pavement by the millionaires' sons.

Well, I can do without what it confers. I care for something higher.

And I for something broader, truer,she insisted.
At present intellect in Christminster is pushing one way,
and religion the other; and so they stand stock-still, like two
rams butting each other.

What would Mr. Phillotson----

It is a place full of fetishists and ghost-seers!

He noticed that whenever he tried to speak of the schoolmaster she turned
the conversation to some generalizations about the offending university.
Jude was extremelymorbidlycurious about her life as Phillotson's PROTEGEE
and betrothed; yet she would not enlighten him.

Well, that's just what I am, too,he said. "I am fearful of life
spectre-seeing always."

But you are good and dear!she murmured.

His heart bumpedand he made no reply.

You are in the Tractarian stage just now, are you not?
she addedputting on flippancy to hide real feeling
a common trick with her. "Let me see--when was I there?
In the year eighteen hundred and----"

There's a sarcasm in that which is rather unpleasant to me, Sue.
Now will you do what I want you to? At this time I read a chapter,
and then say prayers, as I told you. Now will you concentrate your
attention on any book of these you like, and sit with your back to me,
and leave me to my custom? You are sure you won't join me?

I'll look at you.

No. Don't tease, Sue!

Very well--I'll do just as you bid me, and I won't vex you, Jude,
she repliedin the tone of a child who was going to be good for ever after
turning her back upon him accordingly. A small Bible other than the one
he was using lay near herand during his retreat she took it up
and turned over the leaves.

Jude,she said brightlywhen he had finished and come back to her;
will you let me make you a NEW New Testament, like the one I made
for myself at Christminster?

Oh yes. How was that made?

I altered my old one by cutting up all the Epistles and Gospels into
separate BROCHURES, and rearranging them in chronological order as written,
beginning the book with Thessalonians, following on with the Epistles,
and putting the Gospels much further on. Then I had the volume rebound.
My university friend Mr. ---- --but never mind his name, poor boy--
said it was an excellent idea. I know that reading it afterwards made it
twice as interesting as before, and twice as understandable.

H'm!said Judewith a sense of sacrilege.

And what a literary enormity this is,she saidas she glanced
into the pages of Solomon's Song. "I mean the synopsis at the head
of each chapterexplaining away the real nature of that rhapsody.
You needn't be alarmed: nobody claims inspiration for the
chapter headings. Indeedmany divines treat them with contempt.

It seems the drollest thing to think of the four-and-twenty elders
or bishopsor whatever number they weresitting with long faces and
writing down such stuff."

Jude looked pained. "You are quite Voltairean!" he murmured.

Indeed? Then I won't say any more, except that people have no
right to falsify the Bible! I HATE such hum-bug as could attempt
to plaster over with ecclesiastical abstractions such ecstatic,
natural, human love as lies in that great and passionate song!
Her speech had grown spiritedand almost petulant at his rebuke
and her eyes moist. "I WISH I had a friend here to support me;
but nobody is ever on my side!"

But my dear Sue, my very dear Sue, I am not against you!
he saidtaking her handand surprised at her introducing
personal feeling into mere argument.

Yes you are, yes you are!she criedturning away her face
that he might not see her brimming eyes. "You are on the side of
the people in the training-school--at least you seem almost to be!
What I insist on isthat to explain such verses as this:
'Whither is thy beloved goneO thou fairest among women?'
is supremely ridiculous!"

Well then, let it be! You make such a personal matter of everything!
I am--only too inclined just now to apply the words profanely.
You know YOU are fairest among women to me, come to that!

But you are not to say it now!Sue repliedher voice
changing to its softest note of severity. Then their eyes met
and they shook hands like cronies in a tavernand Jude saw
the absurdity of quarrelling on such a hypothetical subject
and she the silliness of crying about what was written in an old
book like the Bible.

I won't disturb your convictions--I really won't!she went
on soothinglyfor now he was rather more ruffled than she.
But I did want and long to ennoble some man to high aims;
and when I saw you, and knew you wanted to be my comrade, I--
shall I confess it?--thought that man might be you.
But you take so much tradition on trust that I don't know what
to say.

Well, dear; I suppose one must take some things on trust.
Life isn't long enough to work out everything in Euclid problems
before you believe it. I take Christianity.

Well, perhaps you might take something worse.

Indeed I might. Perhaps I have done so!He thought of Arabella.

I won't ask what, because we are going to be VERY nice with each other,
aren't we, and never, never, vex each other any more?She looked
up trustfullyand her voice seemed trying to nestle in his breast.

I shall always care for you!said Jude.

And I for you. Because you are single-hearted, and forgiving
to your faulty and tiresome little Sue!

He looked awayfor that epicene tenderness of hers was too harrowing.
Was it that which had broken the heart of the poor leader-writer;

and was he to be the next one? ... But Sue was so dear! ...
If he could only get over the sense of her sexas she seemed
to be able to do so easily of hiswhat a comrade she would make;
for their difference of opinion on conjectural subjects only drew
them closer together on matters of daily human experience.
She was nearer to him than any other woman he had ever metand he could
scarcely believe that timecreedor absencewould ever divide him
from her.

But his grief at her incredulities returned. They sat on till
she fell asleep againand he nodded in his chair likewise.
Whenever he aroused himself he turned her thingsand made
up the fire anew. About six o'clock he awoke completely
and lighting a candlefound that her clothes were dry.
Her chair being a far more comfortable one than his she still
slept on inside his great-coatlooking warm as a new bun and
boyish as a Ganymede. Placing the garments by her and touching
her on the shoulder he went downstairsand washed himself by
starlight in the yard.

WHEN he returned she was dressed as usual.

Now could I get out without anybody seeing me?she asked.
The town is not yet astir.

But you have had no breakfast.

Oh, I don't want any! I fear I ought not to have run away from that school!
Things seem so different in the cold light of morning, don't they?
What Mr. Phillotson will say I don't know! It was quite by his wish
that I went there. He is the only man in the world for whom I have any
respect or fear. I hope he'll forgive me; but he'll scold me dreadfully,
I expect!

I'll go to him and explain--began Jude.

Oh no, you shan't. I don't care for him! He may think what he likes--
I shall do just as I choose!

But you just this moment said----

Well, if I did, I shall do as I like for all him! I have thought
of what I shall do--go to the sister of one of my fellow-students
in the training-school, who has asked me to visit her.
She has a school near Shaston, about eighteen miles from here--
and I shall stay there till this has blown over, and I get back to
the training-school again.

At the last moment he persuaded her to let him make her a cup of coffee
in a portable apparatus he kept in his room for use on rising to go
to his work every day before the household was astir.

Now a dew-bit to eat with it,he said; "and off we go.
You can have a regular breakfast when you get there."

They went quietly out of the houseJude accompanying her to the station.
As they departed along the street a head was thrust out of an upper window of
his lodging and quickly withdrawn. Sue still seemed sorry for her rashness
and to wish she had not rebelled; telling him at parting that she would let

him know as soon as she got re-admitted to the training-school. They stood
rather miserably together on the platform; and it was apparent that he wanted
to say more.

I want to tell you something--two things,he said hurriedly as the train
came up. "One is a warm onethe other a cold one!"

Jude,she said. "I know one of them. And you mustn't!"


You mustn't love me. You are to like me--that's all!

Jude's face became so full of complicated glooms that hers was agitated
in sympathy as she bade him adieu through the carriage window.
And then the train moved onand waving her pretty hand to him she
vanished away.

Melchester was a dismal place enough for Jude that Sunday of her departure
and the Close so hateful that he did not go once to the cathedral services.
The next morning there came a letter from herwhichwith her usual
promptitudeshe had written directly she had reached her friend's house.
She told him of her safe arrival and comfortable quartersand then added:--

What I really write aboutdear Judeis something I said to you at parting.
You had been so very good and kind to me that when you were out of sight I
felt what a cruel and ungrateful woman I was to say itand it has reproached
me ever since. IF YOU WANT TO LOVE MEJUDEYOU MAY: I don't mind at all;
and I'll never say again that you mustn't!

Now I won't write any more about that. You do forgive your thoughtless friend
for her cruelty? and won't make her miserable by saying you don't?--EverSUE.

It would be superfluous to say what his answer was; and how he thought
what he would have done had he been freewhich should have rendered
a long residence with a female friend quite unnecessary for Sue.
He felt he might have been pretty sure of his own victory if it had
come to a conflict between Phillotson and himself for the possession
of her.

Yet Jude was in danger of attaching more meaning to Sue's impulsive
note than it really was intended to bear.

After the lapse of a few days he found himself hoping that she
would write again. But he received no further communication;
and in the intensity of his solicitude he sent another note
suggesting that he should pay her a visit some Sundaythe distance
being under eighteen miles.

He expected a reply on the second morning after despatching his missive;
but none came. The third morning arrived; the postman did not stop.
This was Saturdayand in a feverish state of anxiety about her he sent off
three brief lines stating that he was coming the following dayfor he felt
sure something had happened.

His first and natural thought had been that she was ill from her immersion;
but it soon occurred to him that somebody would have written for her
in such a case. Conjectures were put an end to by his arrival at
the village school-house near Shaston on the bright morning of Sunday
between eleven and twelve o'clockwhen the parish was as vacant
as a desertmost of the inhabitants having gathered inside the church
whence their voices could occasionally be heard in unison.

A little girl opened the door. "Miss Bridehead is up-stairs she said.
And will you please walk up to her?"

Is she ill?asked Jude hastily.

Only a little--not very.

Jude entered and ascended. On reaching the landing a voice
told him which way to turn--the voice of Sue calling his name.
He passed the doorwayand found her lying in a little bed in
a room a dozen feet square.

Oh, Sue!he criedsitting down beside her and taking her hand.
How is this! You couldn't write?

No--it wasn't that!she answered. "I did catch a bad cold-but
I could have written. Only I wouldn't!"

Why not?--frightening me like this!

Yes--that was what I was afraid of! But I had decided not to write
to you any more. They won't have me back at the school--that's why I
couldn't write. Not the fact, but the reason!


They not only won't have me, but they gave me a parting piece of advice----


She did not answer directly. "I vowed I never would tell youJude--it is
so vulgar and distressing!"

Is it about us?


But do tell me!

Well--somebody has sent them baseless reports about us,
and they say you and I ought to marry as soon as possible,
for the sake of my reputation! ... There--now I have told you,
and I wish I hadn't!

Oh, poor Sue!

I don't think of you like that means! It did just OCCUR to me
to regard you in the way they think I do, but I hadn't begun to.
I HAVE recognized that the cousinship was merely nominal,
since we met as total strangers. But my marrying you,
dear Jude--why, of course, if I had reckoned upon marrying you l
shouldn't have come to you so often! And I never supposed you
thought of such a thing as marrying me till the other evening;
when I began to fancy you did love me a little. Perhaps I ought
not to have been so intimate with you. It is all my fault.
Everything is my fault always!

The speech seemed a little forced and unrealand they regarded
each other with a mutual distress.

I was so blind at first!she went on. "I didn't see what
you felt at all. Ohyou have been unkind to me--you have-to
look upon me as a sweetheart without saying a word

and leaving me to discover it myself! Your attitude to me has
become known; and naturally they think we've been doing wrong!
I'll never trust you again!"

Yes, Sue,he said simply; "I am to blame--more than you think.
I was quite aware that you did not suspect till within
the last meeting or two what I was feeling about you. I admit
that our meeting as strangers prevented a sense of relationship
and that it was a sort of subterfuge to avail myself of it.
But don't you think l deserve a little consideration for concealing
my wrongvery wrongsentimentssince I couldn't help
having them?"

She turned her eyes doubtfully towards himand then looked away
as if afraid she might forgive him.

By every law of nature and sex a kiss was the only rejoinder that fitted
the mood and the momentunder the suasion of which Sue's undemonstrative
regard of him might not inconceivably have changed its temperature.
Some men would have cast scruples to the windsand ventured it
oblivious both of Sue's declaration of her neutral feelingsand of
the pair of autographs in the vestry chest of Arabella's parish church.
Jude did not. He hadin factcome in part to tell his own fatal story.
It was upon his lips; yet at the hour of this distress he could
not disclose it. He preferred to dwell upon the recognized barriers
between them.

Of course--I know you don't--care about me in any particular way,
he sorrowed. "You ought notand you are right. You belong to--
Mr. Phillotson. I suppose he has been to see you?"

Yes,she said shortlyher face changing a little.
Though I didn't ask him to come. You are glad, of course,
that he has been! But I shouldn't care if he didn't come
any more!

It was very perplexing to her lover that she should be piqued at his honest
acquiescence in his rivalif Jude's feelings of love were deprecated by her.
He went on to something else.

This will blow over, dear Sue,he said. "The training-school authorities
are not all the world. You can get to be a student in some otherno doubt."

I'll ask Mr. Phillotson,she said decisively.

Sue's kind hostess now returned from churchand there was
no more intimate conversation. Jude left in the afternoon
hopelessly unhappy. But he had seen herand sat with her.
Such intercourse as that would have to content him for
the remainder of his life. The lesson of renunciation
it was necessary and proper that heas a parish priest
should learn.

But the next morning when he awoke he felt rather vexed with her
and decided that she was rather unreasonablenot to say capricious.
Thenin illustration of what he had begun to discern as one of her
redeeming characteristics there came promptly a notewhich she must
have written almost immediately he had gone from her:

Forgive me for my petulance yesterday! I was horrid to you;
I know itand I feel perfectly miserable at my horridness.
It was so dear of you not to be angry! Jude please still
keep me as your friend and associatewith all my faults.

I'll try not to be like it again.

I am coming to Melchester on Saturdayto get my things away
from the T.S.&c. I could walk with you for half an hour
if you would like?--Your repentant SUE.

Jude forgave her straightwayand asked her to call for him
at the cathedral works when she came.

MEANWHILE a middle-aged man was dreaming a dream of great beauty
concerning the writer of the above letter. He was Richard Phillotson
who had recently removed from the mixed village school at Lumsdon
near Christminsterto undertake a large boys' school in his native
town of Shastonwhich stood on a hill sixty miles to the south-west
as the crow flies.

A glance at the place and its accessories was almost enough
to reveal that the schoolmaster's plans and dreams so long
indulged in had been abandoned for some new dream with which
neither the Church nor literature had much in common.
Essentially an unpractical manhe was now bent on making
and saving money for a practical purpose--that of keeping
a wifewhoif she chosemight conduct one of the girls'
schools adjoining his own; for which purpose he had advised her
to go into trainingsince she would not marry him offhand.

About the time that Jude was removing from Marygreen to Melchester
and entering on adventures at the latter place with Sue
the schoolmaster was settling down in the new school-house
at Shaston. All the furniture being fixedthe books shelved
and the nails drivenhe had begun to sit in his parlour during
the dark winter nights and re-attempt some of his old studies-one
branch of which had included Roman-Britannic antiquities-an
unremunerative labour for a national school-master but
a subjectthatafter his abandonment of the university scheme
had interested him as being a comparatively unworked mine;
practicable to those wholike himselfhad lived in lonely spots
where these remains were abundantand were seen to compel inferences
in startling contrast to accepted views on the civilization of
that time.

A resumption of this investigation was the outward and apparent
hobby of Phillotson at present--his ostensible reason for going
alone into fields where causewaysdykesand tumuli abounded
or shutting himself up in his house with a few urnstilesand mosaics
he had collectedinstead of calling round upon his new neighbours
who for their part had showed themselves willing enough to be friendly
with him. But it was not the realor the wholereasonafter all.
Thus on a particular evening in the monthwhen it had grown quite late-to
near midnightindeed--and the light of his lampshining from his
window at a salient angle of the hill-top town over infinite miles
of valley westwardannounced as by words a place and person given
over to studyhe was not exactly studying.

The interior of the room--the booksthe furniture
the schoolmaster's loose coathis attitude at the table
even the flickering of the firebespoke the same dignified
tale of undistracted research--more than creditable to a man

who had had no advantages beyond those of his own making.
And yet the taletrue enough till latterlywas not true now.
What he was regarding was not history. They were historic notes
written in a bold womanly hand at his dictation some months before
and it was the clerical rendering of word after word that
absorbed him.

He presently took from a drawer a carefully tied bundle
of lettersfewvery fewas correspondence counts nowadays.
Each was in its envelope just as it had arrivedand the handwriting
was of the same womanly character as the historic notes.
He unfolded them one by one and read them musingly.
At first sight there seemed in these small documents to be
absolutely nothing to muse over. They were straightforward
frank letterssigned "Sue B--"; just such ones as would
be written during short absenceswith no other thought
than their speedy destructionand chiefly concerning books
in reading and other experiences of a training school
forgotten doubtless by the writer with the passing of the day
of their inditing. In one of them--quite a recent note--
the young woman said that she had received his considerate letter
and that it was honourable and generous of him to say he would
not come to see her oftener than she desired (the school being
such an awkward place for callersand because of her strong
wish that her engagement to him should not be knownwhich it
would infallibly be if he visited her often). Over these phrases
the school-master pored. What precise shade of satisfaction was
to be gathered from a woman's gratitude that the man who loved
her had not been often to see her? The problem occupied him
distracted him.

He opened another drawerand found therein an envelopefrom which
he drew a photograph of Sue as a childlong before he had known her
standing under trellis-work with a little basket in her hand.
There was another of her as a young womanher dark eyes
and hair making a very distinct and attractive picture of her
which just disclosedtoothe thoughtfulness that lay behind her
lighter moods. It was a duplicate of the one she had given Jude
and would have given to any man. Phillotson brought it half-way
to his lipsbut withdrew it in doubt at her perplexing phrases:
ultimately kissing the dead pasteboard with all the passionateness
and more than all the devotionof a young man of eighteen.

The schoolmaster's was an unhealthy-lookingold-fashioned face
rendered more old-fashioned by his style of shaving.
A certain gentlemanliness had been imparted to it by nature
suggesting an inherent wish to do rightly by all.
His speech was a little slowbut his tones were sincere enough
to make his hesitation no defect. His greying hair was curly
and radiated from a point in the middle of his crown.
There were four lines across his foreheadand he only wore
spectacles when reading at night. It was almost certainly
a renunciation forced upon him by his academic purpose
rather than a distaste for womenwhich had hitherto kept him
from closing with one of the sex in matrimony.

Such silent proceedings as those of this evening were repeated
many and oft times when he was not under the eye of the boys
whose quick and penetrating regard would frequently become
almost intolerable to the self-conscious master in his present
anxious care for Suemaking himin the grey hours of morning
dread to meet anew the gimlet glanceslest they should read
what the dream within him was.

He had honourably acquiesced in Sue's announced wish that he was
not often to visit her at the training school; but at length
his patience being sorely triedhe set out one Saturday afternoon
to pay her an unexpected call. There the news of her departure--
expulsion as it might almost have been considered--was flashed upon
him without warning or mitigation as he stood at the door expecting
in a few minutes to behold her face; and when he turned away he could
hardly see the road before him.

Sue hadin factnever written a line to her suitor on the subject
although it was fourteen days old. A short reflection told him that this
proved nothinga natural delicacy being as ample a reason for silence
as any degree of blameworthiness.

They had informed him at the school where she was livingand having
no immediate anxiety about her comfort his thoughts took the direction
of a burning indignation against the training school committee.
In his bewilderment Phillotson entered the adjacent cathedral
just now in a direly dismantled state by reason of the repairs.
He sat down on a block of freestoneregardless of the dusty imprint
it made on his breeches; and his listless eyes following the movements
of the workmen he presently became aware that the reputed culprit
Sue's lover Judewas one amongst them.

Jude had never spoken to his former hero since the meeting
by the model of Jerusalem. Having inadvertently witnessed
Phillotson's tentative courtship of Sue in the lane there had
grown up in the younger man's mind a curious dislike to think
of the elderto meet himto communicate in any way with him;
and since Phillotson's success in obtaining at least her
promise had become known to Judehe had frankly recognized
that he did not wish to see or hear of his senior any more
learn anything of his pursuitsor even imagine again
what excellencies might appertain to his character. On this
very day of the schoolmaster's visit Jude was expecting Sue
as she had promised; and when therefore he saw the school
master in the nave of the buildingsawmoreoverthat he was
coming to speak to himhe felt no little embarrassment;
which Phillotson's own embarrassment prevented his observing.

Jude joined himand they both withdrew from the other workmen to the spot
where Phillotson had been sitting. Jude offered him a piece of sackcloth
for a cushionand told him it was dangerous to sit on the bare block.

Yes; yes,said Phillotson abstractedlyas he reseated himself
his eyes resting on the ground as if he were trying to remember
where he was. "I won't keep you long. It was merely that I
have heard that you have seen my little friend Sue recently.
It occurred to me to speak to you on that account. I merely want to ask
about her."

I think I know what!Jude hurriedly said. "About her escaping
from the training schooland her coming to me?"


Well--Jude for a moment felt an unprincipled and fiendish
wish to annihilate his rival at all cost. By the exercise
of that treachery which love for the same woman renders possible
to men the most honourable in every other relation of life
he could send off Phillotson in agony and defeat by saying
that the scandal was trueand that Sue had irretrievably
committed herself with him. But his action did not respond
for a moment to his animal instinct; and what he said wasI am

glad of your kindness in coming to talk plainly to me about it.
You know what they say?--that I ought to marry her.


And I wish with all my soul I could!

Phillotson trembledand his naturally pale face acquired a corpselike
sharpness in its lines. "I had no idea that it was of this nature!
God forbid!"

No, no!said Jude aghast. "I thought you understood?
I mean that were I in a position to marry heror someone
and settle downinstead of living in lodgings here and there
I should be glad!"

What he had really meant was simply that he loved her.

But--since this painful matter has been opened up--what really happened?
asked Phillotsonwith the firmness of a man who felt that a sharp smart
now was better than a long agony of suspense hereafter. "Cases arise
and this is onewhen even ungenerous questions must be put to make false
assumptions impossibleand to kill scandal."

Jude explained readily; giving the whole series of adventures
including the night at the shepherd'sher wet arrival at his lodging
her indisposition from her immersiontheir vigil of discussion
and his seeing her off next morning.

Well now,said Phillotson at the conclusionI take it as your final word,
and I know I can believe you, that the suspicion which led to her rustication
is an absolutely baseless one?

It is,said Jude solemnly. "Absolutely. So help me God!"

The schoolmaster rose. Each of the twain felt that the interview could
not comfortably merge in a friendly discussion of their recent experiences
after the manner of friends; and when Jude had taken him roundand shown
him some features of the renovation which the old cathedral was undergoing
Phillotson bade the young man good-day and went away.

This visit took place about eleven o'clock in the morning;
but no Sue appeared. When Jude went to his dinner at one
he saw his beloved ahead of him in the street leading up
from the North Gatewalking as if no way looking for him.
Speedily overtaking her he remarked that he had asked her to come
to him at the cathedraland she had promised.

I have been to get my things from the college,she said--
an observation which he was expected to take as an answer
though it was not one. Finding her to be in this evasive mood
he felt inclined to give her the information so long withheld.

You have not seen Mr. Phillotson to-day?he ventured to inquire.

I have not. But I am not going to be cross-examined about him;
and if you ask anything more I won't answer!

It is very odd that--He stoppedregarding her.


That you are often not so nice in your real presence as you
are in your letters!

Does it really seem so to you?said shesmiling with quick curiosity.
Well, that's strange; but I feel just the same about you, Jude. When you are
gone away I seem such a coldhearted----

As she knew his sentiment towards her Jude saw that they
were getting upon dangerous ground. It was nowhe thought
that he must speak as an honest man.

But he did not speakand she continued: "It was that which made me write
and say--I didn't mind your loving me--if you wanted tomuch!"

The exultation he might have felt at what that impliedor seemed to imply
was nullified by his intentionand he rested rigid till he began:
I have never told you----

Yes you have,murmured she.

I mean, I have never told you my history--all of it.

But I guess it. l know nearly.

Jude looked up. Could she possibly know of that morning performance
of his with Arabella; which in a few months had ceased to be a marriage
more completely than by death? He saw that she did not.

I can't quite tell you here in the street,he went on with a gloomy tongue.
And you had better not come to my lodgings. Let us go in here.

The building by which they stood was the market-houseit
was the only place available; and they enteredthe market
being overand the stalls and areas empty. He would have
preferred a more congenial spotbutas usually happens
in place of a romantic field or solemn aisle for his tale
it was told while they walked up and down over a floor
littered with rotten cabbage-leavesand amid all the usual
squalors of decayed vegetable matter and unsaleable refuse.
He began and finished his brief narrativewhich merely
led up to the information that he had married a wife
some years earlierand that his wife was living still.
Almost before her countenance had time to change she hurried out
the words

Why didn't you tell me before!

I couldn't. It seemed so cruel to tell it.

To yourself, Jude. So it was better to be cruel to me!

No, dear darling!cried Jude passionately. He tried to take
her handbut she withdrew it. Their old relations of confidence
seemed suddenly to have endedand the antagonisms of sex
to sex were left without any counter-poising predilections.
She was his comradefriendunconscious sweetheart no longer;
and her eyes regarded him in estranged silence.

I was ashamed of the episode in my life which brought about the marriage,
he continued. "I can't explain it precisely now. I could have done it if you
had taken it differently!"

But how can I?she burst out. "Here I have been sayingor writingthat-that
you might love meor something of the sort!--just out of charity-and
all the time--ohit is perfectly damnable how things are!" she said
stamping her foot in a nervous quiver.

You take me wrong, Sue! I never thought you cared for me at all,
till quite lately; so I felt it did not matter! Do you care
for me, Sue?--you know how I mean?--I don't like 'out of charity'
at all!

It was a question which in the circumstances Sue did not choose to answer.

I suppose she--your wife--is--a very pretty woman even if she's wicked?
she asked quickly.

She's pretty enough, as far as that goes.

Prettier than I am, no doubt!

You are not the least alike. And I have never seen her for years....
But she's sure to come back--they always do!

How strange of you to stay apart from her like this!
said Sueher trembling lip and lumpy throat belying her irony.
You, such a religious man. How will the demi-gods in
your Pantheon--I mean those legendary persons you call saints-intercede
for you after this? Now if I had done such
a thing it would have been different, and not remarkable,
for I at least don't regard marriage as a sacrament.
Your theories are not so advanced as your practice!

Sue, you are terribly cutting when you like to be--a perfect Voltaire!
But you must treat me as you will!

When she saw how wretched he was she softenedand trying to blink
away her sympathetic tears said with all the winning reproachfulness
of a heart-hurt woman: "Ah--you should have told me before you
gave me that idea that you wanted to be allowed to love me!
I had no feeling before that moment at the railway-stationexcept--"
For once Sue was as miserable as hein her attempts to keep herself free
from emotionand her less than half-success.

Don't cry, dear!he implored.

I am--not crying--because I meant to--love you; but because of your
want of--confidence!

They were quite screened from the market-square without
and he could not help putting out his arm towards her waist.
His momentary desire was the means of her rallying. "Nono!"
she saiddrawing back stringentlyand wiping her eyes.
Of course not! It would be hypocrisy to pretend that it
would be meant as from my cousin; and it can't be in any
other way.

They moved on a dozen pacesand she showed herself recovered.
It was distracting to Judeand his heart would have ached less had
she appeared anyhow but as she did appear; essentially large-minded
and generous on reflectiondespite a previous exercise of those
narrow womanly humours on impulse that were necessary to give
her sex.

I don't blame you for what you couldn't help,she saidsmiling.
How should I be so foolish? I do blame you a little bit
for not telling me before. But, after all, it doesn't matter.
We should have had to keep apart, you see, even if this had not been
in your life.

No, we shouldn't, Sue! This is the only obstacle.

You forget that I must have loved you, and wanted to be
your wife, even if there had been no obstacle,said Sue
with a gentle seriousness which did not reveal her mind.
And then we are cousins, and it is bad for cousins
to marry. And--I am engaged to somebody else. As to our going
on together as we were going, in a sort of friendly way,
the people round us would have made it unable to continue.
Their views of the relations of man and woman are limited,
as is proved by their expelling me from the school.
Their philosophy only recognizes relations based on animal desire.
The wide field of strong attachment where desire plays, at least,
only a secondary part, is ignored by them--the part of--who is it?--
Venus Urania.

Her being able to talk learnedly showed that she was mistress
of herself again; and before they parted she had almost regained
her vivacious glanceher reciprocity of toneher gay manner
and her second-thought attitude of critical largeness towards
others of her age and sex.

He could speak more freely now. "There were several reasons
against my telling you rashly. One was what I have said;
anotherthat it was always impressed upon me that I ought
not to marry--that I belonged to an odd and peculiar family--
the wrong breed for marriage."

Ah--who used to say that to you?

My great-aunt. She said it always ended badly with us Fawleys.

That's strange. My father used to say the same to me!

They stood possessed by the same thoughtugly enougheven as an assumption:
that a union between themhad such been possiblewould have meant a terrible
intensification of unfitness--two bitters in one dish.

Oh, but there can't be anything in it!she said with nervous lightness.
Our family have been unlucky of late years in choosing mates--
that's all.

And then they pretended to persuade themselves that all that had
happened was of no consequenceand that they could still be cousins
and friends and warm correspondentsand have happy genial times
when they meteven if they met less frequently than before.
Their parting was in good friendshipand yet Jude's last look into
her eyes was tinged with inquiryfor he felt that he did not even
now quite know her mind.

TIDINGS from Sue a day or two after passed across Jude like a withering blast.

Before reading the letter he was led to suspect that its contents
were of a somewhat serious kind by catching sight of the signature--
which was in her full namenever used in her correspondence with him
since her first note:

MY DEAR JUDE--I have something to tell you which perhaps you

will not be surprised to hearthough certainly it may strike
you as being accelerated (as the railway companies say of their
trains). Mr. Phillotson and I are to be married quite soon--
in three or four weeks. We had intendedas you knowto wait
till I had gone through my course of training and obtained
my certificateso as to assist himif necessaryin the teaching.
But he generously says he does not see any object in waiting
now I am not at the training school. It is so good of him
because the awkwardness of my situation has really come about by my
fault in getting expelled.

Wish me joy. Remember I say you are toand you mustn't refuse!--
Your affectionate cousin


Jude staggered under the news; could eat no breakfast;
and kept on drinking tea because his mouth was so dry.
Then presently he went back to his work and laughed the usual bitter
laugh of a man so confronted. Everything seemed turning to satire.
And yetwhat could the poor girl do? he asked himself:
and felt worse than shedding tears.

O Susanna Florence Mary!he said as he worked. "You don't know
what marriage means!"

Could it be possible that his announcement of his own marriage
had pricked her on to thisjust as his visit to her when in liquor
may have pricked her on to her engagement? To be surethere seemed
to exist these other and sufficient reasonspractical and social
for her decision; but Sue was not a very practical or calculating person;
and he was compelled to think that a pique at having his secret
sprung upon her had moved her to give way to Phillotson's
probable representationsthat the best course to prove how unfounded
were the suspicions of the school authorities would be to marry
him off-handas in fulfilment of an ordinary engagement.
Sue hadin factbeen placed in an awkward corner. Poor Sue!

He determined to play the Spartan; to make the best of itand support her;
but he could not write the requested good wishes for a day or two.
Meanwhile there came another note from his impatient little dear:

Judewill you give me away? I have nobody else who could do it
so conveniently as youbeing the only married relation I have here
on the spoteven if my father were friendly enough to be willing
which he isn't. I hope you won't think it a trouble? I have been
looking at the marriage service in the prayer-bookand it seems
to me very humiliating that a giver-away should be required at all.
According to the ceremony as there printedmy bridegroom chooses me
of his own will and pleasure; but I don't choose him. Somebody GIVES
me to himlike a she-ass or she-goator any other domestic animal.
Bless your exalted views of womanO churchman! But I forget:
I am no longer privileged to tease you.--Ever


Jude screwed himself up to heroic key; and replied:

MY DEAR SUE--Of course I wish you joy! And also of course I will give
you away. What I suggest is thatas you have no house of your own

you do not marry from your school friend'sbut from mine. It would be
more properI thinksince I amas you saythe person nearest related
to you in this part of the world.

I don't see why you sign your letter in such a new and terribly formal way?
Surely you care a bit about me still!--Ever your affectionateJUDE.

What had jarred on him even more than the signature was a little
sting he had been silent on--the phrase "married relation"--
What an idiot it made him seem as her lover! If Sue had written
that in satirehe could hardly forgive her; if in suffering--
ahthat was another thing!

His offer of his lodging must have commended itself to Phillotson
at any ratefor the schoolmaster sent him a line of warm thanks
accepting the convenience. Sue also thanked him. Jude immediately
moved into more commodious quartersas much to escape the espionage
of the suspicious landlady who had been one cause of Sue's unpleasant
experience as for the sake of room.

Then Sue wrote to tell him the day fixed for the wedding; and Jude decided
after inquirythat she should come into residence on the following Saturday
which would allow of a ten days' stay in the city prior to the ceremony
sufficiently representing a nominal residence of fifteen.

She arrived by the ten o'clock train on the day aforesaid
Jude not going to meet her at the stationby her special request
that he should not lose a morning's work and payshe said
(if this were her true reason). But so well by this time did
he know Sue that the remembrance of their mutual sensitiveness at
emotional crises mighthe thoughthave weighed with her in this.
When he came home to dinner she had taken possession of
her apartment.

She lived in the same house with himbut on a different floor
and they saw each other littlean occasional supper being
the only meal they took togetherwhen Sue's manner was something
like that of a scared child. What she felt he did not know;
their conversation was mechanicalthough she did not look pale or ill.
Phillotson came frequentlybut mostly when Jude was absent.
On the morning of the weddingwhen Jude had given himself a holiday
Sue and her cousin had breakfast together for the first and last
time during this curious interval; in his room--the parlour--
which he had hired for the period of Sue's residence. Seeingas
women dohow helpless he was in making the place comfortable
she bustled about.

What's the matter, Jude?she said suddenly.

He was leaning with his elbows on the table and his chin on his hands
looking into a futurity which seemed to be sketched out on the tablecloth.


You are 'father', you know. That's what they call the man who gives
you away.

Jude could have said "Phillotson's age entitles him to be called that!"
But he would not annoy her by such a cheap retort.

She talked incessantlyas if she dreaded his indulgence in reflection
and before the meal was over both he and she wished they had not put such
confidence in their new view of thingsand had taken breakfast apart.

What oppressed Jude was the thought thathaving done a wrong thing of this
sort himselfhe was aiding and abetting the woman he loved in doing
a like wrong thinginstead of imploring and warning her against it.
It was on his tongue to sayYou have quite made up your mind?

After breakfast they went out on an errand together moved
by a mutual thought that it was the last opportunity they
would have of indulging in unceremonious companionship.
By the irony of fateand the curious trick in Sue's nature
of tempting Providence at critical timesshe took his arm as they
walked through the muddy street--a thing she had never done
before in her life--and on turning the corner they found themselves
close to a grey perpendicular church with a low-pitched roof-the
church of St. Thomas.

That's the church,said Jude.

Where I am going to be married?


Indeed!she exclaimed with curiosity. "How I should like to go in and see
what the spot is like where I am so soon to kneel and do it."

Again he said to himselfShe does not realize what marriage means!

He passively acquiesced in her wish to go inand they entered
by the western door. The only person inside the gloomy
building was a charwoman cleaning. Sue still held Jude's arm
almost as if she loved him. Cruelly sweetindeedshe had been
to him that morning; but his thoughts of a penance in store
for her were tempered by an ache:

... I can find no way
How a blow should fallsuch as falls on men
Nor prove too much for your womanhood!

They strolled undemonstratively up the nave towards the altar railing
which they stood against in silenceturning then and walking down
the nave againher hand still on his armprecisely like a couple
just married. The too suggestive incidententirely of her making
nearly broke down Jude.

I like to do things like this,she said in the delicate voice of an epicure
in emotionswhich left no doubt that she spoke the truth.

I know you do!said Jude.

They are interesting, because they have probably never been done before.
I shall walk down the church like this with my husband in about two hours,
shan't I!

No doubt you will!

Was it like this when you were married?

Good God, Sue--don't be so awfully merciless! ... There, dear one,
I didn't mean it!

Ah--you are vexed!she said regretfullyas she blinked away an access
of eye moisture. "And I promised never to vex you! ... I suppose I ought
not to have asked you to bring me in here. OhI oughtn't! I see it now.

My curiosity to hunt up a new sensation always leads me into these scrapes.
Forgive me! ... You willwon't youJude?"

The appeal was so remorseful that Jude's eyes were even wetter
than hers as he pressed her hand for Yes.

Now we'll hurry away, and I won't do it any more!
she continued humbly; and they came out of the building
Sue intending to go on to the station to meet Phillotson.
But the first person they encountered on entering the main
street was the schoolmaster himselfwhose train had arrived
sooner than Sue expected. There was nothing really to demur
to in her leaning on Jude's arm; but she withdrew her hand
and Jude thought that Phillotson had looked surprised.

We have been doing such a funny thing!said shesmiling candidly.
We've been to the church, rehearsing as it were. Haven't we, Jude?

How?said Phillotson curiously.

Jude inwardly deplored what he thought to be unnecessary frankness;
but she had gone too far not to explain allwhich she accordingly did
telling him how they had marched up to the altar.

Seeing how puzzled Phillotson seemedJude said as cheerfully
as he couldI am going to buy her another little present.
Will you both come to the shop with me?

No,said SueI'll go on to the house with him; and requesting
her lover not to be a long time she departed with the schoolmaster.

Jude soon joined them at his roomsand shortly after they prepared
for the ceremony. Phillotson's hair was brushed to a painful extent
and his shirt collar appeared stiffer than it had been for the previous
twenty years. Beyond this he looked dignified and thoughtful
and altogether a man of whom it was not unsafe to predict that he would
make a kind and considerate husband. That he adored Sue was obvious;
and she could almost be seen to feel that she was undeserving his adoration.

Although the distance was so short he had hired a fly from the Red Lion
and six or seven women and children had gathered by the door when they
came out. The schoolmaster and Sue were unknownthough Jude was getting
to be recognized as a citizen; and the couple were judged to be some
relations of his from a distancenobody supposing Sue to have been
a recent pupil at the training school.

In the carriage Jude took from his pocket his extra little wedding-present
which turned out to be two or three yards of white tullewhich he threw
over her bonnet and allas a veil.

It looks so odd over a bonnet,she said. "I'll take the bonnet off."

Oh no--let it stay,said Phillotson. And she obeyed.

When they had passed up the church and were standing in their
places Jude found that the antecedent visit had certainly
taken off the edge of this performancebut by the time they
were half-way on with the service he wished from his heart
that he had not undertaken the business of giving her away.
How could Sue have had the temerity to ask him to do it--
a cruelty possibly to herself as well as to him?
Women were different from men in such matters.
Was it that they wereinstead of more sensitiveas reputed
more callousand less romantic; or were they more heroic?

Or was Sue simply so perverse that she wilfully gave herself
and him pain for the odd and mournful luxury of practising
long-suffering in her own personand of being touched
with tender pity for him at having made him practise it?
He could perceive that her face was nervously setand when they
reached the trying ordeal of Jude giving her to Phillotson she
could hardly command herself; ratherhoweveras it seemed
from her knowledge of what her cousin must feelwhom she
need not have had there at allthan from self-consideration.
Possibly she would go on inflicting such pains again and again
and grieving for the sufferer again and againin all her
colossal inconsistency.

Phillotson seemed not to noticeto be surrounded by a mist which prevented
his seeing the emotions of others. As soon as they had signed their names
and come awayand the suspense was overJude felt relieved.

The meal at his lodging was a very simple affairand at two
o'clock they went off. In crossing the pavement to the fly she
looked back; and there was a frightened light in her eyes.
Could it be that Sue had acted with such unusual foolishness
as to plunge into she knew not what for the sake of asserting
her independence of himof retaliating on him for his secrecy?
Perhaps Sue was thus venturesome with men because she was childishly
ignorant of that side of their natures which wore out women's
hearts and lives.

When her foot was on the carriage-step she turned round
saying that she had forgotten something. Jude and the landlady
offered to get it.

No,she saidrunning back. "It is my handkerchief.
I know where I left it."

Jude followed her back. She had found itand came holding it in her hand.
She looked into his eyes with her own tearful onesand her lips suddenly
parted as if she were going to avow something. But she went on; and whatever
she had meant to say remained unspoken.

JUDE wondered if she had really left her handkerchief behind;
or whether it were that she had miserably wished to tell him
of a love that at the last moment she could not bring herself
to express.

He could not stay in his silent lodging when they were gone
and fearing that he might be tempted to drown his misery in
alcohol he went upstairschanged his dark clothes for his white
his thin boots for his thickand proceeded to his customary
work for the afternoon.

But in the cathedral he seemed to hear a voice behind him
and to be possessed with an idea that she would come back.
She could not possibly go home with Phillotsonhe fancied.
The feeling grew and stirred. The moment that the clock
struck the last of his working hours he threw down his
tools and rushed homeward. "Has anybody been for me?"
he asked.

Nobody had been there.

As he could claim the downstairs sitting-room till twelve o'clock
that night he sat in it all the evening; and even when the clock
had struck elevenand the family had retiredhe could not shake off
the feeling that she would come back and sleep in the little room
adjoining his own in which she had slept so many previous days.
Her actions were always unpredictable: why should she not come?
Gladly would he have compounded for the denial of her as a sweetheart
and wife by having her live thus as a fellow-lodger and friend
even on the most distant terms. His supper still remained spread
and going to the front doorand softly setting it openhe returned
to the room and sat as watchers sit on Old-Mid-summer eves
expecting the phantom of the Beloved. But she did not come.

Having indulged in this wild hope he went upstairsand looked
out of the windowand pictured her through the evening journey
to Londonwhither she and Phillotson had gone for their holiday;
their rattling along through the damp night to their hotel
under the same sky of ribbed cloud as that he beheld
through which the moon showed its position rather than its shape
and one or two of the larger stars made themselves visible
as faint nebulae only. It was a new beginning of Sue's history.
He projected his mind into the futureand saw her with
children more or less in her own likeness around her.
But the consolation of regarding them as a continuation of her
identity was denied to himas to all such dreamersby the
wilfulness of Nature in not allowing issue from one parent alone.
Every desired renewal of an existence is debased by being
half alloy. "If at the estrangement or death of my lost love
I could go and see her child--hers solely--there would be
comfort in it!" said Jude. And then he again uneasily saw
as he had latterly seen with more and more frequencythe scorn
of Nature for man's finer emotionsand her lack of interest in
his aspirations.

The oppressive strength of his affection for Sue showed
itself on the morrow and following days yet more clearly.
He could no longer endure the light of the Melchester lamps;
the sunshine was as drab paintand the blue sky as zinc.
Then he received news that his old aunt was dangerously
ill at Marygreenwhich intelligence almost coincided
with a letter from his former employer at Christminster
who offered him permanent work of a good class if he would
come back. The letters were almost a relief to him.
He started to visit Aunt Drusillaand resolved to go onward
to Christminster to see what worth there might be in the
builder's offer.

Jude found his aunt even worse than the communication from the Widow
Edlin had led him to expect. There was every possibility of her
lingering on for weeks or monthsthough little likelihood.
He wrote to Sue informing her of the state of her aunt
and suggesting that she might like to see her aged relative alive.
He would meet her at Alfredston Roadthe following evening
Mondayon his way back from Christminsterif she could come
by the up-train which crossed his down-train at that station.
Next morningaccordinghe went on to Christminsterintending to
return to Alfredston soon enough to keep the suggested appointment
with Sue.

The city of learning wore an estranged lookand he had lost all feeling
for its associations. Yet as the sun made vivid lights and shades
of the mullioned architecture of the facadesand drew patterns
of the crinkled battlements on the young turf of the quadrangles

Jude thought he had never seen the place look more beautiful.
He came to the street in which he had first beheld Sue. The chair
she had occupied whenleaning over her ecclesiastical scrolls
a hog-hair brush in her handher girlish figure had arrested the gaze
of his inquiring eyesstood precisely in its former spotempty.
It was as if she were deadand nobody had been found capable of
succeeding her in that artistic pursuit. Hers was now the city phantom
while those of the intellectual and devotional worthies who had
once moved him to emotion were no longer able to assert their
presence there.

Howeverhere he was; and in fulfilment of his intention he went on to his
former lodging in "Beersheba near the ritualistic church of St. Silas.
The old landlady who opened the door seemed glad to see him again,
and bringing some lunch informed him that the builder who had employed him
had called to inquire his address.

Jude went on to the stone-yard where he had worked.
But the old sheds and bankers were distasteful to him;
he felt it impossible to engage himself to return and stay
in this place of vanished dreams. He longed for the hour
of the homeward train to Alfredston, where he might probably
meet Sue.

Then, for one ghastly half-hour of depression caused by these scenes,
there returned upon him that feeling which had been his undoing
more than once--that he was not worth the trouble of being taken care
of either by himself or others; and during this half-hour he met
Tinker Taylor, the bankrupt ecclesiastical ironmonger, at Fourways,
who proposed that they should adjourn to a bar and drink together.
They walked along the street till they stood before one of the great
palpitating centres of Christminster life, the inn wherein he formerly
had responded to the challenge to rehearse the Creed in Latin--
now a popular tavern with a spacious and inviting entrance, which gave
admittance to a bar that had been entirely renovated and refitted in
modern style since Jude's residence here.

Tinker Taylor drank off his glass and departed, saying it
was too stylish a place now for him to feel at home in
unless he was drunker than he had money to be just then.
Jude was longer finishing his, and stood abstractedly silent
in the, for the minute, almost empty place. The bar had been
gutted and newly arranged throughout, mahogany fixtures having
taken the place of the old painted ones, while at the back
of the standing-space there were stuffed sofa-benches. The
room was divided into compartments in the approved manner,
between which were screens of ground glass in mahogany framing,
to prevent topers in one compartment being put to the blush
by the recognitions of those in the next. On the inside
of the counter two barmaids leant over the white-handled
beer-engines, and the row of little silvered taps inside,
dripping into a pewter trough.

Feeling tired, and having nothing more to do till the train left,
Jude sat down on one of the sofas. At the back of the barmaids rose
bevel-edged mirrors, with glass shelves running along their front,
on which stood precious liquids that Jude did not know the name of,
in bottles of topaz, sapphire, ruby and amethyst. The moment was
enlivened by the entrance of some customers into the next compartment,
and the starting of the mechanical tell-tale of monies received,
which emitted a ting-ting every time a coin was put in.

The barmaid attending to this compartment was invisible
to Jude's direct glance, though a reflection of her back

in the glass behind her was occasionally caught by his eyes.
He had only observed this listlessly, when she turned
her face for a moment to the glass to set her hair tidy.
Then he was amazed to discover that the face was Arabella's.

If she had come on to his compartment she would have seen him.
But she did not, this being presided over by the maiden on the other side.
Abby was in a black gown, with white linen cuffs and a broad white collar,
and her figure, more developed than formerly, was accentuated by a bunch
of daffodils that she wore on her left bosom. In the compartment she
served stood an electro-plated fountain of water over a spirit-lamp,
whose blue flame sent a steam from the top, all this being visible to him
only in the mirror behind her; which also reflected the faces of the men
she was attending to--one of them a handsome, dissipated young fellow,
possibly an undergraduate, who had been relating to her an experience of some
humorous sort.

OhMr. Cockmannow! How can you tell such a tale to me in my innocence!"
she cried gaily. "Mr. Cockmanwhat do you use to make your moustache curl
so beautiful?" As the young man was clean shaven the retort provoked a laugh
at his expense.

Come!said heI'll have a curacao; and a light, please.

She served the liqueur from one of the lovely bottles and striking a match
held it to his cigarette with ministering archness while he whiffed.

Well, have you heard from your husband lately, my dear?
he asked.

Not a sound,said she.

Where is he?

I left him in Australia; and I suppose he's there still.

Jude's eyes grew rounder.

What made you part from him?

Don't you ask questions, and you won't hear lies.

Come then, give me my change, which you've been keeping from me
for the last quarter of an hour; and I'll romantically vanish up
the street of this picturesque city.

She handed the change over the counterin taking which he caught
her fingers and held them. There was a slight struggle and titter
and he bade her good-bye and left.

Jude had looked on with the eye of a dazed philosopher.
It was extraordinary how far removed from his life Arabella now
seemed to be. He could not realize their nominal closeness.
Andthis being the casein his present frame of mind he was
indifferent to the fact that Arabella was his wife indeed.

The compartment that she served emptied itself of visitors
and after a brief thought he entered itand went forward
to the counter. Arabella did not recognize him for a moment.
Then their glances met. She started; till a humorous impudence
sparkled in her eyesand she spoke.

Well, I'm blest! I thought you were underground years ago!


I never heard anything of you, or I don't know that I should have
come here. But never mind! What shall I treat you to this afternoon?
A Scotch and soda? Come, anything that the house will afford,
for old acquaintance' sake!

Thanks, Arabella,said Jude without a smile. "But I don't want anything
more than I've had." The fact was that her unexpected presence there had
destroyed at a stroke his momentary taste for strong liquor as completely
as if it had whisked him back to his milk-fed infancy.

That's a pity, now you could get it for nothing.

How long have you been here?

About six weeks. I returned from Sydney three months ago.
I always liked this business, you know.

I wonder you came to this place!

Well, as I say, I thought you were gone to glory, and being in London I
saw the situation in an advertisement. Nobody was likely to know me here,
even if I had minded, for I was never in Christminster in my growing up.

Why did you return from Australia?

Oh, I had my reasons.... Then you are not a don yet?


Not even a reverend?


Nor so much as a rather reverend dissenting gentleman?

I am as I was.

True--you look so.She idly allowed her fingers to rest on
the pull of the beer-engine as she inspected him critically.
He observed that her hands were smaller and whiter than
when he had lived with herand that on the hand which pulled
the engine she wore an ornamental ring set with what seemed
to be real sapphires--which they wereindeedand were much
admired as such by the young men who frequented the bar.

So you pass as having a living husband,he continued.

Yes. I thought it might be awkward if I called myself a widow,
as I should have liked.

True. I am known here a little.

I didn't mean on that account--for as I said I didn't expect you.
It was for other reasons.

What were they?

I don't care to go into them,she replied evasively.
I make a very good living, and I don't know that I want
your company.

Here a chappie with no chinand a moustache like a lady's eyebrow

came and asked for a curiously compounded drinkand Arabella
was obliged to go and attend to him. "We can't talk here
she said, stepping back a moment. Can't you wait till nine?
Say yesand don't be a fool. I can get off duty two hours
sooner than usualif I ask. I am not living in the house
at present."

He reflected and said gloomilyI'll come back. I suppose we'd
better arrange something.

Oh, bother arranging! I'm not going to arrange anything!

But I must know a thing or two; and, as you say, we can't talk here.
Very well; I'll call for you.

Depositing his unemptied glass he went out and walked up and down the street.
Here was a rude flounce into the pellucid sentimentality of his sad attachment
to Sue. Though Arabella's word was absolutely untrustworthyhe thought there
might be some truth in her implication that she had not wished to disturb him
and had really supposed him dead. Howeverthere was only one thing now to
be doneand that was to play a straightforward partthe law being the law
and the woman between whom and himself there was no more unity than between
east and west being in the eye of the Church one person with him.

Having to meet Arabella hereit was impossible to meet Sue at Alfredston
as he had promised. At every thought of this a pang had gone through him;
but the conjuncture could not be helped. Arabella was perhaps
an intended intervention to punish him for his unauthorized love.
Passing the eveningthereforein a desultory waiting about the town wherein
he avoided the precincts of every cloister and hallbecause he could
not bear to behold themhe repaired to the tavern bar while the hundred
and one strokes were resounding from the Great Bell of Cardinal College
a coincidence which seemed to him gratuitous irony. The inn was now
brilliantly lighted upand the scene was altogether more brisk and gay.
The faces of the barmaidens had risen in coloureach having a pink
flush on her cheek; their manners were still more vivacious than before-more
abandonedmore excitedmore sensuousand they expressed their
sentiments and desires less euphemisticallylaughing in a lackadaisical tone
without reserve.

The bar had been crowded with men of all sorts during the previous hour
and he had heard from without the hubbub of their voices; but the customers
were fewer at last. He nodded to Arabellaand told her that she would find
him outside the door when she came away.

But you must have something with me first,she said with great good humour.
Just an early night-cap: I always do. Then you can go out and wait a minute,
as it is best we should not be seen going together.She drew a couple of
liqueur glasses of brandy; and though she had evidentlyfrom her countenance
already taken in enough alcohol either by drinking ormore probablyfrom the
atmosphere she had breathed for so many hoursshe finished hers quickly.
He also drank hisand went outside the house.

In a few minutes she camein a thick jacket and a hat with a black feather.
l live quite near,she saidtaking his armand can let myself in by a
latch-key at any time. What arrangement do you want to come to?

Oh--none in particular,he answeredthoroughly sick and tired
his thoughts again reverting to Alfredstonand the train he did not go by;
the probable disappointment of Sue that he was not there when she arrived
and the missed pleasure of her company on the long and lonely climb by
starlight up the hills to Marygreen. "l ought to have gone back really!
My aunt is on her deathbedI fear."

I'll go over with you to-morrow morning. I think I could get a day off.

There was something particularly uncongenial in the idea of Arabella
who had no more sympathy than a tigress with his relations or him
coming to the bedside of his dying auntand meeting Sue. Yet he said
Of course, if you'd like to, you can.

Well, that we'll consider.... Now, until we have come to some
agreement it is awkward our being together here--where you are known,
and I am getting known, though without any suspicion that I have
anything to do with you. As we are going towards the station,
suppose we take the nine-forty train to Aldbrickham? We shall
be there in little more than half an hour, and nobody will know
us for one night, and we shall be quite free to act as we choose
till we have made up our minds whether we'll make anything public
or not.

As you like.

Then wait till I get two or three things. This is my lodging.
Sometimes when late I sleep at the hotel where I am engaged,
so nobody will think anything of my staying out.

She speedily returnedand they went on to the railwayand made
the half-hour's journey to Aldbrickhamwhere they entered
a third-rate inn near the station in time for a late supper.

ON the morrow between nine and half-past they were journeying
back to Christminsterthe only two occupants of a compartment
in a third-class railway-carriage. Havinglike Judemade rather
a hasty toilet to catch the trainArabella looked a little frowsy
and her face was very far from possessing the animation
which had characterized it at the bar the night before.
When they came out of the station she found that she still
had half an hour to spare before she was due at the bar.
They walked in silence a little way out of the town in the direction
of Alfredston. Jude looked up the far highway.

Ah ... poor feeble me!he murmured at last.

What?said she.

This is the very road by which I came into Christminster years
ago full of plans!

Well, whatever the road is I think my time is nearly up,
as I have to be in the bar by eleven o'clock. And as I said,
I shan't ask for the day to go with you to see your aunt.
So perhaps we had better part here. I'd sooner not walk up
Chief Street with you, since we've come to no conclusion
at all.

Very well. But you said when we were getting up this morning that you
had something you wished to tell me before I left?

So I had--two things--one in particular. But you wouldn't
promise to keep it a secret. I'll tell you now if you promise?
As an honest woman I wish you to know it.... It was what I began
telling you in the night--about that gentleman who managed

the Sydney hotel.Arabella spoke somewhat hurriedly for her.
You'll keep it close?

Yes--yes--I promise!said Jude impatiently. "Of course I don't
want to reveal your secrets."

Whenever I met him out for a walk, he used to say that he was
much taken with my looks, and he kept pressing me to marry him.
I never thought of coming back to England again; and being out there
in Australia, with no home of my own after leaving my father, I at
last agreed, and did.

What--marry him?


Regularly--legally--in church?

Yes. And lived with him till shortly before I left.
It was stupid, I know; but I did! There, now I've told you.
Don't round upon me! He talks of coming back to England,
poor old chap. But if he does, he won't be likely to
find me.

Jude stood pale and fixed.

Why the devil didn't you tell me last, night!he said.

Well--I didn't.... Won't you make it up with me, then?

So in talking of 'your husband' to the bar gentlemen you meant him,
of course--not me!

Of course.... Come, don't fuss about it.

I have nothing more to say!replied Jude. "I have nothing
at all to say about the--crime--you've confessed to!"

Crime! Pooh. They don't think much of such as that over there!
Lots of 'em do it.... Well, if you take it like that I shall go back
to him! He was very fond of me, and we lived honourable enough,
and as respectable as any married couple in the colony! How did I know
where you were?

I won't go blaming you. I could say a good deal; but perhaps it
would be misplaced. What do you wish me to do?

Nothing. There was one thing more I wanted to tell you;
but I fancy we've seen enough of one another for the present!
I shall think over what you said about your circumstances, and let
you know.

Thus they parted. Jude watched her disappear in the direction
of the hoteland entered the railway station close by.
Finding that it wanted three-quarters of an hour of the time
at which he could get a train back to Alfredstonhe strolled
mechanically into the city as far as to the Fourways
where he stood as he had so often stood beforeand surveyed
Chief Street stretching aheadwith its college after college
in picturesqueness unrivalled except by such Continental vistas
as the Street of Palaces in Genoa; the lines of the buildings being
as distinct in the morning air as in an architectural drawing.
But Jude was far from seeing or criticizing these things;
they were hidden by an indescribable consciousness of Arabella's

midnight contiguitya sense of degradation at his revived
experiences with herof her appearance as she lay asleep at dawn
which set upon his motionless face a look as of one accurst.
If he could only have felt resentment towards her he would have been
less unhappy; but he pitied while he contemned her.

Jude turned and retraced his steps. Drawing again towards
the station he started at hearing his name pronounced--
less at the name than at the voice. To his great surprise
no other than Sue stood like a vision before him--her look
bodeful and anxious as in a dreamher little mouth nervous
and her strained eyes speaking reproachful inquiry.

Oh, Jude--I am so glad--to meet you like this!she said in quick
uneven accents not far from a sob. Then she flushed as she observed
his thought that they had not met since her marriage.

They looked away from each other to hide their emotion
took each other's hand without further speechand went on
together awhiletill she glanced at him with furtive solicitude.
I arrived at Alfredston station last night, as you asked me to,
and there was nobody to meet me! But I reached Marygreen alone,
and they told me Aunt was a trifle better. I sat up with her,
and as you did not come all night I was frightened about you--
I thought that perhaps, when you found yourself back in the old city,
you were upset at--at thinking I was--married, and not there
as I used to be; and that you had nobody to speak to;
so you had tried to drown your gloom--as you did at that former
time when you were disappointed about entering as a student,
and had forgotten your promise to me that you never would again.
And this, I thought, was why you hadn't come to meet me!

And you came to hunt me up, and deliver me, like a good angel!

I thought I would come by the morning train and try to find you--in case--
in case----

I did think of my promise to you, dear, continually! I shall never break
out again as I did, I am sure. I may have been doing nothing better,
but I was not doing that--I loathe the thought of it.

I am glad your staying had nothing to do with that. But,she said
the faintest pout entering into her toneyou didn't come back last night
and meet me, as you engaged to!

I didn't--I am sorry to say. I had an appointment at nine o'clock--
too late for me to catch the train that would have met yours,
or to get home at all.

Looking at his loved one as she appeared to him nowin his
tender thought the sweetest and most disinterested comrade
that he had ever hadliving largely in vivid imaginings
so ethereal a creature that her spirit could be seen trembling
through her limbshe felt heartily ashamed of his earthliness
in spending the hours he had spent in Arabella's company.
There was something rude and immoral in thrusting these recent facts
of his life upon the mind of one whoto himwas so uncarnate
as to seem at times impossible as a human wife to any average man.
And yet she was Phillotson's. How she had become suchhow she
lived as suchpassed his comprehension as he regarded her

You'll go back with me?he said. "There's a train just now.
I wonder how my aunt is by this time.... And soSueyou really

came on my account all this way! At what an early time you must
have startedpoor thing!"

Yes. Sitting up watching alone made me all nerves for you,
and instead of going to bed when it got light I started.
And now you won't frighten me like this again about your morals
for nothing?

He was not so sure that she had been frightened about his morals
for nothing. He released her hand till they had entered the train--
it seemed the same carriage he had lately got out of with another--
where they sat down side by sideSue between him and the window.
He regarded the delicate lines of her profileand the small
tightapplelike convexities of her bodiceso different from
Arabella's amplitudes. Though she knew he was looking at her she
did not turn to himbut kept her eyes forwardas if afraid that by
meeting his own some troublous discussion would be initiated.

Sue--you are married now, you know, like me; and yet we have been
in such a hurry that we have not said a word about it!

There's no necessity,she quickly returned.

Oh well--perhaps not.... But I wish

Jude--don't talk about ME--I wish you wouldn't!she entreated.
It distresses me, rather. Forgive my saying it! ... Where did you stay
last night?

She had asked the question in perfect innocenceto change the topic.
He knew thatand said merelyAt an inn,though it would have
been a relief to tell her of his meeting with an unexpected one.
But the latter's final announcement of her marriage in Australia
bewildered him lest what he might say should do his ignorant wife
an injury.

Their talk proceeded but awkwardly till they reached Alfredston.
That Sue was not as she had beenbut was labelled "Phillotson
paralyzed Jude whenever he wanted to commune with her as an individual.
Yet she seemed unaltered--he could not say why. There remained
the five-mile extra journey into the country, which it was just
as easy to walk as to drive, the greater part of it being uphill.
Jude had never before in his life gone that road with Sue,
though he had with another. It was now as if he carried a bright
light which temporarily banished the shady associations of the
earlier time.

Sue talked; but Jude noticed that she still kept the conversation
from herself. At length he inquired if her husband were well.

O yes she said. He is obliged to be in the school all the day
or he would have come with me. He is so good and kind that to
accompany me he would have dismissed the school for onceeven against
his principles--for he is strongly opposed to giving casual holidays--
only I wouldn't let him. I felt it would be better to come alone.
Aunt DrusillaI knewwas so very eccentric; and his being
almost a stranger to her now would have made it irksome to both.
Since it turns out that she is hardly conscious I am glad I did not
ask him."

Jude had walked moodily while this praise of Phillotson was being expressed.
Mr. Phillotson obliges you in everything, as he ought,he said.

Of course.

You ought to be a happy wife.

And of course I am.

Bride, I might almost have said, as yet. It is not so many weeks since I
gave you to him, and----

Yes, I know! I know!There was something in her face
which belied her late assuring wordsso strictly proper
and so lifelessly spoken that they might have been taken from
a list of model speeches in "The Wife's Guide to Conduct."
Jude knew the quality of every vibration in Sue's voicecould read
every symptom of her mental condition; and he was convinced
that she was unhappyalthough she had not been a month married.
But her rushing away thus from hometo see the last of a
relative whom she had hardly known in her lifeproved nothing;
for Sue naturally did such things as those.

Well, you have my good wishes now as always, Mrs. Phillotson.

She reproached him by a glance.

No, you are not Mrs. Phillotson,murmured Jude. "You are dear
free Sue Brideheadonly you don't know it! Wifedom has not yet
squashed up and digested you in its vast maw as an atom which has
no further individuality."

Sue put on a look of being offendedtill she answered
Nor has husbandom you, so far as I can see!

But it has!he saidshaking his head sadly.

When they reached the lone cottage under the firsbetween the Brown House
and Marygreenin which Jude and Arabella had lived and quarrelledhe turned
to look at it. A squalid family lived there now. He could not help saying
to Sue: "That's the house my wife and I occupied the whole of the time we
lived together. I brought her home to that house."

She looked at it. "That to you was what the school-house at Shaston
is to me."

Yes; but I was not very happy there as you are in yours.

She closed her lips in retortive silenceand they walked
some way till she glanced at him to see how he was taking it.
Of course I may have exaggerated your happiness--one never knows,
he continued blandly.

Don't think that, Jude, for a moment, even though you may have said it to
sting me! He's as good to me as a man can be, and gives me perfect liberty--
which elderly husbands don't do in general.... If you think I am not happy
because he's too old for me, you are wrong.

I don't think anything against him--to you dear.

And you won't say things to distress me, will you?

I will not.

He said no morebut he knew thatfrom some cause or other
in taking Phillotson as a husbandSue felt that she had done
what she ought not to have done.

They plunged into the concave field on the other side of which rose
the village--the field wherein Jude had received a thrashing
from the farmer many years earlier. On ascending to the village
and approaching the house they found Mrs. Edlin standing at
the doorwho at sight of them lifted her hands deprecatingly.
She's downstairs, if you'll believe me!cried the widow. "Out o'
bed she gotand nothing could turn her. What will come o't I do
not know!"

On enteringthere indeed by the fireplace sat the old woman
wrapped in blanketsand turning upon them a countenance
like that of Sebastiano's Lazarus. They must have looked
their amazementfor she said in a hollow voice:

Ah--sceered ye, have I! I wasn't going to bide up there no longer,
to please nobody! 'Tis more than flesh and blood can bear,
to be ordered to do this and that by a feller that don't know half
as well as you do your-self! ... Ah--you'll rue this marrying
as well as he!she addedturning to Sue. "All our family do--
and nearly all everybody else's. You should have done as I did
you simpleton! And Phillotson the schoolmasterof all men!
What made 'ee marry him?"

What makes most women marry, Aunt?

Ah! You mean to say you loved the man!

I don't meant to say anything definite.

Do ye love un?

Don't ask me, Aunt.

I can mind the man very well. A very civil, honourable liver; but Lord!--
I don't want to wownd your feelings, but--there be certain men here and there
that no woman of any niceness can stomach. I should have said he was one.
I don't say so NOW, since you must ha' known better than I--but that's what I
SHOULD have said!

Sue jumped up and went out. Jude followed herand found
her in the outhousecrying.

Don't cry, dear!said Jude in distress. "She means well
but is very crusty and queer nowyou know."

Oh no--it isn't that!said Suetrying to dry her eyes.
I don't mind her roughness one bit.

What is it, then?

It is that what she says is--is true!

God--what--you don't like him?asked Jude.

I don't mean that!she said hastily. "That I ought--
perhaps I ought not to have married!"

He wondered if she had really been going to say that at first.
They went backand the subject was smoothed overand her aunt took
rather kindly to Suetelling her that not many young women newly
married would have come so far to see a sick old crone like her.
In the afternoon Sue prepared to departJude hiring a neighbour to drive
her to Alfredston.

I'll go with you to the station, if you'd like?he said.

She would not let him. The man came round with the trap
and Jude helped her into itperhaps with unnecessary attention
for she looked at him prohibitively.

I suppose--I may come to see you some day, when I am back again
at Melchester?he half-crossly observed.

She bent down and said softly: "Nodear--you are not to come yet.
I don't think you are in a good mood."

Very well,said Jude. "Good-bye!"

Good-bye!She waved her hand and was gone.

She's right! I won't go!he murmured.

He passed the evening and following days in mortifying by every
possible means his wish to see hernearly starving himself in attempts
to extinguish by fasting his passionate tendency to love her.
He read sermons on disciplineand hunted up passages in Church
history that treated of the Ascetics of the second century.
Before he had returned from Marygreen to Melchester there arrived
a letter from Arabella. The sight of it revived a stronger feeling
of self-condemnation for his brief return to her society than for his
attachment to Sue.

The letterhe perceivedbore a London postmark instead
of the Christminster one. Arabella informed him that a few
days after their parting in the morning at Christminster
she had been surprised by an affectionate letter from her
Australian husbandformerly manager of the hotel in Sydney.
He had come to England on purpose to find her; and had taken
a freefully-licensed publicin Lambethwhere he wished
her to join him in conducting the businesswhich was likely
to be a very thriving onethe house being situated in
an excellentdensely populatedgin-drinking neighbourhood
and already doing a trade of 200 pounds a monthwhich could be
easily doubled.

As he had said that he loved her very much stilland implored
her to tell him where she wasand as they had only parted
in a slight tiffand as her engagement in Christminster was
only temporaryshe had just gone to join him as he urged.
She could not help feeling that she belonged to him more
than to Judesince she had properly married himand had
lived with him much longer than with her first husband.
In thus wishing Jude good-bye she bore him no ill-will
and trusted he would not turn upon hera weak woman
and inform against herand bring her to ruin now that she
had a chance of improving her circumstances and leading a
genteel life.

JUDE returned to Melchesterwhich had the questionable recommendation of
being only a dozen and a half miles from his Sue's now permanent residence.
At first he felt that this nearness was a distinct reason for not going
southward at all; but Christminster was too sad a place to bear
while the proximity of Shaston to Melchester might afford him the glory
of worsting the Enemy in a close engagementsuch as was deliberately sought

by the priests and virgins of the early Churchwhodisdaining an ignominious
flight from temptationbecame even chamber-partners with impunity.
Jude did not pause to remember thatin the laconic words of the historian
insulted Nature sometimes vindicated her rightsin such circumstances.

He now returned with feverish desperation to his study for the priesthood--
in the recognition that the single-mindedness of his aimsand his
fidelity to the causehad been more than questionable of late.
His passion for Sue troubled his soul; yet his lawful abandonment to the
society of Arabella for twelve hours seemed instinctively a worse thing--
even though she had not told him of her Sydney husband till afterwards.
He hadhe verily believedovercome all tendency to fly to liquor--
whichindeedhe had never done from tastebut merely as an escape
from intolerable misery of mind. Yet he perceived with despondency that
taken all roundhe was a man of too many passions to make a good clergyman;
the utmost he could hope for was that in a life of constant internal
warfare between flesh and spirit the former might not always
be victorious.

As a hobbyauxiliary to his readings in Divinityhe developed
his slight skill in church-music and thorough-basstill
he could join in part-singing from notation with some accuracy.
A mile or two from Melchester there was a restored village church
to which Jude had originally gone to fix the new columns
and capitals. By this means he had become acquainted with
the organistand the ultimate result was that he joined
the choir as a bass voice.

He walked out to this parish twice every Sundayand sometimes in the week.
One evening about Easter the choir met for practiceand a new hymn which Jude
had heard of as being by a Wessex composer was to be tried and prepared for
the following week. It turned out to be a strangely emotional composition.
As they all sang it over and over again its harmonies grew upon Jude
and moved him exceedingly.

When they had finished he went round to the organist to make inquiries.
The score was in manuscriptthe name of the composer being at the head
together with the title of the hymn: "The Foot of the Cross."

Yes,said the organist. "He is a local man. He is a professional musician
at Kennetbridge--between here and Christminster. The vicar knows him.
He was brought up and educated in Christminster traditionswhich accounts
for the quality of the piece. I think he plays in the large church there
and has a surpliced choir. He comes to Melchester sometimesand once tried
to get the cathedral organ when the post was vacant. The hymn is getting
about everywhere this Easter."

As he walked humming the air on his way homeJude fell to
musing on its composerand the reasons why he composed it.
What a man of sympathies he must be! Perplexed and harassed
as he himself was about Sue and Arabellaand troubled
as was his conscience by the complication of his position
how he would like to know that man!" He of all men would
understand my difficulties said the impulsive Jude.
If there were any person in the world to choose as a confidant,
this composer would be the one, for he must have suffered,
and throbbed, and yearned.

In brief, ill as he could afford the time and money for the journey,
Fawley resolved, like the child that he was, to go to Kennetbridge
the very next Sunday. He duly started, early in the morning, for it
was only by a series of crooked railways that he could get to the town.
About mid-day he reached it, and crossing the bridge into the quaint old
borough he inquired for the house of the composer.

They told him it was a red brick building some little way further on.
Also that the gentleman himself had just passed along the street not five
minutes before.

Which way?" asked Jude with alacrity.

Straight along homeward from church.

Jude hastened onand soon had the pleasure of observing a man in a black
coat and a black slouched felt hat no considerable distance ahead.
Stretching out his legs yet more widely he stalked after. "A hungry soul
in pursuit of a full soul!" he said. "I must speak to that man!"

He could nothoweverovertake the musician before he had entered his own
houseand then arose the question if this were an expedient time to call.
Whether or not he decided to do so there and thennow that he had got here
the distance home being too great for him to wait till late in the afternoon.
This man of soul would understand scant ceremonyand might be quite
a perfect adviser in a case in which an earthly and illegitimate passion
had cunningly obtained entrance into his heart through the opening afforded
for religion.

Jude accordingly rang the belland was admitted.

The musician came to him in a momentand being respectably dressed
good-lookingand frank in mannerJude obtained a favourable reception.
He was nevertheless conscious that there would be a certain awkwardness in
explaining his errand.

I have been singing in the choir of a little church near Melchester,
he said. "And we have this week practised 'The Foot of the Cross'
which I understandsirthat you composed?"

I did--a year or so ago.

I--like it. I think it supremely beautiful!

Ah well--other people have said so too. Yes, there's money in it,
if I could only see about getting it published. I have other
compositions to go with it, too; I wish I could bring them out;
for I haven't made a five-pound note out of any of them yet.
These publishing people--they want the copyright of an obscure
composer's work, such as mine is, for almost less than I should have
to pay a person for making, a fair manuscript copy of the score.
The one you speak of I have lent to various friends about
here and Melchester, and so it has got to be sung a little.
But music is a poor staff to lean on--I am giving it up entirely.
You must go into trade if you want to make money nowadays.
The wine business is what I am thinking of. This is my forthcoming list--
it is not issued yet--but you can take one.

He handed Jude an advertisement list of several pages in booklet shape
ornamentally margined with a red linein which were set forth
the various claretschampagnesportssherriesand other wines
with which he purposed to initiate his new venture. It took Jude
more than by surprise that the man with the soul was thus and thus;
and he felt that he could not open up his confidences.

They talked a little longerbut constrainedlyfor when the musician found
that Jude was a poor man his manner changed from what it had been while Jude's
appearance and address deceived him as to his position and pursuits.
Jude stammered out something about his feelings in wishing to congratulate
the author on such an exalted compositionand took an embarrassed leave.

All the way home by the slow Sunday trainsitting in the fireless
waiting-rooms on this cold spring dayhe was depressed enough at
his simplicity in taking such a journey. But no sooner did he reach
his Melchester lodging than he found awaiting him a letter which had
arrived that morning a few minutes after he had left the house.
It was a contrite little note from Suein which she said
with sweet humilitythat she felt she had been horrid in telling
him he was not to come to see herthat she despised herself
for having been so conventional; and that he was to be sure to come
by the eleven-forty-five train that very Sundayand have dinner
with them at half-past one.

Jude almost tore his hair at having missed this letter till it
was too late to act upon its contents; but he had chastened himself
considerably of lateand at last his chimerical expedition
to Kennetbridge really did seem to have been another special
intervention of Providence to keep him away from temptation.
But a growing impatience of faithwhich he had noticed in himself
more than once of latemade him pass over in ridicule the idea
that God sent people on fools' errands. He longed to see her;
he was angry at having missed her: and he wrote instantly
telling her what had happenedand saying he had not enough
patience to wait till the following Sundaybut would come any day
in the week that she liked to name.

Since he wrote a little over-ardentlySueas her manner was
delayed her reply till Thursday before Good Friday
when she said he might come that afternoon if he wished
this being the earliest day on which she could welcome him
for she was now assistant-teacher in her husband's school.
Jude therefore got leave from the cathedral works at the trifling
expense of a stoppage of payand went.

Part Fourth


Whoso prefers either Matrimony or other Ordinance before the Good
of Man and the plain Exigence of Charity, let him profess Papist,
or Protestant, or what he will, he is no better than a Pharisee.--

J. Milton.
SHASTONthe ancient British Palladour

From whose foundation first such strange reports

(as Drayton sang it)wasand isin itself the city of a dream.
Vague imaginings of its castleits three mintsits magnificent
apsidal abbeythe chief glory of South Wessexits twelve churches
its shrineschantrieshospitalsits gabled freestone mansions-

all now ruthlessly swept away--throw the visitoreven against
his willinto a pensive melancholywhich the stimulating
atmosphere and limitless landscape around him can scarcely dispel.
The spot was the burial-place of a king and a queenof abbots
and abbessessaints and bishopsknights and squires.
The bones of King Edward "the Martyr carefully removed hither
for holy preservation, brought Shaston a renown which made it
the resort of pilgrims from every part of Europe, and enabled it
to maintain a reputation extending far beyond English shores.
To this fair creation of the great Middle-Age the Dissolution was,
as historians tell us, the death-knell. With the destruction
of the enormous abbey the whole place collapsed in a general ruin:
the Martyr's bones met with the fate of the sacred pile
that held them, and not a stone is now left to tell where
they lie.

The natural picturesqueness and singularity of the town still remain;
but strange to say these qualities, which were noted by many writers
in ages when scenic beauty is said to have been unappreciated,
are passed over in this, and one of the queerest and quaintest spots
in England stands virtually unvisited to-day.

It has a unique position on the summit of a steep and imposing scarp,
rising on the north, south, and west sides of the borough out of
the deep alluvial Vale of Blackmoor, the view from the Castle Green
over three counties of verdant pasture--South, Mid, and Nether Wessex-being
as sudden a surprise to the unexpectant traveller's eyes
as the medicinal air is to his lungs. Impossible to a railway,
it can best be reached on foot, next best by light vehicles;
and it is hardly accessible to these but by a sort of isthmus on
the north-east, that connects it with the high chalk table-land on
that side.

Such is, and such was, the now world-forgotten Shaston or Palladour.
Its situation rendered water the great want of the town; and within
living memory, horses, donkeys and men may have been seen toiling up
the winding ways to the top of the height, laden with tubs and barrels
filled from the wells beneath the mountain, and hawkers retailing their
contents at the price of a halfpenny a bucketful.

This difficulty in the water supply, together with two other
odd facts, namely, that the chief graveyard slopes up as steeply
as a roof behind the church, and that in former times the town passed
through a curious period of corruption, conventual and domestic,
gave rise to the saying that Shaston was remarkable for three
consolations to man, such as the world afforded not elsewhere.
It was a place where the churchyard lay nearer heaven than
the church steeple, where beer was more plentiful than water,
and where there were more wanton women than honest wives and maids.
It is also said that after the Middle Ages the inhabitants were too
poor to pay their priests, and hence were compelled to pull down
their churches, and refrain altogether from the public worship of God;
a necessity which they bemoaned over their cups in the settles of
their inns on Sunday afternoons. In those days the Shastonians were
apparently not without a sense of humour.

There was another peculiarity--this a modern one--which Shaston appeared
to owe to its site. It was the resting-place and headquarters of
the proprietors of wandering vans, shows, shooting-galleries, and other
itinerant concerns, whose business lay largely at fairs and markets.
As strange wild birds are seen assembled on some lofty promontory,
meditatively pausing for longer flights, or to return by the course they
followed thither, so here, in this cliff-town, stood in stultified silence
the yellow and green caravans bearing names not local, as if surprised

by a change in the landscape so violent as to hinder their further progress;
and here they usually remained all the winter till they turned to seek again
their old tracks in the following spring.

It was to this breezy and whimsical spot that Jude ascended from
the nearest station for the first time in his life about four
o'clock one afternoon, and entering on the summit of the peak
after a toilsome climb, passed the first houses of the aerial town;
and drew towards the school-house. The hour was too early;
the pupils were still in school, humming small, like a swarm of gnats;
and he withdrew a few steps along Abbey Walk, whence he regarded the spot
which fate had made the home of all he loved best in the world.
In front of the schools, which were extensive and stone-built,
grew two enormous beeches with smooth mouse-coloured trunks,
as such trees will only grow on chalk uplands. Within the mullioned
and transomed windows he could see the black, brown, and flaxen crowns
of the scholars over the sills, and to pass the time away he walked
down to the level terrace where the abbey gardens once had spread,
his heart throbbing in spite of him.

Unwilling to enter till the children were dismissed he remained
here till young voices could be heard in the open air,
and girls in white pinafores over red and blue frocks appeared
dancing along the paths which the abbess, prioress, subprioress,
and fifty nuns had demurely paced three centuries earlier.
Retracing his steps he found that he had waited too long, and that
Sue had gone out into the town at the heels of the last scholar,
Mr. Phillotson having been absent all the afternoon at a teachers'
meeting at Shottsford.

Jude went into the empty schoolroom and sat down, the girl who
was sweeping the floor having informed him that Mrs. Phillotson
would be back again in a few minutes. A piano stood near--
actually the old piano that Phillotson had possessed at Marygreen--
and though the dark afternoon almost prevented him seeing
the notes Jude touched them in his humble way, and could
not help modulating into the hymn which had so affected him
in the previous week.

A figure moved behind him, and thinking it was still the girl with the broom
Jude took no notice, till the person came close and laid her fingers lightly
upon his bass hand. The imposed hand was a little one he seemed to know,
and he turned.

Don't stop said Sue. I like it. I learnt it before I left Melchester.
They used to play it in the training school."

I can't strum before you! Play it for me.

Oh well--I don't mind.

Sue sat downand her rendering of the piecethough not remarkable
seemed divine as compared with his own. Shelike himwas evidently touched--
to her own surprise--by the recalled air; and when she had finished
and he moved his hand towards hersit met his own half-way. Jude grasped it--
just as he had done before her marriage.

It is odd,she saidin a voice quite changedthat I should care
about that air; because----

Because what?

I am not that sort--quite.

Not easily moved?

I didn't quite mean that.

Oh, but you ARE one of that sort, for you are just like me at heart!

But not at head.

She played on and suddenly turned round; and by an unpremeditated
instinct each clasped the other's hand again.

She uttered a forced little laugh as she relinquished his quickly.
How funny!she said. "I wonder what we both did that for?"

I suppose because we are both alike, as I said before.

Not in our thoughts! Perhaps a little in our feelings.

And they rule thoughts.... Isn't it enough to make one blaspheme
that the composer of that hymn is one of the most commonplace men
I ever met!

What--you know him?

I went to see him.

Oh, you goose--to do just what I should have done! Why did you?

Because we are not alike,he said drily.

Now we'll have some tea,said Sue. "Shall we have it here
instead of in my house? It is no trouble to get the kettle
and things brought in. We don't live at the school you know
but in that ancient dwelling across the way called Old-Grove Place.
It is so antique and dismal that it depresses me dreadfully.
Such houses are very well to visitbut not to live in--
I feel crushed into the earth by the weight of so many previous
lives there spent. In a new place like these schools there is only
your own life to support. Sit downand I'll tell Ada to bring
the tea-things across."

He waited in the light of the stovethe door of which she flung open
before going outand when she returnedfollowed by the maiden with tea
they sat down by the same lightassisted by the blue rays of a spirit-lamp
under the brass kettle on the stand.

This is one of your wedding-presents to me,she said
signifying the latter.

Yes,said Jude.

The kettle of his gift sang with some satire in its noteto his mind;
and to change the subject he saidDo you know of any good readable
edition of the uncanonical books of the New Testament? You don't read them
in the school I suppose?

Oh dear no!--'twould alarm the neighbourhood.... Yes, there is one.
I am not familiar with it now, though I was interested in it when my former
friend was alive. Cowper's APOCRYPHAL GOSPELS.

That sounds like what I want.His thoughtshowever reverted
with a twinge to the "former friend"--by whom she meant
as he knewthe university comrade of her earlier days.
He wondered if she talked of him to Phillotson.

The Gospel of Nicodemus is very nice,she went on to keep him from
his jealous thoughtswhich she read clearlyas she always did.
Indeed when they talked on an indifferent subjectas now
there was ever a second silent conversation passing between
their emotionsso perfect was the reciprocity between them.
It is quite like the genuine article. All cut up into verses, too;
so that it is like one of the other evangelists read in a dream,
when things are the same, yet not the same. But, Jude, do you
take an interest in those questions still? Are you getting

Yes. I am reading Divinity harder than ever.

She regarded him curiously.

Why do you look at me like that?said Jude.

Oh--why do you want to know?

I am sure you can tell me anything I may be ignorant of in that subject.
You must have learnt a lot of everything from your dear dead friend!

We won't get on to that now!she coaxed. "Will you be carving
out at that church again next weekwhere you learnt the pretty hymn?"

Yes, perhaps.

That will be very nice. Shall I come and see you there?
It is in this direction, and I could come any afternoon by train
for half an hour?

No. Don't come!

What--aren't we going to be friends, then, any longer,
as we used to be?


I didn't know that. I thought you were always going to be kind to me!

No, I am not.

What have I done, then? I am sure I thought we two----
The TREMOLO in her voice caused her to break off.

Sue, I sometimes think you are a flirt,said he abruptly.

There was a momentary pausetill she suddenly jumped up;
and to his surprise he saw by the kettle-flame that her face
was flushed.

I can't talk to you any longer, Jude!she saidthe tragic
contralto note having come back as of old. "It is getting
too dark to stay together like thisafter playing morbid
Good Friday tunes that make one feel what one shouldn't! ...
We mustn't sit and talk in this way any more. Yes--you must
go awayfor you mistake me! I am very much the reverse of
what you say so cruelly--OhJudeit WAS cruel to say that!
Yet I can't tell you the truth--I should shock you by letting
you know how I give way to my impulsesand how much I feel
that I shouldn't have been provided with attractiveness unless
it were meant to be exercised! Some women's love of being
loved is insatiable; and sooftenis their love of loving;

and in the last case they may find that they can't give it
continuously to the chamber-officer appointed by the bishop's
licence to receive it. But you are so straightforward
Judethat you can't understand me! ... Now you must go.
I am sorry my husband is not at home."

Are you?

I perceive I have said that in mere convention! Honestly I
don't think I am sorry. It does not matter, either way,
sad to say!

As they had overdone the grasp of hands some time sooner
she touched his fingers but lightly when he went out now.
He had hardly gone from the door whenwith a dissatisfied look
she jumped on a form and opened the iron casement of a
window beneath which he was passing in the path without.
When do you leave here to catch your train, Jude?
she asked.

He looked up in some surprise. "The coach that runs to meet
it goes in three-quarters of an hour or so."

What will you do with yourself for the time?

Oh--wander about, I suppose. Perhaps I shall go and sit in the old church.

It does seem hard of me to pack you off so! You have thought enough
of churches, Heaven knows, without going into one in the dark.
Stay there.


Where you are. I can talk to you better like this than when you were
inside.... It was so kind and tender of you to give up half a day's work
to come to see me! ... You are Joseph the dreamer of dreams, dear Jude.
And a tragic Don Quixote. And sometimes you are St. Stephen, who, while they
were stoning him, could see Heaven opened. Oh, my poor friend and comrade,
you'll suffer yet!

Now that the high window-sill was between themso that he could
not get at hershe seemed not to mind indulging in a frankness
she had feared at close quarters.

I have been thinking,she continuedstill in the tone of one
brimful of feelingthat the social moulds civilization fits us
into have no more relation to our actual shapes than the conventional
shapes of the constellations have to the real star-patterns. I am
called Mrs. Richard Phillotson, living a calm wedded life with my
counterpart of that name. But I am not really Mrs. Richard Phillotson,
but a woman tossed about, all alone, with aberrant passions,
and unaccountable antipathies.... Now you mustn't wait longer,
or you will lose the coach. Come and see me again. You must come
to the house then.

Yes!said Jude. "When shall it be?"

To-morrow week. Good-bye--good-bye!She stretched out
her hand and stroked his forehead pitifully--just once.
Jude said good-byeand went away into the darkness.

Passing along Bimport Street he thought he heard the wheels
of the coach departingandtruly enoughwhen he reached
the Duke's Arms in the Market Place the coach had gone.

It was impossible for him to get to the station on foot in time
for this trainand he settled himself perforce to wait for the next--
the last to Melchester that night.

He wandered about awhileobtained something to eat; and then
having another half-hour on his handshis feet involuntarily
took him through the venerable graveyard of Trinity Church
with its avenues of limesin the direction of the schools again.
They were entirely in darkness. She had said she lived over the way
at Old-Grove Placea house which he soon discovered from her
description of its antiquity.

A glimmering candlelight shone from a front windowthe shutters
being yet unclosed. He could see the interior clearly--
the floor sinking a couple of steps below the road without
which had become raised during the centuries since the house
was built. Sueevidently just come inas standing with her
hat on in this front parlour or sitting-roomwhose walls
were lined with wainscoting of panelled oak reaching from
floor to ceilingthe latter being crossed by huge moulded
beams only a little way above her head. The mantelpiece was
of the same heavy descriptioncarved with Jacobean pilasters
and scroll-work. The centuries didindeedponderously overhang
a young wife who passed her time here.

She had opened a rosewood work-boxand was looking at a photograph.
Having contemplated it a little while she pressed it against her bosom
and put it again in its place.

Then becoming aware that she had not obscured the windows she
came forward to do socandle in hand. It was too dark for her
to see Jude withoutbut he could see her face distinctly
and there was an unmistakable tearfulness about the dark
long-lashed eyes.

She closed the shuttersand Jude turned away to pursue his solitary
journey home. "Whose photograph was she looking at?" he said.
He had once given her his; but she had othershe knew. Yet it
was hissurely?

He knew he should go to see her againaccording to her invitation.
Those earnest men he read ofthe saintswhom Suewith gentle irreverence
called his demi-godswould have shunned such encounters if they
doubted their own strength. But he could not. He might fast and pray
during the whole intervalbut the human was more powerful in him than
the Divine.

HOWEVERif God disposed notwoman did. The next morning but one brought
him this note from her:

Don't come next week. On your own account don't! We were too free
under the influence of that morbid hymn and the twilight.
Think no more than you can help of SUSANNA FLORENCE MARY.

The disappointment was keen. He knew her moodthe look
of her facewhen she subscribed herself at length thus.
But whatever her mood he could not say she was wrong in her view.
He replied:

I acquiesce. You are right. It is a lesson in renunciation
which I suppose I ought to learn at this season. JUDE

He despatched the note on Easter Eveand there seemed a finality in
their decisions. But other forces and laws than theirs were in operation.
On Easter Monday morning he received a message from the Widow Edlin
whom he had directed to telegraph if anything serious happened:

Your aunt is sinking. Come at once.

He threw down his tools and went. Three and a half hours later
he was crossing the downs about Marygreenand presently plunged into
the concave field across which the short cut was made to the village.
As he ascended on the other side a labouring manwho had been watching
his approach from a gate across the pathmoved uneasilyand prepared
to speak. "I can see in his face that she is dead said Jude.
Poor Aunt Drusilla!"

It was as he had supposedand Mrs. Edlin had sent out the man to break
the news to him.

She wouldn't have knowed 'ee. She lay like a doll wi'
glass eyes; so it didn't matter that you wasn't here,
said he.

Jude went on to the houseand in the afternoonwhen everything was done
and the layers-out had finished their beerand gonehe sat down alone
in the silent place. It was absolutely necessary to communicate with Sue
though two or three days earlier they had agreed to mutual severance.
He wrote in the briefest terms:

Aunt Drusilla is deadhaving been taken almost suddenly.
The funeral is on Friday afternoon.

He remained in and about Marygreen through the intervening days
went out on Friday morning to see that the grave was finished
and wondered if Sue would come. She had not writtenand that seemed
to signify rather that she would come than that she would not.
Having timed her by her only possible trainhe locked the door
about mid-dayand crossed the hollow field to the verge of the upland
by the Brown Housewhere he stood and looked over the vast prospect
northwardsand over the nearer landscape in which Alfredston stood.
Two miles behind it a jet of white steam was travelling from the left
to the right of the picture.

There was a long time to waiteven nowtill he would know if she
had arrived. He did waithoweverand at last a small hired
vehicle pulled up at the bottom of the hilland a person alighted
the conveyance going backwhile the passenger began ascending the hill.
He knew her; and she looked so slender to-day that it seemed as if
she might be crushed in the intensity of a too passionate embrace-such
as it was not for him to give. Two-thirds of the way up her
head suddenly took a solicitous poiseand he knew that she had at
that moment recognized him. Her face soon began a pensive smile
which lasted tillhaving descended a little wayhe met her.

I thought,she began with nervous quicknessthat it would be so sad

to let you attend the funeral alone! And so--at the last moment--
I came.

Dear faithful Sue!murmured Jude.

With the elusiveness of her curious double naturehoweverSue did not stand
still for any further greetingthough it wanted some time to the burial.
A pathos so unusually compounded as that which attached to this hour was
unlikely to repeat itself for yearsif everand Jude would have paused
and meditatedand conversed. But Sue either saw it not at allorseeing it
more than hewould not allow herself to feel it.

The sad and simple ceremony was soon overtheir progress
to the church being almost at a trotthe bustling undertaker
having a more important funeral an hour laterthree miles off.
Drusilla was put into the new groundquite away from her ancestors.
Sue and Jude had gone side by side to the graveand now sat
down to tea in the familiar house; their lives united at least
in this last attention to the dead.

She was opposed to marriage, from first to last, you say?
murmured Sue.

Yes. Particularly for members of our family.

Her eyes met hisand remained on him awhile.

We are rather a sad family, don't you think, Jude?

She said we made bad husbands and wives. Certainly we make unhappy ones.
At all events, I do, for one!

Sue was silent. "Is it wrongJude she said with a tentative tremor,
for a husband or wife to tell a third person that they are unhappy
in their marriage? If a marriage ceremony is a religious thing
it is possibly wrong; but if it is only a sordid contract
based on material convenience in householdingratingand taxing
and the inheritance of land and money by childrenmaking it
necessary that the male parent should be known--which it seems to be--
why surely a person may sayeven proclaim upon the housetopsthat it
hurts and grieves him or her?"

I have said so, anyhow, to you.

Presently she went on: "Are there many couplesdo you think
where one dislikes the other for no definite fault?"

Yes, I suppose. If either cares for another person, for instance.

But even apart from that? Wouldn't the woman, for example,
be very bad-natured if she didn't like to live with
her husband; merely--her voice undulatedand he guessed
things--"merely because she had a personal feeling against it--
a physical objection--a fastidiousnessor whatever it may
be called--although she might respect and be grateful to him?
I am merely putting a case. Ought she to try to overcome
her pruderies?"

Jude threw a troubled look at her. He saidlooking away:
It would be just one of those cases in which my experiences
go contrary to my dogmas. Speaking as an order-loving man--
which I hope I am, though I fear I am not--I should say, yes.
Speaking from experience and unbiased nature, I should say,
no.... Sue, I believe you are not happy!

Of course I am!she contradicted. "How can a woman be unhappy
who has only been married eight weeks to a man she chose freely?"

'Chose freely!'

Why do you repeat it? ... But I have to go back by the six o'clock train.
You will be staying on here, I suppose?

For a few days to wind up Aunt's affairs. This house is gone now.
Shall I go to the train with you?

A little laugh of objection came from Sue. "I think not.
You may come part of the way."

But stop--you can't go to-night! That train won't take you to Shaston.
You must stay and go back to-morrow. Mrs. Edlin has plenty of room, if you
don't like to stay here?

Very well,she said dubiously. "I didn't tell him I would come
for certain."

Jude went to the widow's house adjoiningto let her know;
and returning in a few minutes sat down again.

It is horrible how we are circumstanced, Sue--horrible!he said abruptly
with his eyes bent to the floor.

No! Why?

I can't tell you all my part of the gloom. Your part is that you
ought not to have married him. I saw it before you had done it,
but I thought I mustn't interfere. I was wrong. I ought to have!

But what makes you assume all this, dear?

Because--I can see you through your feathers, my poor little bird!

Her hand lay on the tableand Jude put his upon it.
Sue drew hers away.

That's absurd, Sue,cried heafter what we've been talking about!
I am more strict and formal than you, if it comes to that;
and that you should object to such an innocent action shows that you
are ridiculously inconsistent!

Perhaps it was too prudish,she said repentantly.
Only I have fancied it was a sort of trick of ours--
too frequent perhaps. There, you may hold it as much as you like.
Is that good of me?

Yes; very.

But I must tell him.



Oh--of course, if you think it necessary. But as it means nothing it
may be bothering him needlessly.

Well--are you sure you mean it only as my cousin?

Absolutely sure. I have no feelings of love left in me.

That's news. How has it come to be?

I've seen Arabella.

She winced at the hit; then said curiouslyWhen did you see her?

When I was at Christminster.

So she's come back; and you never told me! I suppose you will live
with her now?

Of course--just as you live with your husband.

She looked at the window pots with the geraniums and cactuses
withered for want of attentionand through them at the outer distance
till her eyes began to grow moist. "What is it?" said Jude
in a softened tone.

Why should you be so glad to go back to her if--if what you
used to say to me is still true--I mean if it were true then!
Of course it is not now! How could your heart go back to Arabella
so soon?

A special Providence, I suppose, helped it on its way.

Ah--it isn't true!she said with gentle resentment. "You are teasing me-that's
all--because you think I am not happy!"

I don't know. I don't wish to know.

If I were unhappy it would be my fault, my wickedness;
not that I should have a right to dislike him! He is considerate
to me in everything; and he is very interesting, from the amount
of general knowledge he has acquired by reading everything
that comes in his way.... Do you think, Jude, that a man ought
to marry a woman his own age, or one younger than himself-eighteen
years--as I am than he?

It depends upon what they feel for each other.

He gave her no opportunity of self-satisfactionand she had to go on unaided
which she did in a vanquished toneverging on tears:

I--I think I must be equally honest with you as you have been with me.
Perhaps you have seen what it is I want to say?--that though I
like Mr. Phillotson as a friend, I don't like him--it is a torture
to me to--live with him as a husband!--There, now I have let it out-I
couldn't help it, although I have been--pretending I am happy.--
Now you'll have a contempt for me for ever, I suppose!
She bent down her face upon her hands as they lay upon the cloth
and silently sobbed in little jerks that made the fragile three-legged
table quiver.

I have only been married a month or two!she went on
still remaining bent upon the tableand sobbing into her hands.
And it is said that what a woman shrinks from--in the early
days of her marriage--she shakes down to with comfortable
indifference in half a dozen years. But that is much like saying
that the amputation of a limb is no affliction, since a person
gets comfortably accustomed to the use of a wooden leg or arm
in the course of time!

Jude could hardly speakbut he saidI thought there
was something wrong, Sue! Oh, I thought there was!

But it is not as you think!--there is nothing wrong except
my own wickedness, I suppose you'd call it--a repugnance
on my part, for a reason I cannot disclose, and what would
not be admitted as one by the world in general! ... What
tortures me so much is the necessity of being responsive
to this man whenever he wishes, good as he is morally!-the
dreadful contract to feel in a particular way in a matter
whose essence is its voluntariness! ... I wish he would
beat me, or be faithless to me, or do some open thing that I
could talk about as a justification for feeling as I do!
But he does nothing, except that he has grown a little cold
since he has found out how I feel. That's why he didn't
come to the funeral.... Oh, I am very miserable--I don't
know what to do! ... Don't come near me, Jude, because you
mustn't. Don't--don't!

But he had jumped up and put his face against hers--or rather against her ear
her face being inaccessible.

I told you not to, Jude!

I know you did--I only wish to--console you! It all
arose through my being married before we met, didn't it?
You would have been my wife, Sue, wouldn't you, if it hadn't
been for that?

Instead of replying she rose quicklyand saying she was going to walk to her
aunt's grave in the churchyard to recover herselfwent out of the house.
Jude did not follow her. Twenty minutes later he saw her cross the village
green towards Mrs. Edlin'sand soon she sent a little girl to fetch her bag
and tell him she was too tired to see him again that night.

In the lonely room of his aunt's houseJude sat watching the cottage
of the Widow Edlin as it disappeared behind the night shade. He knew
that Sue was sitting within its walls equally lonely and disheartened;
and again questioned his devotional motto that all was for the best.

He retired to rest earlybut his sleep was fitful from the sense
that Sue was so near at hand. At some time near two o'clock
when he was beginning to sleep more soundlyhe was aroused by a
shrill squeak that had been familiar enough to him when he lived
regularly at Marygreen. It was the cry of a rabbit caught in a gin.
As was the little creature's habitit did not soon repeat its cry;
and probably would not do so more than once or twice; but would
remain bearing its torture till the morrow when the trapper would
come and knock it on the head.

He who in his childhood had saved the lives of the earthworms now
began to picture the agonies of the rabbit from its lacerated leg.
If it were a "bad catch" by the hind-legthe animal would tug during
the ensuing six hours till the iron teeth of the trap had stripped
the leg-bone of its fleshwhenshould a weak-springed instrument
enable it to escapeit would die in the fields from the mortification
of the limb. If it were a "good catch namely, by the fore-leg,
the bone would be broken and the limb nearly torn in two in attempts
at an impossible escape.

Almost half an hour passed, and the rabbit repeated its cry.
Jude could rest no longer till he had put it out of its pain,
so dressing himself quickly he descended, and by the light
of the moon went across the green in the direction of the sound.

He reached the hedge bordering the widow's garden, when he stood still.
The faint click of the trap as dragged about by the writhing animal
guided him now, and reaching the spot he struck the rabbit on the back
of the neck with the side of his palm, and it stretched itself
out dead.

He was turning away when he saw a woman looking out of the open
casement at a window on the ground floor of the adjacent cottage.
Jude!" said a voice timidly--Sue's voice. "It is you-is
it not?"

Yes, dear!

I haven't been able to sleep at all, and then I heard the rabbit,
and couldn't help thinking of what it suffered, till I felt I must come
down and kill it! But I am so glad you got there first.... They ought
not to be allowed to set these steel traps, ought they!

Jude had reached the windowwhich was quite a low oneso that she
was visible down to her waist. She let go the casement-stay and put
her hand upon hisher moonlit face regarding him wistfully.

Did it keep you awake?he said.

No--I was awake.

How was that?

Oh, you know--now! I know you, with your religious doctrines,
think that a married woman in trouble of a kind like mine commits
a mortal sin in making a man the confidant of it, as I did you.
I wish I hadn't, now!

Don't wish it, dear,he said. "That may have BEEN my view;
but my doctrines and I begin to part company."

I knew it--I knew it! And that's why I vowed I wouldn't disturb
your belief. But--I am SO GLAD to see you!--and, oh, I didn't
mean to see you again, now the last tie between us, Aunt Drusilla,
is dead!

Jude seized her hand and kissed it. "There is a stronger one left!"
he said. "I'll never care about my doctrines or my religion any more!
Let them go! Let me help youeven if I do love youand even if you

Don't say it!--I know what you mean; but I can't admit
so much as that. There! Guess what you like, but don't
press me to answer questions!

I wish you were happy, whatever I may be!

I CAN'T be! So few could enter into my feeling--they would say
'twas my fanciful fastidiousness, or something of that sort,
and condemn me.... It is none of the natural tragedies of love that's
love's usual tragedy in civilized life, but a tragedy artificially
manufactured for people who in a natural state would find relief
in parting! ... It would have been wrong, perhaps, for me to tell
my distress to you, if I had been able to tell it to anybody else.
But I have nobody. And I MUST tell somebody! Jude, before I
married him I had never thought out fully what marriage meant,
even though I knew. It was idiotic of me--there is no excuse.
I was old enough, and I thought I was very experienced.
So I rushed on, when I had got into that training school scrape,

with all the cock-sureness of the fool that I was! ... I am certain
one ought to be allowed to undo what one had done so ignorantly!
I daresay it happens to lots of women, only they submit, and I kick....
When people of a later age look back upon the barbarous customs and
superstitions of the times that we have the unhappiness to live in,
what WILL they say!

You are very bitter, darling Sue! How I wish--I wish----

You must go in now!

In a moment of impulse she bent over the silland laid her face upon
his hairweepingand then imprinting a scarcely perceptible little kiss
upon the top of his headwithdrawing quicklyso that he could not put
his arms round heras otherwise he unquestionably would have done.
She shut the casementand he returned to his cottage.

SUE'S distressful confession recurred to Jude's mind all the night as being
a sorrow indeed.

The morning afterwhen it was time for her to gothe neighbours
saw her companion and herself disappearing on foot down the hill
path which led into the lonely road to Alfredston. An hour
passed before he returned along the same routeand in his face
there was a look of exaltation not unmixed with recklessness.
An incident had occurred.

They had stood parting in the silent highwayand their tense
and passionate moods had led to bewildered inquiries of each
other on how far their intimacy ought to go; till they had
almost quarrelledand she said tearfully that it was hardly
proper of him as a parson in embryo to think of such a thing
as kissing her even in farewell as he now wished to do.
Then she had conceded that the fact of the kiss would be nothing:
all would depend upon the spirit of it. If given in
the spirit of a cousin and a friend she saw no objection:
if in the spirit of a lover she could not permit it.
Will you swear that it will not be in that spirit?
she had said.

No: he would not. And then they had turned from each other
in estrangementand gone their several waystill at a distance
of twenty or thirty yards both had looked round simultaneously.
That look behind was fatal to the reserve hitherto more
or less maintained. They had quickly run backand met
and embracing most unpremeditatedlykissed close and long.
When they parted for good it was with flushed cheeks on her side
and a beating heart on his.

The kiss was a turning-point in Jude's career. Back again
in the cottageand left to reflectionhe saw one thing:
that though his kiss of that aerial being had seemed the purest
moment of his faultful lifeas long as he nourished this
unlicensed tenderness it was glaringly inconsistent for him to
pursue the idea of becoming the soldier and servant of a religion
in which sexual love was regarded as at its best a frailty
and at its worst damnation. What Sue had said in warmth
was really the cold truth. When to defend his affection
tooth and nailto persist with headlong force in impassioned

attentions to herwas all he thought ofhe was condemned
IPSO FACTO as a professor of the accepted school of morals.
He was as unfitobviouslyby natureas he had been
by social positionto fill the part of a propounder of
accredited dogma.

Strange that his first aspiration--towards academical proficiency-had
been checked by a womanand that his second aspiration-towards
apostleship--had also been checked by a woman. "Is it
he said, that the women are to blame; or is it the artificial system
of thingsunder which the normal sex-impulses are turned into devilish
domestic gins and springs to noose and hold back those who want
to progress?"

It had been his standing desire to become a prophethowever humble
to his struggling fellow-creatureswithout any thought of personal gain.
Yet with a wife living away from him with another husbandand himself
in love erraticallythe loved one's revolt against her state being
possibly on his accounthe had sunk to be barely respectable according to
regulation views.

It was not for him to consider further: he had only to confront the obvious
which was that he had made himself quite an impostor as a law-abiding
religious teacher.

At dusk that evening he went into the garden and dug a shallow holeto which
he brought out all the theological and ethical works that he possessed
and had stored here. He knew thatin this country of true believers
most of them were not saleable at a much higher price than waste-paper value
and preferred to get rid of them in his own wayeven if he should sacrifice
a little money to the sentiment of thus destroying them. Lighting some loose
pamphlets to begin withhe cut the volumes into pieces as well as he could
and with a three-pronged fork shook them over the flames. They kindled
and lighted up the back of the housethe pigstyand his own facetill they
were more or less consumed.

Though he was almost a stranger here nowpassing cottagers
talked to him over the garden hedge.

Burning up your awld aunt's rubbidge, I suppose? Ay; a lot gets heaped up
in nooks and corners when you've lived eighty years in one house.

It was nearly one o'clock in the morning before the leavescovers
and binding of Jeremy TaylorButlerDoddridgePaleyPuseyNewman and
the rest had gone to ashesbut the night was quietand as he turned
and turned the paper shreds with the forkthe sense of being no longer
a hypocrite to himself afforded his mind a relief which gave him calm.
He might go on believing as beforebut he professed nothingand no
longer owned and exhibited engines of faith whichas their proprietor
he might naturally be supposed to exercise on himself first of all.
In his passion for Sue he could not stand as an ordinary sinnerand not
as a whited sepulchre.

Meanwhile Sueafter parting from him earlier in the dayhad gone along to
the stationwith tears in her eyes for having run back and let him kiss her.
Jude ought not to have pretended that he was not a loverand made her give
way to an impulse to act unconventionallyif not wrongly. She was inclined
to call it the latter; for Sue's logic was extraordinarily compounded
and seemed to maintain that before a thing was done it might be right to do
but that being done it became wrong; orin other wordsthat things which
were right in theory were wrong in practice.

I have been too weak, I think!she jerked out as she pranced on
shaking down tear-drops now and then. "It was burning

like a lover's--ohit was! And I won't write to him any more
or at least for a long timeto impress him with my dignity!
And I hope it will hurt him very much--expecting a letter
to-morrow morningand the nextand the nextand no letter coming.
He'll suffer then with suspense--won't hethat's all!--and I am
very glad of it!"--Tears of pity for Jude's approaching sufferings
at her hands mingled with those which had surged up in pity
for herself.

Then the slim little wife or a husband whose person was disagreeable to her
the etherealfine-nervedsensitive girlquite unfitted by temperament and
instinct to fulfil the conditions of the matrimonial relation with Phillotson
possibly with scarce any manwalked fitfully alongand pantedand brought
weariness into her eyes by gazing and worrying hopelessly.

Phillotson met her at the arrival stationandseeing that she
was troubledthought it must be owing to the depressing effect
of her aunt's death and funeral. He began telling her of his
day's doingsand how his friend Gillinghama neighbouring
schoolmaster whom he had not seen for yearshad called upon him.
While ascending to the townseated on the top of the omnibus
beside himshe said suddenly and with an air of self-chastisement
regarding the white road and its bordering bushes of hazel:

Richard--I let Mr. Fawley hold my hand a long while.
I don't know whether you think it wrong?

Hewaking apparently from thoughts of far different mould
said vaguelyOh, did you? What did you do that for?

I don't know. He wanted to, and I let him.

I hope it pleased him. I should think it was hardly a novelty.

They lapsed into silence. Had this been a case in the court of an
omniscient judgehe might have entered on his notes the curious
fact that Sue had placed the minor for the major indiscretion
and had not said a word about the kiss.

After tea that evening Phillotson sat balancing the school registers.
She remained in an unusually silenttenseand restless condition
and at lastsaying she was tiredwent to bed early. When Phillotson
arrived upstairsweary with the drudgery of the attendance-numbersit
was a quarter to twelve o'clock. Entering their chamberwhich by day
commanded a view of some thirty or forty miles over the Vale of Blackmoor
and even into Outer Wessexhe went to the windowandpressing his face
against the panegazed with hard-breathing fixity into the mysterious
darkness which now covered the far-reaching scene. He was musingI think,
he said at lastwithout turning his headthat I must get the committee
to change the school-stationer. All the copybooks are sent wrong
this time.

There was no reply. Thinking Sue was dozing he went on:

And there must be a rearrangement of that ventilator in the class-room. The
wind blows down upon my head unmercifully and gives me the ear-ache.

As the silence seemed more absolute than ordinarily he turned round.
The heavygloomy oak wainscotwhich extended over the walls
upstairs and down in the dilapidated "Old-Grove Place
and the massive chimney-piece reaching to the ceiling,
stood in odd contrast to the new and shining brass bedstead,
and the new suite of birch furniture that he had bought for her,
the two styles seeming to nod to each other across three centuries

upon the shaking floor.

Soo!" he said (this being the way in which he pronounced her name).

She was not in the bedthough she had apparently been there--
the clothes on her side being flung back. Thinking she
might have forgotten some kitchen detail and gone downstairs
for a moment to see to ithe pulled off his coat and idled
quietly enough for a few minuteswhenfinding she did not come
he went out upon the landingcandle in handand said
again "Soo!"

Yes!came back to him in her voicefrom the distant kitchen quarter.

What are you doing down there at midnight--tiring yourself out for nothing!

I am not sleepy; I am reading; and there is a larger fire here.

He went to bed. Some time in the night he awoke. She was not there
even now. Lighting a candle he hastily stepped out upon the landing
and again called her name.

She answered "Yes!" as beforebut the tones were small and confined
and whence they came he could not at first understand.
Under the staircase was a large clothes-closetwithout a window;
they seemed to come from it. The door was shutbut there was no
lock or other fastening. Phillotsonalarmedwent towards it
wondering if she had suddenly become deranged.

What are you doing in there?he asked.

Not to disturb you I came here, as it was so late.

But there's no bed, is there? And no ventilation! Why, you'll be suffocated
if you stay all night!

Oh no, I think not. Don't trouble about me.

But--Phillotson seized the knob and pulled at the door.
She had fastened it inside with a piece of stringwhich broke
at his pull. There being no bedstead she had flung down some rugs
and made a little nest for herself in the very cramped quarters
the closet afforded.

When he looked in upon her she sprang out of her lair
great-eyed and trembling.

You ought not to have pulled open the door!she cried excitedly.
It is not becoming in you! Oh, will you go away; please will you!

She looked so pitiful and pleading in her white nightgown
against the shadowy lumber-hole that he was quite worried.
She continued to beseech him not to disturb her.

He said: "I've been kind to youand given you every liberty;
and it is monstrous that you should feel in this way!"

Yes,said sheweeping. "I know that! It is wrong and wicked of me
I suppose! I am very sorry. But it is not I altogether that am
to blame!"

Who is then? Am l?

No--I don't know! The universe, I suppose--things in general,

because they are so horrid and cruel!

Well, it is no use talking like that. Making a man's house so
unseemly at this time o' night! Eliza will hear if we don't mind.
(He meant the servant.) "Just think if either of the parsons in this
town was to see us now! I hate such eccentricitiesSue. There's no
order or regularity in your sentiments! ... But I won't intrude on
you further; only I would advise you not to shut the door too tight
or I shall find you stifled to-morrow."

On rising the next morning he immediately looked into the closet
but Sue had already gone downstairs. There was a little nest
where she had lainand spiders' webs hung overhead. "What must
a woman's aversion be when it is stronger than her fear of spiders!"
he said bitterly.

He found her sitting at the breakfast-tableand the meal began
almost in silencethe burghers walking past upon the pavement--
or rather roadwaypavements being scarce here--which was
two or three feet above the level of the parlour floor.
They nodded down to the happy couple their morning greetings
as they went on.

Richard,she said all at once; "would you mind my living away from you?"

Away from me? Why, that's what you were doing when I married you.
What then was the meaning of marrying at all?

You wouldn't like me any the better for telling you.

I don't object to know.

Because I thought I could do nothing else. You had got my
promise a long time before that, remember. Then, as time went on,
I regretted I had promised you, and was trying to see an honourable
way to break it off. But as I couldn't I became rather reckless
and careless about the conventions. Then you know what scandals
were spread, and how I was turned out of the training school you
had taken such time and trouble to prepare me for and get me into;
and this frightened me and it seemed then that the one thing I
could do would be to let the engagement stand. Of course I,
of all people, ought not to have cared what was said, for it was
just what I fancied I never did care for. But I was a coward--
as so many women are--and my theoretic unconventionality broke down.
If that had not entered into the case it would have been better to
have hurt your feelings once for all then, than to marry you and hurt
them all my life after.... And you were so generous in never giving
credit for a moment to the rumour.

I am bound in honesty to tell you that I weighed its probability
and inquired of your cousin about it.

Ah!she said with pained surprise.

I didn't doubt you.

But you inquired!

I took his word.

Her eyes had filled. "HE wouldn't have inquired!" she said.
But you haven't answered me. Will you let me go away?
I know how irregular it is of me to ask it----

It is irregular.

But I do ask it! Domestic laws should be made according to temperaments,
which should be classified. If people are at all peculiar in character they
have to suffer from the very rules that produce comfort in others! ... Will
you let me?

But we married

What is the use of thinking of laws and ordinances,she burst out
if they make you miserable when you know you are committing no sin?

But you are committing a sin in not liking me.

I DO like you! But I didn't reflect it would be--that it would
be so much more than that.... For a man and woman to live on intimate
terms when one feels as I do is adultery, in any circumstances,
however legal. There--I've said it! ... Will you let me, Richard?

You distress me, Susanna, by such importunity!

Why can't we agree to free each other? We made the compact,
and surely we can cancel it--not legally of course;
but we can morally, especially as no new interests,
in the shape of children, have arisen to be looked after.
Then we might be friends, and meet without pain to either.
Oh Richard, be my friend and have pity! We shall both be
dead in a few years, and then what will it matter to anybody
that you relieved me from constraint for a little while?
I daresay you think me eccentric, or super-sensitive, or
something absurd. Well--why should I suffer for what I was born
to be, if it doesn't hurt other people?

But it does--it hurts me! And you vowed to love me.

Yes--that's it! I am in the wrong. I always am! It is as culpable to bind
yourself to love always as to believe a creed always, and as silly as to vow
always to like a particular food or drink!

And do you mean, by living away from me, living by yourself?

Well, if you insisted, yes. But I meant living with Jude.

As his wife?

As I choose.

Phillotson writhed.

Sue continued: "Sheor he'who lets the worldor his own
portion of itchoose his plan of life for himhas no need
of any other faculty than the apelike one of imitation.'

J. S. Mill's wordsthose are. I have been reading it up.
Why can't you act upon them? I wish toalways."
What do I care about J. S. Mill!moaned he. "I only want
to lead a quiet life! Do you mind my saying that I have
guessed what never once occurred to me before our marriage--
that you were in loveand are in lovewith Jude Fawley!"

You may go on guessing that I am, since you have begun.
But do you suppose that if I had been I should have asked you
to let me go and live with him?

The ringing of the school bell saved Phillotson from the necessity
of replying at present to what apparently did not strike him
as being such a convincing ARGUMENTUM AD VERECUNDIAM as she
in her loss of courage at the last momentmeant it to appear.
She was beginning to be so puzzling and unstateable that he was ready
to throw in with her other little peculiarities the extremest request
which a wife could make.

They proceeded to the schools that morning as usualSue entering
the class-roomwhere he could see the back of her head through
the glass partition whenever he turned his eyes that way.
As he went on giving and hearing lessons his forehead and eyebrows
twitched from concentrated agitation of thoughttill at length
he tore a scrap from a sheet of scribbling paper and wrote:

Your request prevents my attending to work at all. I don't know
what I am doing! Was it seriously made?

He folded the piece of paper very smalland gave it to a little
boy to take to Sue. The child toddled off into the class-room.
Phillotson saw his wife turn and take the noteand the bend
of her pretty head as she read ither lips slightly crisped
to prevent undue expression under fire of so many young eyes.
He could not see her handsbut she changed her position
and soon the child returnedbringing nothing in reply.
In a few minuteshoweverone of Sue's class appeared
with a little note similar to his own. These words only were
pencilled therein:

I am sincerely sorry to say that it was seriously made.

Phillotson looked more disturbed than beforeand the meeting-place
of his brows twitched again. In ten minutes he called up the child
he had just sent to herand dispatched another missive:

God knows I don't want to thwart you in any reasonable way.
My whole thought is to make you comfortable and happy. But I
cannot agree to such a preposterous notion as your going to live
with your lover. You would lose everybody's respect and regard;
and so should I!

After an interval a similar part was enacted in the class-room
and an answer came:

I know you mean my good. But I don't want to be respectable!
To produce "Human development in its richest diversity"
(to quote your Humboldt) is to my mind far above respectability.
No doubt my tastes are low--in your view--hopelessly low!
If you won t let me go to himwill you grant me this one request--
allow me to live in your house in a separate way?

To this he returned no answer.

She wrote again:

I know what you think. But cannot you have pity on me?
I beg you to; I implore you to be merciful! I would not
ask if I were not almost compelled by what I can't bear!
No poor woman has ever wished more than I that Eve had
not fallenso that (as the primitive Christians believed)
some harmless mode of vegetation might have peopled Paradise.
But I won't trifle! Be kind to me--even though I have not been
kind to you! I will go awaygo abroadanywhereand never
trouble you.

Nearly an hour passedand then he returned an answer:

I do not wish to pain you. How well you KNOW I don't! Give me a little time.
I am disposed to agree to your last request.

One line from her:

Thank you from my heartRichard. I do not deserve your kindness.

All day Phillotson bent a dazed regard upon her through the glazed partition;
and he felt as lonely as when he had not known her.

But he was as good as his wordand consented to her living
apart in the house. At firstwhen they met at meals
she had seemed more composed under the new arrangement;
but the irksomeness of their position worked on her temperament
and the fibres of her nature seemed strained like harp-strings.
She talked vaguely and indiscriminately to prevent his
talking pertinently.

PHILLOTSON was sitting up lateas was often his custom
trying to get together the materials for his long-neglected
hobby of Roman antiquities. For the first time since reviving
the subject he felt a return of his old interest in it.
He forgot time and placeand when he remembered himself and
ascended to rest it was nearly two o'clock.

His preoccupation was such thatthough he now slept on the other side
of the househe mechanically went to the room that he and his wife
had occupied when he first became a tenant of Old-Grove Place
which since his differences with Sue had been hers exclusively.
He enteredand unconsciously began to undress.

There was a cry from the bedand a quick movement.
Before the schoolmaster had realized where he was he perceived Sue
starting up half-awakestaring wildlyand springing out upon
the floor on the side away from himwhich was towards the window.
This was somewhat hidden by the canopy of the bedstead
and in a moment he heard her flinging up the sash. Before he had
thought that she meant to do more than get air she had mounted
upon the sill and leapt out. She disappeared in the darkness
and he heard her fall below.

Phillotsonhorrifiedran downstairsstriking himself sharply

against the newel in his haste. Opening the heavy door
he ascended the two or three steps to the level of the ground
and there on the gravel before him lay a white heap.
Phillotson seized it in his armsand bringing Sue into the hall
seated her on a chairwhere he gazed at her by the flapping
light of the candle which he had set down in the draught on
the bottom stair.

She had certainly not broken her neck. She looked at him with eyes
that seemed not to take him in; and though not particularly large
in general they appeared so now.

She pressed her side and rubbed her armas if conscious of pain;
then stood upaverting her facein evident distress at his gaze.

Thank God--you are not killed! Though it's not for want of trying--
not much hurt I hope?

Her fallin facthad not been a serious oneprobably owing to the
lowness of the old rooms and to the high level of the ground without.
Beyond a scraped elbow and a blow in the side she had apparently incurred
little harm.

I was asleep, I think!she beganher pale face still turned away from him.
And something frightened me--a terrible dream--I thought I saw you--
The actual circumstances seemed to come back to herand she was silent.

Her cloak was hanging at the back of the doorand the wretched
Phillotson flung it round her. "Shall I help you upstairs?"
he asked drearily; for the significance of all this sickened him
of himself and of everything.

No thank you, Richard. I am very little hurt. I can walk.

You ought to lock your door,he mechanically saidas if lecturing
in school. "Then no one could intrude even by accident."

I have tried--it won't lock. All the doors are out of order.

The aspect of things was not improved by her admission.
She ascended the staircase slowlythe waving light of
the candle shining on her. Phillotson did not approach her
or attempt to ascend himself till he heard her enter her room.
Then he fastened up the front doorand returningsat down on
the lower stairsholding the newel with one handand bowing
his face into the other. Thus he remained for a long long time--
a pitiable object enough to one who had seen him; tillraising his
head and sighing a sigh which seemed to say that the business
of his life must be carried onwhether he had a wife or no
he took the candle and went upstairs to his lonely room on the other
side of the landing.

No further incident touching the matter between them occurred
till the following eveningwhenimmediately school was over
Phillotson walked out of Shastonsaying he required no tea
and not informing Sue where he was going. He descended from
the town level by a steep road in a north-westerly direction
and continued to move downwards till the soil changed from its
white dryness to a tough brown clay. He was now on the low
alluvial beds

Where Duncliffe is the traveller's mark
And cloty Stour's a-rolling dark.

More than once he looked back in the increasing obscurity of evening.
Against the sky was Shastondimly visible

On the grey-topp'd height
Of Paladoreas pale day wore
Away... [1]

The new-lit lights from its windows burnt with a steady shine
as if watching himone of which windows was his own. Above it
he could just discern the pinnacled tower of Trinity Church.
The air down heretempered by the thick damp bed of tenacious clay
was not as it had been abovebut soft and relaxingso that when
he had walked a mile or two he was obliged to wipe his face with
his handkerchief.

Leaving Duncliffe Hill on the left he proceeded without
hesitation through the shadeas a man goes onnight or day
in a district over which he has played as a boy. He had walked
altogether about four and a half miles

Where Stour receives her strength
From six cleere fountains fed[2]

when he crossed a tributary of the Stourand reached Leddenton-a
little town of three or four thousand inhabitants-where
he went on to the boys' schooland knocked at the door
of the master's residence.

[1] William Barnes. [2] Drayton.
A boy pupil-teacher opened itand to Phillotson's inquiry
if Mr. Gillingham was at home replied that he wasgoing at
once off to his own houseand leaving Phillotson to find
his way in as he could. He discovered his friend putting away
some books from which he had been giving evening lessons.
The light of the paraffin lamp fell on Phillotson's face-pale
and wretched by contrast with his friend'swho had a cool
practical look. They had been schoolmates in boyhood
and fellow-students at Wintoncester Training Collegemany years
before this time.

Glad to see you, Dick! But you don't look well? Nothing the matter?

Phillotson advanced without replyingand Gillingham closed
the cupboard and pulled up beside his visitor.

Why you haven't been here--let me see--since you were married?
I called, you know, but you were out; and upon my word it
is such a climb after dark that I have been waiting till
the days are longer before lumpering up again. I am glad you
didn't wait, however.

Though well-trained and even proficient mastersthey occasionally
used a dialect-word of their boyhood to each other in private.

I've come, George, to explain to you my reasons for taking
a step that I am about to take, so that you, at least,
will understand my motives if other people question them anywhen-

as they may, indeed certainly will.... But anything is better
than the present condition of things God forbid that you should
ever have such an experience as mine!

Sit down. You don't mean--anything wrong between you and Mrs. Phillotson?

I do.... My wretched state is that I've a wife I love who not only
does not love me, but--but Well, I won't say. I know her feeling!
I should prefer hatred from her!


And the sad part of it is that she is not so much to blame
as I. She was a pupil-teacher under me, as you know, and I took
advantage of her inexperience, and toled her out for walks,
and got her to agree to a long engagement before she well knew
her own mind. Afterwards she saw somebody else, but she blindly
fulfilled her engagement.

Loving the other?

Yes; with a curious tender solicitude seemingly; though her exact
feeling for him is a riddle to me--and to him too, I think--
possibly to herself. She is one of the oddest creatures I
ever met. However, I have been struck with these two facts;
the extraordinary sympathy, or similarity, between the pair.
He is her cousin, which perhaps accounts for some of it.
They seem to be one person split in two! And with her
unconquerable aversion to myself as a husband, even though
she may like me as a friend, 'tis too much to bear longer.
She has conscientiously struggled against it, but to no purpose.
I cannot bear it--I cannot! I can't answer her arguments--she has
read ten times as much as I. Her intellect sparkles like diamonds,
while mine smoulders like brown paper.... She's one too many
for me!

She'll get over it, good-now?

Never! It is--but I won't go into it--there are reasons why she never will.
At last she calmly and firmly asked if she might leave me and go to him.
The climax came last night, when, owing to my entering her room by accident,
she jumped out of window--so strong was her dread of me! She pretended it
was a dream, but that was to soothe me. Now when a woman jumps out of window
without caring whether she breaks her neck or no, she's not to be mistaken;
and this being the case I have come to a conclusion: that it is wrong to so
torture a fellow-creature any longer; and I won't be the inhuman wretch to do
it, cost what it may!

What--you'll let her go? And with her lover?

Whom with is her matter. I shall let her go; with him certainly,
if she wishes. I know I may be wrong--I know I can't logically,
or religiously, defend my concession to such a wish of hers,
or harmonize it with the doctrines I was brought up in.
Only I know one thing: something within me tells me I am doing
wrong in refusing her. I, like other men, profess to hold
that if a husband gets such a so-called preposterous request
from his wife, the only course that can possibly be regarded
as right and proper and honourable in him is to refuse it, and put
her virtuously under lock and key, and murder her lover perhaps.
But is that essentially right, and proper, and honourable,
or is it contemptibly mean and selfish? I don't profess to decide.
I simply am going to act by instinct, and let principles
take care of themselves. If a person who has blindly walked

into a quagmire cries for help, I am inclined to give it,
if possible.

But--you see, there's the question of neighbours and society--
what will happen if everybody----

Oh, I am not going to be a philosopher any longer! I only see what's
under my eyes.

Well--I don't agree with your instinct, Dick!said Gillingham gravely.
I am quite amazed, to tell the truth, that such a sedate, plodding fellow as
you should have entertained such a craze for a moment. You said when I called
that she was puzzling and peculiar: I think you are!

Have you ever stood before a woman whom you know to be intrinsically
a good woman, while she has pleaded for release--been the man she has
knelt to and implored indulgence of?

I am thankful to say I haven't.

Then I don't think you are in a position to give an opinion.
I have been that man, and it makes all the difference
in the world, if one has any manliness or chivalry in him.
I had not the remotest idea--living apart from women as I have
done for so many years--that merely taking a woman to church
and putting a ring upon her finger could by any possibility
involve one in such a daily, continuous tragedy as that now shared
by her and me!

Well, I could admit some excuse for letting her leave you,
provided she kept to herself. But to go attended by a cavalier--
that makes a difference.

Not a bit. Suppose, as I believe, she would rather endure her
present misery than be made to promise to keep apart from him?
All that is a question for herself. It is not the same thing
at all as the treachery of living on with a husband and
playing him false.... However, she has not distinctly implied
living with him as wife, though I think she means to....
And to the best of my understanding it is not an ignoble,
merely animal, feeling between the two: that is the worst of it;
because it makes me think their affection will be enduring.
I did not mean to confess to you that in the first jealous
weeks of my marriage, before I had come to my right mind, I hid
myself in the school one evening when they were together there,
and I heard what they said. I am ashamed of it now,
though I suppose I was only exercising a legal right.
I found from their manner that an extraordinary affinity,
or sympathy, entered into their attachment, which somehow
took away all flavour of grossness. Their supreme desire is
to be together--to share each other's emotions, and fancies,
and dreams.


Well no. Shelleyan would be nearer to it. They remind me of--
what are their names--Laon and Cythna. Also of Paul and Virginia a little.
The more I reflect, the more ENTIRELY I am on their side!

But if people did as you want to do, there'd be a general
domestic disintegration. The family would no longer be the social unit.

Yes--I am all abroad, I suppose!said Phillotson sadly.
I was never a very bright reasoner, you remember.... And yet,

I don't see why the woman and the children should not be the unit
without the man.

By the Lord Harry!--Matriarchy! ... Does SHE say all this too?

Oh no. She little thinks I have out-Sued Sue in this--
all in the last twelve hours!

It will upset all received opinion hereabout. Good God--
what will Shaston say!

I don't say that it won't. I don't know--I don't know! ... As I say,
I am only a feeler, not a reasoner.

Now,said Gillinghamlet us take it quietly, and have something
to drink over it.He went under the stairsand produced
a bottle of cider-wineof which they drank a rummer each.
I think you are rafted, and not yourself,he continued.
Do go back and make up your mind to put up with a few whims.
But keep her. I hear on all sides that she's a charming
young thing.

Ah yes! That's the bitterness of it! Well, I won't stay.
I have a long walk before me.

Gillingham accompanied his friend a mile on his wayand at parting
expressed his hope that this consultationsingular as its subject was
would be the renewal of their old comradeship. "Stick to her!"
were his last wordsflung into the darkness after Phillotson;
from which his friend answered "Ayeaye!"

But when Phillotson was alone under the clouds of nightand no sound
was audible but that of the purling tributaries of the Stourhe said
So Gillingham, my friend, you had no stronger arguments against it
than those!

I think she ought to be smacked, and brought to her senses--
that's what I think!murmured Gillinghamas he walked
back alone.

The next morning cameand at breakfast Phillotson told Sue:

You may go--with whom you will. I absolutely and unconditionally agree.

Having once come to this conclusion it seemed to Phillotson
more and more indubitably the true one. His mild serenity
at the sense that he was doing his duty by a woman who was
at his mercy almost overpowered his grief at relinquishing her.

Some days passedand the evening of their last meal together had come--
a cloudy evening with wind--which indeed was very seldom absent
in this elevated place. How permanently it was imprinted upon
his vision; that look of her as she glided into the parlour to tea;
a slim flexible figure; a facestrained from its roundness
and marked by the pallors of restless days and nightssuggesting tragic
possibilities quite at variance with her times of buoyancy;
a trying of this morsel and thatand an inability to eat either.
Her nervous mannerbegotten of a fear lest he should be injured
by her coursemight have been interpreted by a stranger as displeasure
that Phillotson intruded his presence on her for the few brief minutes
that remained.

You had better have a slice of ham or an egg, or something with your tea?
You can't travel on a mouthful of bread and butter.

She took the slice he helped her to; and they discussed as they
sat trivial questions of housekeepingsuch as where he would find
the key of this or that cupboardwhat little bills were paid
and what not.

I am a bachelor by nature, as you know, Sue,he saidin a heroic attempt
to put her at her ease. "So that being without a wife will not really be
irksome to meas it might be to other men who have had one a little while.
I havetoothis grand hobby in my head of writing 'The Roman Antiquities
of Wessex' which will occupy all my spare hours."

If you will send me some of the manuscript to copy at any time,
as you used to, I will do it with so much pleasure!she said
with amenable gentleness. "I should much like to be some help
to you still--as a--friend."

Phillotson musedand said: "NoI think we ought to be really separate
if we are to be at all. And for this reasonthat I don't wish to ask
you any questionsand particularly wish you not to give me information
as to your movementsor even your address.... Nowwhat money do you want?
You must have someyou know."

Oh, of course, Richard, I couldn't think of having any of your
money to go away from you with! I don't want any either.
I have enough of my own to last me for a long while, and Jude
will let me have----

I would rather not know anything about him, if you don't mind.
You are free, absolutely; and your course is your own.

Very well. But I'll just say that I have packed only a change or two
of my own personal clothing, and one or two little things besides that are
my very own. I wish you would look into my trunk before it is closed.
Besides that I have only a small parcel that will go into Jude's portmanteau.

Of course I shall do no such thing as examine your luggage!
I wish you would take three-quarters of the household furniture.
I don't want to be bothered with it. I have a sort of affection
for a little of it that belonged to my poor mother and father.
But the rest you are welcome to whenever you like to send
for it.

That I shall never do.

You go by the six-thirty train, don't you? It is now a quarter to six.

You ... You don't seem very sorry I am going, Richard!

Oh no--perhaps not.

I like you much for how you have behaved. It is a curious thing
that directly I have begun to regard you as not my husband,
but as my old teacher, I like you. I won't be so affected as to
say I love you, because you know I don't, except as a friend.
But you do seem that to me!

Sue was for a few moments a little tearful at these reflections
and then the station omnibus came round to take her up.
Phillotson saw her things put on the tophanded her in
and was obliged to make an appearance of kissing her as he wished
her good-byewhich she quite understood and imitated.
From the cheerful manner in which they parted the omnibus-man had no
other idea than that she was going for a short visit.

When Phillotson got back into the house he went upstairs
and opened the window in the direction the omnibus had taken.
Soon the noise of its wheels died away. He came down then
his face compressed like that of one bearing pain; he put on his
hat and went outfollowing by the same route for nearly a mile.
Suddenly turning round he came home.

He had no sooner entered than the voice of his friend Gillingham
greeted him from the front room.

I could make nobody hear; so finding your door open I walked in,
and made myself comfortable. I said I would call, you remember.

Yes. I am much obliged to you, Gillingham, particularly for coming to-night.

How is Mrs.----

She is quite well. She is gone--just gone. That's her tea-cup,
that she drank out of only an hour ago. And that's the plate she--
Phillotson's throat got choked upand he could not go on.
He turned and pushed the tea-things aside.

Have you had any tea, by the by?he asked presently in a renewed voice.

No--yes--never mind,said Gillinghampreoccupied. "Goneyou say she is?"

Yes.... I would have died for her; but I wouldn't be cruel
to her in the name of the law. She is, as I understand,
gone to join her lover. What they are going to do I cannot say.
Whatever it may be she has my full consent to.

There was a stabilitya ballastin Phillotson's pronouncement
which restrained his friend's comment. "Shall I--leave you?"
he asked.

No, no. It is a mercy to me that you have come. I have some articles
to arrange and clear away. Would you help me?

Gillingham assented; and having gone to the upper rooms
the schoolmaster opened drawersand began taking out all Sue's
things that she had left behindand laying them in a large box.
She wouldn't take all I wanted her to,he continued.
But when I made up my mind to her going to live in her own way I
did make up my mind.

Some men would have stopped at an agreement to separate.

I've gone into all that, and don't wish to argue it. I was, and am,
the most old-fashioned man in the world on the question of marriage--
in fact I had never thought critically about its ethics at all.
But certain facts stared me in the face, and I couldn't go
against them.

They went on with the packing silently. When it was done Phillotson closed
the box and turned the key.

There,he said. "To adorn her in somebody's eyes; never again in mine!"

FOUR-AND-TWENTY hours before this time Sue had written the following
note to Jude:

It is as I told you; and I am leaving to-morrow evening.
Richard and I thought it could be done with less obtrusiveness
after dark. I feel rather frightenedand therefore ask you
to be sure you are on the Melchester platform to meet me.
I arrive at a little to seven. I know you willof course
dear Jude; but I feel so timid that I can't help begging
you to be punctual. He has been so VERY kind to me through
it all!

Now to our meeting! S.

As she was carried by the omnibus farther and farther down
from the mountain town--the single passenger that evening--
she regarded the receding road with a sad face. But no hesitation
was apparent therein.

The up-train by which she was departing stopped by signal only.
To Sue it seemed strange that such a powerful organization as a
railway train should be brought to a stand-still on purpose for her--
a fugitive from her lawful home.

The twenty minutes' journey drew towards its closeand Sue began
gathering her things together to alight. At the moment that the train
came to a stand-still by the Melchester platform a hand was laid on
the door and she beheld Jude. He entered the compartment promptly.
He had a black bag in his handand was dressed in the dark suit he wore
on Sundays and in the evening after work. Altogether he looked a very
handsome young fellowhis ardent affection for her burning in his eyes.

Oh Jude!She clasped his hand with both hersand her tense state caused
her to simmer over in a little succession of dry sobs. "I--I am so glad!
I get out here?"

No. I get in, dear one! I've packed. Besides this bag I've
only a big box which is labelled.

But don't I get out? Aren't we going to stay here?

We couldn't possibly, don't you see. We are known here--I, at any rate,
am well known. I've booked for Aldbrickham; and here's your ticket
for the same place, as you have only one to here.

I thought we should have stayed here,she repeated.

It wouldn't have done at all.

Ah! Perhaps not.

There wasn't time for me to write and say the place I had decided on.
Aldbrickham is a much bigger town--sixty or seventy thousand inhabitants--
and nobody knows anything about us there.

And you have given up your cathedral work here?

Yes. It was rather sudden--your message coming unexpectedly.
Strictly, I might have been made to finish out the week.
But I pleaded urgency and I was let off. I would have deserted
any day at your command, dear Sue. I have deserted more than
that for you!

I fear I am doing you a lot of harm. Ruining your prospects of the Church;
ruining your progress in your trade; everything!

The Church is no more to me. Let it lie! I am not to be one of

The soldier-saints who, row on row,

Burn upward each to his point of bliss,

if any such there be! My point of bliss is not upward,
but here.

Oh I seem so bad--upsetting men's courses like this!said she
taking up in her voice the emotion that had begun in his.
But she recovered her equanimity by the time they had travelled a
dozen miles.

He has been so good in letting me go,she resumed.
And here's a note I found on my dressing-table, addressed
to you.

Yes. He's not an unworthy fellow,said Judeglancing at the note.
And I am ashamed of myself for hating him because he married you.

According to the rule of women's whims I suppose I ought to suddenly
love him, because he has let me go so generously and unexpectedly,
she answered smiling. "But I am so coldor devoid of gratitude
or so somethingthat even this generosity hasn't made me love him
or repentor want to stay with him as his wife; although I do feel I
like his large-mindednessand respect him more than ever."

It may not work so well for us as if he had been less kind,
and you had run away against his will,murmured Jude.

That I NEVER would have done.

Jude's eyes rested musingly on her face. Then he suddenly kissed her;
and was going to kiss her again. "No--only once now--pleaseJude!"

That's rather cruel,he answered; but acquiesced. "Such a strange
thing has happened to me Jude continued after a silence.
Arabella has actually written to ask me to get a divorce from her--
in kindness to hershe says. She wants to honestly and legally marry
that man she has already married virtually; and begs me to enable her
to do it."

What have you done?

I have agreed. I thought at first I couldn't do it without
getting her into trouble about that second marriage, and I
don't want to injure her in any way. Perhaps she's no worse
than I am, after all! But nobody knows about it over here,
and I find it will not be a difficult proceeding at all.
If she wants to start afresh I have only too obvious reasons
for not hindering her.

Then you'll be free?

Yes, I shall be free.

Where are we booked for?she askedwith the discontinuity
that marked her to-night.

Aldbrickham, as I said.

But it will be very late when we get there?

Yes. I thought of that, and I wired for a room for us at the Temperance
Hotel there.



She looked at him. "Oh Jude!" Sue bent her forehead against the corner of
the compartment. "I thought you might do it; and that I was deceiving you.
But I didn't mean that!"

In the pause which followedJude's eyes fixed themselves with a stultified
expression on the opposite seat. "Well!" he said.... "Well!"

He remained in silence; and seeing how discomfited he was she put
her face against his cheekmurmuringDon't be vexed, dear!

Oh--there's no harm done,he said. "But--I understood it
like that.... Is this a sudden change of mind?"

You have no right to ask me such a question; and I shan't answer!
she saidsmiling.

My dear one, your happiness is more to me than anything--
although we seem to verge on quarrelling so often!--
and your will is law to me. I am something more than a mere--
selfish fellow, I hope. Have it as you wish!On reflection
his brow showed perplexity. "But perhaps it is that you don't
love me--not that you have become conventional! Much as
under your teachingI hate conventionI hope it IS that
not the other terrible alternative!"

Even at this obvious moment for candour Sue could not be
quite candid as to the state of that mysteryher heart.
Put it down to my timidity,she said with hurried evasiveness;
to a woman's natural timidity when the crisis comes. I may feel
as well as you that I have a perfect right to live with you
as you thought--from this moment. I may hold the opinion that,
in a proper state of society, the father of a woman's child will
be as much a private matter of hers as the cut of her underlinen,
on whom nobody will have any right to question her.
But partly, perhaps, because it is by his generosity that I am
now free, I would rather not be other than a little rigid.
If there had been a rope-ladder, and he had run after us
with pistols, it would have seemed different, and I may have
acted otherwise. But don't press me and criticize me, Jude!
Assume that I haven't the courage of my opinions. I know I
am a poor miserable creature. My nature is not so passionate
as yours!

He repeated simply! "I thought--what I naturally thought.
But if we are not loverswe are not. Phillotson thought so
I am sure. Seehere is what he has written to me." He opened
the letter she had broughtand read:

I make only one condition--that you are tender and kind to her.
I know you love her. But even love may be cruel at times.
You are made for each other: it is obvious, palpable, to any
unbiased older person. You were all along 'the shadowy third'

in my short life with her. I repeat, take care of Sue.

He's a good fellow, isn't he!she said with latent tears.
On reconsideration she addedHe was very resigned to letting me go--
too resigned almost! I never was so near being in love with him
as when he made such thoughtful arrangements for my being comfortable
on my journey, and offering to provide money. Yet I was not.
If I loved him ever so little as a wife, I'd go back to him
even now.

But you don't, do you?

It is true--oh so terribly true!--I don't.

Nor me neither, I half-fear!he said pettishly. "Nor anybody perhaps!
Suesometimeswhen I am vexed with youI think you are incapable
of real love."

That's not good and loyal of you!she saidand drawing away from him as far
as she couldlooked severely out into the darkness. She added in hurt tones
without turning round: "My liking for you is not as some women's perhaps.
But it is a delight in being with youof a supremely delicate kind
and I don't want to go further and risk it by--an attempt to intensify it!
I quite realized thatas woman with manit was a risk to come. Butas me
with youI resolved to trust you to set my wishes above your gratification.
Don't discuss it furtherdear Jude!"

Of course, if it would make you reproach yourself ... but you
do like me very much, Sue? Say you do! Say that you do a quarter,
a tenth, as much as I do you, and I'll be content!

I've let you kiss me, and that tells enough.

Just once or so!

Well--don't be a greedy boy.

He leant backand did not look at her for a long time.
That episode in her past history of which she had told him--
of the poor Christminster graduate whom she had handled thus
returned to Jude's mind; and he saw himself as a possible second in
such a torturing destiny.

This is a queer elopement!he murmured. "Perhaps you
are making a cat's paw of me with Phillotson all this time.
Upon my word it almost seems so--to see you sitting up there
so prim!"

Now you mustn't be angry--I won't let you!she coaxed
turning and moving nearer to him. "You did kiss me just now
you know; and I didn't dislike you toI own itJude. Only I
don't want to let you do it againjust yet--considering how we
are circumstanceddon't you see!"

He could never resist her when she pleaded (as she well knew). And they sat
side by side with joined handstill she aroused herself at some thought.

I can't possibly go to that Temperance Inn, after your telegraphing
that message!

Why not?

You can see well enough!

Very well; there'll be some other one open, no doubt.
I have sometimes thought, since your marrying Phillotson because
of a stupid scandal, that under the affectation of independent
views you are as enslaved to the social code as any woman
I know!

Not mentally. But I haven't the courage of my views, as I said before.
I didn't marry him altogether because of the scandal. But sometimes
a woman's LOVE OF BEING LOVED gets the better of her conscience,
and though she is agonized at the thought of treating a man cruelly,
she encourages him to love her while she doesn't love him at all.
Then, when she sees him suffering, her remorse sets in, and she does
what she can to repair the wrong.

You simply mean that you flirted outrageously with him,
poor old chap, and then repented, and to make reparation,
married him, though you tortured yourself to death by doing it.

Well--if you will put it brutally!--it was a little like that-that
and the scandal together--and your concealing from me what you
ought to have told me before!

He could see that she was distressed and tearful at his criticisms
and soothed hersaying: "Theredear; don't mind! Crucify me
if you will! You know you are all the world to mewhatever you do!"

I am very bad and unprincipled--I know you think that!
she saidtrying to blink away her tears.

I think and know you are my dear Sue, from whom neither length nor breadth,
nor things present nor things to come, can divide me!

Though so sophisticated in many things she was such a child
in others that this satisfied herand they reached the end
of their journey on the best of terms. It was about ten
o'clock when they arrived at Aldbrickhamthe county town
of North Wessex. As she would not go to the Temperance Hotel
because of the form of his telegramJude inquired for another;
and a youth who volunteered to find one wheeled their luggage
to the George farther onwhich proved to be the inn at which Jude
had stayed with Arabella on that one occasion of their meeting
after their division for years.

Owinghoweverto their now entering it by another door
and to his preoccupationhe did not at first recognize the place.
When they had engaged their respective rooms they went down to a
late supper. During Jude's temporary absence the waiting-maid
spoke to Sue.

I think, ma'am, I remember your relation, or friend, or whatever he is,
coming here once before--late, just like this, with his wife--a lady,
at any rate, that wasn't you by no manner of means--jest as med be with
you now.

Oh do you?said Suewith a certain sickness of heart.
Though I think you must be mistaken! How long ago was it?

About a month or two. A handsome, full-figured woman.
They had this room.

When Jude came back and sat down to supper Sue seemed moping and miserable.
Jude,she said to him plaintivelyat their parting that night upon
the landingit is not so nice and pleasant as it used to be with us!
I don't like it here--I can't bear the place! And I don't like you so

well as I did!

How fidgeted you seem, dear! Why do you change like this?

Because it was cruel to bring me here!


You were lately here with Arabella. There, now I have said it!

Dear me, why--said Jude looking round him. "Yes--it is the same!
I really didn't know itSue. Well--it is not cruelsince we have come
as we have--two relations staying together."

How long ago was it you were here? Tell me, tell me!

The day before I met you in Christminster, when we went back
to Marygreen together. I told you I had met her.

Yes, you said you had met her, but you didn't tell me all.
Your story was that you had met as estranged people,
who were not husband and wife at all in Heaven's sight--
not that you had made it up with her.

We didn't make it up,he said sadly. "I can't explainSue."

You've been false to me; you, my last hope! And I shall
never forget it, never!

But by your own wish, dear Sue, we are only to be friends, not lovers!
It is so very inconsistent of you to----

Friends can be jealous!

I don't see that. You concede nothing to me and I have to concede everything
to you. After all, you were on good terms with your husband at that time.

No, I wasn't, Jude. Oh how can you think so! And you have taken me in,
even if you didn't intend to.She was so mortified that he was obliged
to take her into her room and close the door lest the people should hear.
Was it this room? Yes it was--I see by your look it was! I won't
have it for mine! Oh it was treacherous of you to have her again!
I jumped out of the window!

But Sue, she was, after all, my legal wife, if not--

Slipping down on her knees Sue buried her face in the bed and wept.

I never knew such an unreasonable--such a dog-in-the-manger feeling,
said Jude. "I am not to approach younor anybody else!"

Oh don't you UNDERSTAND my feeling! Why don't you! Why are you so gross!
I jumped out of the window!

Jumped out of window?

I can't explain!

It was true that he did not understand her feelings very well.
But he did a little; and began to love her none the less.

I--I thought you cared for nobody--desired nobody in the world but me
at that time--and ever since!continued Sue.

It is true. I did not, and don't now!said Judeas distressed as she.

But you must have thought much of her! Or--

No--I need not--you don't understand me either--women never do!
Why should you get into such a tantrum about nothing?

Looking up from the quilt she pouted provokingly: "If it hadn't
been for thatperhaps I would have gone on to the Temperance Hotel
after allas you proposed; for I was beginning to think I did belong
to you!"

Oh, it is of no consequence!said Jude distantly.

I thought, of course, that she had never been really your wife
since she left you of her own accord years and years ago!
My sense of it was, that a parting such as yours from her,
and mine from him, ended the marriage.

I can't say more without speaking against her, and I don't want to do that,
said he. "Yet I must tell you one thingwhich would settle the matter
in any case. She has married another man--really married him! I knew nothing
about it till after the visit we made here."

Married another? ... It is a crime--as the world treats it,
but does not believe.

There--now you are yourself again. Yes, it is a crime--as you don't hold,
but would fearfully concede. But I shall never inform against her!
And it is evidently a prick of conscience in her that has led her
to urge me to get a divorce, that she may remarry this man legally.
So you perceive I shall not be likely to see her again.

And you didn't really know anything of this when you saw her?
said Sue more gentlyas she rose.

I did not. Considering all things, I don't think you ought
to be angry, darling!

I am not. But I shan't go to the Temperance Hotel!

He laughed. "Never mind!" he said. "So that I am near you
I am comparatively happy. It is more than this earthly wretch
called Me deserves--you spirityou disembodied creature
you dearsweettantalizing phantom--hardly flesh at all;
so that when I put my arms round you I almost expect them to pass
through you as through air! Forgive me for being grossas you
call it! Remember that our calling cousins when really strangers
was a snare. The enmity of our parents gave a piquancy to you
in my eyes that was intenser even than the novelty of ordinary
new acquaintance."

Say those pretty lines, then, from Shelley's 'Epipsychidion' as if they
meant me!she solicitedslanting up closer to him as they stood.
Don't you know them?

I know hardly any poetry,he replied mournfully.

Don't you? These are some of them:

There was a Being whom my spirit oft
Met on its visioned wanderings far aloft.

A seraph of Heaven, too gentle to be human,
Veiling beneath that radiant form of woman....

Oh it is too flattering, so I won't go on! But say it's me!
Say it's me!

It is you, dear; exactly like you!

Now I forgive you! And you shall kiss me just once there--not very long.
She put the tip of her finger gingerly to her cheek; and he did as commanded.
You do care for me very much, don't you, in spite of my not--you know?

Yes, sweet!he said with a sigh; and bade her good-night.

IN returning to his native town of Shaston as schoolmaster Phillotson had won
the interest and awakened the memories of the inhabitantswhothough they
did not honour him for his miscellaneous aquirements as he would have been
honoured elsewhereretained for him a sincere regard. Whenshortly after
his arrivalhe brought home a pretty wife--awkwardly pretty for himif he
did not take carethey said--they were glad to have her settle among them.

For some time after her flight from that home Sue's absence did
not excite comment. Her place as monitor in the school was taken
by another young woman within a few days of her vacating it
which substitution also passed without remarkSue's services
having been of a provisional nature only. Whenhowevera month
had passedand Phillotson casually admitted to an acquaintance
that he did not know where his wife was stayingcuriosity began
to be aroused; tilljumping to conclusionspeople ventured
to affirm that Sue had played him false and run away from him.
The schoolmaster's growing languor and listlessness over his work gave
countenance to the idea.

Though Phillotson had held his tongue as long as he could
except to his friend Gillinghamhis honesty and directness
would not allow him to do so when misapprehensions as to Sue's
conduct spread abroad. On a Monday morning the chairman of
the school committee calledand after attending to the business
of the school drew Phillotson aside out of earshot of the children.

You'll excuse my asking, Phillotson, since everybody is talking of it:
is this true as to your domestic affairs--that your wife's going away
was on no visit, but a secret elopement with a lover? If so, I condole
with you.

Don't,said Phillotson. "There was no secret about it."

She has gone to visit friends?


Then what has happened?

She has gone away under circumstances that usually call for condolence
with the husband. But I gave my consent.

The chairman looked as if he had not apprehended the remark.

What I say is quite true,Phillotson continued testily.
She asked leave to go away with her lover, and I let her.
Why shouldn't I? A woman of full age, it was a question
of her own conscience--not for me. I was not her gaoler.
I can't explain any further. I don't wish to be questioned.

The children observed that much seriousness marked the faces
of the two menand went home and told their parents
that something new had happened about Mrs. Phillotson.
Then Phillotson's little maidservantwho was a schoolgirl
just out of her standardssaid that Mr. Phillotson had helped
in his wife's packinghad offered her what money she required
and had written a friendly letter to her young mantelling him
to take care of her. The chairman of committee thought
the matter overand talked to the other managers of the school
till a request came to Phillotson to meet them privately.
The meeting lasted a long timeand at the end the school-master
came homelooking as usual pale and worn. Gillingham was sitting
in his house awaiting him.

Well; it is as you said,observed Phillotsonflinging himself
down wearily in a chair. "They have requested me to send in my
resignation on account of my scandalous conduct in giving my tortured
wife her liberty--oras they call itcondoning her adultery.
But I shan't resign!"

I think I would.

I won't. It is no business of theirs. It doesn't affect me
in my public capacity at all. They may expel me if they like.

If you make a fuss it will get into the papers, and you'll never get
appointed to another school. You see, they have to consider what you did
as done by a teacher of youth--and its effects as such upon the morals
of the town; and, to ordinary opinion, your position is indefensible.
You must let me say that.

To this good advicehoweverPhillotson would not listen.

I don't care,he said. "I don't go unless I am turned out.
And for this reason; that by resigning I acknowledge I have acted
wrongly by her; when I am more and more convinced every day that in
the sight of Heaven and by all naturalstraightforward humanity
I have acted rightly."

Gillingham saw that his rather headstrong friend would not
be able to maintain such a position as this; but he said
nothing furtherand in due time--indeedin a quarter of an hour--
the formal letter of dismissal arrivedthe managers having
remained behind to write it after Phillotson's withdrawal.
The latter replied that he should not accept dismissal;
and called a public meetingwhich he attendedalthough he looked
so weak and ill that his friend implored him to stay at home.
When he stood up to give his reasons for contesting
the decision of the managers he advanced them firmly
as he had done to his friendand contendedmoreoverthat the
matter was a domestic theory which did not concern them.
This they over-ruledinsisting that the private eccentricities
of a teacher came quite within their sphere of control
as it touched the morals of those he taught. Phillotson replied
that he did not see how an act of natural charity could
injure morals.

All the respectable inhabitants and well-to-do fellow-natives of the town

were against Phillotson to a man. Butsomewhat to his surprisesome dozen
or more champions rose up in his defence as from the ground.

It has been stated that Shaston was the anchorage of a curious and
interesting group of itinerantswho frequented the numerous fairs
and markets held up and down Wessex during the summer and autumn months.
Although Phillotson had never spoken to one of these gentlemen they now nobly
led the forlorn hope in his defence. The body included two cheap Jacks
a shooting-gallery proprietor and the ladies who loaded the guns
a pair of boxing-mastersa steam-roundabout managertwo travelling
broom-makerswho called themselves widowsa gingerbread-stall keeper
a swing-boat ownerand a "test-your-strength" man.

This generous phalanx of supportersand a few others of independent judgment
whose own domestic experiences had been not without vicissitude
came up and warmly shook hands with Phillotson; after which they expressed
their thoughts so strongly to the meeting that issue was joined
the result being a general scufflewherein a black board was split
three panes of the school windows were brokenan inkbottle was spilled
over a town-councillor's shirt fronta churchwarden was dealt such a topper
with the map of Palestine that his head went right through Samaria
and many black eyes and bleeding noses were givenone of which
to everybody's horrorwas the venerable incumbent'sowing to the zeal
of an emancipated chimney-sweepwho took the side of Phillotson's party.
When Phillotson saw the blood running down the rector's face he deplored
almost in groans the untoward and degrading circumstancesregretted that
he had not resigned when called uponand went home so ill that next morning
he could not leave his bed.

The farcical yet melancholy event was the beginning of a serious
illness for him; and he lay in his lonely bed in the pathetic state
of mind of a middle-aged man who perceives at length that his life
intellectual and domesticis tending to failure and gloom.
Gillingham came to see him in the eveningsand on one occasion
mentioned Sue's name.

She doesn't care anything about me!said Phillotson.
Why should she?

She doesn't know you are ill.

So much the better for both of us.

Where are her lover and she living?

At Melchester--I suppose; at least he was living there some time ago.

When Gillingham reached home he sat and reflectedand at last wrote an
anonymous line to Sueon the bare chance of its reaching herthe letter
being enclosed in an envelope addressed to Jude at the diocesan capital.
Arriving at that place it was forwarded to Marygreen in North Wessex
and thence to Aldbrickham by the only person who knew his present address--
the widow who had nursed his aunt.

Three days laterin the eveningwhen the sun was going down in
splendour over the lowlands of Blackmoorand making the Shaston
windows like tongues of fire to the eyes of the rustics in that vale
the sick man fancied that he heard somebody come to the house
and a few minutes after there was a tap at the bedroom door.
Phillotson did not speak; the door was hesitatingly opened
and there entered--Sue.

She was in light spring clothingand her advent seemed ghostly--
like the flitting in of a moth. He turned his eyes upon her

and flushed; but appeared to check his primary impulse
to speak.

I have no business here,she saidbending her frightened face to him.
But I heard you were ill--very ill; and--and as I know that you
recognize other feelings between man and woman than physical love,
I have come.

I am not very ill, my dear friend. Only unwell.

I didn't know that; and I am afraid that only a severe illness would
have justified my coming!

Yes ... yes. And I almost wish you had not come! It is a little too soon--
that's all I mean. Still, let us make the best of it. You haven't heard
about the school, I suppose?

No--what about it?

Only that I am going away from here to another place.
The managers and I don't agree, and we are going to part--
that's all.

Sue did not for a momenteither now or latersuspect what troubles
had resulted to him from letting her go; it never once seemed to cross
her mindand she had received no news whatever from Shaston.
They talked on slight and ephemeral subjectsand when his tea was brought
up he told the amazed little servant that a cup was to be set for Sue.
That young person was much more interested in their history than
they supposedand as she descended the stairs she lifted her eyes and
hands in grotesque amazement. While they sipped Sue went to the window
and thoughtfully saidIt is such a beautiful sunset, Richard.

They are mostly beautiful from here, owing to the rays crossing
the mist of the vale. But I lose them all, as they don't shine
into this gloomy corner where I lie.

Wouldn't you like to see this particular one? It is like heaven opened.

Ah yes! But I can't.

I'll help you to.

No--the bedstead can't be shifted.

But see how I mean.

She went to where a swing-glass stoodand taking it in her hands
carried it to a spot by the window where it could catch the sunshine
moving the glass till the beams were reflected into Phillotson's face.

There--you can see the great red sun now!she said.
And I am sure it will cheer you--I do so hope it will!
She spoke with a childlikerepentant kindnessas if she could not
do too much for him.

Phillotson smiled sadly. "You are an odd creature!" he murmured
as the sun glowed in his eyes. "The idea of your coming to see me
after what has passed!"

Don't let us go back upon that!she said quickly.
I have to catch the omnibus for the train, as Jude doesn't know
I have come; he was out when I started; so I must return home
almost directly. Richard, I am so very glad you are better.

You don't hate me, do you? You have been such a kind friend
to me!

I am glad to know you think so,said Phillotson huskily.
No. I don't hate you!

It grew dusk quickly in the gloomy room during their intermittent chat
and when candles were brought and it was time to leave she put her hand
in his or rather allowed it to flit through his; for she was significantly
light in touch. She had nearly closed the door when he saidSue!
He had noticed thatin turning away from himtears were on her face
and a quiver in her lip.

It was bad policy to recall her--he knew it while he pursued it.
But he could not help it. She came back.

Sue,he murmureddo you wish to make it up, and stay?
I'll forgive you and condone everything!

Oh you can't, you can't!she said hastily. "You can't condone it now!"

He is your husband now, in effect, you mean, of course?

You may assume it. He is obtaining a divorce from his wife Arabella.

His wife! It is altogether news to me that he has a wife.

It was a bad marriage.

Like yours.

Like mine. He is not doing it so much on his own account as on hers.
She wrote and told him it would be a kindness to her, since then she could
marry and live respectably. And Jude has agreed.

A wife.... A kindness to her. Ah, yes; a kindness to her to
release her altogether.... But I don't like the sound of it.
I can forgive, Sue.

No, no! You can't have me back now I have been so wicked-as
to do what I have done!

There had arisen in Sue's face that incipient fright which showed
itself whenever he changed from friend to husbandand which made
her adopt any line of defence against marital feeling in him.
I MUST go now. I'll come again--may I?

I don't ask you to go, even now. I ask you to stay.

I thank you, Richard; but I must. As you are not so ill as I thought,
I CANNOT stay!

She's his--his from lips to heel!said Phillotson; but so faintly
that in closing the door she did not hear it. The dread of a reactionary
change in the schoolmaster's sentimentscoupledperhapswith a faint
shamefacedness at letting even him know what a slipshod lack of thoroughness
from a man's point of viewcharacterized her transferred allegiance
prevented her telling him of herthus farincomplete relations with Jude;
and Phillotson lay writhing like a man in hell as he pictured the prettily
dressedmaddening compound of sympathy and averseness who bore his name
returning impatiently to the home of her lover.

Gillingham was so interested in Phillotson's affairsand so
seriously concerned about himthat he walked up the hill-side

to Shaston two or three times a weekalthoughthere and back
it was a journey of nine mileswhich had to be performed
between tea and supperafter a hard day's work in school.
When he called on the next occasion after Sue's visit his friend
was downstairsand Gillingham noticed that his restless mood had
been supplanted by a more fixed and composed one.

She's been here since you called last,said Phillotson.

Not Mrs. Phillotson?


Ah! You have made it up?

No.... She just came, patted my pillow with her little white hand,
played the thoughtful nurse for half an hour, and went away.

Well--I'm hanged! A little hussy!

What do you say?


What do you mean?

I mean, what a tantalizing, capricious little woman!
If she were not your wife

She is not; she's another man's except in name and law.
And I have been thinking--it was suggested to me by a conversation
I had with her--that, in kindness to her, I ought to dissolve
the legal tie altogether; which, singularly enough, I think I can do,
now she has been back, and refused my request to stay after I
said I had forgiven her. I believe that fact would afford me
opportunity of doing it, though I did not see it at the moment.
What's the use of keeping her chained on to me if she doesn't
belong to me? I know--I feel absolutely certain--that she would
welcome my taking such a step as the greatest charity to her.
For though as a fellow-creature she sympathizes with, and pities me,
and even weeps for me, as a husband she cannot endure me-she
loathes me--there's no use in mincing words--she loathes me,
and my only manly, and dignified, and merciful course is to complete
what I have begun.... And for worldly reasons, too, it will be better
for her to be independent. I have hopelessly ruined my prospects
because of my decision as to what was best for us, though she does
not know it; I see only dire poverty ahead from my feet to the grave;
for I can be accepted as teacher no more. I shall probably have
enough to do to make both ends meet during the remainder of my life,
now my occupation's gone; and I shall be better able to bear it alone.
I may as well tell you that what has suggested my letting her
go is some news she brought me--the news that Fawley is doing
the same.

Oh--he had a spouse, too? A queer couple, these lovers!

Well--I don't want your opinion on that. What I was going
to say is that my liberating her can do her no possible harm,
and will open up a chance of happiness for her which she has
never dreamt of hitherto. For then they'll be able to marry,
as they ought to have done at first.

Gillingham did not hurry to reply. "I may disagree with your motive
he said gently, for he respected views he could not share. But I

think you are right in your determination--if you can carry it out.
I doubthoweverif you can."

Part Fifth


Thy aerial part, and all the fiery parts which are

mingled in thee, though by nature they have an upward
tendency, still in obedience to the disposition of the
universe they are over-powered here in the compound
mass the body.--M. ANTONINUS (Long).

How Gillingham's doubts were disposed of will most quickly appear
by passing over the series of dreary months and incidents that
followed the events of the last chapterand coming on to a Sunday
in the February of the year following.

Sue and Jude were living in Aldbrickhamin precisely the same relations
that they had established between themselves when she left Shaston
to join him the year before. The proceedings in the law-courts had
reached their consciousnessbut as a distant sound and an occasional
missive which they hardly understood.

They had metas usualto breakfast together in the little house
with Jude's name on itthat he had taken at fifteen pounds a year
with three-pounds-ten extra for rates and taxesand furnished
with his aunt's ancient and lumbering goodswhich had cost him
about their full value to bring all the way from Marygreen.
Sue kept houseand managed everything.

As he entered the room this morning Sue held up a letter she
had just received.

Well; and what is it about?he said after kissing her.

That the decree NISI in the case of Phillotson VERSUS Phillotson and Fawley,
pronounced six months ago, has just been made absolute.

Ah,said Judeas he sat down.

The same concluding incident in Jude's suit against Arabella
had occurred about a month or two earlier. Both cases
had been too insignificant to be reported in the papers
further than by name in a long list of other undefended cases.

Now then, Sue, at any rate, you can do what you like!
He looked at his sweetheart curiously.

Are we--you and I--just as free now as if we had never married at all?

Just as free--except, I believe, that a clergyman may object
personally to remarry you, and hand the job on to somebody else.

But I wonder--do you think it is really so with us? I know it is generally.
But I have an uncomfortable feeling that my freedom has been obtained under
false pretences!


Well--if the truth about us had been known, the decree wouldn't have
been pronounced. It is only, is it, because we have made no defence,
and have led them into a false supposition? Therefore is my freedom lawful,
however proper it may be?

Well--why did you let it be under false pretences? You have only yourself
to blame,he said mischievously.

Jude--don't! You ought not to be touchy about that still.
You must take me as I am.

Very well, darling: so I will. Perhaps you were right.
As to your question, we were not obliged to prove anything.
That was their business. Anyhow we are living together.

Yes. Though not in their sense.

One thing is certain, that however the decree may be
brought about, a marriage is dissolved when it is dissolved.
There is this advantage in being poor obscure people like us-that
these things are done for us in a rough and ready fashion.
It was the same with me and Arabella. I was afraid her criminal
second marriage would have been discovered, and she punished;
but nobody took any interest in her--nobody inquired,
nobody suspected it. If we'd been patented nobilities we should
have had infinite trouble, and days and weeks would have been spent
in investigations.

By degrees Sue acquired her lover's cheerfulness at the sense
of freedomand proposed that they should take a walk in the fields
even if they had to put up with a cold dinner on account of it.
Jude agreedand Sue went up-stairs and prepared to start
putting on a joyful coloured gown in observance of her liberty;
seeing which Jude put on a lighter tie.

Now we'll strut arm and arm,he saidlike any other engaged couple.
We've a legal right to.

They rambled out of the townand along a path over the low-lying
lands that bordered itthough these were frosty now
and the extensive seed-fields were bare of colour and produce.
The pairhoweverwere so absorbed in their own situation
that their surroundings were little in their consciousness.

Well, my dearest, the result of all this is that we can marry
after a decent interval.

Yes; I suppose we can,said Suewithout enthusiasm.

And aren't we going to?

I don't like to say no, dear Jude; but I feel just the same about it
now as I have done all along. I have just the same dread lest an iron
contract should extinguish your tenderness for me, and mine for you,
as it did between our unfortunate parents.

Still, what can we do? I do love you, as you know, Sue.

I know it abundantly. But I think I would much rather go on living
always as lovers, as we are living now, and only meeting by day.
It is so much sweeter--for the woman at least, and when she is sure
of the man. And henceforward we needn't be so particular as we have
been about appearances.

Our experiences of matrimony with others have not been encouraging,
I own,said he with some gloom; "either owing to our own dissatisfied
unpractical naturesor by our misfortune. But we two----"

Should be two dissatisfied ones linked together, which would be twice
as bad as before.... I think I should begin to be afraid of you, Jude,
the moment you had contracted to cherish me under a Government stamp,
and I was licensed to be loved on the premises by you--Ugh, how horrible
and sordid! Although, as you are, free, I trust you more than any
other man in the world.

No, no--don't say I should change!he expostulated; yet there
was misgiving in his own voice also.

Apart from ourselves, and our unhappy peculiarities, it is foreign
to a man's nature to go on loving a person when he is told that he must
and shall be that person's lover. There would be a much likelier chance
of his doing it if he were told not to love. If the marriage ceremony
consisted in an oath and signed contract between the parties to cease
loving from that day forward, in consideration of personal possession
being given, and to avoid each other's society as much as possible
in public, there would be more loving couples than there are now.
Fancy the secret meetings between the perjuring husband and wife,
the denials of having seen each other, the clambering in at bedroom windows,
and the hiding in closets! There'd be little cooling then.

Yes; but admitting this, or something like it, to be true,
you are not the only one in the world to see it, dear little Sue.
People go on marrying because they can't resist natural forces,
although many of them may know perfectly well that they are
possibly buying a month's pleasure with a life's discomfort.
No doubt my father and mother, and your father and mother,
saw it, if they at all resembled us in habits of observation.
But then they went and married just the same, because they
had ordinary passions. But you, Sue, are such a phantasmal,
bodiless creature, one who--if you'll allow me to say it--
has so little animal passion in you, that you can act upon reason
in the matter, when we poor unfortunate wretches of grosser substance

Well,she sighedyou've owned that it would probably end in
misery for us. And I am not so exceptional a woman as you think.
Fewer women like marriage than you suppose, only they enter into it
for the dignity it is assumed to confer, and the social advantages
it gains them sometimes--a dignity and an advantage that I am quite
willing to do without.

Jude fell back upon his old complaint--thatintimate as they were
he had never once had from her an honestcandid declaration that she
loved or could love him. "I really fear sometimes that you cannot
he said, with a dubiousness approaching anger. And you are so reticent.
I know that women are taught by other women that they must never admit
the full truth to a man. But the highest form of affection is based
on full sincerity on both sides. Not being menthese women don't know
that in looking back on those he has had tender relations witha man's
heart returns closest to her who was the soul of truth in her conduct.
The better class of maneven if caught by airy affectations of dodging

and parryingis not retained by them. A Nemesis attends the woman who plays
the game of elusiveness too oftenin the utter contempt for her that
sooner or laterher old admirers feel; under which they allow her to go
unlamented to her grave."

Suewho was regarding the distancehad acquired a guilty look;
and she suddenly replied in a tragic voice: "I don't think I
like you to-day so well as I didJude!"

Don't you? Why?

Oh, well--you are not nice--too sermony. Though I suppose I am
so bad and worthless that I deserve the utmost rigour of lecturing!

No, you are not bad. You are a dear. But as slippery as an eel
when I want to get a confession from you.

Oh yes I am bad, and obstinate, and all sorts! It is no use
your pretending I am not! People who are good don't want
scolding as I do.... But now that I have nobody but you,
and nobody to defend me, it is very hard that I mustn't have
my own way in deciding how I'll live with you, and whether
I'll be married or no!

Sue, my own comrade and sweetheart, I don't want to force you
either to marry or to do the other thing--of course I don't!
It is too wicked of you to be so pettish! Now we won't say
any more about it, and go on just the same as we have done;
and during the rest of our walk we'll talk of the meadows only,
and the floods, and the prospect of the farmers this
coming year.

After this the subject of marriage was not mentioned by them for several days
though living as they were with only a landing between them it was
constantly in their minds. Sue was assisting Jude very materially now:
he had latterly occupied himself on his own account in working and
lettering headstoneswhich he kept in a little yard at the back of his
little housewhere in the intervals of domestic duties she marked out
the letters full size for himand blacked them in after he had cut them.
It was a lower class of handicraft than were his former performances
as a cathedral masonand his only patrons were the poor people who lived
in his own neighbourhoodand knew what a cheap man this "Jude Fawley:
Monumental Mason" (as he called himself on his front door) was to employ
for the simple memorials they required for their dead. But he seemed
more independent than beforeand it was the only arrangement under
which Suewho particularly wished to be no burden on himcould render
any assistance.

IT was an evening at the end of the monthand Jude had just returned home
from hearing a lecture on ancient history in the public hall not far off.
When he enteredSuewho had been keeping indoors during his absence
laid out supper for him. Contrary to custom she did not speak. Jude had
taken up some illustrated paperwhich he perused tillraising his eyes
he saw that her face was troubled.

Are you depressed, Sue?he said.

She paused a moment. "I have a message for you she answered.

Somebody has called?"

Yes. A woman.Sue's voice quavered as she spokeand she suddenly
sat down from her preparationslaid her hands in her lapand looked
into the fire. "I don't know whether I did right or not!" she continued.
I said you were not at home, and when she said she would wait, I said I
thought you might not be able to see her.

Why did you say that, dear? I suppose she wanted a headstone.
Was she in mourning?

No. She wasn't in mourning, and she didn't want a headstone;
and I thought you couldn't see her.Sue looked critically
and imploringly at him.

But who was she? Didn't she say?

No. She wouldn't give her name. But I know who she was--I think I do!
It was Arabella!

Heaven save us! What should Arabella come for? What made you think
it was she?

Oh, I can hardly tell. But I know it was! I feel perfectly
certain it was--by the light in her eyes as she looked at me.
She was a fleshy, coarse woman.

Well--I should not have called Arabella coarse exactly,
except in speech, though she may be getting so by this time
under the duties of the public house. She was rather handsome
when I knew her.

Handsome! But yes!--so she is!

I think I heard a quiver in your little mouth. Well, waiving that,
as she is nothing to me, and virtuously married to another man,
why should she come troubling us?

Are you sure she's married? Have you definite news of it?

No--not definite news. But that was why she asked me to release her.
She and the man both wanted to lead a proper life, as I understood.

Oh Jude--it was, it WAS Arabella!cried Suecovering her eyes
with her hand. "And I am so miserable! It seems such an ill omen
whatever she may have come for. You could not possibly see her
could you?"

I don't really think I could. It would be so very painful to talk
to her now--for her as much as for me. However, she's gone.
Did she say she would come again?

No. But she went away very reluctantly.

Suewhom the least thing upsetcould not eat any supper
and when Jude had finished his he prepared to go to bed.
He had no sooner raked out the firefastened the doors
and got to the top of the stairs than there came a knock.
Sue instantly emerged from her roomwhich she had but
just entered.

There she is again!Sue whispered in appalled accents.

How do you know?

She knocked like that last time.

They listenedand the knocking came again. No servant was kept
in the houseand if the summons were to be responded to one of them
would have to do it in person. "I'll open a window said Jude.
Whoever it is cannot be expected to be let in at this time."

He accordingly went into his bedroom and lifted the sash.
The lonely street of early retiring workpeople was empty from end
to end save of one figure--that of a woman walking up and down
by the lamp a few yards off.

Who's there?he asked.

Is that Mr. Fawley?came up from the womanin a voice which was
unmistakably Arabella's.

Jude replied that it was.

Is it she?asked Sue from the doorwith lips apart.

Yes, dear,said Jude. "What do you wantArabella?" he inquired.

I beg your pardon, Jude, for disturbing you,said Arabella humbly.
But I called earlier--I wanted particularly to see you to-night, if I could.
I am in trouble, and have nobody to help me!

In trouble, are you?


There was a silence. An inconvenient sympathy seemed to be rising in Jude's
breast at the appeal. "But aren't you married?" he said.

Arabella hesitated. "NoJudeI am not she returned.
He wouldn'tafter all. And I am in great difficulty.
I hope to get another situation as barmaid soon. But it
takes timeand I really am in great distress because of a sudden
responsibility that's been sprung upon me from Australia;
or I wouldn't trouble you--believe me I wouldn't. I want to tell you
about it."

Sue remained at gazein painful tensionhearing every word
but speaking none.

You are not really in want of money, Arabella?he asked
in a distinctly softened tone.

I have enough to pay for the night's lodging I have obtained,
but barely enough to take me back again.

Where are you living?

In London still.She was about to give the addressbut she said
I am afraid somebody may hear, so I don't like to call out particulars
of myself so loud. If you could come down and walk a little way with me
towards the Prince Inn, where I am staying to-night, I would explain all.
You may as well, for old time's sake!

Poor thing! I must do her the kindness of hearing what's the matter,
I suppose,said Jude in much perplexity. "As she's going back to-morrow
it can't make much difference."

But you can go and see her to-morrow, Jude! Don't go now, Jude!came in
plaintive accents from the doorway. "Ohit is only to entrap youI know
it isas she did before! Don't godear! She is such a low-passioned woman--
I can see it in her shapeand hear it in her voice!

But I shall go,said Jude. "Don't attempt to detain meSue. God knows
I love her little enough nowbut I don't want to be cruel to her."
He turned to the stairs.

But she's not your wife!cried Sue distractedly. "And I----"

And you are not either, dear, yet,said Jude.

Oh, but are you going to her? Don't! Stay at home! Please, please stay
at home, Jude, and not go to her, now she's not your wife any more than I!

Well, she is, rather more than you, come to that,he said
taking his hat determinedly. "I've wanted you to beand I've
waited with the patience of Joband I don't see that I've got
anything by my self-denial. I shall certainly give her something
and hear what it is she is so anxious to tell me; no man could
do less!"

There was that in his manner which she knew it would be futile to oppose.
She said no morebutturning to her room as meekly as a martyr
heard him go down-stairsunbolt the doorand close it behind him.
With a woman's disregard of her dignity when in the presence of nobody
but herselfshe also trotted downsobbing articulately as she went.
She listened. She knew exactly how far it was to the inn that Arabella
had named as her lodging. It would occupy about seven minutes to get
there at an ordinary walking pace; seven to come back again. If he did
not return in fourteen minutes he would have lingered. She looked at
the clock. It was twenty-five minutes to eleven. He MIGHT enter the inn
with Arabellaas they would reach it before closing time; she might get
him to drink with her; and Heaven only knew what disasters would befall
him then.

In a still suspense she waited on. It seemed as if the whole
time had nearly elapsed when the door was opened again
and Jude appeared.

Sue gave a little ecstatic cry. "OhI knew I could trust you!--
how good you are!"--she began.

I can't find her anywhere in this street, and I went out
in my slippers only. She has walked on, thinking I've been
so hard-hearted as to refuse her requests entirely, poor woman.
I've come back for my boots, as it is beginning to rain.

Oh, but why should you take such trouble for a woman who has served
you so badly!said Sue in a jealous burst of disappointment.

But, Sue, she's a woman, and I once cared for her; and one can't
be a brute in such circumstances.

She isn't your wife any longer!exclaimed Suepassionately excited.
You MUSTN'T go out to find her! It isn't right! You CAN'T join her,
now she's a stranger to you. How can you forget such a thing, my dear,
dear one!

She seems much the same as ever--an erring, careless,
unreflecting fellow-creature,he saidcontinuing to pull
on his boots. "What those legal fellows have been playing
at in London makes no difference in my real relations to her.

If she was my wife while she was away in Australia with another
husband she's my wife now."

But she wasn't! That's just what I hold! There's the absurdity!--
Well--you'll come straight back, after a few minutes, won't you, dear?
She is too low, too coarse for you to talk to long, Jude, and was always!

Perhaps I am coarse too, worse luck! I have the germs of every
human infirmity in me, I verily believe--that was why I saw
it was so preposterous of me to think of being a curate.
I have cured myself of drunkenness I think; but I never know
in what new form a suppressed vice will break out in me!
I do love you, Sue, though I have danced attendance on you
so long for such poor returns! All that's best and noblest
in me loves you, and your freedom from everything that's gross
has elevated me, and enabled me to do what I should never have
dreamt myself capable of, or any man, a year or two ago.
It is all very well to preach about self-control, and the wickedness
of coercing a woman. But I should just like a few virtuous
people who have condemned me in the past, about Arabella
and other things, to have been in my tantalizing position
with you through these late weeks!--they'd believe, I think,
that I have exercised some little restraint in always giving
in to your wishes--living here in one house, and not a soul
between us.

Yes, you have been good to me, Jude; I know you have, my dear protector.

Well--Arabella has appealed to me for help. I must go out and speak
to her, Sue, at least!

I can't say any more!--Oh, if you must, you must!she said
bursting out into sobs that seemed to tear her heart.
I have nobody but you, Jude, and you are deserting me!
I didn't know you were like this--I can't bear it, I can't! If she
were yours it would be different!

Or if you were.

Very well then--if I must I must. Since you will have it so,
I agree! I will be. Only I didn't mean to! And I didn't
want to marry again, either! ... But, yes--I agree, I agree!
I do love you. I ought to have known that you would conquer in
the long run, living like this!

She ran across and flung her arms round his neck. "I am not
a cold-naturedsexless creatuream Ifor keeping you at such
a distance? I am sure you don't think so! Wait and see!
I do belong to youdon't I? I give in!"

And I'll arrange for our marriage to-morrow, or as soon as ever you wish.

Yes, Jude.

Then I'll let her go,said heembracing Sue softly.
I do feel that it would be unfair to you to see her,
and perhaps unfair to her. She is not like you, my darling,
and never was: it is only bare justice to say that.
Don't cry any more. There; and there; and there!He kissed
her on one sideand on the otherand in the middleand rebolted
the front door.

The next morning it was wet.

Now, dear,said Jude gaily at breakfast; "as this is Saturday
I mean to call about the banns at onceso as to get the first
publishing done to-morrowor we shall lose a week. Banns will do?
We shall save a pound or two."

Sue absently agreed to banns. But her mind for the moment was
running on something else. A glow had passed away from her
and depression sat upon her features.

I feel I was wickedly selfish last night!she murmured.
It was sheer unkindness in me--or worse--to treat Arabella as I did.
I didn't care about her being in trouble, and what she wished
to tell you! Perhaps it was really something she was justified
in telling you. That's some more of my badness, I suppose!
Love has its own dark morality when rivalry enters in--
at least, mine has, if other people's hasn't.... I wonder
how she got on? I hope she reached the inn all right,
poor woman.

Oh yes: she got on all right,said Jude placidly.

I hope she wasn't shut out, and that she hadn't to walk the streets
in the rain. Do you mind my putting on my waterproof and going to see
if she got in? I've been thinking of her all the morning.

Well--is it necessary? You haven't the least idea how Arabella
is able to shift for herself. Still, darling, if you want to go
and inquire you can.

There was no limit to the strange and unnecessary penances
which Sue would meekly undertake when in a contrite mood;
and this going to see all sorts of extraordinary persons whose
relation to her was precisely of a kind that would have made
other people shun them was her instinct everso that the request
did not surprise him.

And when you come back,he addedI'll be ready to go about the banns.
You'll come with me?

Sue agreedand went off under cloak and umbrella letting Jude kiss
her freelyand returning his kisses in a way she had never done before.
Times had decidedly changed. "The little bird is caught at last!" she said
a sadness showing in her smile.

No--only nested,he assured her.

She walked along the muddy street till she reached the public
house mentioned by Arabellawhich was not so very far off.
She was informed that Arabella had not yet leftand in doubt
how to announce herself so that her predecessor in Jude's affections
would recognize hershe sent up word that a friend from Spring
Street had callednaming the place of Jude's residence.
She was asked to step upstairsand on being shown into a room
found that it was Arabella's bedroomand that the latter had
not yet risen. She halted on the turn of her toe till Arabella
cried from the bedCome in and shut the door,which Sue
accordingly did.

Arabella lay facing the windowand did not at once turn her head:
and Sue was wicked enoughdespite her penitenceto wish for a moment
that Jude could behold her forerunner nowwith the daylight full upon her.
She may have seemed handsome enough in profile under the lamps
but a frowsiness was apparent this morning; and the sight of her own
fresh charms in the looking-glass made Sue's manner brighttill she

reflected what a meanly sexual emotion this was in herand hated herself
for it.

I've just looked in to see if you got back comfortably last night,
that's all,she said gently. "I was afraid afterwards that you
might have met with any mishap?"

Oh--how stupid this is! I thought my visitor was--your friend-your
husband--Mrs. Fawley, as I suppose you call yourself?
said Arabellaflinging her head back upon the pillows with a
disappointed tossand ceasing to retain the dimple she had just
taken the trouble to produce.

Indeed I don't,said Sue.

Oh, I thought you might have, even if he's not really yours.
Decency is decency, any hour of the twenty-four.

I don't know what you mean,said Sue stiffly. "He is mine
if you come to that!"

He wasn't yesterday.

Sue coloured roseateand said "How do you know?"

From your manner when you talked to me at the door. Well, my dear,
you've been quick about it, and I expect my visit last night helped it on-ha-
ha! But I don't want to get him away from you.

Sue looked out at the rainand at the dirty toilet-coverand at
the detached tail of Arabella's hair hanging on the looking-glass
just as it had done in Jude's time; and wished she had not come.
In the pause there was a knock at the doorand the chambermaid brought
in a telegram for "Mrs. Cartlett."

Arabella opened it as she layand her ruffled look disappeared.

I am much obliged to you for your anxiety about me,she said blandly
when the maid had gone; "but it is not necessary you should feel it.
My man finds he can't do without me after alland agrees to stand
by the promise to marry again over here that he has made me all along.
See here! This is in answer to one from me." She held out the telegram
for Sue to readbut Sue did not take it. "He asks me to come back.
His little corner public in Lambeth would go to pieces without me
he says. But he isn't going to knock me about when he has had a drop
any more after we are spliced by English law than before! ... As
for youI should coax Jude to take me before the parson straight off
and have done with itif I were in your place. I say it as a friend
my dear."

He's waiting to, any day,returned Suewith frigid pride.

Then let him, in Heaven's name. Life with a man is more businesslike
after it, and money matters work better. And then, you see, if you have rows,
and he turns you out of doors, you can get the law to protect you, which you
can't otherwise, unless he half-runs you through with a knife, or cracks
your noddle with a poker. And if he bolts away from you--I say it friendly,
as woman to woman, for there's never any knowing what a man med do-you'll
have the sticks o' furniture, and won't be looked upon as a thief.
I shall marry my man over again, now he's willing, as there was a little flaw
in the first ceremony. In my telegram last night which this is an answer to,
I told him I had almost made it up with Jude; and that frightened him,
I expect! Perhaps I should quite have done it if it hadn't been for you,
she said laughing; "and then how different our histories might have been

from to-day! Never such a tender fool as Jude is if a woman seems in trouble
and coaxes him a bit! Just as he used to be about birds and things.
Howeveras it happensit is just as well as if I had made it upand I
forgive you. Andas I sayI'd advise you to get the business legally done
as soon as possible. You'll find it an awful bother later on if you don't."

I have told you he is asking me to marry him--to make our
natural marriage a legal one,said Suewith yet more dignity.
It was quite by my wish that he didn't the moment I was free.

Ah, yes--you are a oneyer too, like myself,said Arabella
eyeing her visitor with humorous criticism. "Bolted from
your firstdidn't youlike me?"

Good morning!--I must go,said Sue hastily.

And I, too, must up and off!replied the otherspringing out
of bed so suddenly that the soft parts of her person shook.
Sue jumped aside in trepidation. "LordI am only a woman--
not a six-foot sojer! ... Just a momentdear she continued,
putting her hand on Sue's arm. I really did want to consult
Jude on a little matter of businessas I told him. I came about
that more than anything else. Would he run up to speak to me
at the station as I am going? You think not. WellI'll write
to him about it. I didn't want to write itbut never mind--
I will."

WHEN Sue reached home Jude was awaiting her at the door to take
the initial step towards their marriage. She clasped his arm
and they went along silently togetheras true comrades oft-times do.
He saw that she was preoccupiedand forbore to question her.

Oh Jude--I've been talking to her,she said at last.
I wish I hadn't! And yet it is best to be reminded of things.

I hope she was civil.

Yes. I--I can't help liking her--just a little bit!
She's not an ungenerous nature; and I am so glad her difficulties
have all suddenly ended.She explained how Arabella
had been summoned backand would be enabled to retrieve
her position. "I was referring to our old question.
What Arabella has been saying to me has made me feel more than
ever how hopelessly vulgar an institution legal marriage is--
a sort of trap to catch a man--I can't bear to think of it.
I wish I hadn't promised to let you put up the banns
this morning!"

Oh, don't mind me. Any time will do for me. I thought you
might like to get it over quickly, now.

Indeed, I don't feel any more anxious now than I did before.
Perhaps with any other man I might be a little anxious;
but among the very few virtues possessed by your family and mine,
dear, I think I may set staunchness. So I am not a bit frightened
about losing you, now I really am yours and you really are mine.
In fact, I am easier in my mind than I was, for my conscience
is clear about Richard, who now has a right to his freedom.
I felt we were deceiving him before.

Sue, you seem when you are like this to be one of the women of some
grand old civilization, whom I used to read about in my bygone, wasted,
classical days, rather than a denizen of a mere Christian country.
I almost expect you to say at these times that you have just been talking
to some friend whom you met in the Via Sacra, about the latest news
of Octavia or Livia; or have been listening to Aspasia's eloquence,
or have been watching Praxiteles chiselling away at his latest Venus,
while Phryne made complaint that she was tired of posing.

They had now reached the house of the parish clerk. Sue stood back
while her lover went up to the door. His hand was raised to knock
when she said: "Jude!"

He looked round.

Wait a minute, would you mind?

He came back to her.

Just let us think,she said timidly. "I had such a horrid
dream one night! ... And Arabella----"

What did Arabella say to you?he asked

Oh, she said that when people were tied up you could get the law of a man
better if he beat you--and how when couples quarrelled.... Jude, do you
think that when you must have me with you by law, we shall be so happy as we
are now? The men and women of our family are very generous when everything
depends upon their goodwill, but they always kick against compulsion.
Don't you dread the attitude that insensibly arises out of legal obligation?
Don't you think it is destructive to a passion whose essence is
its gratuitousness?

Upon my word, love, you are beginning to frighten me, too, with all
this foreboding! Well, let's go back and think it over.

Her face brightened. "Yes--so we will!" said she. And they turned
from the clerk's doorSue taking his arm and murmuring as they
walked on homeward:

Can you keep the bee from ranging
Or the ring-dove s neck from changing?
No! Nor fetter'd love ...

They thought it overor postponed thinking. Certainly they
postponed actionand seemed to live on in a dreamy paradise.
At the end of a fortnight or three weeks matters remained unadvanced
and no banns were announced to the ears of any Aldbrickham congregation.

Whilst they were postponing and postponing thus a letter and a
newspaper arrived before breakfast one morning from Arabella.
Seeing the handwriting Jude went up to Sue's room and told her
and as soon as she was dressed she hastened down. Sue opened
the newspaper; Jude the letter. After glancing at the paper she
held across the first page to him with her finger on a paragraph;
but he was so absorbed in his letter that he did not turn awhile.

Look!said she.

He looked and read. The paper was one that circulated in South London only
and the marked advertisement was simply the announcement of a marriage

at St. John's ChurchWaterloo Roadunder the namesCARTLETT--DONN;
the united pair being Arabella and the inn-keeper.

Well, it is satisfactory,said Sue complacently.
Though, after this, it seems rather low to do likewise,
and I am glad. However, she is provided for now in a way,
I suppose, whatever her faults, poor thing. It is nicer
that we are able to think that, than to be uneasy about her.
I ought, too, to write to Richard and ask him how he is getting
on, perhaps?

But Jude's attention was still absorbed. Having merely
glanced at the announcement he said in a disturbed voice:
Listen to this letter. What shall I say or do?


DEAR JUDE (I won't be so distant as to call you Mr. Fawley)--
I send to-day a newspaperfrom which useful document you will
learn that I was married over again to Cartlett last Tuesday.
So that business is settled right and tight at last.
But what I write about more particular is that private affair
I wanted to speak to you on when I came down to Aldbrickham.
I couldn't very well tell it to your lady friend
and should much have liked to let you know it by word
of mouthas I could have explained better than by letter.
The fact isJudethatthough I have never informed you before
there was a boy born of our marriageeight months after I left you
when I was at Sydneyliving with my father and mother.
All that is easily provable. As I had separated from
you before I thought such a thing was going to happen
and I was over thereand our quarrel had been sharp
I did not think it convenient to write about the birth.
I was then looking out for a good situationso my parents
took the childand he has been with them ever since.
That was why I did not mention it when I met you in Christminster
nor at the law proceedings. He is now of an intelligent age
of courseand my mother and father have lately written
to say thatas they have rather a hard struggle over there
and I am settled comfortably herethey don't see why they should
be encumbered with the child any longerhis parents being alive.
I would have him with me here in a momentbut he is not old
enough to be of any use in the bar nor will be for years
and yearsand naturally Cartlett might think him in the way.
They havehoweverpacked him off to me in charge of some friends
who happened to be coming homeand I must ask you to take
him when he arrivesfor I don't know what to do with him.
He is lawfully yoursthat I solemnly swear. If anybody says
he isn'tcall them brimstone liarsfor my sake. Whatever I
may have done before or afterwardsI was honest to you from
the time we were married till I went awayand I remainyours


Sue's look was one of dismay. "What will you dodear?" she asked faintly.

Jude did not replyand Sue watched him anxiouslywith heavy breaths.

It hits me hard!said he in an under-voice. "It MAY be true!
I can't make it out. Certainlyif his birth was exactly when she says

he's mine. I cannot think why she didn't tell me when I met her
at Christminsterand came on here that evening with her! ... Ah--
I do remember now that she said something about having a thing
on her mind that she would like me to knowif ever we lived
together again."

The poor child seems to be wanted by nobody!Sue replied
and her eyes filled.

Jude had by this time come to himself. "What a view of life
he must havemine or not mine!" he said. "I must say that
if I were better offI should not stop for a moment to think
whose he might be. I would take him and bring him up.
The beggarly question of parentage--what is itafter all?
What does it matterwhen you come to think of it
whether a child is yours by blood or not? All the little
ones of our time are collectively the children of us adults
of the timeand entitled to our general care. That excessive
regard of parents for their own childrenand their dislike
of other people'sislike class-feelingpatriotism
save-your-own-soul-ismand other virtuesa mean exclusiveness
at bottom."

Sue jumped up and kissed Jude with passionate devotion.
Yes--so it is, dearest! And we'll have him here!
And if he isn't yours it makes it all the better. I do hope
he isn't--though perhaps I ought not to feel quite that!
If he isn't, I should like so much for us to have him as an
adopted child!

Well, you must assume about him what is most pleasing to you,
my curious little comrade!he said. "I feel thatanyhow
I don't like to leave the unfortunate little fellow to neglect.
Just think of his life in a Lambeth pothouseand all its
evil influenceswith a parent who doesn't want himand has
indeedhardly seen himand a stepfather who doesn't know him.
'Let the day perish wherein I was bornand the night
in which it was saidThere is a man child conceived!'
That's what the boy--my boyperhapswill find himself saying
before long!"

Oh no!

As I was the petitioner, I am really entitled to his custody,
I suppose.

Whether or no, we must have him. I see that. I'll do the best I
can to be a mother to him, and we can afford to keep him somehow.
I'll work harder. I wonder when he'll arrive?

In the course of a few weeks, I suppose.

I wish--When shall we have courage to marry, Jude?

Whenever you have it, I think I shall. It remains with you entirely, dear.
Only say the word, and it's done.

Before the boy comes?


It would make a more natural home for him, perhaps,she murmured.

Jude thereupon wrote in purely formal terms to request that the boy

should be sent on to them as soon as he arrivedmaking no remark
whatever on the surprising nature of Arabella's information
nor vouchsafing a single word of opinion on the boy's paternity
nor on whetherhad he known all thishis conduct towards her would
have been quite the same.

In the down-train that was timed to reach Aldbrickham station
about ten o'clock the next eveninga smallpale child's face could
be seen in the gloom of a third-class carriage. He had large
frightened eyesand wore a white woollen cravatover which a
key was suspended round his neck by a piece of common string:
the key attracting attention by its occasional shine in the lamplight.
In the band of his hat his half-ticket was stuck. His eyes
remained mostly fixed on the back of the seat oppositeand never
turned to the window even when a station was reached and called.
On the other seat were two or three passengersone of them a working
woman who held a basket on her lapin which was a tabby kitten.
The woman opened the cover now and thenwhereupon the kitten
would put out its headand indulge in playful antics.
At these the fellow-passengers laughedexcept the solitary boy bearing
the key and ticketwhoregarding the kitten with his saucer eyes
seemed mutely to say: "All laughing comes from misapprehension.
Rightly looked at there is no laughable thing under the sun."

Occasionally at a stoppage the guard would look into the compartment
and say to the boyAll right, my man. Your box is safe in the van.
The boy would sayYes,without animationwould try to smile
and fail.

He was Age masquerading as Juvenilityand doing it so badly that his real
self showed through crevices. A ground-swell from ancient years of night
seemed now and then to lift the child in this his morning-lifewhen his face
took a back view over some great Atlantic of Timeand appeared not to care
about what it saw.

When the other travellers closed their eyeswhich they did one by one--
even the kitten curling itself up in the basketweary of its too
circumscribed play--the boy remained just as before. He then seemed
to be doubly awakelike an enslaved and dwarfed divinitysitting passive
and regarding his companions as if he saw their whole rounded lives
rather than their immediate figures.

This was Arabella's boy. With her usual carelessness she had postponed
writing to Jude about him till the eve of his landingwhen she could
absolutely postpone no longerthough she had known for weeks of his
approaching arrivaland hadas she truly saidvisited Aldbrickham
mainly to reveal the boy's existence and his near home-coming to Jude.
This very day on which she had received her former husband's answer
at some time in the afternoonthe child reached the London Docks
and the family in whose charge he had comehaving put him into a cab for
Lambeth and directed the cabman to his mother's housebade him good-bye
and went their way.

On his arrival at the Three HornsArabella had looked him
over with an expression that was as good as sayingYou are
very much what I expected you to be,had given him a good meal
a little moneyandlate as it was gettingdispatched him
to Jude by the next trainwishing her husband Cartlett
who was outnot to see him.

The train reached Aldbrickhamand the boy was deposited on
the lonely platform beside his box. The collector took his
ticket andwith a meditative sense of the unfitness of things
asked him where he was going by himself at that time of night.

Going to Spring Street,said the little one impassively.

Why, that's a long way from here; a'most out in the country;
and the folks will be gone to bed.

I've got to go there.

You must have a fly for your box.

No. I must walk.

Oh well: you'd better leave your box here and send for it.
There's a 'bus goes half-way, but you'll have to walk
the rest.

I am not afraid.

Why didn't your friends come to meet 'ee?

I suppose they didn't know I was coming.

Who is your friends?

Mother didn't wish me to say.

All I can do, then, is to take charge of this. Now walk as fast as you can.

Saying nothing further the boy came out into the street
looking round to see that nobody followed or observed him.
When he had walked some little distance he asked for the street
of his destination. He was told to go straight on quite into
the outskirts of the place.

The child fell into a steady mechanical creep which had in it
an impersonal quality--the movement of the waveor of the breeze
or of the cloud. He followed his directions literallywithout an
inquiring gaze at anything. It could have been seen that the boy's
ideas of life were different from those of the local boys.
Children begin with detailand learn up to the general; they begin
with the contiguousand gradually comprehend the universal.
The boy seemed to have begun with the generals of life
and never to have concerned himself with the particulars.
To him the housesthe willowsthe obscure fields beyond
were apparently regarded not as brick residencespollardsmeadows;
but as human dwellings in the abstractvegetationand the wide
dark world.

He found the way to the little laneand knocked at the door of Jude's house.
Jude had just retired to bedand Sue was about to enter her chamber adjoining
when she heard the knock and came down.

Is this where Father lives?asked the child.


Mr. Fawley, that's his name.

Sue ran up to Jude's room and told himand he hurried down as soon
as he couldthough to her impatience he seemed long.

What--is it he--so soon?she asked as Jude came.

She scrutinized the child's featuresand suddenly went away into

the little sitting-room adjoining. Jude lifted the boy to a level
with himselfkeenly regarded him with gloomy tendernessand telling
him he would have been met if they had known of his coming so soon
set him provisionally in a chair whilst he went to look for Sue
whose supersensitiveness was disturbedas he knew. He found her
in the darkbending over an arm-chair. He enclosed her with his arm
and putting his face by herswhisperedWhat's the matter?

What Arabella says is true--true! I see you in him!

Well: that's one thing in my life as it should be, at any rate.

But the other half of him is--SHE! And that's what I can't bear!
But I ought to--I'll try to get used to it; yes, I ought!

Jealous little Sue! I withdraw all remarks about your sexlessness.
Never mind! Time may right things.... And Sue, darling; I have an idea!
We'll educate and train him with a view to the university.
What I couldn't accomplish in my own person perhaps I can carry
out through him? They are making it easier for poor students now,
you know.

Oh you dreamer!said sheand holding his hand returned to the child
with him. The boy looked at her as she had looked at him. "Is it you
who's my REAL mother at last?" he inquired.

Why? Do I look like your father's wife?

Well, yes; 'cept he seems fond of you, and you of him.
Can I call you Mother?

Then a yearning look came over the child and he began to cry.
Sue thereupon could not refrain from instantly doing likewise
being a harp which the least wind of emotion from another's
heart could make to vibrate as readily as a radical stir in
her own.

You may call me Mother, if you wish to, my poor dear!she said
bending her cheek against his to hide her tears.

What's this round your neck?asked Jude with affected calmness.

The key of my box that's at the station.

They bustled about and got him some supperand made him up a temporary bed
where he soon fell asleep. Both went and looked at him as he lay.

He called you Mother two or three times before he dropped off,
murmured Jude. "Wasn't it odd that he should have wanted to!"

Well--it was significant,said Sue. "There's more for us to think
about in that one little hungry heart than in all the stars of the sky....
I supposedearwe must pluck up courageand get that ceremony over?
It is no use struggling against the currentand I feel myself
getting intertwined with my kind. Oh Judeyou'll love me dearly
won't youafterwards! I do want to be kind to this childand to be
a mother to him; and our adding the legal form to our marriage might make
it easier for me."

THEIR next and second attempt thereat was more deliberately made
though it was begun on the morning following the singular child's
arrival at their home.

Him they found to be in the habit of sitting silenthis quaint
and weird face setand his eyes resting on things they did not see
in the substantial world.

His face is like the tragic mask of Melpomene,said Sue.
What is your name, dear? Did you tell us?

Little Father Time is what they always called me. It is a nickname;
because I look so aged, they say.

And you talk so, too,said Sue tenderly. "It is strangeJude
that these preternaturally old boys almost always come from new countries.
But what were you christened?"

I never was.

Why was that?

Because, if I died in damnation, 'twould save the expense
of a Christian funeral.

Oh--your name is not Jude, then?said his father with some disappointment.

The boy shook his head. "Never heerd on it."

Of course not,said Sue quickly; "since she was hating you all the time!"

We'll have him christened,said Jude; and privately to Sue:
The day we are married.Yet the advent of the child
disturbed him.

Their position lent them shynessand having an impression that a
marriage at a superintendent registrar's office was more private
than an ecclesiastical onethey decided to avoid a church this time.
Both Sue and Jude together went to the office of the district
to give notice: they had become such companions that they could
hardly do anything of importance except in each other's company.

Jude Fawley signed the form of noticeSue looking over his
shoulder and watching his hand as it traced the words.
As she read the four-square undertakingnever before seen
by herinto which her own and Jude's names were inserted
and by which that very volatile essencetheir love for
each otherwas supposed to be made permanenther face
seemed to grow painfully apprehensive. "Names and Surnames
of the Parties"--(they were to be parties nownot lovers
she thought). "Condition"--(a horrid idea)--"Rank or
Occupation"--"Age"--"Dwelling at"--"Length of Residence"--"Church
or Building in which the Marriage is to be solemnized"-"
District and County in which the Parties respectively dwell."

It spoils the sentiment, doesn't it!she said on their way home.
It seems making a more sordid business of it even than signing
the contract in a vestry. There is a little poetry in a church.
But we'll try to get through with it, dearest, now.

We will. 'For what man is he that hath betrothed a wife
and hath not taken her? Let him go and return unto his house,
lest he die in the battle, and another man take her.'
So said the Jewish law-giver.

How you know the Scriptures, Jude! You really ought to have been a parson.
I can only quote profane writers!

During the interval before the issuing of the certificate Sue
in her housekeeping errandssometimes walked past the office
and furtively glancing in saw affixed to the wall the notice
of the purposed clinch to their union. She could not bear
its aspect. Coming after her previous experience of matrimony
all the romance of their attachment seemed to be starved
away by placing her present case in the same category.
She was usually leading little Father Time by the handand fancied
that people thought him hersand regarded the intended ceremony
as the patching up of an old error.

Meanwhile Jude decided to link his present with his past in some slight
degree by inviting to the wedding the only person remaining on earth who was
associated with his early life at Marygreen--the aged widow Mrs. Edlin
who had been his great-aunt's friend and nurse in her last illness. He hardly
expected that she would come; but she didbringing singular presents
in the form of applesjambrass snuffersan ancient pewter dish
a warming-panand an enormous bag of goose feathers towards a bed.
She was allotted the spare room in Jude's housewhither she retired early
and where they could hear her through the ceiling belowhonestly saying
the Lord's Prayer in a loud voiceas the Rubric directed.

Ashowevershe could not sleepand discovered that Sue and
Jude were still sitting up--it being in fact only ten o'clock--
she dressed herself again and came downand they all sat by the fire
till a late hour--Father Time included; thoughas he never spoke
they were hardly conscious of him.

Well, I bain't set against marrying as your great-aunt was,said the widow.
And I hope 'twill be a jocund wedding for ye in all respects this time.
Nobody can hope it more, knowing what I do of your families, which is more,
I suppose, than anybody else now living. For they have been unlucky that way,
God knows.

Sue breathed uneasily.

They was always good-hearted people, too--wouldn't kill
a fly if they knowed it,continued the wedding guest.
But things happened to thwart 'em, and if everything wasn't vitty
they were upset. No doubt that's how he that the tale is told
of came to do what 'a did--if he WERE one of your family.

What was that?said Jude.

Well--that tale, ye know; he that was gibbeted just on the brow
of the hill by the Brown House--not far from the milestone between
Marygreen and Alfredston, where the other road branches off.
But Lord, 'twas in my grandfather's time; and it medn' have been one
of your folk at all.

I know where the gibbet is said to have stood, very well,murmured Jude.
But I never heard of this. What--did this man--my ancestor and Sue's--
kill his wife?

'Twer not that exactly. She ran away from him, with their child,
to her friends; and while she was there the child died. He wanted
the body, to bury it where his people lay, but she wouldn't give it up.
Her husband then came in the night with a cart, and broke into the house
to steal the coffin away; but he was catched, and being obstinate,
wouldn't tell what he broke in for. They brought it in burglary,

and that's why he was hanged and gibbeted on Brown House Hill. His wife
went mad after he was dead. But it medn't be true that he belonged to ye
more than to me.

A small slow voice rose from the shade of the fireside
as if out of the earth: "If I was youMotherI wouldn't
marry Father!" It came from little Timeand they started
for they had forgotten him.

Oh, it is only a tale,said Sue cheeringly.

After this exhilarating tradition from the widow on the eve
of the solemnization they roseandwishing their guest

The next morning Suewhose nervousness intensified with the hours
took Jude privately into the sitting-room before starting.
Jude, I want you to kiss me, as a lover, incorporeally,she said
tremulously nestling up to himwith damp lashes. "It won't be ever
like this any morewill it! I wish we hadn't begun the business.
But I suppose we must go on. How horrid that story was last night!
It spoilt my thoughts of to-day. It makes me feel as if a tragic doom
overhung our familyas it did the house of Atreus."

Or the house of Jeroboam,said the quondam theologian.

Yes. And it seems awful temerity in us two to go marrying!
I am going to vow to you in the same words I vowed in to my
other husband, and you to me in the same as you used to your
other wife; regardless of the deterrent lesson we were taught
by those experiments!

If you are uneasy I am made unhappy,said he. "I had hoped you would
feel quite joyful. But if you don'tyou don't. It is no use pretending.
It is a dismal business to youand that makes it so to me!"

It is unpleasantly like that other morning--that's all,she murmured.
Let us go on now.

They started arm in arm for the office aforesaidno witness
accompanying them except the Widow Edlin. The day was chilly and dull
and a clammy fog blew through the town from "Royal-tower'd Thame."
On the steps of the office there were the muddy foot-marks of people
who had enteredand in the entry were damp umbrellas Within the office
several persons were gatheredand our couple perceived that a
marriage between a soldier and a young woman was just in progress.
SueJudeand the widow stood in the background while this
was going onSue reading the notices of marriage on the wall.
The room was a dreary place to two of their temperament
though to its usual frequenters it doubtless seemed ordinary enough.
Law-books in musty calf covered one walland elsewhere
were post-office directoriesand other books of reference.
Papers in packets tied with red tape were pigeon-holed around
and some iron safes filled a recesswhile the bare wood floor was
like the door-stepstained by previous visitors.

The soldier was sullen and reluctant: the bride sad and timid;
she was soonobviouslyto become a motherand she had a black eye.
Their little business was soon doneand the twain and their friends
straggled outone of the witnesses saying casually to Jude and Sue
in passingas if he had known them before: "See the couple just
come in? Haha! That fellow is just out of gaol this morning.
She met him at the gaol gatesand brought him straight here.
She's paying for everything."

Sue turned her head and saw an ill-favoured manclosely cropped
with a broad-facedpock-marked woman on his armruddy with liquor
and the satisfaction of being on the brink of a gratified desire.
They jocosely saluted the outgoing coupleand went forward
in front of Jude and Suewhose diffidence was increasing.
The latter drew back and turned to her loverher mouth shaping itself
like that of a child about to give way to grief:

Jude--I don't like it here! I wish we hadn't come! The place gives
me the horrors: it seems so unnatural as the climax of our love!
I wish it had been at church, if it had to be at all. It is not so
vulgar there!

Dear little girl,said Jude. "How troubled and pale you look!"

It must be performed here now, I suppose?

No--perhaps not necessarily.

He spoke to the clerkand came back. "No--we need not marry
here or anywhereunless we likeeven now he said.
We can be married in a churchif not with the same certificate
with another he'll give usI think. Anyhowlet us go out till
you are calmerdearand I tooand talk it over."

They went out stealthily and guiltilyas if they had committed
a misdemeanourclosing the door without noiseand telling the widow
who had remained in the entryto go home and await them; that they
would call in any casual passers as witnessesif necessary.
When in the street they turned into an unfrequented side alley where
they walked up and down as they had done long ago in the market-house
at Melchester.

Now, darling, what shall we do? We are making a mess of it,
it strikes me. Still, ANYTHING that pleases you will please me.

But Jude, dearest, I am worrying you! You wanted it to be there,
didn't you?

Well, to tell the truth, when I got inside I felt as if I didn't care
much about it. The place depressed me almost as much as it did you--
it was ugly. And then I thought of what you had said this morning as to
whether we ought.

They walked on vaguelytill she pausedand her little voice began anew:
It seems so weak, too, to vacillate like this! And yet how much better
than to act rashly a second time.... How terrible that scene was to me!
The expression in that flabby woman's face, leading her on to give herself
to that gaol-bird, not for a few hours, as she would, but for a lifetime,
as she must. And the other poor soul--to escape a nominal shame which was
owing to the weakness of her character, degrading herself to the real
shame of bondage to a tyrant who scorned her--a man whom to avoid for ever
was her only chance of salvation.... This is our parish church, isn't it?
This is where it would have to be, if we did it in the usual way? A service
or something seems to be going on.

Jude went up and looked in at the door. "Why--it is a wedding here too
he said. Everybody seems to be on our tack to-day."

Sue said she supposed it was because Lent was just over
when there was always a crowd of marriages. "Let us listen
she said, and find how it feels to us when performed in
a church."

They stepped inand entered a back seatand watched the proceedings
at the altar. The contracting couple appeared to belong to the well-to-do
middle classand the wedding altogether was of ordinary prettiness
and interest. They could see the flowers tremble in the bride's hand
even at that distanceand could hear her mechanical murmur of words
whose meaning her brain seemed to gather not at all under the pressure
of her self-consciousness. Sue and Jude listenedand severally saw
themselves in time past going through the same form of self-committal.

It is not the same to her, poor thing, as it would be to me
doing it over again with my present knowledge,Sue whispered.
You see, they are fresh to it, and take the proceedings
as a matter of course. But having been awakened to its awful
solemnity as we have, or at least as I have, by experience,
and to my own too squeamish feelings perhaps sometimes,
it really does seem immoral in me to go and undertake the same
thing again with open eyes. Coming in here and seeing this
has frightened me from a church wedding as much as the other
did from a registry one.... We are a weak, tremulous pair,
Jude, and what others may feel confident in I feel doubts of--
my being proof against the sordid conditions of a business
contract again!

Then they tried to laughand went on debating in whispers the object-lesson
before them. And Jude said he also thought they were both too thin-skinned--
that they ought never to have been born--much less have come together for
the most preposterous of all joint ventures for THEM--matrimony.

His betrothed shuddered; and asked him earnestly if he indeed felt that they
ought not to go in cold blood and sign that life-undertaking again?"
It is awful if you think we have found ourselves not strong enough for it
and knowing thisare proposing to perjure ourselves she said.

I fancy I do think it--since you ask me said Jude. Remember I'll
do it if you wishown darling." While she hesitated he went on
to confess thatthough he thought they ought to be able to do it
he felt checked by the dread of incompetency just as she did--
from their peculiaritiesperhapsbecause they were unlike other people.
We are horribly sensitive; that's really what's the matter
with us, Sue!he declared.

I fancy more are like us than we think!

Well, I don't know. The intention of the contract is good,
and right for many, no doubt; but in our case it may defeat
its own ends because we are the queer sort of people we are--
folk in whom domestic ties of a forced kind snuff out cordiality
and spontaneousness.

Sue still held that there was not much queer or exceptional in them:
that all were so. "Everybody is getting to feel as we do.
We are a little beforehandthat's all. In fiftya hundred
years the descendants of these two will act and feel worse than we.
They will see weltering humanity still more vividly than we do now

Shapes like our own selves hideously multiplied

and will be afraid to reproduce them."

What a terrible line of poetry! ... though I have felt it myself
about my fellow-creatures, at morbid times.

Thus they murmured ontill Sue said more brightly:

Well--the general question is not our business, and why should
we plague ourselves about it? However different our reasons
are we come to the same conclusion; that for us particular two,
an irrevocable oath is risky. Then, Jude, let us go home
without killing our dream! Yes? How good you are, my friend:
you give way to all my whims!

They accord very much with my own.

He gave her a little kiss behind a pillar while the attention of everybody
present was taken up in observing the bridal procession entering the vestry;
and then they came outside the building. By the door they waited till two
or three carriageswhich had gone away for a whilereturnedand the new
husband and wife came into the open daylight. Sue sighed.

The flowers in the bride's hand are sadly like the garland
which decked the heifers of sacrifice in old times!

Still, Sue, it is no worse for the woman than for the man.
That's what some women fail to see, and instead of protesting against
the conditions they protest against the man, the other victim;
just as a woman in a crowd will abuse the man who crushes against her,
when he is only the helpless transmitter of the pressure put
upon him.

Yes--some are like that, instead of uniting with the man against
the common enemy, coercion.The bride and bridegroom had by this
time driven offand the two moved away with the rest of the idlers.
No--don't let's do it,she continued. "At least just now."

They reached homeand passing the window arm in arm saw the widow
looking out at them. "Well cried their guest when they entered,
I said to myself when I zeed ye coming so loving up to the door
'They made up their minds at lastthen!'"

They briefly hinted that they had not.

What--and ha'n't ye really done it? Chok' it all, that I should have
lived to see a good old saying like 'marry in haste and repent at leisure'
spoiled like this by you two! 'Tis time I got back again to Marygreen--
sakes if tidden--if this is what the new notions be leading us to!
Nobody thought o' being afeard o' matrimony in my time, nor of much else but
a cannon-ball or empty cup-board! Why when I and my poor man were married we
thought no more o't than of a game o' dibs!

Don't tell the child when he comes in,whispered Sue nervously.
He'll think it has all gone on right, and it will be better
that he should not be surprised and puzzled. Of course it is
only put off for reconsideration. If we are happy as we are,
what does it matter to anybody?

THE purpose of a chronicler of moods and deeds does not require him
to express his personal views upon the grave controversy above given.
That the twain were happy--between their times of sadness--was indubitable.
And when the unexpected apparition of Jude's child in the house
had shown itself to be no such disturbing event as it had looked

but one that brought into their lives a new and tender interest
of an ennobling and unselfish kindit rather helped than injured
their happiness.

To be surewith such pleasing anxious beings as they werethe boy's coming
also brought with it much thought for the futureparticularly as he seemed
at present to be singularly deficient in all the usual hopes of childhood.
But the pair tried to dismissfor a while at leasta too strenuously
forward view.

There is in Upper Wessex an old town of nine or ten thousand souls;
the town may be called Stoke-Barehills. It stands with its gaunt
unattractiveancient churchand its new red brick suburb
amid the openchalk-soiled cornlandsnear the middle of an imaginary
triangle which has for its three corners the towns of Aldbrickham
and Wintoncesterand the important military station of Quartershot.
The great western highway from London passes through itnear a point
where the road branches into twomerely to unite again some twenty
miles further westward. Out of this bifurcation and reunion there
used to arise among wheeled travellersbefore railway days
endless questions of choice between the respective ways.
But the question is now as dead as the scot-and-lot freeholder
the road waggonerand the mail coachman who disputed it;
and probably not a single inhabitant of Stoke-Barehills is now even
aware that the two roads which part in his town ever meet again;
for nobody now drives up and down the great western highway dally.

The most familiar object in Stoke-Barehills nowadays is its cemetery
standing among some picturesque mediaeval ruins beside the railway;
the modern chapelsmodern tombsand modern shrubs having a look
of intrusiveness amid the crumbling and ivy-covered decay of the
ancient walls.

On a certain dayhoweverin the particular year which has
now been reached by this narrative--the month being early June-the
features of the town excite little interestthough many
visitors arrive by the trains; some down-trainsin especial
nearly emptying themselves here. It is the week of the Great Wessex
Agricultural Showwhose vast encampment spreads over the open
outskirts of the town like the tents of an investing army.
Rows of marqueeshutsboothspavilionsarcadesporticoes-every
kind of structure short of a permanent one-cover
the green field for the space of a square half-mile
and the crowds of arrivals walk through the town in a mass
and make straight for the exhibition ground. The way thereto
is lined with showsstallsand hawkers on footwho make
a market-place of the whole roadway to the show properand lead
some of the improvident to lighten their pockets appreciably
before they reach the gates of the exhibition they came expressly
to see.

It is the popular daythe shilling dayand of the fast
arriving excursion trains two from different directions enter
the two contiguous railway stations at almost the same minute.
Onelike several which have preceded itcomes from London:
the other by a cross-line from Aldbrickham; and from the London
train alights a couple; a shortrather bloated manwith a
globular stomach and small legsresembling a top on two pegs
accompanied by a woman of rather fine figure and rather red face
dressed in black materialand covered with beads from bonnet
to skirtthat made her glisten as if clad in chain-mail.

They cast their eyes around. The man was about to hire a fly as some others
had donewhen the woman saidDon't be in such a hurry, Cartlett. It isn't

so very far to the show-yard. Let us walk down the street into the place.
Perhaps I can pick up a cheap bit of furniture or old china. It is years
since I was here--never since I lived as a girl at Aldbrickham, and used to
come across for a trip sometimes with my young man.

You can't carry home furniture by excursion train,saidin a thick voice
her husbandthe landlord of The Three HornsLambeth; for they had
both come down from the tavern in that "excellentdensely populated
gin-drinking neighbourhood which they had occupied ever since
the advertisement in those words had attracted them thither.
The configuration of the landlord showed that he, too, like his customers,
was becoming affected by the liquors he retailed.

Then I'll get it sentif I see any worth having said his wife.

They sauntered on, but had barely entered the town when her attention
was attracted by a young couple leading a child, who had come out from
the second platform, into which the train from Aldbrickham had steamed.
They were walking just in front of the inn-keepers.

Sakes alive!" said Arabella.

What's that?said Cartlett.

Who do you think that couple is? Don't you recognize the man?


Not from the photos I have showed you?

Is it Fawley?

Yes--of course.

Oh, well. I suppose he was inclined for a little sight-seeing like the rest
of us.Cartlett's interest in Jude whatever it might have been when Arabella
was new to himhad plainly flagged since her charms and her idiosyncrasies
her supernumerary hair-coilsand her optional dimpleswere becoming as a
tale that is told.

Arabella so regulated her pace and her husband's as to keep
just in the rear of the other threewhich it was easy
to do without notice in such a stream of pedestrians.
Her answers to Cartlett's remarks were vague and slight
for the group in front interested her more than all the rest
of the spectacle.

They are rather fond of one another and of their child, seemingly,
continued the publican.

THEIR child! 'Tisn't their child,said Arabella with a curious
sudden covetousness. "They haven't been married long enough for it
to be theirs!"

But although the smouldering maternal instinct was strong
enough in her to lead her to quash her husband's conjecture
she was not disposed on second thoughts to be more candid
than necessary. Mr. Cartlett had no other idea than that his
wife's child by her first husband was with his grandparents
at the Antipodes.

Oh I suppose not. She looks quite a girl.

They are only lovers, or lately married, and have the child in charge,

as anybody can see.

All continued to move ahead. The unwitting Sue and Judethe couple
in questionhad determined to make this agricultural exhibition within
twenty miles of their own town the occasion of a day's excursion which
should combine exercise and amusement with instructionat small expense.
Not regardful of themselves alonethey had taken care to bring Father Time
to try every means of making him kindle and laugh like other boys
though he was to some extent a hindrance to the delightfully unreserved
intercourse in their pilgrimages which they so much enjoyed.
But they soon ceased to consider him an observerand went along with that
tender attention to each other which the shyest can scarcely disguise
and which theseamong entire strangers as they imaginedtook less
trouble to disguise than they might have done at home. Suein her
new summer clothesflexible and light as a birdher little thumb
stuck up by the stem of her white cotton sunshadewent along as if she
hardly touched groundand as if a moderately strong puff of wind would
float her over the hedge into the next field. Judein his light grey
holiday-suitwas really proud of her companionshipnot more for her
external attractiveness than for her sympathetic words and ways.
That complete mutual understandingin which every glance and movement
was as effectual as speech for conveying intelligence between them
made them almost the two parts of a single whole.

The pair with their charge passed through the turnstiles
Arabella and her husband not far behind them. When inside
the enclosure the publican's wife could see that the two
ahead began to take trouble with the youngsterpointing out
and explaining the many objects of interestalive and dead;
and a passing sadness would touch their faces at their every
failure to disturb his indifference.

How she sticks to him!said Arabella. "Oh no--I fancy they are not married
or they wouldn't be so much to one another as that.... I wonder!"

But I thought you said he did marry her?

I heard he was going to--that's all, going to make another attempt,
after putting it off once or twice.... As far as they themselves
are concerned they are the only two in the show. I should be ashamed
of making myself so silly if I were he!

I don't see as how there's anything remarkable in their behaviour.
I should never have noticed their being in love, if you hadn't
said so.

You never see anything,she rejoined. Nevertheless Cartlett's
view of the lovers' or married pair's conduct was undoubtedly
that of the general crowdwhose attention seemed to be in no way
attracted by what Arabella's sharpened vision discerned.

He's charmed by her as if she were some fairy!continued Arabella.
See how he looks round at her, and lets his eyes rest on her.
I am inclined to think that she don't care for him quite so much
as he does for her. She's not a particular warm-hearted creature
to my thinking, though she cares for him pretty middling much-as
much as she's able to; and he could make her heart ache a bit
if he liked to try--which he's too simple to do. There--now they
are going across to the cart-horse sheds. Come along.

I don't want to see the cart-horses. It is no business of ours to follow
these two. If we have come to see the show let us see it in our own way,
as they do in theirs.

Well--suppose we agree to meet somewhere in an hour's time--
say at that refreshment tent over there, and go about independent?
Then you can look at what you choose to, and so can I.

Cartlett was not loath to agree to thisand they parted--
he proceeding to the shed where malting processes were
being exhibitedand Arabella in the direction taken by Jude
and Sue. Beforehowevershe had regained their wake
a laughing face met her ownand she was confronted by Anny
the friend of her girlhood.

Anny had burst out in hearty laughter at the mere fact of
the chance encounter. "I am still living down there she said,
as soon as she was composed. I am soon going to be married
but my intended couldn't come up here to-day. But there's lots
of us come by excursionthough I've lost the rest of 'em
for the present."

Have you met Jude and his young woman, or wife, or whatever she is?
I saw 'em by now.

No. Not a glimpse of un for years!

Well, they are close by here somewhere. Yes--there they are--
by that grey horse!

Oh, that's his present young woman--wife did you say?
Has he married again?

I don't know.

She's pretty, isn't she!

Yes--nothing to complain of; or jump at. Not much to depend on, though;
a slim, fidgety little thing like that.

He's a nice-looking chap, too! You ought to ha' stuck to un, Arabella.

I don't know but I ought,murmured she.

Anny laughed. "That's youArabella! Always wanting another man
than your own."

Well, and what woman don't I should like to know? As for that body with him--
she don't know what love is--at least what I call love! I can see in her face
she don't.

And perhaps, Abby dear, you don't know what she calls love.

I'm sure I don't wish to! ... Ah--they are making for the art department.
I should like to see some pictures myself. Suppose we go that way?--
Why, if all Wessex isn't here, I verily believe! There's Dr. Vilbert.
Haven't seen him for years, and he's not looking a day older than when I used
to know him. How do you do, Physician? I was just saying that you don't
look a day older than when you knew me as a girl.

Simply the result of taking my own pills regular, ma'am. Only two
and threepence a box--warranted efficacious by the Government stamp.
Now let me advise you to purchase the same immunity from the ravages
of time by following my example? Only two-and-three.

The physician had produced a box from his waistcoat pocket
and Arabella was induced to make the purchase.

At the same time,continued hewhen the pills were paid for
you have the advantage of me, Mrs.--Surely not Mrs. Fawley,
once Miss Donn, of the vicinity of Marygreen?

Yes. But Mrs. Cartlett now.

Ah--you lost him, then? Promising young fellow! A pupil of mine, you know.
I taught him the dead languages. And believe me, he soon knew nearly as much
as I.

I lost him; but not as you think,said Arabella dryly "The
lawyers untied us. There he islookalive and lusty;
along with that young womanentering the art exhibition."

Ah--dear me! Fond of her, apparently.

They SAY they are cousins.

Cousinship is a great convenience to their feelings, I should say?

Yes. So her husband thought, no doubt, when he divorced her....
Shall we look at the pictures, too?

The trio followed across the green and entered. Jude and Sue
with the childunaware of the interest they were exciting
had gone up to a model at one end of the buildingwhich they regarded
with considerable attention for a long while before they went on.
Arabella and her friends came to it in due courseand the inscription
it bore was: "Model of Cardinal CollegeChristminster; by J. Fawley
and S. F. M. Bridehead."

Admiring their own work,said Arabella. "How like Jude--
always thinking of colleges and Christminsterinstead of attending
to his business!"

They glanced cursorily at the picturesand proceeded to the band-stand.
When they had stood a little while listening to the music of the
military performersJudeSueand the child came up on the other side.
Arabella did not care if they should recognize her; but they were too deeply
absorbed in their own livesas translated into emotion by the military band
to perceive her under her beaded veil. She walked round the outside
of the listening throngpassing behind the loverswhose movements
had an unexpected fascination for her to-day. Scrutinizing them narrowly
from the rear she noticed that Jude's hand sought Sue's as they stood
the two standing close together so as to concealas they supposed
this tacit expression of their mutual responsiveness.

Silly fools--like two children!Arabella whispered to herself morosely
as she rejoined her companionswith whom she preserved a preoccupied silence.

Anny meanwhile had jokingly remarked to Vilbert on Arabella's hankering
interest in her first husband.

Now,said the physician to Arabellaapart; "do you want
anything such as thisMrs. Cartlett? It is not compounded
out of my regular pharmacopoeiabut I am sometimes asked
for such a thing." He produced a small phial of clear liquid.
A love-philtre, such as was used by the ancients with great effect.
I found it out by study of their writings, and have never known it
to fail.

What is it made of?asked Arabella curiously.

Well--a distillation of the juices of doves' hearts--otherwise pigeons'--

is one of the ingredients. It took nearly a hundred hearts to produce that
small bottle full.

How do you get pigeons enough?

To tell a secret, I get a piece of rock-salt, of which pigeons
are inordinately fond, and place it in a dovecot on my roof.
In a few hours the birds come to it from all points of the compass--
east, west, north, and south--and thus I secure as many as I require.
You use the liquid by contriving that the desired man shall take
about ten drops of it in his drink. But remember, all this is told you
because I gather from your questions that you mean to be a purchaser.
You must keep faith with me?

Very well--I don't mind a bottle--to give some friend or other to try
it on her young man.She produced five shillingsthe price asked
and slipped the phial in her capacious bosom. Saying presently that she
was due at an appointment with her husband she sauntered away towards
the refreshment barJudehis companionand the child having gone
on to the horticultural tentwhere Arabella caught a glimpse of them
standing before a group of roses in bloom.

She waited a few minutes observing themand then proceeded to join her spouse
with no very amiable sentiments. She found him seated on a stool by the bar
talking to one of the gaily dressed maids who had served him with spirits.

I should think you had enough of this business at home!
Arabella remarked gloomily. "Surely you didn't come fifty
miles from your own bar to stick in another? Cometake me
round the showas other men do their wives! Dammyone would
think you were a young bachelorwith nobody to look after
but yourself!"

But we agreed to meet here; and what could I do but wait?

Well, now we have met, come along,she returnedready to quarrel
with the sun for shining on her. And they left the tent together
this pot-bellied man and florid womanin the antipathetic
recriminatory mood of the average husband and wife of Christendom.

In the meantime the more exceptional couple and the boy still
lingered in the pavilion of flowers--an enchanted palace to their
appreciative taste--Sue's usually pale cheeks reflecting the pink
of the tinted roses at which she gazed; for the gay sights
the airthe musicand the excitement of a day's outing with Jude
had quickened her blood and made her eyes sparkle with vivacity.
She adored rosesand what Arabella had witnessed was Sue detaining
Jude almost against his will while she learnt the names of this
variety and thatand put her face within an inch of their blooms
to smell them.

I should like to push my face quite into them--the dears!she had said.
But I suppose it is against the rules to touch them--isn't it, Jude?

Yes, you baby,said he: and then playfully gave her a little push
so that her nose went among the petals.

The policeman will be down on us, and I shall say it was my husband's fault!

Then she looked up at himand smiled in a way that told so much to Arabella.

Happy?he murmured.

She nodded.

Why? Because you have come to the great Wessex Agricultural Show--
or because we have come?

You are always trying to make me confess to all sorts of absurdities.
Because I am improving my mind, of course, by seeing all these steam-ploughs,
and threshing-machines, and chaff-cutters, and cows, and pigs, and sheep.

Jude was quite content with a baffle from his ever evasive companion.
But when he had forgotten that he had put the question
and because he no longer wished for an answershe went on:
I feel that we have returned to Greek joyousness,
and have blinded ourselves to sickness and sorrow, and have
forgotten what twenty-five centuries have taught the race
since their time, as one of your Christminster luminaries
says.... There is one immediate shadow, however--only one.
And she looked at the aged childwhomthough they had taken
him to everything likely to attract a young intelligence
they had utterly failed to interest.

He knew what they were saying and thinking. "I am veryvery sorry
Father and Mother he said. But please don't mind!--I can't help it.
I should like the flowers very very muchif I didn't keep on thinking they'd
be all withered in a few days!"

THE unnoticed lives that the pair had hitherto led began
from the day of the suspended wedding onwardsto be observed
and discussed by other persons than Arabella. The society of
Spring Street and the neighbourhood generally did not understand
and probably could not have been made to understand
Sue and Jude's private mindsemotionspositionsand fears.
The curious facts of a child coming to them unexpectedly
who called Jude "Father and Sue Mother and a hitch in a
marriage ceremony intended for quietness to be performed at a
registrar's office, together with rumours of the undefended cases
in the law-courts, bore only one translation to plain minds.

Little Time--for though he was formally turned into Jude the apt
nickname stuck to him--would come home from school in the evening,
and repeat inquiries and remarks that had been made to him
by the other boys; and cause Sue, and Jude when he heard them,
a great deal of pain and sadness.

The result was that shortly after the attempt at the registrar's
the pair went off--to London it was believed--for several days,
hiring somebody to look to the boy. When they came back they let it be
understood indirectly, and with total indifference and weariness of mien,
that they were legally married at last. Sue, who had previously been
called Mrs. Bridehead now openly adopted the name of Mrs. Fawley.
Her dull, cowed, and listless manner for days seemed to substantiate
all this.

But the mistake (as it was called) of their going away so secretly
to do the business, kept up much of the mystery of their lives;
and they found that they made not such advances with their neighbours
as they had expected to do thereby. A living mystery was not much
less interesting than a dead scandal.

The baker's lad and the grocer's boy, who at first had used to lift

their hats gallantly to Sue when they came to execute their errands,
in these days no longer took the trouble to render her that homage,
and the neighbouring artizans' wives looked straight along the pavement
when they encountered her.

Nobody molested them, it is true; but an oppressive atmosphere began
to encircle their souls, particularly after their excursion to the show,
as if that visit had brought some evil influence to bear on them.
And their temperaments were precisely of a kind to suffer from
this atmosphere, and to be indisposed to lighten it by vigorous
and open statements. Their apparent attempt at reparation had come
too late to be effective.

The headstone and epitaph orders fell off: and two or three months later,
when autumn came, Jude perceived that he would have to return
to journey-work again, a course all the more unfortunate just now,
in that he had not as yet cleared off the debt he had unavoidably
incurred in the payment of the law-costs of the previous year.

One evening he sat down to share the common meal with Sue
and the child as usual. I am thinking he said to her,
that I'll hold on here no longer. The life suits uscertainly;
but if we could get away to a place where we are unknown
we should be lighter heartedand have a better chance.
And so I am afraid we must break it up herehowever awkward for you
poor dear!"

Sue was always much affected at a picture of herself as an object of pity
and she saddened.

Well--I am not sorry,said she presently. "I am much depressed
by the way they look at me here. And you have been keeping
on this house and furniture entirely for me and the boy!
You don't want it yourselfand the expense is unnecessary.
But whatever we dowherever we goyou won't take him
away from meJude dear? I could not let him go now!
The cloud upon his young mind makes him so pathetic to me;
I do hope to lift it some day! And he loves me so.
You won't take him away from me?"

Certainly I won't, dear little girl! We'll get nice lodgings,
wherever we go. I shall be moving about probably--getting a job
here and a job there.

I shall do something too, of course, till--till Well, now I can't be useful
in the lettering it behoves me to turn my hand to something else.

Don't hurry about getting employment,he said regretfully.
I don't want you to do that. I wish you wouldn't, Sue.
The boy and yourself are enough for you to attend to.

There was a knock at the doorand Jude answered it.
Sue could hear the conversation:

Is Mr. Fawley at home? ... Biles and Willis the building contractors sent
me to know if you'll undertake the relettering of the ten commandments
in a little church they've been restoring lately in the country near here.

Jude reflectedand said he could undertake it.

It is not a very artistic job,continued the messenger.
The clergyman is a very old-fashioned chap, and he has refused
to let anything more be done to the church than cleaning
and repairing.

Excellent old man!said Sue to herselfwho was sentimentally
opposed to the horrors of over-restoration.

The Ten Commandments are fixed to the east end,the messenger went on
and they want doing up with the rest of the wall there, since he won't
have them carted off as old materials belonging to the contractor
in the usual way of the trade.

A bargain as to terms was struckand Jude came indoors.
There, you see,he said cheerfully. "One more job yet
at any rateand you can help in it--at least you can try.
We shall have all the church to ourselvesas the rest of the work
is finished."

Next day Jude went out to the churchwhich was only two miles off.
He found that what the contractor's clerk had said was true.
The tables of the Jewish law towered sternly over the utensils
of Christian graceas the chief ornament of the chancel end
in the fine dry style of the last century. And as their framework
was constructed of ornamental plaster they could not be taken
down for repair. A portioncrumbled by damprequired renewal;
and when this had been doneand the whole cleansedhe began
to renew the lettering. On the second morning Sue came to see
what assistance she could renderand also because they liked to
be together.

The silence and emptiness of the building gave her confidence
andstanding on a safe low platform erected by Jude
which she was nevertheless timid at mountingshe began painting
in the letters of the first Table while he set about mending
a portion of the second. She was quite pleased at her powers;
she had acquired them in the days she painted illumined texts
for the church-fitting shop at Christminster. Nobody seemed
likely to disturb them; and the pleasant twitter of birds
and rustle of October leafagecame in through an open window
and mingled with their talk.

They were nothoweverto be left thus snug and peaceful for long.
About half-past twelve there came footsteps on the gravel without.
The old vicar and his churchwarden enteredandcoming up to see what was
being doneseemed surprised to discover that a young woman was assisting.
They passed on into an aisleat which time the door again opened
and another figure entered--a small onethat of little Timewho was crying.
Sue had told him where he might find her between school-hoursif
he wished. She came down from her perchand saidWhat's the matter,
my dear?

I couldn't stay to eat my dinner in school, because they said----
He described how some boys had taunted him about his nominal mother
and Suegrievedexpressed her indignation to Jude aloft.
The child went into the churchyardand Sue returned to her work.
Meanwhile the door had opened againand there shuffled in with a
businesslike air the white-aproned woman who cleaned the church.
Sue recognized her as one who had friends in Spring Street
whom she visited. The church-cleaner looked at Suegapedand lifted
her hands; she had evidently recognized Jude's companion as the latter
had recognized her. Next came two ladiesand after talking to the
charwoman they also moved forwardand as Sue stood reaching upward
watched her hand tracing the lettersand critically regarded her person
in relief against the white walltill she grew so nervous that she
trembled visibly.

They went back to where the others were standingtalking in undertones:

and one said--Sue could not hear which--"She's his wifeI suppose?"

Some say Yes: some say No,was the reply from the charwoman.

Not? Then she ought to be, or somebody's--that's very clear!

They've only been married a very few weeks, whether or no.

A strange pair to be painting the Two Tables! I wonder Biles and Willis
could think of such a thing as hiring those!

The churchwarden supposed that Biles and Willis knew of nothing wrong
and then the otherwho had been talking to the old womanexplained what
she meant by calling them strange people.

The probable drift of the subdued conversation which followed was made plain
by the churchwarden breaking into an anecdotein a voice that everybody
in the church could hearthough obviously suggested by the present situation:

Well, now, it is a curious thing, but my grandfather told
me a strange tale of a most immoral case that happened at
the painting of the Commandments in a church out by Gaymead-which
is quite within a walk of this one. In them days
Commandments were mostly done in gilt letters on a black ground,
and that's how they were out where I say, before the owld church
was rebuilded. It must have been somewhere about a hundred
years ago that them Commandments wanted doing up just as ours
do here, and they had to get men from Aldbrickham to do 'em.
Now they wished to get the job finished by a particular Sunday,
so the men had to work late Saturday night, against their will,
for overtime was not paid then as 'tis now. There was no true
religion in the country at that date, neither among pa'sons, clerks,
nor people, and to keep the men up to their work the vicar had
to let 'em have plenty of drink during the afternoon. As evening
drawed on they sent for some more themselves; rum, by all account.
It got later and later, and they got more and more fuddled,
till at last they went a-putting their rum-bottle and rummers upon
the communion table, and drawed up a trestle or two, and sate
round comfortable and poured out again right hearty bumpers.
No sooner had they tossed off their glasses than, so the story
goes they fell down senseless, one and all. How long they bode
so they didn't know, but when they came to themselves there
was a terrible thunder-storm a-raging, and they seemed to see
in the gloom a dark figure with very thin legs and a curious voot,
a-standing on the ladder, and finishing their work.
When it got daylight they could see that the work was really
finished, and couldn't at all mind finishing it themselves.
They went home, and the next thing they heard was that a great
scandal had been caused in the church that Sunday morning,
for when the people came and service began, all saw that
the Ten Commandments wez painted with the nots" left out.
Decent people wouldn't attend service there for a long time
and the Bishop had to be sent for to reconsecrate the church.
That's the tradition as I used to hear it as a child. You must take
it for what it is wo'thbut this case to-day has reminded me o'tas
I say."

The visitors gave one more glanceas if to see whether Jude
and Sue had left the "nots" out likewiseand then severally
left the churcheven the old woman at last. Sue and Jude
who had not stopped workingsent back the child to school
and remained without speaking; tilllooking at her narrowly
he found she had been crying silently.

Never mind, comrade!he said. "I know what it is!"

I can't BEAR that they, and everybody, should think people
wicked because they may have chosen to live their own way!
It is really these opinions that make the best intentioned
people reckless, and actually become immoral!

Never be cast down! It was only a funny story.

Ah, but we suggested it! I am afraid I have done you mischief,
Jude, instead of helping you by coming!

To have suggested such a story was certainly not very exhilarating
in a serious view of their position. Howeverin a few minutes Sue
seemed to see that their position this morning had a ludicrous side
and wiping her eyes she laughed.

It is droll, after all,she saidthat we two, of all people, with our
queer history, should happen to be here painting the Ten Commandments!
You a reprobate, and I--in my condition.... O dear!... And with her
hand over her eyes she laughed again silently and intermittently
till she was quite weak.

That's better,said Jude gaily. "Now we are right againaren't we
little girl!"

Oh but it is serious, all the same!she sighed as she took up the brush
and righted herself. "But do you see they don't think we are married?
They WON'T believe it! It is extraordinary!"

I don't care whether they think so or not,said Jude.
I shan't take any more trouble to make them.

They sat down to lunch--which they had brought with them not to hinder time-and
having eaten it were about to set to work anew when a man entered
the churchand Jude recognized in him the contractor Willis. He beckoned
to Judeand spoke to him apart.

Here--I've just had a complaint about this,he saidwith rather
breathless awkwardness. "I don't wish to go into the matter-as
of course I didn't know what was going on--but I am afraid I must
ask you and her to leave offand let somebody else finish this!
It is bestto avoid all unpleasantness. I'll pay you for the week
all the same."

Jude was too independent to make any fuss; and the contractor paid him
and left. Jude picked up his toolsand Sue cleansed her brush.
Then their eyes met.

How could we be so simple as to suppose we might do this!
said shedropping to her tragic note. "Of course we ought not-I
ought not--to have come!"

I had no idea that anybody was going to intrude into such a lonely place
and see us!Jude returned. "Wellit can't be helpeddear; and of
course I wouldn't wish to injure Willis's trade-connection by staying."
They sat down passively for a few minutesproceeded out of the church
and overtaking the boy pursued their thoughtful way to Aldbrickham.

Fawley had still a pretty zeal in the cause of educationand
as was natural with his experienceshe was active in furthering
equality of opportunityby any humble means open to him.
He had joined an Artizans' Mutual Improvement Society established
in the town about the time of his arrival there; its members being

young men of all creeds and denominationsincluding Churchmen
CongregationalistsBaptistsUnitariansPositivistsand others--
agnostics had scarcely been heard of at this time--their one
common wish to enlarge their minds forming a sufficiently close
bond of union. The subscription was smalland the room homely;
and Jude's activityuncustomary acquirementsand above all
singular intuition on what to read and how to set about it--
begotten of his years of struggle against malignant stars--had led
to his being placed on the committee.

A few evenings after his dismissal from the church repairs
and before he had obtained any more work to dohe went to attend
a meeting of the aforesaid committee. It was late when he arrived:
all the others had comeand as he entered they looked
dubiously at himand hardly uttered a word of greeting.
He guessed that something bearing on himself had been either
discussed or mooted. Some ordinary business was transacted
and it was disclosed that the number of subscriptions
had shown a sudden falling off for that quarter.
One member--a really well-meaning and upright man--
began speaking in enigmas about certain possible causes:
that it behoved them to look well into their constitution;
for if the committee were not respectedand had not at least
in their differencesa common standard of CONDUCT
they would bring the institution to the ground. Nothing further
was said in Jude's presencebut he knew what this meant;
and turning to the table wrote a note resigning his office there
and then.

Thus the supersensitive couple were more and more impelled to go away.
And then bills were sent inand the question arosewhat could Jude
do with his great-aunt's heavy old furnitureif he left the town
to travel he knew not whither? Thisand the necessity of ready money
compelled him to decide on an auctionmuch as he would have preferred
to keep the venerable goods.

The day of the sale came on; and Sue for the last time cooked her own
the child'sand Jude's breakfast in the little house he had furnished.
It chanced to be a wet day; moreover Sue was unwelland not wishing
to desert her poor Jude in such gloomy circumstancesfor he was compelled
to stay awhileshe acted on the suggestion of the auctioneer's man
and ensconced herself in an upper roomwhich could be emptied of
its effectsand so kept closed to the bidders. Here Jude discovered her;
and with the childand their few trunksbasketsand bundles
and two chairs and a table that were not in the salethe two sat in
meditative talk.

Footsteps began stamping up and down the bare stairs
the comers inspecting the goodssome of which were of so quaint
and ancient a make as to acquire an adventitious value as art.
Their door was tried once or twiceand to guard themselves
against intrusion Jude wrote "Private" on a scrap of paper
and stuck it upon the panel.

They soon found thatinstead of the furnituretheir own
personal histories and past conduct began to be discussed to an
unexpected and intolerable extent by the intending bidders.
It was not till now that they really discovered what a fools'
paradise of supposed unrecognition they had been living
in of late. Sue silently took her companion's hand
and with eyes on each other they heard these passing remarks--
the quaint and mysterious personality of Father Time being
a subject which formed a large ingredient in the hints
and innuendoes. At length the auction began in the room below

whence they could hear each familiar article knocked down
the highly prized ones cheaplythe unconsidered at an
unexpected price.

People don't understand us,he sighed heavily. "I am glad
we have decided to go."

The question is, where to?

It ought to be to London. There one can live as one chooses.

No--not London, dear! I know it well. We should be unhappy there.


Can't you think?

Because Arabella is there?

That's the chief reason.

But in the country I shall always be uneasy lest there should
be some more of our late experience. And I don't care to lessen
it by explaining, for one thing, all about the boy's history.
To cut him off from his past I have determined to keep silence.
I am sickened of ecclesiastical work now; and I shouldn't like to
accept it, if offered me!

You ought to have learnt classic. Gothic is barbaric art, after all.
Pugin was wrong, and Wren was right. Remember the interior of Christminster
Cathedral--almost the first place in which we looked in each other's faces.
Under the picturesqueness of those Norman details one can see the grotesque
childishness of uncouth people trying to imitate the vanished Roman forms,
remembered by dim tradition only.

Yes--you have half-converted me to that view by what you have said before.
But one can work, and despise what one does. I must do something, if not
church gothic.

I wish we could both follow an occupation in which personal
circumstances don't count,she saidsmiling up wistfully.
I am as disqualified for teaching as you are for ecclesiastical art.
You must fall back upon railway stations, bridges, theatres,
music-halls, hotels--everything that has no connection
with conduct.

I am not skilled in those.... I ought to take to bread-baking.
I grew up in the baking business with aunt, you know.
But even a baker must be conventional, to get customers.

Unless he keeps a cake and gingerbread stall at markets and fairs,
where people are gloriously indifferent to everything except the quality
of the goods.

Their thoughts were diverted by the voice of the auctioneer:
Now this antique oak settle--a unique example of old
English furniture, worthy the attention of all collectors!

That was my great-grandfather's,said Jude. "I wish we could
have kept the poor old thing!"

One by one the articles wentand the afternoon passed away.
Jude and the other two were getting tired and hungry
but after the conversation they had heard they were shy of going

out while the purchasers were in their line of retreat.
Howeverthe later lots drew onand it became necessary
to emerge into the rain soonto take on Sue's things to their
temporary lodging.

Now the next lot: two pairs of pigeons, all alive and plump-a
nice pie for somebody for next Sunday's dinner!

The impending sale of these birds had been the most trying
suspense of the whole afternoon. They were Sue's pets
and when it was found that they could not possibly be kept
more sadness was caused than by parting from all the furniture.
Sue tried to think away her tears as she heard the trifling
sum that her dears were deemed to be worth advanced by small
stages to the price at which they were finally knocked down.
The purchaser was a neighbouring poultererand they were
unquestionably doomed to die before the next market day.

Noting her dissembled distress Jude kissed herand said it was time
to go and see if the lodgings were ready. He would go on with the boy
and fetch her soon.

When she was left alone she waited patientlybut Jude did not come back.
At last she startedthe coast being clearand on passing the poulterer's
shopnot far offshe saw her pigeons in a hamper by the door.
An emotion at sight of themassisted by the growing dusk of evening
caused her to act on impulseand first looking around her quickly
she pulled out the peg which fastened down the coverand went on.
The cover was lifted from withinand the pigeons flew away with a
clatter that brought the chagrined poulterer cursing and swearing to
the door.

Sue reached the lodging tremblingand found Jude and the boy making it
comfortable for her. "Do the buyers pay before they bring away the things?"
she asked breathlessly.

Yes, I think. Why?

Because, then, I've done such a wicked thing!And she explained
in bitter contrition.

I shall have to pay the poulterer for them, if he doesn't catch them,
said Jude. "But never mind. Don't fret about itdear."

It was so foolish of me! Oh why should Nature's law be mutual butchery!

Is it so, Mother?asked the boy intently.

Yes!said Sue vehemently.

Well, they must take their chance, now, poor things,said Jude.
As soon as the sale-account is wound up, and our bills paid,
we go.

Where do we go to?asked Timein suspense.

We must sail under sealed orders, that nobody may trace us.... We mustn't
go to Alfredston, or to Melchester, or to Shaston, or to Christminster.
Apart from those we may go anywhere.

Why mustn't we go there, Father?

Because of a cloud that has gathered over us; though 'we
have wronged no man, corrupted no man, defrauded no man!'

Though perhaps we have 'done that which was right in our
own eyes.'

FROM that week Jude Fawley and Sue walked no more in the town of Aldbrickham.

Whither they had gone nobody knewchiefly because nobody cared to know.
Any one sufficiently curious to trace the steps of such an obscure pair
might have discovered without great trouble that they had taken advantage
of his adaptive craftsmanship to enter on a shiftingalmost nomadic
lifewhich was not without its pleasantness for a time.

Wherever Jude heard of free-stone work to be donethither he went
choosing by preference places remote from his old haunts and Sue's.
He laboured at a joblong or brieflytill it was finished;
and then moved on.

Two whole years and a half passed thus. Sometimes he might have been
found shaping the mullions of a country mansionsometimes setting
the parapet of a town-hallsometimes ashlaring an hotel at Sandbourne
sometimes a museum at Casterbridgesometimes as far down as Exonbury
sometimes at Stoke-Barehills. Later still he was at Kennetbridge
a thriving town not more than a dozen miles south of Marygreen
this being his nearest approach to the village where he was known;
for he had a sensitive dread of being questioned as to his life and
fortunes by those who had been acquainted with him during his ardent young
manhood of study and promiseand his brief and unhappy married life at
that time.

At some of these places he would be detained for monthsat others only
a few weeks. His curious and sudden antipathy to ecclesiastical work
both episcopal and noncomformistwhich had risen in him when suffering
under a smarting sense of misconceptionremained with him in cold blood
less from any fear of renewed censure than from an ultra-conscientiousness
which would not allow him to seek a living out of those who would
disapprove of his ways; alsotoofrom a sense of inconsistency between
his former dogmas and his present practicehardly a shred of the beliefs
with which he had first gone up to Christminster now remaining with him.
He was mentally approaching the position which Sue had occupied when
he first met her.

On a Saturday evening in Maynearly three years after Arabella's
recognition of Sue and himself at the agricultural show
some of those who there encountered each other met again.

It was the spring fair at Kennetbridgeandthough this ancient
trade-meeting had much dwindled from its dimensions of former times
the long straight street of the borough presented a lively scene
about midday. At this hour a light trapamong other vehicles
was driven into the town by the north roadand up to the door
of a temperance inn. There alighted two womenone the driver
an ordinary country personthe other a finely built figure in
the deep mourning of a widow. Her sombre suitof pronounced cut
caused her to appear a little out of place in the medley and bustle
of a provincial fair.

I will just find out where it is, Anny,said the widow-lady
to her companionwhen the horse and cart had been taken by a man
who came forward: "and then I'll come backand meet you here;
and we'll go in and have something to eat and drink. I begin to feel

quite a sinking."

With all my heart,said the other. "Though I would sooner
have put up at the Chequers or The Jack. You can't get much
at these temperance houses."

Now, don't you give way to gluttonous desires, my child,
said the woman in weeds reprovingly. "This is the proper place.
Very well: we'll meet in half an hourunless you come with me to
find out where the site of the new chapel is?"

I don't care to. You can tell me.

The companions then went their several waysthe one in crape walking firmly
along with a mien of disconnection from her miscellaneous surroundings.
Making inquiries she came to a hoardingwithin which were excavations
denoting the foundations of a building; and on the boards without one or two
large posters announcing that the foundation-stone of the chapel about to be
erected would be laid that afternoon at three o'clock by a London preacher
of great popularity among his body.

Having ascertained thus much the immensely weeded widow retraced her steps
and gave herself leisure to observe the movements of the fair.
By and by her attention was arrested by a little stall of cakes
and ginger-breadsstanding between the more pretentious erections
of trestles and canvas. It was covered with an immaculate cloth
and tended by a young woman apparently unused to the business
she being accompanied by a boy with an octogenarian face
who assisted her.

Upon my--senses!murmured the widow to herself. "His wife Sue--
if she is so!" She drew nearer to the stall. "How do you do
Mrs. Fawley?" she said blandly.

Sue changed colour and recognized Arabella through the crape veil.

How are you, Mrs. Cartlett?she said stiffly. And then perceiving
Arabella's garb her voice grew sympathetic in spite of herself.
What?--you have lost----

My poor husband. Yes. He died suddenly, six weeks ago,
leaving me none too well off, though he was a kind husband to me.
But whatever profit there is in public-house keeping goes
to them that brew the liquors, and not to them that retail
'em.... And you, my little old man! You don't know me,
I expect?

Yes, I do. You be the woman I thought wer my mother for a bit,
till I found you wasn't,replied Father Timewho had learned to use
the Wessex tongue quite naturally by now.

All right. Never mind. I am a friend.

Juey,said Sue suddenlygo down to the station platform with this tray--
there's another train coming in, I think.

When he was gone Arabella continued: "He'll never be a beauty
will hepoor chap! Does he know I am his mother really?"

No. He thinks there is some mystery about his parentage--that's all.
Jude is going to tell him when he is a little older.

But how do you come to be doing this? I am surprised.

It is only a temporary occupation--a fancy of ours while we
are in a difficulty.

Then you are living with him still?



Of course.

Any children?


And another coming soon, I see.

Sue writhed under the hard and direct questioningand her tender
little mouth began to quiver.

Lord--I mean goodness gracious--what is there to cry about?
Some folks would be proud enough!

It is not that I am ashamed--not as you think! But it seems
such a terribly tragic thing to bring beings into the world--
so presumptuous--that I question my right to do it sometimes!

Take it easy, my dear.... But you don't tell me why you do
such a thing as this? Jude used to be a proud sort of chap--
above any business almost, leave alone keeping a standing.

Perhaps my husband has altered a little since then.
I am sure he is not proud now!And Sue's lips quivered again.
I am doing this because he caught a chill early in the year while
putting up some stonework of a music-hall, at Quartershot, which he had
to do in the rain, the work having to be executed by a fixed day.
He is better than he was; but it has been a long, weary time!
We have had an old widow friend with us to help us through it; but she's
leaving soon.

Well, I am respectable too, thank God, and of a serious way
of thinking since my loss. Why did you choose to sell gingerbreads?

That's a pure accident. He was brought up to the baking business,
and it occurred to him to try his hand at these, which he can make
without coming out of doors. We call them Christminster cakes.
They are a great success.

I never saw any like 'em. Why, they are windows and towers,
and pinnacles! And upon my word they are very nice.
She had helped herselfand was unceremoniously munching one of
the cakes.

Yes. They are reminiscences of the Christminster Colleges.
Traceried windows, and cloisters, you see. It was a whim of his
to do them in pastry.

Still harping on Christminster--even in his cakes!laughed Arabella.
Just like Jude. A ruling passion. What a queer fellow he is, and always
will be!

Sue sighedand she looked her distress at hearing him criticized.

Don't you think he is? Come now; you do, though you are so fond of him!

Of course Christminster is a sort of fixed vision with him,
which I suppose he'll never be cured of believing in.
He still thinks it a great centre of high and fearless thought,
instead of what it is, a nest of commonplace schoolmasters whose
characteristic is timid obsequiousness to tradition.

Arabella was quizzing Sue with more regard of how she was speaking than of
what she was saying. "How odd to hear a woman selling cakes talk like that!"
she said. "Why don't you go back to school-keeping?"

She shook her head. "They won't have me."

Because of the divorce, I suppose?

That and other things. And there is no reason to wish it.
We gave up all ambition, and were never so happy in our lives till
his illness came.

Where are you living?

I don't care to say.

Here in Kennetbridge?

Sue's manner showed Arabella that her random guess was right.

Here comes the boy back again,continued Arabella.
My boy and Jude's!

Sue's eyes darted a spark. "You needn't throw that in my face!"
she cried.

Very well--though I half-feel as if I should like to have him
with me! ... But Lord, I don't want to take him from 'ee--ever I
should sin to speak so profane--though I should think you must
have enough of your own! He's in very good hands, that I know;
and I am not the woman to find fault with what the Lord has ordained.
I've reached a more resigned frame of mind.

Indeed! I wish I had been able to do so.

You should try,replied the widowfrom the serene heights of a
soul conscious not only of spiritual but of social superiority.
I make no boast of my awakening, but I'm not what I was.
After Cartlett's death I was passing the chapel in the street
next ours, and went into it for shelter from a shower of rain.
I felt a need of some sort of support under my loss, and,
as 'twas righter than gin, I took to going there regular,
and found it a great comfort. But I've left London now, you know,
and at present I am living at Alfredston, with my friend Anny,
to be near my own old country. I'm not come here to the fair
to-day. There's to be the foundation-stone of a new chapel laid this
afternoon by a popular London preacher, and I drove over with Anny.
Now I must go back to meet her.

Then Arabella wished Sue good-byeand went on.

IN the afternoon Sue and the other people bustling about Kennetbridge fair

could hear singing inside the placarded hoarding farther down the street.
Those who peeped through the opening saw a crowd of persons in broadcloth
with hymn-books in their handsstanding round the excavations for
the new chapel-walls. Arabella Cartlett and her weeds stood among them.
She had a clearpowerful voicewhich could be distinctly heard with
the restrising and falling to the tuneher inflated bosom being also seen
doing likewise.

It was two hours later on the same day that Anny and Mrs. Cartlett
having had tea at the Temperance Hotelstarted on their return
journey across the high and open country which stretches between
Kennetbridge and Alfredston. Arabella was in a thoughtful mood;
but her thoughts were not of the new chapelas Anny at first surmised.

No--it is something else,at last said Arabella sullenly.
I came here to-day never thinking of anybody but poor Cartlett,
or of anything but spreading the Gospel by means of this new tabernacle
they've begun this afternoon. But something has happened to turn
my mind another way quite. Anny, I've heard of un again, and I've
seen HER!


I've heard of Jude, and I've seen his wife. And ever since,
do what I will, and though I sung the hymns wi' all my strength,
I have not been able to help thinking about 'n; which I've no
right to do as a chapel member.

Can't ye fix your mind upon what was said by the London preacher
to-day, and try to get rid of your wandering fancies that way?

I do. But my wicked heart will ramble off in spite of myself!

Well--I know what it is to have a wanton mind o'
my own, too! If you on'y knew what I do dream sometimes o'
nights quite against my wishes, you'd say I had my struggles!
(Annytoohad grown rather serious of lateher lover having
jilted her.)

What shall I do about it?urged Arabella morbidly.

You could take a lock of your late-lost husband's hair,
and have it made into a mourning brooch, and look at it every
hour of the day.

I haven't a morsel!--and if I had 'twould be no good....
After all that's said about the comforts of this religion,
I wish I had Jude back again!

You must fight valiant against the feeling, since he's another's. And I've
heard that another good thing for it, when it afflicts volupshious widows,
is to go to your husband's grave in the dusk of evening, and stand a long
while a-bowed down.

Pooh! I know as well as you what I should do; only I don't do it!

They drove in silence along the straight road till they were within
the horizon of Marygreenwhich lay not far to the left of their route.
They came to the junction of the highway and the cross-lane leading
to that villagewhose church-tower could be seen athwart the hollow.
When they got yet farther onand were passing the lonely house in which
Arabella and Jude had lived during the first months of their marriage
and where the pig-killing had taken placeshe could control herself
no longer.

He's more mine than hers!she burst out. "What right has she to him
I should like to know! I'd take him from her if I could!"

Fie, Abby! And your husband only six weeks gone! Pray against it!

Be damned if I do! Feelings are feelings! I won't be a creeping
hypocrite any longer--so there!

Arabella had hastily drawn from her pocket a bundle of tracts
which she had brought with her to distribute at the fair
and of which she had given away several. As she spoke she flung
the whole remainder of the packet into the hedge "I've tried
that sort o' physic and have failed wi' it. I must be as I
was born!"

Hush! You be excited, dear! Now you come along home quiet,
and have a cup of tea, and don't let us talk about un no more.
We won't come out this road again, as it leads to where he is,
because it inflames 'ee so. You'll be all right again soon.

Arabella did calm herself down by degrees; and they crossed
the Ridge-way. When they began to descend the longstraight hill
they saw plodding along in front of them an elderly man of spare
stature and thoughtful gait. In his hand he carried a basket;
and there was a touch of slovenliness in his attiretogether with
that indefinable something in his whole appearance which suggested
one who was his own housekeeperpurveyorconfidantand friend
through possessing nobody else at all in the world to act in those
capacities for him. The remainder of the journey was down-hill
and guessing him to be going to Alfredston they offered him a lift
which he accepted.

Arabella looked at himand looked againtill at length she spoke.
If I don't mistake I am talking to Mr. Phillotson?

The wayfarer faced round and regarded her in turn. "Yes; my name
is Phillotson he said. But I don't recognize youma'am."

I remember you well enough when you used to be schoolmaster out at Marygreen,
and I one of your scholars. I used to walk up there from Cresscombe every
day, because we had only a mistress down at our place, and you taught better.
But you wouldn't remember me as I should you?--Arabella Donn.

He shook his head. "No he said politely, I don't recall the name.
And I should hardly recognize in your present portly self the slim school
child no doubt you were then."

Well, I always had plenty of flesh on my bones. However, I am
staying down here with some friends at present. You know,
I suppose, who I married?


Jude Fawley--also a scholar of yours--at least a night scholar--
for some little time I think? And known to you afterwards, if I am
not mistaken.

Dear me, dear me,said Phillotsonstarting out of his stiffness.
You Fawley's wife? To be sure--he had a wife! And he--
I understood--

Divorced her--as you did yours--perhaps for better reasons.


Well--he med have been right in doing it--right for both;
for I soon married again, and all went pretty straight till my
husband died lately. But you--you were decidedly wrong!

No,said Phillotsonwith sudden testiness. "I would rather
not talk of thisbut--I am convinced I did only what was right
and justand moral. I have suffered for my act and opinions
but I hold to them; though her loss was a loss to me in more ways
than one!"

You lost your school and good income through her, did you not?

I don't care to talk of it. I have recently come back here--to Marygreen.
I mean.

You are keeping the school there again, just as formerly?

The pressure of a sadness that would out unsealed him. "I am there
he replied. Just as formerlyno. Merely on sufferance.
It was a last resource--a small thing to return to after my move upwards
and my long indulged hopes a returning to zerowith all its humiliations.
But it is a refuge. I like the seclusion of the placeand the vicar
having known me before my so-called eccentric conduct towards my wife
had ruined my reputation as a schoolmasterhe accepted my services
when all other schools were closed against me. Howeveralthough I
take fifty pounds a year here after taking above two hundred elsewhere
I prefer it to running the risk of having my old domestic experiences raked
up against meas I should do if I tried to make a move."

Right you are. A contented mind is a continual feast.
She has done no better.

She is not doing well, you mean?

I met her by accident at Kennetbridge this very day, and she
is anything but thriving. Her husband is ill, and she anxious.
You made a fool of a mistake about her, I tell 'ee again,
and the harm you did yourself by dirting your own nest serves
you right, excusing the liberty.


She was innocent.

But nonsense! They did not even defend the case!

That was because they didn't care to. She was quite innocent
of what obtained you your freedom, at the time you obtained it.
I saw her just afterwards, and proved it to myself completely
by talking to her.

Phillotson grasped the edge of the spring-cartand appeared to be much
stressed and worried by the information. "Still--she wanted to go
he said.

Yes. But you shouldn't have let her. That's the only way
with these fanciful women that chaw high--innocent or guilty.
She'd have come round in time. We all do! Custom does it!
It's all the same in the end! HoweverI think she's fond of her
man still--whatever he med be of her. You were too quick about her.
I shouldn't have let her go! I should have kept her chained on--
her spirit for kicking would have been broke soon enough!

There's nothing like bondage and a stone-deaf taskmaster for
taming us women. Besidesyou've got the laws on your side.
Moses knew. Don't you call to mind what he says?"

Not for the moment, ma'am, I regret to say.

Call yourself a schoolmaster! I used to think o't when they read it
in church, and I was carrying on a bit. 'Then shall the man be guiltless;
but the woman shall bear her iniquity.' Damn rough on us women;
but we must grin and put up wi' it! Haw haw! Well; she's got her
deserts now.

Yes,said Phillotsonwith biting sadness. "Cruelty is the law pervading
all nature and society; and we can't get out of it if we would!"

Well--don't you forget to try it next time, old man.

I cannot answer you, madam. I have never known much of womankind.

They had now reached the low levels bordering Alfredston
and passing through the outskirts approached a millto which
Phillotson said his errand led him; whereupon they drew up
and he alightedbidding them good-night in a preoccupied mood.

In the meantime Suethough remarkably successful in her cake-selling
experiment at Kennetbridge fairhad lost the temporary brightness
which had begun to sit upon her sadness on account of that success.
When all her "Christminster" cakes had been disposed of she took upon
her arm the empty basketand the cloth which had covered the standing she
had hiredand giving the other things to the boy left the street with him.
They followed a lane to a distance of half a miletill they met an old
woman carrying a child in short clothesand leading a toddler in the
other hand.

Sue kissed the childrenand saidHow is he now?

Still better!returned Mrs. Edlin cheerfully. "Before you are upstairs
again your husband will be well enough--don't 'ee trouble."

They turnedand came to some olddun-tiled cottages with gardens
and fruit-trees. Into one of these they entered by lifting the latch
without knockingand were at once in the general living-room. Here they
greeted Judewho was sitting in an arm-chairthe increased delicacy
of his normally delicate featuresand the childishly expectant look
in his eyesbeing alone sufficient to show that he had been passing
through a severe illness.

What--you have sold them all?he saida gleam of interest lighting
up his face.

Yes. Arcades, gables, east windows and all.She told
him the pecuniary resultsand then hesitated. At last
when they were left aloneshe informed him of the unexpected
meeting with Arabellaand the latter's widowhood.

Jude was discomposed. "What--is she living here?" he said.

No; at Alfredston,said Sue.

Jude's countenance remained clouded. "I thought I had better tell you?"
she continuedkissing him anxiously.

Yes.... Dear me! Arabella not in the depths of London, but down here!
It is only a little over a dozen miles across the country to Alfredston.

What is she doing there?

She told him all she knew. "She has taken to chapel-going
Sue added; and talks accordingly."

Well,said Judeperhaps it is for the best that we have almost decided
to move on. I feel much better to-day, and shall be well enough to leave
in a week or two. Then Mrs. Edlin can go home again--dear faithful old soul-the
only friend we have in the world!

Where do you think to go to?Sue askeda troublousness in her tones.

Then Jude confessed what was in his mind. He said it would surprise her
perhapsafter his having resolutely avoided all the old places for so long.
But one thing and another had made him think a great deal of Christminster
latelyandif she didn't mindhe would like to go back there. Why should
they care if they were known? It was oversensitive of them to mind so much.
They could go on selling cakes therefor that matterif he couldn't work.
He had no sense of shame at mere poverty; and perhaps he would be as strong as
ever soonand able to set up stone-cutting for himself there.

Why should you care so much for Christminster?she said pensively.
Christminster cares nothing for you, poor dear!

Well, I do, I can't help it. I love the place--although I know how it
hates all men like me--the so-called self-taught,--how it scorns our
laboured acquisitions, when it should be the first to respect them;
how it sneers at our false quantities and mispronunciations, when it
should say, I see you want help, my poor friend! ... Nevertheless,
it is the centre of the universe to me, because of my early dream:
and nothing can alter it. Perhaps it will soon wake up, and be generous.
I pray so! ... I should like to go back to live there--perhaps to die there!
In two or three weeks I might, I think. It will then be June, and I should
like to be there by a particular day.

His hope that he was recovering proved so far well grounded
that in three weeks they had arrived in the city of many memories;
were actually treading its pavementsreceiving the reflection
of the sunshine from its wasting walls.

Part Sixth


... And she humbled her body greatly, and all the
places of her joy she filled with her torn hair.--
ESTHER (Apoc.).

There are two who decline, a woman and I,
And enjoy our death in the darkness here.

ON their arrival the station was lively with straw-hatted young men

welcoming young girls who bore a remarkable family likeness
to their welcomersand who were dressed up in the brightest
and lightest of raiment.

The place seems gay,said Sue. "Why--it is Remembrance Day!--Jude--how sly
of you--you came to-day on purpose!"

Yes,said Jude quietlyas he took charge of the small child
and told Arabella's boy to keep close to themSue attending
to their own eldest. "I thought we might as well come to-day
as on any other."

But I am afraid it will depress you!she saidlooking anxiously
at him up and down.

Oh, I mustn't let it interfere with our business; and we
have a good deal to do before we shall be settled here.
The first thing is lodgings.

Having left their luggage and his tools at the station they
proceeded on foot up the familiar streetthe holiday people
all drifting in the same direction. Reaching the Fourways
they were about to turn off to where accommodation was likely
to be found whenlooking at the clock and the hurrying crowd
Jude said: "Let us go and see the processionand never mind
the lodgings just now? We can get them afterwards."

Oughtn't we to get a house over our heads first?she asked.

But his soul seemed full of the anniversaryand together they
went down Chief Streettheir smallest child in Jude's arms
Sue leading her little girland Arabella's boy walking thoughtfully
and silently beside them. Crowds of pretty sisters in airy costumes
and meekly ignorant parents who had known no college in their youth
were under convoy in the same direction by brothers and sons bearing
the opinion written large on them that no properly qualified human
beings had lived on earth till they came to grace it here and now.

My failure is reflected on me by every one of those young fellows,
said Jude. "A lesson on presumption is awaiting me to-day!--
Humiliation Day for me! ... If youmy dear darlinghadn't come to
my rescueI should have gone to the dogs with despair!"

She saw from his face that he was getting into one of his tempestuous
self-harrowing moods. "It would have been better if we had gone at once
about our own affairsdear she answered. I am sure this sight will
awaken old sorrows in youand do no good!"

Well--we are near; we will see it now,said he.

They turned in on the left by the church with the Italian porch
whose helical columns were heavily draped with creepers
and pursued the lane till there arose on Jude's sight
the circular theatre with that well-known lantern above it
which stood in his mind as the sad symbol of his abandoned hopes
for it was from that outlook that he had finally surveyed
the City of Colleges on the afternoon of his great meditation
which convinced him at last of the futility of his attempt
to be a son of the university.

To-dayin the open space stretching between this building
and the nearest collegestood a crowd of expectant people.
A passage was kept clear through their midst by two barriers
of timberextending from the door of the college to the door of

the large building between it and the theatre.

Here is the place--they are just going to pass!cried Jude
in sudden excitement. And pushing his way to the front
he took up a position close to the barrierstill hugging
the youngest child in his armswhile Sue and the others kept
immediately behind him. The crowd filled in at their back
and fell to talkingjokingand laughing as carriage
after carriage drew up at the lower door of the college
and solemn stately figures in blood-red robes began to alight.
The sky had grown overcast and lividand thunder rumbled now
and then.

Father Time shuddered. "It do seem like the Judgment Day!"
he whispered.

They are only learned doctors,said Sue.

While they waited big drops of rain fell on their heads and shoulders
and the delay grew tedious. Sue again wished not to stay.

They won't be long now,said Judewithout turning his head.

But the procession did not come forthand somebody in the crowd
to pass the timelooked at the facade of the nearest college
and said he wondered what was meant by the Latin inscription
in its midst. Judewho stood near the inquirerexplained it
and finding that the people all round him were listening
with interestwent on to describe the carving of the frieze
(which he had studied years before)and to criticize some details
of masonry in other college fronts about the city.

The idle crowdincluding the two policemen at the doors
stared like the Lycaonians at Paulfor Jude was apt to get
too enthusiastic over any subject in handand they seemed
to wonder how the stranger should know more about the buildings
of their town than they themselves did; till one of them said:
Why, I know that man; he used to work here years ago--
Jude Fawley, that's his name! Don't you mind he used to be
nicknamed Tutor of St. Slums, d'ye mind?--because he aimed
at that line o' business? He's married, I suppose, then,
and that's his child he's carrying. Taylor would know him,
as he knows everybody.

The speaker was a man named Jack Staggwith whom Jude had formerly worked in
repairing the college masonries; Tinker Taylor was seen to be standing near.
Having his attention called the latter cried across the barriers to Jude:
You've honoured us by coming back again, my friend!

An' you don't seem to have done any great things for yourself by going away?

Jude assented to this also.

Except found more mouths to fill!This came in a new voice
and Jude recognized its owner to be Uncle Joeanother mason
whom he had known.

Jude replied good-humouredly that he could not dispute it;
and from remark to remark something like a general conversation arose
between him and the crowd of idlersduring which Tinker Taylor
asked Jude if he remembered the Apostles' Creed in Latin still
and the night of the challenge in the public house.

But Fortune didn't lie that way?threw in Joe. "Yer powers wasn't enough

to carry 'ee through?"

Don't answer them any more!entreated Sue.

I don't think I like Christminster!murmured little Time mournfully
as he stood submerged and invisible in the crowd.

But finding himself the centre of curiosityquizzingand comment
Jude was not inclined to shrink from open declarations of what he had
no great reason to be ashamed of; and in a little while was stimulated
to say in a loud voice to the listening throng generally:

It is a difficult question, my friends, for any young man--
that question I had to grapple with, and which thousands
are weighing at the present moment in these uprising times--
whether to follow uncritically the track he finds himself in,
without considering his aptness for it, or to consider what his
aptness or bent may be, and re-shape his course accordingly.
I tried to do the latter, and I failed. But I don't
admit that my failure proved my view to be a wrong one,
or that my success would have made it a right one;
though that's how we appraise such attempts nowadays--I mean,
not by their essential soundness, but by their accidental outcomes.
If I had ended by becoming like one of these gentlemen in red
and black that we saw dropping in here by now, everybody would
have said: 'See how wise that young man was, to follow the bent
of his nature!' But having ended no better than I began they say:
'See what a fool that fellow was in following a freak of
his fancy!'

However it was my poverty and not my will that consented to be beaten.
It takes two or three generations to do what I tried to do in one;
and my impulses--affections--vices perhaps they should be called--
were too strong not to hamper a man without advantages;
who should be as cold-blooded as a fish and as selfish as a pig
to have a really good chance of being one of his country's worthies.
You may ridicule me--I am quite willing that you should--
I am a fit subjectno doubt. But I think if you knew what I
have gone through these last few years you would rather pity me.
And if they knew"--he nodded towards the college at which the dons
were severally arriving--"it is just possible they would do
the same."

He do look ill and worn-out, it is true!said a woman.

Sue's face grew more emotional; but though she stood close to Jude she
was screened.

I may do some good before I am dead--be a sort of success
as a frightful example of what not to do; and so illustrate
a moral story,continued Judebeginning to grow bitter
though he had opened serenely enough. "I wasperhapsafter all
a paltry victim to the spirit of mental and social restlessness
that makes so many unhappy in these days!"

Don't tell them that!whispered Sue with tearsat perceiving Jude's state
of mind. "You weren't that. You struggled nobly to acquire knowledge
and only the meanest souls in the world would blame you!"

Jude shifted the child into a more easy position on his arm
and concluded: "And what I appeara sick and poor man
is not the worst of me. I am in a chaos of principles--
groping in the dark--acting by instinct and not after example.
Eight or nine years ago when I came here firstI had a neat

stock of fixed opinionsbut they dropped away one by one;
and the further I get the less sure I am. I doubt if I
have anything more for my present rule of life than following
inclinations which do me and nobody else any harmand actually
give pleasure to those I love best. Theregentlemensince you
wanted to know how I was getting onI have told you.
Much good may it do you! I cannot explain further here.
I perceive there is something wrong somewhere in our social formulas:
what it is can only be discovered by men or women with greater
insight than mine--ifindeedthey ever discover it--
at least in our time. 'For who knoweth what is good for man
in this life?--and who can tell a man what shall be after him under
the sun?'"

Hear, hear,said the populace.

Well preached!said Tinker Taylor. And privately to his neighbours:
Why, one of them jobbing pa'sons swarming about here, that takes
the services when our head reverends want a holiday, wouldn't ha'
discoursed such doctrine for less than a guinea down? Hey? I'll take my
oath not one o' 'em would! And then he must have had it wrote down for 'n.
And this only a working-man!

As a sort of objective commentary on Jude's remarks there drove
up at this moment with a belated doctorrobed and panting
a cab whose horse failed to stop at the exact point required
for setting down the hirerwho jumped out and entered the door.
The driveralightingbegan to kick the animal in the belly.

If that can be done,said Judeat college gates in the most religious
and educational city in the world, what shall we say as to how far we've got?

Order!said one of the policemenwho had been engaged with
a comrade in opening the large doors opposite the college.
Keep yer tongue quiet, my man, while the procession passes.
The rain came on more heavilyand all who had umbrellas opened them.
Jude was not one of theseand Sue only possessed a small one
half sunshade. She had grown palethough Jude did not notice
it then.

Let us go on, dear,she whisperedendeavouring to shelter him.
We haven't any lodgings yet, remember, and all our things are at
the station; and you are by no means well yet. I am afraid this wet
will hurt you!

They are coming now. Just a moment, and I'll go!said he.

A peal of six bells struck outhuman faces began to crowd the windows around
and the procession of heads of houses and new doctors emergedtheir red and
black gowned forms passing across the field of Jude's vision like inaccessible
planets across an object glass.

As they went their names were called by knowing informants
and when they reached the old round theatre of Wren a cheer
rose high.

Let's go that way!cried Judeand though it now rained steadily
he seemed not to know itand took them round to the theatre.
Here they stood upon the straw that was laid to drown the discordant
noise of wheelswhere the quaint and frost-eaten stone busts
encircling the building looked with pallid grimness on the proceedings
and in particular at the bedraggled JudeSueand their children
as at ludicrous persons who had no business there.

I wish I could get in!he said to her fervidly. "Listen--I
may catch a few words of the Latin speech by staying here;
the windows are open."

Howeverbeyond the peals of the organand the shouts and hurrahs
between each piece of oratoryJude's standing in the wet did
not bring much Latin to his intelligence more thannow and then
a sonorous word in UM or IBUS.

Well--I'm an outsider to the end of my days!he sighed after a while.
Now I'll go, my patient Sue. How good of you to wait in the rain all
this time--to gratify my infatuation! I'll never care any more about
the infernal cursed place, upon my soul I won't! But what made you tremble
so when we were at the barrier? And how pale you are, Sue!

I saw Richard amongst the people on the other side.

Ah--did you!

He is evidently come up to Jerusalem to see the festival like the rest
of us: and on that account is probably living not so very far away.
He had the same hankering for the university that you had, in a milder form.
I don't think he saw me, though he must have heard you speaking to the crowd.
But he seemed not to notice.

Well--suppose he did. Your mind is free from worries about him now,
my Sue?

Yes, I suppose so. But I am weak. Although I know it
is all right with our plans, I felt a curious dread of him;
an awe, or terror, of conventions I don't believe in.
It comes over me at times like a sort of creeping paralysis,
and makes me so sad!

You are getting tired, Sue. Oh--I forgot, darling! Yes, we'll go
on at once.

They started in quest of the lodgingand at last found
something that seemed to promise wellin Mildew Lane-a
spot which to Jude was irresistible--though to Sue it was not
so fascinating--a narrow lane close to the back of a college
but having no communication with it. The little houses
were darkened to gloom by the high collegiate buildings
within which life was so far removed from that of the people
in the lane as if it had been on opposite sides of the globe;
yet only a thickness of wall divided them. Two or three of
the houses had notices of rooms to letand the newcomers
knocked at the door of onewhich a woman opened.

Ah--listen!said Jude suddenlyinstead of addressing her.


Why the bells--what church can that be? The tones are familiar.

Another peal of bells had begun to sound out at some distance off.

I don't know!said the landlady tartly. "Did you knock to ask that?"

No; for lodgings,said Judecoming to himself.

The householder scrutinized Sue's figure a moment. "We haven't any to let
said she, shutting the door.

Jude looked discomfited, and the boy distressed. NowJude
said Sue, let me try. You don't know the way."

They found a second place hard by; but here the occupier
observing not only Suebut the boy and the small children
said civillyI am sorry to say we don't let where there
are children; and also closed the door.

The small child squared its mouth and cried silently
with an instinct that trouble loomed. The boy sighed.
I don't like Christminster!he said. "Are the great old
houses gaols?"

No; colleges,said Jude; "which perhaps you'll study in some day."

I'd rather not!the boy rejoined.

Now we'll try again,said Sue. "I'll pull my cloak more round
me.... Leaving Kennetbridge for this place is like coming from
Caiaphas to Pilate! ... How do I look nowdear?"

Nobody would notice it now,said Jude.

There was one other houseand they tried a third time.
The woman here was more amiable; but she had little room to spare
and could only agree to take in Sue and the children if her husband
could go elsewhere. This arrangement they perforce adopted
in the stress from delaying their search till so late.
They came to terms with herthough her price was rather
high for their pockets. But they could not afford to be
critical till Jude had time to get a more permanent abode;
and in this house Sue took possession of a back room on
the second floor with an inner closet-room for the children.
Jude stayed and had a cup of tea; and was pleased to find
that the window commanded the back of another of the colleges.
Kissing all four he went to get a few necessaries and look for
lodgings for himself.

When he was gone the landlady came up to talk a little with Sue
and gather something of the circumstances of the family she had taken in.
Sue had not the art of prevaricationandafter admitting several
facts as to their late difficulties and wanderingsshe was startled
by the landlady saying suddenly:

Are you really a married woman?

Sue hesitated; and then impulsively told the woman that her husband
and herself had each been unhappy in their first marriages
after whichterrified at the thought of a second irrevocable union
and lest the conditions of the contract should kill their love
yet wishing to be togetherthey had literally not found the courage
to repeat itthough they had attempted it two or three times.
Thereforethough in her own sense of the words she was a married woman
in the landlady's sense she was not.

The housewife looked embarrassedand went down-stairs.
Sue sat by the window in a reveriewatching the rain.
Her quiet was broken by the noise of someone entering the house
and then the voices of a man and woman in conversation
in the passage below. The land-lady's husband had arrived
and she was explaining to him the incoming of the lodgers during
his absence.

His voice rose in sudden anger. "Now who wants such a woman here? and

perhaps a confinement! ... Besidesdidn't I say I wouldn't have children?
The hall and stairs fresh paintedto be kicked about by them!
You must have known all was not straight with 'em--coming like that.
Taking in a family when I said a single man."

The wife expostulatedbutas it seemedthe husband insisted on his point;
for presently a tap came to Sue's doorand the woman appeared.

I am sorry to tell you, ma'am,she saidthat I can't let
you have the room for the week after all. My husband objects;
and therefore I must ask you to go. I don't mind your staying
over to-night, as it is getting late in the afternoon; but I
shall be glad if you can leave early in the morning.

Though she knew that she was entitled to the lodging for a week
Sue did not wish to create a disturbance between the wife
and husbandand she said she would leave as requested.
When the landlady had gone Sue looked out of the window again.
Finding that the rain had ceased she proposed to the boy that
after putting the little ones to bedthey should go out and
search about for another placeand bespeak it for the morrow
so as not to be so hard-driven then as they had been
that day.

Thereforeinstead of unpacking her boxeswhich had just
been sent on from the station by Judethey sallied out into
the damp though not unpleasant streetsSue resolving not
to disturb her husband with the news of her notice to quit
while he was perhaps worried in obtaining a lodging for himself.
In the company of the boy she wandered into this street and
into that; but though she tried a dozen different houses she
fared far worse alone than she had fared in Jude's company
and could get nobody to promise her a room for the following day.
Every householder looked askance at such a woman and child
inquiring for accommodation in the gloom.

I ought not to be born, ought I?said the boy with misgiving.

Thoroughly tired at last Sue returned to the place where she
was not welcomebut where at least she had temporary shelter.
In her absence Jude had left his address; but knowing how weak
he still was she adhered to her determination not to disturb him
till the next day.

SUE sat looking at the bare floor of the roomthe house
being little more than an old intramural cottageand then
she regarded the scene outside the uncurtained window.
At some distance oppositethe outer walls of Sarcophagus College--
silentblackand windowless--threw their four centuries
of gloombigotryand decay into the little room she occupied
shutting out the moonlight by night and the sun by day.
The outlines of Rubric College also were discernible beyond
the otherand the tower of a third farther off still.
She thought of the strange operation of a simple-minded man's
ruling passionthat it should have led Judewho loved
her and the children so tenderlyto place them here in this
depressing purlieubecause he was still haunted by his dream.
Even now he did not distinctly hear the freezing negative that
those scholared walls had echoed to his desire.

The failure to find another lodgingand the lack of room in this
house for his fatherhad made a deep impression on the boy--
a brooding undemonstrative horror seemed to have seized him.
The silence was broken by his saying: "MotherWHAT shall we
do to-morrow!"

I don't know!said Sue despondently. "I am afraid this will trouble
your father."

I wish Father was quite well, and there had been room for him!
Then it wouldn't matter so much! Poor Father!

It wouldn't!

Can I do anything?

No! All is trouble, adversity, and suffering!

Father went away to give us children room, didn't he?


It would be better to be out o' the world than in it, wouldn't it?

It would almost, dear.

'Tis because of us children, too, isn't it, that you can't
get a good lodging?

Well--people do object to children sometimes.

Then if children make so much trouble, why do people have 'em?

Oh--because it is a law of nature.

But we don't ask to be born?

No indeed.

And what makes it worse with me is that you are not my
real mother, and you needn't have had me unless you liked.
I oughtn't to have come to 'ee--that's the real truth!
I troubled 'em in Australia, and I trouble folk here. I wish I
hadn't been born!

You couldn't help it, my dear.

I think that whenever children be born that are not wanted they
should be killed directly, before their souls come to 'em, and not
allowed to grow big and walk about!

Sue did not reply. She was doubtfully pondering how to treat this
too reflective child.

She at last concluded thatso far as circumstances permitted
she would be honest and candid with one who entered into her
difficulties like an aged friend.

There is going to be another in our family soon,she hesitatingly remarked.


There is going to be another baby.

What!The boy jumped up wildly. "Oh GodMotheryou've never a-sent
for another; and such trouble with what you've got!"

Yes, I have, I am sorry to say!murmured Sueher eyes glistening
with suspended tears.

The boy burst out weeping. "Oh you don't careyou don't care!"
he cried in bitter reproach. "How EVER could youMotherbe so
wicked and cruel as thiswhen you needn't have done it till we was
better offand Father well! To bring us all into MORE trouble!
No room for usand Father a-forced to go awayand we turned
out to-morrow; and yet you be going to have another of us soon! ...
'Tis done o' purpose!--'tis--'tis!" He walked up and down sobbing.

Y-you must forgive me, little Jude!she pleadedher bosom heaving now as
much as the boy's. "I can't explain--I will when you are older. It does seem--
as if I had done it on purposenow we are in these difficulties!
I can't explaindear! But it--is not quite on purpose--I can't help it!"

Yes it is--it must be! For nobody would interfere with us,
like that, unless you agreed! I won't forgive you, ever, ever!
I'll never believe you care for me, or Father, or any of us
any more!

He got upand went away into the closet adjoining her room
in which a bed had been spread on the floor. There she heard
him say: "If we children was gone there'd be no trouble
at all!"

Don't think that, dear,she criedrather peremptorily.
But go to sleep!

The following morning she awoke at a little past sixand decided to get
up and run across before breakfast to the inn which Jude had informed
her to be his quartersto tell him what had happened before he went out.
She arose softlyto avoid disturbing the childrenwhoas she knew
must be fatigued by their exertions of yesterday.

She found Jude at breakfast in the obscure tavern he had
chosen as a counterpoise to the expense of her lodging:
and she explained to him her homelessness. He had been so anxious
about her all nighthe said. Somehownow it was morning
the request to leave the lodgings did not seem such a depressing
incident as it had seemed the night beforenor did even her
failure to find another place affect her so deeply as at first.
Jude agreed with her that it would not be worth while to insist
upon her right to stay a weekbut to take immediate steps
for removal.

You must all come to this inn for a day or two,he said.
It is a rough place, and it will not be so nice for the children,
but we shall have more time to look round. There are plenty
of lodgings in the suburbs--in my old quarter of Beersheba.
Have breakfast with me now you are here, my bird. You are sure
you are well? There will be plenty of time to get back and
prepare the children's meal before they wake. In fact, I'll go
with you.

She joined Jude in a hasty mealand in a quarter of an hour
they started togetherresolving to clear out from Sue's too
respectable lodging immediately. On reaching the place and going
upstairs she found that all was quiet in the children's room

and called to the landlady in timorous tones to please
bring up the tea-kettle and something for their breakfast.
This was perfunctorily doneand producing a couple of eggs which
she had brought with her she put them into the boiling kettle
and summoned Jude to watch them for the youngsterswhile she
went to call themit being now about half-past eight o'clock.

Jude stood bending over the kettlewith his watch in his hand
timing the eggsso that his back was turned to the little inner
chamber where the children lay. A shriek from Sue suddenly caused him
to start round. He saw that the door of the roomor rather closet--
which had seemed to go heavily upon its hinges as she pushed it back--
was openand that Sue had sunk to the floor just within it.
Hastening forward to pick her up he turned his eyes to the little
bed spread on the boards; no children were there. He looked
in bewilderment round the room. At the back of the door were
fixed two hooks for hanging garmentsand from these the forms
of the two youngest children were suspendedby a piece of box-cord
round each of their neckswhile from a nail a few yards off
the body of little Jude was hanging in a similar manner.
An overturned chair was near the elder boyand his glazed eyes
were slanted into the room; but those of the girl and the baby boy
were closed.

Half-paralyzed by the strange and consummate horror of the scene
he let Sue liecut the cords with his pocket-knife and threw
the three children on the bed; but the feel of their bodies
in the momentary handling seemed to say that they were dead.
He caught up Suewho was in fainting fitsand put her on
the bed in the other roomafter which he breathlessly summoned
the landlady and ran out for a doctor.

When he got back Sue had come to herselfand the two helpless women
bending over the children in wild efforts to restore themand the triplet of
little corpsesformed a sight which overthrew his self-command. The nearest
surgeon came inbutas Jude had inferredhis presence was superfluous.
The children were past savingfor though their bodies were still barely
cold it was conjectured that they had been hanging more than an hour.
The probability held by the parents later onwhen they were able to reason
on the casewas that the elder boyon wakinglooked into the outer room
for Sueandfinding her absentwas thrown into a fit of aggravated
despondency that the events and information of the evening before had
induced in his morbid temperament. Moreover a piece of paper was found upon
the flooron which was writtenin the boy's handwith the bit of lead
pencil that he carried:


At sight of this Sue's nerves utterly gave wayan awful conviction
that her discourse with the boy had been the main cause of the tragedy
throwing her into a convulsive agony which knew no abatement.
They carried her away against her wish to a room on the lower floor;
and there she layher slight figure shaken with her gaspsand her
eyes staring at the ceilingthe woman of the house vainly trying to
soothe her.

They could hear from this chamber the people moving about above
and she implored to be allowed to go backand was only kept
from doing so by the assurance thatif there were any hope
her presence might do harmand the reminder that it was necessary
to take care of herself lest she should endanger a coming life.
Her inquiries were incessantand at last Jude came down and told

her there was no hope. As soon as she could speak she informed him
what she had said to the boyand how she thought herself the cause
of this.

No,said Jude. "It was in his nature to do it.
The doctor says there are such boys springing up amongst us--
boys of a sort unknown in the last generation--the outcome
of new views of life. They seem to see all its terrors before
they are old enough to have staying power to resist them.
He says it is the beginning of the coming universal wish not
to live. He's an advanced manthe doctor: but he can give no
consolation to----"

Jude had kept back his own grief on account of her; but he now broke down;
and this stimulated Sue to efforts of sympathy which in some degree distracted
her from her poignant self-reproach. When everybody was goneshe was allowed
to see the children.

The boy's face expressed the whole tale of their situation.
On that little shape had converged all the inauspiciousness
and shadow which had darkened the first union of Jude
and all the accidentsmistakesfearserrors of the last.
He was their nodal pointtheir focustheir expression in a
single term. For the rashness of those parents he had groaned
for their ill assortment he had quakedand for the misfortunes
of these he had died.

When the house was silentand they could do nothing but await
the coroner's inquesta subduedlargelow voice spread into
the air of the room from behind the heavy walls at the back.

What is it?said Sueher spasmodic breathing suspended.

The organ of the college chapel. The organist practising I suppose.
It's the anthem from the seventy-third Psalm; 'Truly God is loving
unto Israel.'

She sobbed again. "OhOh my babies! They had done no harm!
Why should they have been taken awayand not I!"

There was another stillness--broken at last by two persons in conversation
somewhere without.

They are talking about us, no doubt!moaned Sue. "'We are made
a spectacle unto the worldand to angelsand to men!'"

Jude listened--"No--they are not talking of us he said.
They are two clergymen of different viewsarguing about
the eastward position. Good God--the eastward position
and all creation groaning!"

Then another silencetill she was seized with another uncontrollable fit
of grief. "There is something external to us which says'You shan't!'
First it said'You shan't learn!' Then it said'You shan't labour!'
Now it says'You shan't love!'"

He tried to soothe her by sayingThat's bitter of you, darling.

But it's true!

Thus they waitedand she went back again to her room.
The baby's frockshoesand sockswhich had been lying on a
chair at the time of his deathshe would not now have removed
though Jude would fain have got them out of her sight.

But whenever he touched them she implored him to let them lie
and burst out almost savagely at the woman of the house when she also
attempted to put them away.

Jude dreaded her dull apathetic silences almost more than her paroxysms.
Why don't you speak to me, Jude?she cried outafter one of these.
Don't turn away from me! I can't BEAR the loneliness of being out of
your looks!

There, dear; here I am,he saidputting his face close to hers.

Yes.... Oh, my comrade, our perfect union--our two-in-oneness--
is now stained with blood!

Shadowed by death--that's all.

Ah; but it was I who incited him really, though I didn't know
I was doing it! I talked to the child as one should only talk
to people of mature age. I said the world was against us,
that it was better to be out of life than in it at this price;
and he took it literally. And I told him I was going to have
another child. It upset him. Oh how bitterly he upbraided me!

Why did you do it, Sue?

I can't tell. It was that I wanted to be truthful.
I couldn't bear deceiving him as to the facts of life.
And yet I wasn't truthful, for with a false delicacy I told him
too obscurely.--Why was I half-wiser than my fellow-women? And
not entirely wiser! Why didn't I tell him pleasant untruths,
instead of half-realities? It was my want of self-control, so that I
could neither conceal things nor reveal them!

Your plan might have been a good one for the majority of cases;
only in our peculiar case it chanced to work badly perhaps.
He must have known sooner or later.

And I was just making my baby darling a new frock;
and now I shall never see him in it, and never talk to him
any more! ... My eyes are so swollen that I can scarcely see;
and yet little more than a year ago I called myself happy!
We went about loving each other too much--indulging ourselves
to utter selfishness with each other! We said--
do you remember?--that we would make a virtue of joy.
I said it was Nature's intention, Nature's law and RAISON D'ETRE
that we should be joyful in what instincts she afforded us--
instincts which civilization had taken upon itself to thwart.
What dreadful things I said! And now Fate has given us this
stab in the back for being such fools as to take Nature at
her word!

She sank into a quiet contemplationtill she said
It is best, perhaps, that they should be gone.--Yes--I see it is!
Better that they should be plucked fresh than stay to wither
away miserably!

Yes,replied Jude. "Some say that the elders should rejoice
when their children die in infancy."

But they don't know! ... Oh my babies, my babies, could you be alive now!
You may say the boy wished to be out of life, or he wouldn't have done it.
It was not unreasonable for him to die: it was part of his incurably
sad nature, poor little fellow! But then the others--my OWN children
and yours!

Again Sue looked at the hanging little frock and at the socks and shoes;
and her figure quivered like a string. "I am a pitiable creature
she said, good neither for earth nor heaven any more! I am driven
out of my mind by things! What ought to be done?" She stared at Jude
and tightly held his hand.

Nothing can be done,he replied. "Things are as they are
and will be brought to their destined issue."

She paused. "Yes! Who said that?" she asked heavily.

It comes in the chorus of the AGAMEMNON. It has been in my mind
continually since this happened.

My poor Jude--how you've missed everything!--you more than I,
for I did get you! To think you should know that by your
unassisted reading, and yet be in poverty and despair!

After such momentary diversions her grief would return in a wave.

The jury duly came and viewed the bodiesthe inquest was held;
and next arrived the melancholy morning of the funeral.
Accounts in the newspapers had brought to the spot curious idlers
who stood apparently counting the window-panes and the stones
of the walls. Doubt of the real relations of the couple added
zest to their curiosity. Sue had declared that she would
follow the two little ones to the gravebut at the last moment
she gave wayand the coffins were quietly carried out of
the house while she was lying down. Jude got into the vehicle
and it drove awaymuch to the relief of the landlord
who now had only Sue and her luggage remaining on his hands
which he hoped to be also clear of later on in the day
and so to have freed his house from the exasperating notoriety
it had acquired during the week through his wife's unlucky
admission of these strangers. In the afternoon he privately
consulted with the owner of the houseand they agreed that if
any objection to it arose from the tragedy which had occurred
there they would try to get its number changed.

When Jude had seen the two little boxes--one containing little Jude
and the other the two smallest--deposited in the earth he hastened
back to Suewho was still in her roomand he therefore did not
disturb her just then. Feeling anxioushoweverhe went again
about four o'clock. The woman thought she was still lying down
but returned to him to say that she was not in her bedroom after all.
Her hat and jackettoowere missing: she had gone out.
Jude hurried off to the public house where he was sleeping.
She had not been there. Then bethinking himself of possibilities
he went along the road to the cemeterywhich he entered
and crossed to where the interments had recently taken place.
The idlers who had followed to the spot by reason of the tragedy
were all gone now. A man with a shovel in his hands was attempting
to earth in the common grave of the three childrenbut his arm was held
back by an expostulating woman who stood in the half-filled hole.
It was Suewhose coloured clothingwhich she had never thought
of changing for the mourning he had boughtsuggested to the eye
a deeper grief than the conventional garb of bereavement could

He's filling them in, and he shan't till I've seen my little ones again!
she cried wildly when she saw Jude. "I want to see them once more. Oh Jude-please
Jude--I want to see them! I didn't know you would let them be taken
away while I was asleep! You said perhaps I should see them once more before

they were screwed down; and then you didn'tbut took them away! Oh Jude
you are cruel to me too!"

She's been wanting me to dig out the grave again, and let her get to
the coffins,said the man with the spade. "She ought to be took home
by the look o' her. She is hardly responsiblepoor thingseemingly.
Can't dig 'em up again nowma'am. Do ye go home with your husband
and take it quietand thank God that there'll be another soon to swage
yer grief."

But Sue kept asking piteously: "Can't I see them once more--just once!
Can't I? Only just one little minuteJude? It would not take long!
And I should be so gladJude! I will be so goodand not disobey
you ever any moreJudeif you will let me? I would go home
quietly afterwardsand not want to see them any more! Can't I?
Why can't I?"

Thus she went on. Jude was thrown into such acute sorrow
that he almost felt he would try to get the man to accede.
But it could do no goodand might make her still worse;
and he saw that it was imperative to get her home at once.
So he coaxed herand whispered tenderlyand put his arm round
her to support her; till she helplessly gave inand was induced
to leave the cemetery.

He wished to obtain a fly to take her back inbut economy being
so imperative she deprecated his doing soand they walked
along slowlyJude in black crapeshe in brown and red clothing.
They were to have gone to a new lodging that afternoon
but Jude saw that it was not practicableand in course of time
they entered the now hated house. Sue was at once got to bed
and the doctor sent for.

Jude waited all the evening downstairs. At a very late hour the intelligence
was brought to him that a child had been prematurely bornand that it
like the otherswas a corpse.

SUE was convalescentthough she had hoped for deathand Jude had again
obtained work at his old trade. They were in other lodgings now
in the direction of Beershebaand not far from the Church of Ceremonies--
Saint Silas.

They would sit silentmore bodeful of the direct antagonism
of things than of their insensate and stolid obstructiveness.
Vague and quaint imaginings had haunted Sue in the days
when her intellect scintillated like a starthat the world
resembled a stanza or melody composed in a dream;
it was wonderfully excellent to the half-aroused intelligence
but hopelessly absurd at the full waking; that the first cause
worked automatically like a somnambulistand not reflectively
like a sage; that at the framing of the terrestrial conditions
there seemed never to have been contemplated such a development
of emotional perceptiveness among the creatures subject to those
conditions as that reached by thinking and educated humanity.
But affliction makes opposing forces loom anthropomorphous;
and those ideas were now exchanged for a sense of Jude and herself
fleeing from a persecutor.

We must conform!she said mournfully. "All the ancient

wrath of the Power above us has been vented upon us.
His poor creaturesand we must submit. There is no choice.
We must. It is no use fighting against God!"

It is only against man and senseless circumstance,said Jude.

True!she murmured. "What have I been thinking of!
I am getting as superstitious as a savage! ... But whoever
or whatever our foe may beI am cowed into submission.
I have no more fighting strength left; no more enterprise.
I am beatenbeaten! ... 'We are made a spectacle unto
the worldand to angelsand to men!' I am always saying
that now."

I feel the same!

What shall we do? You are in work now; but remember, it may only be
because our history and relations are not absolutely known.... Possibly,
if they knew our marriage had not been formalized they would turn you
out of your job as they did at Aldbrickham!

I hardly know. Perhaps they would hardly do that. However, I think
that we ought to make it legal now--as soon as you are able to go out.

You think we ought?


And Jude fell into thought. "I have seemed to myself lately
he said, to belong to that vast band of men shunned by the virtuous--
the men called seducers. It amazes me when I think of it!
I have not been conscious of itor of any wrongdoing towards you
whom I love more than myself. Yet I am one of those men!
I wonder if any other of them are the same purblind
simple creatures as I? ... YesSue--that's what I am.
I seduced you.... You were a distinct type--a refined creature
intended by Nature to be left intact. But I couldn't leave
you alone!"

No, no, Jude!she said quickly. "Don't reproach yourself with being
what you are not. If anybody is to blame it is I."

I supported you in your resolve to leave Phillotson;
and without me perhaps you wouldn't have urged him to let
you go.

I should have, just the same. As to ourselves, the fact of our not
having entered into a legal contract is the saving feature in our union.
We have thereby avoided insulting, as it were, the solemnity of our
first marriages.

Solemnity?Jude looked at her with some surpriseand grew conscious
that she was not the Sue of their earlier time.

Yes,she saidwith a little quiver in her wordsI have had
dreadful fears, a dreadful sense of my own insolence of action.
I have thought--that I am still his wife!



Good God, dearest!--why?

Oh I can't explain! Only the thought comes to me.

It is your weakness--a sick fancy, without reason or meaning!
Don't let it trouble you.

Sue sighed uneasily.

As a set-off against such discussions as these there had come
an improvement in their pecuniary positionwhich earlier in
their experience would have made them cheerful. Jude had quite
unexpectedly found good employment at his old trade almost directly
he arrivedthe summer weather suiting his fragile constitution;
and outwardly his days went on with that monotonous uniformity
which is in itself so grateful after vicissitude. People seemed
to have forgotten that he had ever shown any awkward aberrancies:
and he daily mounted to the parapets and copings of colleges he could
never enterand renewed the crumbling freestones of mullioned
windows he would never look fromas if he had known no wish to
do otherwise.

There was this change in him; that he did not often go to any service
at the churches now. One thing troubled him more than any other; that Sue
and himself had mentally travelled in opposite directions since the tragedy:
events which had enlarged his own views of lifelawscustomsand dogmas
had not operated in the same manner on Sue's. She was no longer the same as in
the independent dayswhen her intellect played like lambent lightning over
conventions and formalities which he at that time respectedthough he did
not now.

On a particular Sunday evening he came in rather late.
She was not at homebut she soon returnedwhen he found her
silent and meditative.

What are you thinking of, little woman?he asked curiously.

Oh I can't tell clearly! I have thought that we have been selfish,
careless, even impious, in our courses, you and I. Our life has been
a vain attempt at self-delight. But self-abnegation is the higher road.
We should mortify the flesh--the terrible flesh--the curse of Adam!

Sue!he murmured. "What has come over you?"

We ought to be continually sacrificing ourselves on the altar of duty!
But I have always striven to do what has pleased me. I well deserved
the scourging I have got! I wish something would take the evil right
out of me, and all my monstrous errors, and all my sinful ways!

Sue--my own too suffering dear!--there's no evil woman in you.
Your natural instincts are perfectly healthy; not quite
so impassioned, perhaps, as I could wish; but good, and dear, and pure.
And as I have often said, you are absolutely the most ethereal,
least sensual woman I ever knew to exist without inhuman sexlessness.
Why do you talk in such a changed way? We have not been selfish,
except when no one could profit by our being otherwise.
You used to say that human nature was noble and long-suffering,
not vile and corrupt, and at last I thought you spoke truly.
And now you seem to take such a much lower view!

I want a humble heart; and a chastened mind; and I have never had them yet!

You have been fearless, both as a thinker and as a feeler,
and you deserved more admiration than I gave. I was too full
of narrow dogmas at that time to see it.

Don't say that, Jude! I wish my every fearless word and thought could
be rooted out of my history. Self-renunciation--that's everything!
I cannot humiliate myself too much. I should like to prick myself all over
with pins and bleed out the badness that's in me!

Hush!he saidpressing her little face against his breast as if she
were an infant. "It is bereavement that has brought you to this!
Such remorse is not for youmy sensitive plantbut for the wicked ones
of the earth--who never feel it!"

I ought not to stay like this,she murmuredwhen she had remained
in the position a long while.

Why not?

It is indulgence.

Still on the same tack! But is there anything better on earth
than that we should love one another?

Yes. It depends on the sort of love; and yours--ours is the wrong.

I won't have it, Sue! Come, when do you wish our marriage
to be signed in a vestry?

She pausedand looked up uneasily. "Never she whispered.

Not knowing the whole of her meaning he took the objection serenely,
and said nothing. Several minutes elapsed, and he thought she
had fallen asleep; but he spoke softly, and found that she was wide
awake all the time. She sat upright and sighed.

There is a strangeindescribable perfume or atmosphere
about you to-nightSue he said. I mean not only mentally
but about your clothesalso. A sort of vegetable scent
which I seem to knowyet cannot remember."

It is incense.


I have been to the service at St. Silas', and I was in the fumes of it.

Oh--St. Silas'.

Yes. I go there sometimes.

Indeed. You go there!

You see, Jude, it is lonely here in the weekday mornings,
when you are at work, and I think and think of--of my--
She stopped till she could control the lumpiness of her throat.
And I have taken to go in there, as it is so near.

Oh well--of course, I say nothing against it. Only it is odd, for you.
They little think what sort of chiel is amang them!

What do you mean, Jude?

Well--a sceptic, to be plain.

How can you pain me so, dear Jude, in my trouble! Yet I know you
didn't mean it. But you ought not to say that.

I won't. But I am much surprised!

Well--I want to tell you something else, Jude. You won't be angry,
will you? I have thought of it a good deal since my babies died.
I don't think I ought to be your wife--or as your wife-any

What? ... But you ARE!

From your point of view; but--

Of course we were afraid of the ceremony, and a good many others
would have been in our places, with such strong reasons for fears.
But experience has proved how we misjudged ourselves, and overrated
our infirmities; and if you are beginning to respect rites and ceremonies,
as you seem to be, I wonder you don't say it shall be carried out instantly?
You certainly ARE my wife, Sue, in all but law. What do you mean by what
you said?

I don't think I am!

Not? But suppose we HAD gone through the ceremony?
Would you feel that you were then?

No. I should not feel even then that I was. I should feel worse
than I do now.

Why so--in the name of all that's perverse, my dear?

Because I am Richard's.

Ah--you hinted that absurd fancy to me before!

It was only an impression with me then; I feel more and more convinced
as time goes on that--I belong to him, or to nobody.

My good heavens--how we are changing places!

Yes. Perhaps so.

Some few days laterin the dusk of the summer eveningthey were
sitting in the same small room down-stairswhen a knock came
to the front door of the carpenter's house where they were lodging
and in a few moments there was a tap at the door of their room.
Before they could open it the comer did soand a woman's
form appeared.

Is Mr. Fawley here?

Jude and Sue started as he mechanically replied in the affirmative
for the voice was Arabella's.

He formally requested her to come inand she sat down in the window bench
where they could distinctly see her outline against the light;
but no characteristic that enabled them to estimate her general aspect
and air. Yet something seemed to denote that she was not quite so
comfortably circumstancednor so bouncingly attiredas she had been
during Cartlett's lifetime.

The three attempted an awkward conversation about the tragedy
of which Jude had felt it to be his duty to inform her immediately
though she had never replied to his letter.

I have just come from the cemetery,she said. "I inquired

and found the child's grave. I couldn't come to the funeral-thank
you for inviting me all the same. I read all about it
in the papersand I felt I wasn't wanted.... No--I couldn't
come to the funeral repeated Arabella, who, seeming utterly
unable to reach the ideal of a catastrophic manner,
fumbled with iterations. But I am glad I found the grave.
As 'tis your tradeJudeyou'll be able to put up a handsome stone
to 'em."

I shall put up a headstone,said Jude drearily.

He was my child, and naturally I feel for him.

I hope so. We all did.

The others that weren't mine I didn't feel so much for,
as was natural.

Of course.

A sigh came from the dark corner where Sue sat.

I had often wished I had mine with me,continued Mrs. Cartlett.
Perhaps 'twouldn't have happened then! But of course I didn't wish
to take him away from your wife.

I am not his wife,came from Sue.

The unexpectedness of her words struck Jude silent.

Oh, I beg your pardon, I'm sure,said Arabella. "I thought you were!"

Jude had known from the quality of Sue's tone that her new
and transcendental views lurked in her words; but all except
their obvious meaning wasnaturallymissed by Arabella.
The latterafter evincing that she was struck by Sue's avowal
recovered herselfand went on to talk with placid bluntness
about "her" boyfor whomthough in his lifetime she
had shown no care at allshe now exhibited a ceremonial
mournfulness that was apparently sustaining to the conscience.
She alluded to the pastand in making some remark appealed
again to Sue. There was no answer: Sue had invisibly left
the room.

She said she was not your wife?resumed Arabella in another voice.
Why should she do that?

I cannot inform you,said Jude shortly.

She is, isn't she? She once told me so.

I don't criticize what she says.

Ah--I see! Well, my time is up. I am staying here to-night, and
thought I could do no less than call, after our mutual affliction.
I am sleeping at the place where I used to be barmaid, and to-morrow
I go back to Alfredston. Father is come home again, and I am living
with him.

He has returned from Australia?said Jude with languid curiosity.

Yes. Couldn't get on there. Had a rough time of it.
Mother died of dys--what do you call it--in the hot weather,
and Father and two of the young ones have just got back.

He has got a cottage near the old place, and for the present I am
keeping house for him.

Jude's former wife had maintained a stereotyped manner of strict good
breeding even now that Sue was goneand limited her stay to a number
of minutes that should accord with the highest respectability.
When she had departed Judemuch relievedwent to the stairs and
called Sue--feeling anxious as to what had become of her.

There was no answerand the carpenter who kept the lodgings
said she had not come in. Jude was puzzledand became quite
alarmed at her absencefor the hour was growing late.
The carpenter called his wifewho conjectured that Sue might
have gone to St. Silas' churchas she often went there.

Surely not at this time o' night?said Jude. "It is shut."

She knows somebody who keeps the key, and she has it whenever she wants it.

How long has she been going on with this?

Oh, some few weeks, I think.

Jude went vaguely in the direction of the churchwhich he had
never once approached since he lived out that way years before
when his young opinions were more mystical than they were now.
The spot was desertedbut the door was certainly unfastened;
he lifted the latch without noiseand pushing to the door
behind himstood absolutely still inside. The prevalent silence
seemed to contain a faint soundexplicable as a breathing
or a sobbingwhich came from the other end of the building.
The floor-cloth deadened his footsteps as he moved in that direction
through the obscuritywhich was broken only by the faintest
reflected night-light from without.

High overheadabove the chancel stepsJude could discern a huge
solidly constructed Latin cross--as largeprobablyas the original
it was designed to commemorate. It seemed to be suspended in the air
by invisible wires; it was set with large jewelswhich faintly glimmered
in some weak ray caught from outsideas the cross swayed to and fro
in a silent and scarcely perceptible motion. Underneathupon the floor
lay what appeared to be a heap of black clothesand from this was
repeated the sobbing that he had heard before. It was his Sue's form
prostrate on the paving.

Sue!he whispered.

Something white disclosed itself; she had turned up her face.

What--do you want with me here, Jude?she said almost sharply.
You shouldn't come! I wanted to be alone! Why did you
intrude here?

How can you ask!he retorted in quick reproachfor his full heart
was wounded to its centre at this attitude of hers towards him.
Why do I come? Who has a right to come, I should like to know,
if I have not! I, who love you better than my own self--better-far
better--than you have loved me! What made you leave me to come
here alone?

Don't criticize me, Jude--I can't bear it!--I have often told you so.
You must take me as I am. I am a wretch--broken by my distractions!
I couldn't BEAR it when Arabella came--I felt so utterly miserable I
had to come away. She seems to be your wife still, and Richard to be

my husband!

But they are nothing to us!

Yes, dear friend, they are. I see marriage differently now.
My babies have been taken from me to show me this!
Arabella's child killing mine was a judgement--the right slaying
the wrong. What, WHAT shall I do! I am such a vile creature--
too worthless to mix with ordinary human beings!

This is terrible!said Judeverging on tears. "It is monstrous
and unnatural for you to be so remorseful when you have done no wrong!"

Ah--you don't know my badness!

He returned vehemently: "I do! Every atom and dreg of it!
You make me hate Christianityor mysticismor Sacerdotalism
or whatever it may be calledif it's that which has caused
this deterioration in you. That a woman-poeta woman-seer
a woman whose soul shone like a diamond--whom all the wise of
the world would have been proud ofif they could have known you--
should degrade herself like this! I am glad I had nothing
to do with Divinity--damn glad--if it's going to ruin you in
this way!"

You are angry, Jude, and unkind to me, and don't see how things are.

Then come along home with me, dearest, and perhaps I shall.
I am overburdened--and you, too, are unhinged just now.
He put his arm round her and lifted her; but though she came
she preferred to walk without his support.

I don't dislike you, Jude,she said in a sweet and imploring voice.
I love you as much as ever! Only--I ought not to love you--any more.
Oh I must not any more!

I can't own it.

But I have made up my mind that I am not your wife!
I belong to him--I sacramentally joined myself to him for life.
Nothing can alter it!

But surely we are man and wife, if ever two people were in this world?
Nature's own marriage it is, unquestionably!

But not Heaven's. Another was made for me there, and ratified
eternally in the church at Melchester.

Sue, Sue--affliction has brought you to this unreasonable state!
After converting me to your views on so many things, to find you
suddenly turn to the right-about like this--for no reason whatever,
confounding all you have formerly said through sentiment merely!
You root out of me what little affection and reverence I had left in me
for the Church as an old acquaintance.... What I can't understand
in you is your extraordinary blindness now to your old logic.
Is it peculiar to you, or is it common to woman? Is a woman
a thinking unit at all, or a fraction always wanting its integer?
How you argued that marriage was only a clumsy contract--
which it is--how you showed all the objections to it--
all the absurdities! If two and two made four when we were
happy together, surely they make four now? I can't understand it,
I repeat!

Ah, dear Jude; that's because you are like a totally deaf man observing

people listening to music. You say 'What are they regarding?
Nothing is there.' But something is.

That is a hard saying from you; and not a true parallel!
You threw off old husks of prejudices, and taught me to do it;
and now you go back upon yourself. I confess I am utterly stultified
in my estimate of you.

Dear friend, my only friend, don't be hard with me!
I can't help being as I am, I am convinced I am right--
that I see the light at last. But oh, how to profit by it!

They walked along a few more steps till they were outside the building and she
had returned the key. "Can this be the girl said Jude when she came back,
feeling a slight renewal of elasticity now that he was in the open street;
can this be the girl who brought the pagan deities into this most
Christian city?--who mimicked Miss Fontover when she crushed them with
her heel?--quoted Gibbonand Shelleyand Mill? Where are dear Apollo
and dear Venus now!"

Oh don't, don't be so cruel to me, Jude, and I so unhappy!
she sobbed. "I can't bear it! I was in error--I cannot
reason with you. I was wrong--proud in my own conceit!
Arabella's coming was the finish. Don't satirize me: it cuts
like a knife!"

He flung his arms round her and kissed her passionately
there in the silent streetbefore she could hinder him.
They went on till they came to a little coffee-house. "Jude
she said with suppressed tears, would you mind getting a
lodging here?"

I will--if, if you really wish? But do you? Let me go to our door
and understand you.

He went and conducted her in. She said she wanted no supper
and went in the dark upstairs and struck a light. Turning she found
that Jude had followed herand was standing at the chamber door.
She went to himput her hand in hisand said "Good-night."

But Sue! Don't we live here?

You said you would do as I wished!

Yes. Very well! ... Perhaps it was wrong of me to argue distastefully
as I have done! Perhaps as we couldn't conscientiously marry at first
in the old-fashioned way, we ought to have parted. Perhaps the world
is not illuminated enough for such experiments as ours! Who were we,
to think we could act as pioneers!

I am so glad you see that much, at any rate. I never deliberately
meant to do as I did. I slipped into my false position through jealousy
and agitation!

But surely through love--you loved me?

Yes. But I wanted to let it stop there, and go on always
as mere lovers; until----

But people in love couldn't live for ever like that!

Women could: men can't, because they--won't. An average woman
is in this superior to an average man--that she never instigates,
only responds. We ought to have lived in mental communion,

and no more.

I was the unhappy cause of the change, as I have said before! ... Well,
as you will! ... But human nature can't help being itself.

Oh yes--that's just what it has to learn--self-mastery.

I repeat--if either were to blame it was not you but I.

No--it was I. Your wickedness was only the natural man's desire to possess
the woman. Mine was not the reciprocal wish till envy stimulated me
to oust Arabella. I had thought I ought in charity to let you approach me--
that it was damnably selfish to torture you as I did my other friend.
But I shouldn't have given way if you hadn't broken me down by making me
fear you would go back to her.... But don't let us say any more about it!
Jude, will you leave me to myself now?

Yes.... But Sue--my wife, as you are!he burst out;
my old reproach to you was, after all, a true one.
You have never loved me as I love you--never--never! Yours is
not a passionate heart--your heart does not burn in a flame!
You are, upon the whole, a sort of fay, or sprite--
not a woman!

At first I did not love you, Jude; that I own. When I first knew you
I merely wanted you to love me. I did not exactly flirt with you;
but that inborn craving which undermines some women's morals almost
more than unbridled passion--the craving to attract and captivate,
regardless of the injury it may do the man--was in me; and when I found
I had caught you, I was frightened. And then--I don't know how it was--
I couldn't bear to let you go--possibly to Arabella again--and so I got
to love you, Jude. But you see, however fondly it ended, it began in
the selfish and cruel wish to make your heart ache for me without letting
mine ache for you.

And now you add to your cruelty by leaving me!

Ah--yes! The further I flounder, the more harm I do!

O Sue!said he with a sudden sense of his own danger.
Do not do an immoral thing for moral reasons! You have been
my social salvation. Stay with me for humanity's sake!
You know what a weak fellow I am. My two arch-enemies you know--
my weakness for womankind and my impulse to strong liquor.
Don't abandon me to them, Sue, to save your own soul only!
They have been kept entirely at a distance since you became
my guardian-angel! Since I have had you I have been able
to go into any temptations of the sort, without risk.
Isn't my safety worth a little sacrifice of dogmatic principle?
I am in terror lest, if you leave me, it will be with me another
case of the pig that was washed turning back to his wallowing in
the mire!

Sue burst out weeping. "Ohbut you must notJude! You won't!
I'll pray for you night and day!"

Well--never mind; don't grieve,said Jude generously.
I did suffer, God knows, about you at that time; and now I
suffer again. But perhaps not so much as you. The woman mostly
gets the worst of it in the long run!

She does.

Unless she is absolutely worthless and contemptible.

And this one is not that, anyhow!

Sue drew a nervous breath or two. "She is--I fear! ...
Now Jude--good-night--please!"

I mustn't stay?--Not just once more? As it has been so many times--
O Sue, my wife, why not!

No--no--not wife! ... I am in your hands, Jude--don't tempt
me back now I have advanced so far!

Very well. I do your bidding. I owe that to you, darling,
in penance for how I overruled it at the first time. My God,
how selfish I was! Perhaps--perhaps I spoilt one of the highest
and purest loves that ever existed between man and woman! ...
Then let the veil of our temple be rent in two from this hour!

He went to the bedremoved one of the pair of pillows thereon
and flung it to the floor.

Sue looked at himand bending over the bed-rail wept silently.
You don't see that it is a matter of conscience with me, and not
of dislike to you!she brokenly murmured. "Dislike to you!
But I can't say any more--it breaks my heart--it will be undoing all I
have begun! Jude--good-night!"

Good-night,he saidand turned to go.

Oh but you shall kiss me!said shestarting up. "I can't--bear!"

He clasped herand kissed her weeping face as he had scarcely
ever done beforeand they remained in silence till she said
Good-bye, good-bye!And then gently pressing him away
she got freetrying to mitigate the sadness by saying:
We'll be dear friends just the same, Jude, won't we?
And we'll see each other sometimes--yes!--and forget all this,
and try to be as we were long ago?

Jude did not permit himself to speakbut turned and descended the stairs.

THE man whom Suein her mental VOLTE-FACEwas now regarding
as her inseparable husbandlived still at Marygreen.

On the day before the tragedy of the childrenPhillotson had seen
both her and Jude as they stood in the rain at Christminster
watching the procession to the theatre. But he had said nothing
of it at the moment to his companion Gillinghamwhobeing an
old friendwas staying with him at the village aforesaid
and hadindeedsuggested the day's trip to Christminster.

What are you thinking of?said Gillinghamas they went home.
The university degree you never obtained?

No, no,said Phillotson gruffly. "Of somebody I saw to-day."
In a moment he addedSusanna.

I saw her, too.

You said nothing.

I didn't wish to draw your attention to her. But, as you did see her,
you should have said: 'How d'ye do, my dear-that-was?'

Ah, well. I might have. But what do you think of this: I have
good reason for supposing that she was innocent when I divorced her--
that I was all wrong. Yes, indeed! Awkward, isn't it?

She has taken care to set you right since, anyhow, apparently.

H'm. That's a cheap sneer. I ought to have waited, unquestionably.

At the end of the weekwhen Gillingham had gone back to his school
near ShastonPhillotsonas was his customwent to Alfredston market;
ruminating again on Arabella's intelligence as he walked
down the long hill which he had known before Jude knew it
though his history had not beaten so intensely upon its incline.
Arrived in the town he bought his usual weekly local paper;
and when he had sat down in an inn to refresh himself for the five miles'
walk backhe pulled the paper from his pocket and read awhile.
The account of the "strange suicide of a stone-mason's children"
met his eye.

Unimpassioned as he wasit impressed him painfullyand puzzled
him not a littlefor he could not understand the age of the elder
child being what it was stated to be. Howeverthere was no doubt
that the newspaper report was in some way true.

Their cup of sorrow is now full!he said: and thought and thought of Sue
and what she had gained by leaving him.

Arabella having made her home at Alfredstonand the schoolmaster coming
to market there every Saturdayit was not wonderful that in a few weeks they
met again--the precise time being just alter her return from Christminster
where she had stayed much longer than she had at first intended
keeping an interested eye on Judethough Jude had seen no more of her.
Phillotson was on his way homeward when he encountered Arabellaand she was
approaching the town.

You like walking out this way, Mrs. Cartlett?he said.

I've just begun to again,she replied. "It is where I lived
as maid and wifeand all the past things of my life that are
interesting to my feelings are mixed up with this road.
And they have been stirred up in me toolately; for I've been
visiting at Christminster. Yes; I've seen Jude."

Ah! How do they bear their terrible affliction?

In a ve-ry strange way--ve-ry strange! She don't live with him any longer.
I only heard of it as a certainty just before I left; though I had thought
things were drifting that way from their manner when I called on them.

Not live with her husband? Why, I should have thought 'twould have united
them more.

He's not her husband, after all. She has never really married
him although they have passed as man and wife so long.
And now, instead of this sad event making 'em hurry up, and get
the thing done legally, she's took in a queer religious way,
just as I was in my affliction at losing Cartlett, only hers is
of a more 'sterical sort than mine. And she says, so I was told,
that she's your wife in the eye of Heaven and the Church--
yours only; and can't be anybody else's by any act of man.

Ah--indeed? ... Separated, have they!

You see, the eldest boy was mine--


Yes, poor little fellow--born in lawful wedlock, thank God.
And perhaps she feels, over and above other things, that I ought
to have been in her place. I can't say. However, as for me,
I am soon off from here. I've got Father to look after now,
and we can't live in such a hum-drum place as this.
I hope soon to be in a bar again at Christminster, or some other
big town.

They parted. When Phillotson had ascended the hill a few steps he stopped
hastened backand called her.

What is, or was, their address?

Arabella gave it.

Thank you. Good afternoon.

Arabella smiled grimly as she resumed her wayand practised dimple-making
all along the road from where the pollard willows begin to the old almshouses
in the first street of the town.

Meanwhile Phillotson ascended to Marygreenand for the first
time during a lengthened period he lived with a forward eye.
On crossing under the large trees of the green to the humble
schoolhouse to which he had been reduced he stood a moment
and pictured Sue coming out of the door to meet him.
No man had ever suffered more inconvenience from his own charity
Christian or heathenthan Phillotson had done in letting Sue go.
He had been knocked about from pillar to post at the hands of
the virtuous almost beyond endurance; he had been nearly starved
and was now dependent entirely upon the very small stipened
from the school of this village (where the parson had got
ill-spoken of for befriending him ). He had often thought of
Arabella's remarks that he should have been more severe with Sue
that her recalcitrant spirit would soon have been broken.
Yet such was his obstinate and illogical disregard of opinion
and of the principles in which he had been trainedthat his
convictions on the rightness of his course with his wife had not
been disturbed.

Principles which could be subverted by feeling in one direction
were liable to the same catastrophe in another. The instincts
which had allowed him to give Sue her liberty now enabled
him to regard her as none the worse for her life with Jude.
He wished for her stillin his curious wayif he did not
love herandapart from policysoon felt that he would be
gratified to have her again as hisalways provided that she
came willingly.

But artifice was necessaryhe had foundfor stemming the cold and inhumane
blast of the world's contempt. And here were the materials ready made.
By getting Sue back and remarrying her on the respectable plea of having
entertained erroneous views of herand gained his divorce wrongfully
he might acquire some comfortresume his old coursesperhaps return to the
Shaston schoolif not even to the Church as a licentiate.

He thought he would write to Gillingham to inquire his views

and what he thought of hisPhillotson'ssending a letter to her.
Gillingham repliednaturallythat now she was gone it were best
to let her beand considered that if she were anybody's wife
she was the wife of the man to whom she had borne three children
and owed such tragical adventures. Probablyas his attachment
to her seemed unusually strongthe singular pair would make their
union legal in course of timeand all would be welland decent
and in order.

But they won't--Sue won't!exclaimed Phillotson to himself.
Gillingham is so matter of fact. She's affected by Christminster
sentiment and teaching. I can see her views on the indissolubility of
marriage well enough, and I know where she got them. They are not mine;
but I shall make use of them to further mine.

He wrote a brief reply to Gillingham. "I know I am entirely wrongbut I
don't agree with you. As to her having lived with and had three children
by himmy feeling is (though I can advance no logical or moral defence of it
on the old lines) that it has done little more than finish her education.
I shall write to herand learn whether what that woman said is true
or no."

As he had made up his mind to do this before he had written to his friend
there had not been much reason for writing to the latter at all.
Howeverit was Phillotson's way to act thus.

He accordingly addressed a carefully considered epistle to Sueand
knowing her emotional temperamentthrew a Rhadamanthine strictness
into the lines here and therecarefully hiding his heterodox feelings
not to frighten her. He stated thatit having come to his knowledge
that her views had considerably changedhe felt compelled to say that
his owntoowere largely modified by events subsequent to their parting.
He would not conceal from her that passionate love had little to do
with his communication. It arose from a wish to make their lives
if not a successat least no such disastrous failure as they threatened
to becomethrough his acting on what he had considered at the time
a principle of justicecharityand reason.

To indulge one's instinctive and uncontrolled sense of justice and right
was nothe had foundpermitted with impunity in an old civilization
like ours. It was necessary to act under an acquired and cultivated sense
of the sameif you wished to enjoy an average share of comfort and honour;
and to let crude loving kindness take care of itself.

He suggested that she should come to him there at Marygreen.

On second thoughts he took out the last paragraph but one;
and having rewritten the letter he dispatched it immediately
and in some excitement awaited the issue.

A few days after a figure moved through the white fog which enveloped
the Beersheba suburb of Christminstertowards the quarter in which
Jude Fawley had taken up his lodging since his division from Sue.
A timid knock sounded upon the door of his abode.

It was evening--so he was at home; and by a species of divination
he jumped up and rushed to the door himself.

Will you come out with me? I would rather not come in.
I want to--to talk with you--and to go with you to the cemetery.

It had been in the trembling accents of Sue that these words came.
Jude put on his hat. "It is dreary for you to be out he said.

But if you prefer not to come inI don't mind."

Yes--I do. I shall not keep you long.

Jude was too much affected to go on talking at first; shetoowas now such
a mere cluster of nerves that all initiatory power seemed to have left her
and they proceeded through the fog like Acherontic shades for a long while
without sound or gesture.

I want to tell you,she presently saidher voice now quick
now slowso that you may not hear of it by chance.
I am going back to Richard. He has--so magnanimously--
agreed to forgive all.

Going back? How can you go----

He is going to marry me again. That is for form's sake,
and to satisfy the world, which does not see things as they are.
But of course I AM his wife already. Nothing has changed that.

He turned upon her with an anguish that was well-nigh fierce.

But you are my wife! Yes, you are. You know it.
I have always regretted that feint of ours in going away and
pretending to come back legally married, to save appearances.
I loved you, and you loved me; and we closed with each other;
and that made the marriage. We still love--you as well as I--
KNOW it, Sue! Therefore our marriage is not cancelled.

Yes; I know how you see it,she answered with despairing self-suppression.
But I am going to marry him again, as it would be called by you.
Strictly speaking you, too--don't mind my saying it, Jude!--you should
take back--Arabella.

I should? Good God--what next! But how if you and I had married legally,
as we were on the point of doing?

I should have felt just the same--that ours was not a marriage.
And I would go back to Richard without repeating the sacrament,
if he asked me. But 'the world and its ways have a certain worth'
(I suppose): therefore I concede a repetition of the ceremony.... Don't
crush all the life out of me by satire and argument, I implore you!
I was strongest once, I know, and perhaps I treated you cruelly.
But Jude, return good for evil! I am the weaker now. Don't retaliate
upon me, but be kind. Oh be kind to me--a poor wicked woman who is trying
to mend!

He shook his head hopelesslyhis eyes wet. The blow of her
bereavement seemed to have destroyed her reasoning faculty.
The once keen vision was dimmed. "All wrongall wrong!"
he said huskily. "Error--perversity! It drives me out
of my senses. Do you care for him? Do you love him?
You know you don't! It will be a fanatic prostitution--
God forgive meyes--that's what it will be!"

I don't love him--I must, must, own it, in deepest remorse!
But I shall try to learn to love him by obeying him.

Jude arguedurgedimplored; but her conviction was proof against all.
It seemed to be the one thing on earth on which she was firmand that her
firmness in this had left her tottering in every other impulse and wish
she possessed.

I have been considerate enough to let you know the whole truth,

and to tell it you myself,she said in cut tones; "that you might
not consider yourself slighted by hearing of it at second hand.
I have even owned the extreme fact that I do not love him.
I did not think you would be so rough with me for doing so! I was
going to ask you ..."

To give you away?

No. To send--my boxes to me--if you would. But I suppose you won't.

Why, of course I will. What--isn't he coming to fetch you--
to marry you from here? He won't condescend to do that?

No--I won't let him. I go to him voluntarily, just as I went away from him.
We are to be married at his little church at Marygreen.

She was so sadly sweet in what he called her wrong-headedness that Jude
could not help being moved to tears more than once for pity of her.
I never knew such a woman for doing impulsive penances, as you, Sue!
No sooner does one expect you to go straight on, as the one rational
proceeding, than you double round the corner!

Ah, well; let that go! ... Jude, I must say good-bye! But I wanted
you to go to the cemetery with me. Let our farewell be there--
beside the graves of those who died to bring home to me the error
of my views.

They turned in the direction of the placeand the gate was
opened to them on application. Sue had been there often
and she knew the way to the spot in the dark. They reached it
and stood still.

It is here--I should like to part,said she.

So be it!

Don't think me hard because I have acted on conviction.
Your generous devotion to me is unparalleled, Jude!
Your worldly failure, if you have failed, is to your credit
rather than to your blame. Remember that the best and greatest
among mankind are those who do themselves no worldly good.
Every successful man is more or less a selfish man. The devoted
fail.... 'Charity seeketh not her own.'

In that chapter we are at one, ever beloved darling, and on it we'll
part friends. Its verses will stand fast when all the rest that you
call religion has passed away!

Well--don't discuss it. Good-bye, Jude; my fellow-sinner,
and kindest friend!

Good-bye, my mistaken wife. Good-bye!

THE next afternoon the familiar Christminster fog still hung over all things.
Sue's slim shape was only just discernible going towards the station.

Jude had no heart to go to his work that day. Neither could he go
anywhere in the direction by which she would be likely to pass.
He went in an opposite oneto a drearystrangeflat scene

where boughs drippedand coughs and consumption lurkedand where he had
never been before.

Sue's gone from me--gone!he murmured miserably.

She in the meantime had left by the trainand reached Alfredston Road
where she entered the steam-tram and was conveyed into the town.
It had been her request to Phillotson that he should not meet her.
She wishedshe saidto come to him voluntarilyto his very house
and hearthstone.

It was Friday eveningwhich had been chosen because the schoolmaster was
disengaged at four o'clock that day till the Monday morning following.
The little car she hired at the Bear to drive her to Marygreen set her down at
the end of the lanehalf a mile from the villageby her desireand preceded
her to the schoolhouse with such portion of her luggage as she had brought.
On its return she encountered itand asked the driver if he had found the
master's house open. The man informed her that he hadand that her things
had been taken in by the schoolmaster himself.

She could now enter Marygreen without exciting much observation.
She crossed by the well and under the trees to the pretty new school on
the other sideand lifted the latch of the dwelling without knocking.
Phillotson stood in the middle of the roomawaiting heras requested.

I've come, Richard,said shelooking pale and shakenand sinking
into a chair. "I cannot believe--you forgive your--wife!"

Everything, darling Susanna,said Phillotson.

She started at the endearmentthough it had been spoken advisedly
without fervour. Then she nerved herself again.

My children--are dead--and it is right that they should be!
I am glad--almost. They were sin-begotten. They were sacrificed
to teach me how to live! Their death was the first stage of
my purification. That's why they have not died in vain! ... You
will take me back?

He was so stirred by her pitiful words and tone that he did
more than he had meant to do. He bent and kissed her cheek.

Sue imperceptibly shrank awayher flesh quivering under the touch
of his lips.

Phillotson's heart sankfor desire was renascent in him.
You still have an aversion to me!

Oh no, dear--I have been driving through the damp, and I
was chilly!she saidwith a hurried smile of apprehension.
When are we going to have the marriage? Soon?

To-morrow morning, early, I thought--if you really wish.
I am sending round to the vicar to let him know you are come.
I have told him all, and he highly approves--he says it will bring
our lives to a triumphant and satisfactory issue. But--are you
sure of yourself? It is not too late to refuse now if--
you think you can't bring yourself to it, you know?

Yes, yes, I can! I want it done quick. Tell him, tell him at once!
My strength is tried by the undertaking--I can't wait long!

Have something to eat and drink then, and go over to your room
at Mrs. Edlin's. I'll tell the vicar half-past eight to-morrow,

before anybody is about--if that's not too soon for you?
My friend Gillingham is here to help us in the ceremony.
He's been good enough to come all the way from Shaston at great
inconvenience to himself.

Unlike a woman in ordinarywhose eye is so keen for material things
Sue seemed to see nothing of the room they were inor any detail
of her environment. But on moving across the parlour to put down
her muff she uttered a little "Oh!" and grew paler than before.
Her look was that of the condemned criminal who catches sight of
his coffin.

What?said Phillotson.

The flap of the bureau chanced to be openand in placing her
muff upon it her eye had caught a document which lay there.
Oh--only a--funny surprise!she saidtrying to laugh away her
cry as she came back to the table.

Ah! Yes,said Phillotson. "The licence.... It has just come."

Gillingham now joined them from his room aboveand Sue nervously made
herself agreeable to him by talking on whatever she thought likely
to interest himexcept herselfthough that interested him most of all.
She obediently ate some supperand prepared to leave for her lodging
hard by. Phillotson crossed the green with herbidding her good-night at
Mrs. Edlin's door.

The old woman accompanied Sue to her temporary quarters
and helped her to unpack. Among other things she laid out
a night-gown tastefully embroidered.

Oh--I didn't know THAT was put in!said Sue quickly.
I didn't mean it to be. Here is a different one.
She handed a new and absolutely plain garmentof coarse and
unbleached calico.

But this is the prettiest,said Mrs. Edlin. "That one is no better
than very sackcloth o' Scripture!"

Yes--I meant it to be. Give me the other.

She took itand began rending it with all her mightthe tears resounding
through the house like a screech-owl.

But my dear, dear!--whatever ...

It is adulterous! It signifies what I don't feel--I bought it long ago--
to please Jude. It must be destroyed!

Mrs. Edlin lifted her handsand Sue excitedly continued to tear
the linen into stripslaying the pieces in the fire.

You med ha' give it to me!said the widow. "It do make my heart
ache to see such pretty open-work as that a-burned by the flames--
not that ornamental night-rails can be much use to a' ould 'ooman
like I. My days for such be all past and gone!"

It is an accursed thing--it reminds me of what I want to forget!
Sue repeated. "It is only fit for the fire."

Lord, you be too strict! What do ye use such words for,
and condemn to hell your dear little innocent children that's
lost to 'ee! Upon my life I don't call that religion!

Sue flung her face upon the bedsobbing. "Ohdon'tdon't! That kills me!"
She remained shaken with her griefand slipped down upon her knees.

I'll tell 'ee what--you ought not to marry this man again!
said Mrs. Edlin indignantly. "You are in love wi' t' other still!"

Yes I must--I am his already!

Pshoo! You be t' other man's. If you didn't like to commit
yourselves to the binding vow again, just at first, 'twas all
the more credit to your consciences, considering your reasons,
and you med ha' lived on, and made it all right at last.
After all, it concerned nobody but your own two selves.

Richard says he'll have me back, and I'm bound to go!
If he had refused, it might not have been so much my duty to--
give up Jude. But--She remained with her face in the bed-clothes
and Mrs. Edlin left the room.

Phillotson in the interval had gone back to his friend Gillingham
who still sat over the supper-table. They soon roseand walked out
on the green to smoke awhile. A light was burning in Sue's room
a shadow moving now and then across the blind.

Gillingham had evidently been impressed with the indefinable charm of Sue
and after a silence he saidWell: you've all but got her again at last.
She can't very well go a second time. The pear has dropped into your hand.

Yes! ... I suppose I am right in taking her at her word.
I confess there seems a touch of selfishness in it. Apart from
her being what she is, of course, a luxury for a fogy like me,
it will set me right in the eyes of the clergy and orthodox laity,
who have never forgiven me for letting her go. So I may get back
in some degree into my old track.

Well--if you've got any sound reason for marrying her again,
do it now in God's name! I was always against your opening
the cage-door and letting the bird go in such an obviously
suicidal way. You might have been a school inspector by this time,
or a reverend, if you hadn't been so weak about her.

I did myself irreparable damage--I know it.

Once you've got her housed again, stick to her.

Phillotson was more evasive to-night. He did not care to admit
clearly that his taking Sue to him again had at bottom nothing
to do with repentance of letting her gobut wasprimarily
a human instinct flying in the face of custom and profession.
He saidYes--I shall do that. I know woman better now.
Whatever justice there was in releasing her, there was little logic,
for one holding my views on other subjects.

Gillingham looked at himand wondered whether it would ever happen
that the reactionary spirit induced by the world's sneers and his
own physical wishes would make Phillotson more orthodoxly cruel
to her than he had erstwhile been informally and perversely kind.

I perceive it won't do to give way to impulse,Phillotson resumed
feeling more and more every minute the necessity of acting up
to his position. "I flew in the face of the Church's teaching;
but I did it without malice prepense. Women are so strange in their
influence that they tempt you to misplaced kindness. HoweverI know

myself better now. A little judicious severityperhaps...."

Yes; but you must tighten the reins by degrees only.
Don't be too strenuous at first. She'll come to any terms
in time.

The caution was unnecessarythough Phillotson did not say so.
I remember what my vicar at Shaston said, when I left after
the row that was made about my agreeing to her elopement.
'The only thing you can do to retrieve your position and hers is to
admit your error in not restraining her with a wise and strong hand,
and to get her back again if she'll come, and be firm in the future.'
But I was so headstrong at that time that I paid no heed.
And that after the divorce she should have thought of doing so I did
not dream.

The gate of Mrs. Edlin's cottage clickedand somebody began crossing
in the direction of the school. Phillotson said "Good-night."

Oh, is that Mr. Phillotson,said Mrs. Edlin. "I was going over to see 'ee.
I've been upstairs with herhelping her to unpack her things; and upon
my wordsirI don't think this ought to be!"

What--the wedding?

Yes. She's forcing herself to it, poor dear little thing;
and you've no notion what she's suffering. I was never much
for religion nor against it, but it can't be right to let
her do this, and you ought to persuade her out of it.
Of course everybody will say it was very good and forgiving of 'ee
to take her to 'ee again. But for my part I don't.

It's her wish, and I am willing,said Phillotson with grave reserve
opposition making him illogically tenacious now. "A great piece of laxity
will be rectified."

I don't believe it. She's his wife if anybody's. She's had
three children by him, and he loves her dearly; and it's a wicked
shame to egg her on to this, poor little quivering thing!
She's got nobody on her side. The one man who'd be her
friend the obstinate creature won't allow to come near her.
What first put her into this mood o' mind, I wonder!

I can't tell. Not I certainly. It is all voluntary on her part.
Now that's all I have to say.Phillotson spoke stiffly.
You've turned round, Mrs. Edlin. It is unseemly of you!

Well. I knowed you'd be affronted at what I had to say;
but I don't mind that. The truth's the truth.

I'm not affronted, Mrs. Edlin. You've been too kind a neighbour for that.
But I must be allowed to know what's best for myself and Susanna. I suppose
you won't go to church with us, then?

No. Be hanged if I can.... I don't know what the times be coming to!
Matrimony have growed to be that serious in these days that one really
do feel afeard to move in it at all. In my time we took it more careless;
and I don't know that we was any the worse for it! When I and my poor
man were jined in it we kept up the junketing all the week, and drunk
the parish dry, and had to borrow half a crown to begin housekeeping!

When Mrs. Edlin had gone back to her cottage Phillotson spoke moodily.
I don't know whether I ought to do it--at any rate quite so rapidly.


If she is really compelling herself to this against her instincts-merely
from this new sense of duty or religion--I ought perhaps to let her
wait a bit.

Now you've got so far you ought not to back out of it.
That's my opinion.

I can't very well put it off now; that's true. But I had a qualm when she
gave that little cry at sight of the licence.

Now, never you have qualms, old boy. I mean to give her away
to-morrow morning, and you mean to take her. It has always been
on my conscience that I didn't urge more objections to your letting
her go, and now we've got to this stage I shan't be content if I
don't help you to set the matter right.

Phillotson noddedand seeing how staunch his friend wasbecame more frank.
No doubt when it gets known what I've done I shall be thought a soft fool
by many. But they don't know Sue as I do. Though so elusive, hers is such an
honest nature at bottom that I don't think she has ever done anything against
her conscience. The fact of her having lived with Fawley goes for nothing.
At the time she left me for him she thought she was quite within her right.
Now she thinks otherwise.

The next morning cameand the self-sacrifice of the woman
on the altar of what she was pleased to call her principles was
acquiesced in by these two friendseach from his own point of view.
Phillotson went across to the Widow Edlin's to fetch Sue a few
minutes after eight o'clock. The fog of the previous day or two
on the low-lands had travelled up here by nowand the trees on
the green caught armfulsand turned them into showers of big drops.
The bride was waitingready; bonnet and all on. She had never in
her life looked so much like the lily her name connoted as she did
in that pallid morning light. Chastenedworld-wearyremorseful
the strain on her nerves had preyed upon her flesh and bones
and she appeared smaller in outline than she had formerly done
though Sue had not been a large woman in her days of rudest health.

Prompt,said the schoolmastermagnanimously taking her hand.
But he checked his impulse to kiss herremembering her start
of yesterdaywhich unpleasantly lingered in his mind.

Gillingham joined themand they left the houseWidow Edlin
continuing steadfast in her refusal to assist in the ceremony.

Where is the church?said Sue. She had not lived there
for any length of time since the old church was pulled down
and in her preoccupation forgot the new one.

Up here,said Phillotson; and presently the tower loomed
large and solemn in the fog. The vicar had already crossed
to the buildingand when they entered he said pleasantly:
We almost want candles.

You do--wish me to be yours, Richard?gasped Sue in a whisper.

Certainly, dear: above all things in the world.

Sue said no more; and for the second or third time he felt he was not quite
following out the humane instinct which had induced him to let her go.

There they stoodfive altogether: the parsonthe clerkthe couple

and Gillingham; and the holy ordinance was resolemnized forthwith.
In the nave of the edifice were two or three villagersand when
the clergyman came to the wordsWhat God hath joined,a woman's
voice from among these was heard to utter audibly:

God hath jined indeed!

It was like a re-enactment by the ghosts of their former selves of
the similar scene which had taken place at Melchester years before.
When the books were signed the vicar congratulated the husband
and wife on having performed a nobleand righteousand mutually
forgiving act. "All's well that ends well he said smiling.
May you long be happy togetherafter thus having been 'saved as
by fire.'"

They came down the nearly empty buildingand crossed to the schoolhouse.
Gillingham wanted to get home that nightand left early. Hetoo
congratulated the couple. "Now he said in parting from Phillotson,
who walked out a little way, I shall be able to tell the people in
your native place a good round tale; and they'll all say 'Well done'
depend on it."

When the schoolmaster got back Sue was making a pretence of doing some
housewifery as if she lived there. But she seemed timid at his approach
and compunction wrought on him at sight of it.

Of course, my dear, I shan't expect to intrude upon your personal privacy
any more than I did before,he said gravely. "It is for our good socially
to do thisand that's its justificationif it was not my reason."
Sue brightened a little.

THE place was the door of Jude's lodging in the out-skirts
of Christminster--far from the precincts of St. Silas'
where he had formerly livedwhich saddened him to sickness.
The rain was coming down. A woman in shabby black stood on
the doorstep talking to Judewho held the door in his hand.

I am lonely, destitute, and houseless--that's what I am!
Father has turned me out of doors after borrowing every penny
I'd got, to put it into his business, and then accusing
me of laziness when I was only waiting for a situation.
I am at the mercy of the world! If you can't take me and
help me, Jude, I must go to the workhouse, or to something worse.
Only just now two undergraduates winked at me as I came along.
'Tis hard for a woman to keep virtuous where there's so many
young men!

The woman in the rain who spoke thus was Arabellathe evening being
that of the day after Sue's remarriage with Phillotson.

I am sorry for you, but I am only in lodgings,said Jude coldly.

Then you turn me away?

I'll give you enough to get food and lodging for a few days.

Oh, but can't you have the kindness to take me in?
I cannot endure going to a public house to lodge; and I am
so lonely. Please, Jude, for old times' sake!

No, no,said Jude hastily. "I don't want to be reminded of those things;
and if you talk about them I shall not help you."

Then I suppose I must go!said Arabella. She bent her head
against the doorpost and began sobbing.

The house is full,said Jude. "And I have only a little extra
room to my own--not much more than a closet--where I keep my tools
and templatesand the few books I have left!"

That would be a palace for me!

There is no bedstead in it.

A bit of a bed could be made on the floor. It would be good enough for me.

Unable to be harsh with herand not knowing what to do
Jude called the man who let the lodgingsand said this was an
acquaintance of his in great distress for want of temporary shelter.

You may remember me as barmaid at the Lamb and Flag formerly?
spoke up Arabella. "My father has insulted me this afternoon
and I've left himthough without a penny!"

The householder said he could not recall her features.
But still, if you are a friend of Mr. Fawley's we'll do what we
can for a day or two--if he'll make himself answerable?

Yes, yes,said Jude. "She has really taken me quite unawares;
but I should wish to help her out of her difficulty."
And an arrangement was ultimately come to under which a bed was
to be thrown down in Jude's lumber-roomto make it comfortable
for Arabella till she could get out of the strait she was in--
not by her own faultas she declared--and return to her
father's again.

While they were waiting for this to be done Arabella said:
You know the news, I suppose?

I guess what you mean; but I know nothing.

I had a letter from Anny at Alfredston to-day. She had just heard
that the wedding was to be yesterday: but she didn't know if it
had come off.

I don't wish to talk of it.

No, no: of course you don't. Only it shows what kind of woman----

Don't speak of her I say! She's a fool! And she's an angel,
too, poor dear!

If it's done, he'll have a chance of getting back to his old position,
by everybody's account, so Anny says. All his well-wishers will be pleased,
including the bishop himself.

Do spare me, Arabella.

Arabella was duly installed in the little atticand at first she did not
come near Jude at all. She went to and fro about her own businesswhich
when they met for a moment on the stairs or in the passageshe informed him
was that of obtaining another place in the occupation she understood best.
When Jude suggested London as affording the most likely opening in the liquor

tradeshe shook her head. "No--the temptations are too many she said.
Any humble tavern in the country before that for me."

On the Sunday morning followingwhen he breakfasted later than on other days
she meekly asked him if she might come in to breakfast with himas she had
broken her teapotand could not replace it immediatelythe shops being shut.

Yes, if you like,he said indifferently.

While they sat without speaking she suddenly observed:
You seem all in a brood, old man. I'm sorry for you.

I am all in a brood.

It is about her, I know. It's no business of mine, but I could
find out all about the wedding--if it really did take place--
if you wanted to know.

How could you?

I wanted to go to Alfredston to get a few things I left there.
And I could see Anny, who'll be sure to have heard all about it,
as she has friends at Marygreen.

Jude could not bear to acquiesce in this proposal; but his suspense
pitted itself against his discretionand won in the struggle.
You can ask about it if you like,he said. "I've not heard a sound
from there. It must have been very privateif--they have married."

I am afraid I haven't enough cash to take me there and back,
or I should have gone before. I must wait till I have earned some.

Oh--I can pay the journey for you,he said impatiently.
And thus his suspense as to Sue's welfareand the possible marriage
moved him to dispatch for intelligence the last emissary he would have
thought of choosing deliberately.

Arabella wentJude requesting her to be home not later
than by the seven o'clock train. When she had gone he said:
Why should I have charged her to be back by a particular time!
She's nothing to me--nor the other neither!

But having finished work he could not help going to
the station to meet Arabelladragged thither by feverish
haste to get the news she might bringand know the worst.
Arabella had made dimples most successfully all the way home
and when she stepped out of the railway carriage she smiled.
He merely said "Well?" with the very reverse of a smile.

They are married.

Yes--of course they are!he returned. She observedhoweverthe hard
strain upon his lip as he spoke.

Anny says she has heard from Belinda, her relation out at Marygreen,
that it was very sad, and curious!

How do you mean sad? She wanted to marry him again, didn't she?
And he her!

Yes--that was it. She wanted to in one sense, but not in the other.
Mrs. Edlin was much upset by it all, and spoke out her mind at Phillotson.
But Sue was that excited about it that she burnt her best embroidery
that she'd worn with you, to blot you out entirely. Well--if a woman feels

like it, she ought to do it. I commend her for it, though others don't.
Arabella sighed. "She felt he was her only husbandand that she
belonged to nobody else in the sight of God A'mighty while he lived.
Perhaps another woman feels the same about herselftoo!"
Arabella sighed again.

I don't want any cant!exclaimed Jude.

It isn't cant,said Arabella. "I feel exactly the same as she!"

He closed that issue by remarking abruptly: "Well--now I know
all I wanted to know. Many thanks for your information.
I am not going back to my lodgings just yet." And he left
her straightway.

In his misery and depression Jude walked to well-nigh every spot in
the city that he had visited with Sue; thence he did not know whither
and then thought of going home to his usual evening meal.
But having all the vices of his virtuesand some to spare
he turned into a public housefor the first time during many months.
Among the possible consequences of her marriage Sue had not dwelt
on this.

Arabellameanwhilehad gone back. The evening passedand Jude
did not return. At half-past nine Arabella herself went out
first proceeding to an outlying district near the river where her
father livedand had opened a small and precarious pork-shop lately.

Well,she said to himfor all your rowing me that night,
I've called in, for I have something to tell you. I think I
shall get married and settled again. Only you must help me:
and you can do no less, after what I've stood 'ee.

I'll do anything to get thee off my hands!

Very well. I am now going to look for my young man.
He's on the loose I'm afraid, and I must get him home.
All I want you to do to-night is not to fasten the door, in case I
should want to sleep here, and should be late.

I thought you'd soon get tired of giving yourself airs and keeping away!

Well--don't do the door. That's all I say.

She then sallied out againand first hastening back to Jude's
to make sure that he had not returnedbegan her search for him.
A shrewd guess as to his probable course took her straight
to the tavern which Jude had formerly frequentedand where she
had been barmaid for a brief term. She had no sooner opened
the door of the "Private Bar" than her eyes fell upon him--
sitting in the shade at the back of the compartment
with his eyes fixed on the floor in a blank stare.
He was drinking nothing stronger than ale just then.
He did not observe herand she entered and sat beside him.

Jude looked upand said without surprise: "You've come to have something
Arabella? ... I'm trying to forget her: that's all! But I can't;
and I am going home." She saw that he was a little way on in liquor
but only a little as yet.

I've come entirely to look for you, dear boy. You are not well.
Now you must have something better than that.Arabella held
up her finger to the barmaid. "You shall have a liqueur--
that's better fit for a man of education than beer. You shall

have maraschinoor curacao dry or sweetor cherry brandy.
I'll treat youpoor chap!"

I don't care which! Say cherry brandy.... Sue has served me badly,
very badly. I didn't expect it of Sue! I stuck to her, and she
ought to have stuck to me. I'd have sold my soul for her sake,
but she wouldn't risk hers a jot for me. To save her own soul she
lets mine go damn! ... But it isn't her fault, poor little girl--
I am sure it isn't!

How Arabella had obtained money did not appearbut she ordered
a liqueur eachand paid for them. When they had drunk these
Arabella suggested another; and Jude had the pleasure of being
as it werepersonally conducted through the varieties of
spirituous delectation by one who knew the landmarks well.
Arabella kept very considerably in the rear of Jude; but though
she only sipped where he drankshe took as much as she could
safely take without losing her head--which was not a little
as the crimson upon her countenance showed.

Her tone towards him to-night was uniformly soothing and cajoling;
and whenever he said "I don't care what happens to me
a thing he did continually, she replied, But I do very much!"
The closing hour cameand they were compelled to turn out;
whereupon Arabella put her arm round his waistand guided his
unsteady footsteps.

When they were in the streets she said: "I don't know what
our landlord will say to my bringing you home in this state.
I expect we are fastened outso that he'll have to come down
and let us in."

I don't know--I don't know.

That's the worst of not having a home of your own.
I tell you, Jude, what we had best do. Come round to my father's--
I made it up with him a bit to-day. I can let you in,
and nobody will see you at all; and by to-morrow morning you'll
be all right.

Anything--anywhere,replied Jude. "What the devil does it matter to me?"

They went along togetherlike any other fuddling couple
her arm still round his waistand hisat lastround hers;
though with no amatory intent; but merely because he was weary
unstableand in need of support.

This--is th' Martyrs'--burning-place,he stammered as they dragged
across a broad street. "I remember--in old Fuller's HOLY STATE--
and I am reminded of it--by our passing by here--old Fuller in his
HOLY STATE saysthat at the burning of RidleyDoctor Smith--
preached sermonand took as his text 'THOUGH I GIVE MY BODY
Often think of it as I pass here. Ridley was a----"

Yes. Exactly. Very thoughtful of you, deary, even though it hasn't
much to do with our present business.

Why, yes it has! I'm giving my body to be burned! But--ah you
don't understand!--it wants Sue to understand such things!
And I was her seducer--poor little girl! And she's gone--
and I don't care about myself! Do what you like with me! ...
And yet she did it for conscience' sake, poor little Sue!

Hang her!--I mean, I think she was right,hiccuped Arabella.
I've my feelings too, like her; and I feel I belong to you
in Heaven's eye, and to nobody else, till death us do part!
It is--hic--never too late--hic to mend!

They had reached her father's houseand she softly unfastened the door
groping about for a light within.

The circumstances were not altogether unlike those of their
entry into the cottage at Cresscombesuch a long time before.
Nor were perhaps Arabella's motives. But Jude did not think of that
though she did.

I can't find the matches, dear,she said when she had fastened up the door.
But never mind--this way. As quiet as you can, please.

It is as dark as pitch,said Jude.

Give me your hand, and I'll lead you. That's it. Just sit down here,
and I'll pull off your boots. I don't want to wake him.


Father. He'd make a row, perhaps.

She pulled off his boots. "Now she whispered, take hold of me--
never mind your weight. Now--first stairsecond stair"

But,--are we out in our old house by Marygreen?asked the stupefied Jude.
I haven't been inside it for years till now! Hey? And where are my books?
That's what I want to know?

We are at my house, dear, where there's nobody to spy out
how ill you are. Now--third stair, fourth stair--that's it.
Now we shall get on.

ARABELLA was preparing breakfast in the downstairs back room of this small
recently hired tenement of her father's. She put her head into the little
pork-shop in frontand told Mr. Donn it was ready. Donnendeavouring to
look like a master pork-butcherin a greasy blue blouseand with a strap
round his waist from which a steel dangledcame in promptly.

You must mind the shop this morning,he said casually.
I've to go and get some inwards and half a pig from Lumsdon,
and to call elsewhere. If you live here you must put your shoulder
to the wheel, at least till I get the business started!

Well, for to-day I can't say.She looked deedily into his face.
I've got a prize upstairs.

Oh? What's that?

A husband--almost.


Yes. It's Jude. He's come back to me.

Your old original one? Well, I'm damned!

Well, I always did like him, that I will say.

But how does he come to be up there?said Donnhumour-struckand nodding
to the ceiling.

Don't ask inconvenient questions, Father. What we've to do is to keep him
here till he and I are--as we were.

How was that?


Ah.... Well it is the rummest thing I ever heard of--
marrying an old husband again, and so much new blood in the world!
He's no catch, to my thinking. I'd have had a new one while I
was about it.

It isn't rum for a woman to want her old husband back for respectability,
though for a man to want his old wife back--well, perhaps it is funny,
rather!And Arabella was suddenly seized with a fit of loud laughter
in which her father joined more moderately.

Be civil to him, and I'll do the rest,she said when she had
recovered seriousness. "He told me this morning that his head
ached fit to burstand he hardly seemed to know where he was.
And no wonderconsidering how he mixed his drink last night.
We must keep him jolly and cheerful here for a day or two
and not let him go back to his lodging. Whatever you advance I'll
pay back to you again. But I must go up and see how he is now
poor deary."

Arabella ascended the stairssoftly opened the door of the
first bedroomand peeped in. Finding that her shorn Samson
was asleep she entered to the bedside and stood regarding him.
The fevered flush on his face from the debauch of the previous
evening lessened the fragility of his ordinary appearance
and his long lashesdark browsand curly back hair and beard
against the white pillow completed the physiognomy of one
whom Arabellaas a woman of rank passionsstill felt it worth
while to recapturehighly important to recapture as a woman
straitened both in means and in reputation. Her ardent gaze
seemed to affect him; his quick breathing became suspended
and he opened his eyes.

How are you now, dear?said she. "It is I--Arabella."

Ah!--where--oh yes, I remember! You gave me shelter.... I
am stranded--ill--demoralized--damn bad! That's what I am!

Then do stay here. There's nobody in the house but father and me,
and you can rest till you are thoroughly well. I'll tell them at
the stoneworks that you are knocked up.

I wonder what they are thinking at the lodgings!

I'll go round and explain. Perhaps you had better let me pay up,
or they'll think we've run away?

Yes. You'll find enough money in my pocket there.

Quite indifferentand shutting his eyes because he could not bear
the daylight in his throbbing eye-ballsJude seemed to doze again.
Arabella took his pursesoftly left the roomand putting on her

outdoor things went off to the lodgings she and he had quitted
the evening before.

Scarcely half an hour had elapsed ere she reappeared round the corner
walking beside a lad wheeling a truck on which were piled all Jude's
household possessionsand also the few of Arabella's things
which she had taken to the lodging for her short sojourn there.
Jude was in such physical pain from his unfortunate break-down
of the previous nightand in such mental pain from the loss of Sue
and from having yielded in his half-somnolent state to Arabella
that when he saw his few chattels unpacked and standing before his
eyes in this strange bedroomintermixed with woman's apparel
he scarcely considered how they had come thereor what their
coming signalized.

Now,said Arabella to her father downstairswe must keep
plenty of good liquor going in the house these next few days.
I know his nature, and if he once gets into that fearfully low state
that he does get into sometimes, he'll never do the honourable
thing by me in this world, and I shall be left in the lurch.
He must be kept cheerful. He has a little money in the savings bank,
and he has given me his purse to pay for anything necessary.
Well, that will be the licence; for I must have that ready at hand,
to catch him the moment he's in the humour. You must pay for the liquor.
A few friends, and a quiet convivial party would be the thing,
if we could get it up. It would advertise the shop, and help
me too.

That can be got up easy enough by anybody who'll afford
victuals and drink.... Well yes--it would advertise the shop--
that's true.

Three days laterwhen Jude had recovered somewhat from the fearful
throbbing of his eyes and brainbut was still considerably confused in his
mind by what had been supplied to him by Arabella during the interval--
to keep himjollyas she expressed it--the quiet convivial gathering
suggested by herto wind Jude up to the striking pointtook place.

Donn had only just opened his miserable little pork and sausage shop
which had as yet scarce any customers; nevertheless that party advertised
it welland the Donns acquired a real notoriety among a certain class
in Christminster who knew not the collegesnor their worksnor their ways.
Jude was asked if he could suggest any guest in addition to those named
by Arabella and her fatherand in a saturnine humour of perfect
recklessness mentioned Uncle Joeand Staggand the decayed auctioneer
and others whom he remembered as having been frequenters of the well-known
tavern during his bout therein years before. He also suggested Freckles
and Bower o' Bliss. Arabella took him at his word so far as the men went
but drew the line at the ladies.

Another man they knewTinker Taylorthough he lived in the same street
was not invited; but as he went homeward from a late job on the evening
of the partyhe had occasion to call at the shop for trotters.
There were none inbut he was promised some the next morning.
While making his inquiry Taylor glanced into the back roomand saw
the guests sitting roundcard-playingand drinkingand otherwise
enjoying themselves at Donn's expense. He went home to bed
and on his way out next morning wondered how the party went off.
He thought it hardly worth while to call at the shop for his
provisions at that hourDonn and his daughter being probably not up
if they caroused late the night before. Howeverhe found in
passing that the door was openand he could hear voices within
though the shutters of the meat-stall were not down. He went and tapped
at the sitting-room doorand opened it.

Well--to be sure!he saidastonished.

Hosts and guests were sitting card-playingsmokingand talking
precisely as he had left them eleven hours earlier; the gas was
burning and the curtains drawnthough it had been broad daylight
for two hours out of doors.

Yes!cried Arabellalaughing. "Here we arejust the same.
We ought to be ashamed of ourselvesoughtn't we! But it is a sort
of housewarmingyou see; and our friends are in no hurry. Come in
Mr. Taylorand sit down."

The tinkeror rather reduced ironmongerwas nothing loathand entered
and took a seat. "I shall lose a quarterbut never mind he said.
WellreallyI could hardly believe my eyes when I looked in!
It seemed as if I was flung back again into last nightall of a sudden."

So you are. Pour out for Mr. Taylor.

He now perceived that she was sitting beside Judeher arm
being round his waist. Judelike the rest of the company
bore on his face the signs of how deeply he had been indulging.

Well, we've been waiting for certain legal hours to arrive,
to tell the truth,she continued bashfullyand making her
spirituous crimson look as much like a maiden blush as possible.
Jude and I have decided to make up matters between us by tying
the knot again, as we find we can't do without one another
after all. So, as a bright notion, we agreed to sit on till it
was late enough, and go and do it off-hand.

Jude seemed to pay no great heed to what she was announcing
or indeed to anything whatever. The entrance of Taylor infused
fresh spirit into the companyand they remained sitting
till Arabella whispered to her father: "Now we may as well go."

But the parson don't know?

Yes, I told him last night that we might come between eight and nine,
as there were reasons of decency for doing it as early and quiet as possible;
on account of it being our second marriage, which might make people curious to
look on if they knew. He highly approved.

Oh very well: I'm ready,said her fathergetting up and shaking himself.

Now, old darling,she said to Jude. "Come alongas you promised."

When did I promise anything?asked hewhom she had made so tipsy
by her special knowledge of that line of business as almost to have made
him sober again--or to seem so to those who did not know him.

Why!said Arabellaaffecting dismay. "You've promised to marry me
several times as we've sat here to-night. These gentlemen have heard you."

I don't remember it,said Jude doggedly. "There's only one woman--
but I won't mention her in this Capharnaum!"

Arabella looked towards her father. "NowMr. Fawley be honourable
said Donn. You and my daughter have been living here together these three
or four daysquite on the understanding that you were going to marry her.
Of course I shouldn't have had such goings on in my house if I hadn't
understood that. As a point of honour you must do it now."

Don't say anything against my honour!enjoined Jude hotlystanding up.
I'd marry the W---- of Babylon rather than do anything dishonourable!
No reflection on you, my dear. It is a mere rhetorical figure--what they call
in the books, hyperbole.

Keep your figures for your debts to friends who shelter you,
said Donn.

If I am bound in honour to marry her--as I suppose I am--
though how I came to be here with her I know no more than
a dead man--marry her I will, so help me God! I have never
behaved dishonourably to a woman or to any living thing.
I am not a man who wants to save himself at the expense of
the weaker among us!

There--never mind him, deary,said sheputting her cheek against Jude's.
Come up and wash your face, and just put yourself tidy, and off we'll go.
Make it up with Father.

They shook hands. Jude went upstairs with herand soon came down looking
tidy and calm. Arabellatoohad hastily arranged herselfand accompanied
by Donn away they went.

Don't go,she said to the guests at parting. "I've told
the little maid to get the breakfast while we are gone;
and when we come back we'll all have some. A good strong cup
of tea will set everybody right for going home."

When ArabellaJudeand Donn had disappeared on their matrimonial
errand the assembled guests yawned themselves wider awake
and discussed the situation with great interest. Tinker Taylor
being the most soberreasoned the most lucidly.

I don't wish to speak against friends,he said. "But it
do seem a rare curiosity for a couple to marry over again!
If they couldn't get on the first time when their minds were limp
they won't the secondby my reckoning."

Do you think he'll do it?

He's been put upon his honour by the woman, so he med.

He'd hardly do it straight off like this. He's got no licence nor anything.

She's got that, bless you. Didn't you hear her say so to her father?

Well,said Tinker Taylorrelighting his pipe at the gas-jet. "Take
her all togetherlimb by limbshe's not such a bad-looking piece--
particular by candlelight. To be surehalfpence that have been
in circulation can't be expected to look like new ones from the mint.
But for a woman that's been knocking about the four hemispheres
for some timeshe's passable enough. A little bit thick in
the flitch perhaps: but I like a woman that a puff o' wind won't
blow down."

Their eyes followed the movements of the little girl as she
spread the breakfast-cloth on the table they had been using
without wiping up the slops of the liquor. The curtains were undrawn
and the expression of the house made to look like morning.
Some of the guestshoweverfell asleep in their chairs.
One or two went to the doorand gazed along the street more
than once. Tinker Taylor was the chief of theseand after a time
he came in with a leer on his face.

By Gad, they are coming! I think the deed's done!

No,said Uncle Joefollowing him in. "Take my wordhe turned
rusty at the last minute. They are walking in a very unusual way;
and that's the meaning of it!"

They waited in silence till the wedding-party could be heard entering
the house. First into the room came Arabella boisterously; and her face
was enough to show that her strategy had succeeded.

Mrs. Fawley, I presume?said Tinker Taylor with mock courtesy.

Certainly. Mrs. Fawley again,replied Arabella blandly
pulling off her glove and holding out her left hand.
There's the padlock, see.... Well, he was a very nice,
gentlemanly man indeed. I mean the clergyman.
He said to me as gentle as a babe when all was done:
'Mrs. Fawley, I congratulate you heartily,' he says.
'For having heard your history, and that of your husband,
I think you have both done the right and proper thing.
And for your past errors as a wife, and his as a husband,
I think you ought now to be forgiven by the world, as you
have forgiven each other,' says he. Yes: he was a very nice,
gentlemanly man. 'The Church don't recognize divorce in her dogma,
strictly speaking,' he says: 'and bear in mind the words
of the service in your goings out and your comings in:
What God hath joined together let no man put asunder.' Yes:
he was a very nice, gentlemanly man.... But, Jude, my dear,
you were enough to make a cat laugh! You walked that straight,
and held yourself that steady, that one would have thought
you were going 'prentice to a judge; though I knew you were
seeing double all the time, from the way you fumbled with
my finger.

I said I'd do anything to--save a woman's honour,muttered Jude.
And I've done it!

Well now, old deary, come along and have some breakfast.

I want--some--more whisky,said Jude stolidly.

Nonsense, dear. Not now! There's no more left. The tea will take
the muddle out of our heads, and we shall be as fresh as larks.

All right. I've--married you. She said I ought to marry you again,
and I have straightway. It is true religion! Ha--ha--ha!

MICHAELMAS came and passedand Jude and his wifewho had lived
but a short time in her father's house after their remarriage
were in lodgings on the top floor of a dwelling nearer to the centre
of the city.

He had done a few days' work during the two or three months since the event
but his health had been indifferentand it was now precarious.
He was sitting in an arm-chair before the fireand coughed a good deal.

I've got a bargain for my trouble in marrying thee over again!
Arabella was saying to him. "I shall have to keep 'ee entirely--

that's what 'twill come to! I shall have to make black-pot
and sausagesand hawk 'em about the streetall to support
an invalid husband I'd no business to be saddled with at all.
Why didn't you keep your healthdeceiving one like this? You were
well enough when the wedding was!"

Ah, yes!said helaughing acridly. "I have been thinking of my foolish
feeling about the pig you and I killed during our first marriage.
I feel now that the greatest mercy that could be vouchsafed to me would be
that something should serve me as I served that animal."

This was the sort of discourse that went on between them every day now.
The landlord of the lodgingwho had heard that they were a queer couple
had doubted if they were married at allespecially as he had seen
Arabella kiss Jude one evening when she had taken a little cordial;
and he was about to give them notice to quittill by chance overhearing
her one night haranguing Jude in rattling termsand ultimately flinging
a shoe at his headhe recognized the note of genuine wedlock; and concluding
that they must be respectablesaid no more.

Jude did not get any betterand one day he requested Arabella
with considerable hesitationto execute a commission for him.
She asked him indifferently what it was.

To write to Sue.

What in the name--do you want me to write to her for?

To ask how she is, and if she'll come to see me, because I'm ill,
and should like to see her--once again.

It is like you to insult a lawful wife by asking such a thing!

It is just in order not to insult you that I ask you to do it.
You know I love Sue. I don't wish to mince the matter--
there stands the fact: I love her. I could find a dozen
ways of sending a letter to her without your knowledge.
But I wish to be quite above-board with you, and with her husband.
A message through you asking her to come is at least free from any
odour of intrigue. If she retains any of her old nature at all,
she'll come.

You've no respect for marriage whatever, or its rights and duties!

What DOES it matter what my opinions are--a wretch like me!
Can it matter to anybody in the world who comes to see me
for half an hour--here with one foot in the grave! ... Come,
please write, Arabella!he pleaded. "Repay my candour by a
little generosity!"

I should think NOT!

Not just once?--Oh do!He felt that his physical weakness had taken
away all his dignity.

What do you want HER to know how you are for? She don't want to see 'ee.
She's the rat that forsook the sinking ship!

Don't, don't!

And I stuck to un--the more fool I! Have that strumpet in the house indeed!

Almost as soon as the words were spoken Jude sprang from the chair
and before Arabella knew where she was he had her on her back upon

a little couch which stood therehe kneeling above her.

Say another word of that sort,he whisperedand I'll kill you--
here and now! I've everything to gain by it--my own death not being
the least part. So don't think there's no meaning in what I say!

What do you want me to do?gasped Arabella.

Promise never to speak of her.

Very well. I do.

I take your word,he said scornfully as he loosened her.
But what it is worth I can't say.

You couldn't kill the pig, but you could kill me!

Ah--there you have me! No--I couldn't kill you--even in a passion.
Taunt away!

He then began coughing very muchand she estimated his life
with an appraiser's eye as he sank back ghastly pale.
I'll send for her,Arabella murmuredif you'll agree to my
being in the room with you all the time she's here.

The softer side of his naturethe desire to see Suemade him
unable to resist the offer even nowprovoked as he had been;
and he replied breathlessly: "YesI agree. Only send
for her!"

In the evening he inquired if she had written.

Yes,she said; "I wrote a note telling her you were ill
and asking her to come to-morrow or the day after. I haven't
posted it yet."

The next day Jude wondered if she really did post itbut would not ask her;
and foolish Hopethat lives on a drop and a crumbmade him restless
with expectation. He knew the times of the possible trainsand listened on
each occasion for sounds of her.

She did not come; but Jude would not address Arabella again thereon.
He hoped and expected all the next day; but no Sue appeared;
neither was there any note of reply. Then Jude decided in the privacy
of his mind that Arabella had never posted hersalthough she
had written it. There was something in her manner which told it.
His physical weakness was such that he shed tears at the disappointment
when she was not there to see. His suspicions werein fact
well founded. Arabellalike some other nursesthought that your duty
towards your invalid was to pacify him by any means short of really
acting upon his fancies.

He never said another word to her about his wish or his conjecture.
A silentundiscerned resolve grew up in himwhich gave himif not strength
stability and calm. One midday whenafter an absence of two hours
she came into the roomshe beheld the chair empty.

Down she flopped on the bedand sittingmeditated. "Now where the devil
is my man gone to!" she said.

A driving rain from the north-east had been falling with more
or less intermission all the morningand looking from the window
at the dripping spouts it seemed impossible to believe that any
sick man would have ventured out to almost certain death.

Yet a conviction possessed Arabella that he had gone out
and it became a certainty when she had searched the house.
If he's such a fool, let him be!she said. "I can do
no more."

Jude was at that moment in a railway train that was drawing
near to Alfredstonoddly swathedpale as a monumental
figure in alabasterand much stared at by other passengers.
An hour later his thin formin the long great-coat and blanket
he had come withbut without an umbrellacould have been
seen walking along the five-mile road to Marygreen.
On his face showed the determined purpose that alone sustained him
but to which has weakness afforded a sorry foundation.
By the up-hill walk he was quite blownbut he pressed on; and at
half-past three o'clock stood by the familiar well at Marygreen.
The rain was keeping everybody indoors; Jude crossed the green
to the church without observationand found the building open.
Here he stoodlooking forth at the schoolwhence he could hear
the usual sing-song tones of the little voices that had not learnt
Creation's groan.

He waited till a small boy came from the school--one evidently allowed
out before hours for some reason or other. Jude held up his hand
and the child came.

Please call at the schoolhouse and ask Mrs. Phillotson if she will be kind
enough to come to the church for a few minutes.

The child departedand Jude heard him knock at the door
of the dwelling. He himself went further into the church.
Everything was newexcept a few pieces of carving preserved
from the wrecked old fabricnow fixed against the new walls.
He stood by these: they seemed akin to the perished people of that
place who were his ancestors and Sue's.

A light footstepwhich might have been accounted no more than an added
drip to the rainfallsounded in the porchand he looked round.

Oh--I didn't think it was you! I didn't--Oh, Jude!A hysterical
catch in her breath ended in a succession of them. He advanced
but she quickly recovered and went back.

Don't go--don't go!he implored. "This is my last time!
I thought it would be less intrusive than to enter your house.
And I shall never come again. Don't then be unmerciful. SueSue!
We are acting by the letter; and 'the letter killeth'!"

I'll stay--I won't be unkind!she saidher mouth quivering
and her tears flowing as she allowed him to come closer.
But why did you come, and do this wrong thing, after doing such
a right thing as you have done?

What right thing?

Marrying Arabella again. It was in the Alfredston paper.
She has never been other than yours, Jude--in a proper sense.
And therefore you did so well--Oh so well!--in recognizing it--
and taking her to you again.

God above--and is that all I've come to hear? If there is anything
more degrading, immoral, unnatural, than another in my life, it is
this meretricious contract with Arabella which has been called doing
the right thing! And you too--you call yourself Phillotson's wife!
HIS wife! You are mine.

Don't make me rush away from you--I can't bear much!
But on this point I am decided.

I cannot understand how you did it--how you think it--
I cannot!

Never mind that. He is a kind husband to me--And I--
I've wrestled and struggled, and fasted, and prayed.
I have nearly brought my body into complete subjection.
And you mustn't--will you--wake--

Oh you darling little fool; where is your reason?
You seem to have suffered the loss of your faculties!
I would argue with you if I didn't know that a woman in your
state of feeling is quite beyond all appeals to her brains.
Or is it that you are humbugging yourself, as so many women do
about these things; and don't actually believe what you pretend to,
and only are indulging in the luxury of the emotion raised by an
affected belief?

Luxury! How can you be so cruel!

You dear, sad, soft, most melancholy wreck of a promising
human intellect that it has ever been my lot to behold!
Where is your scorn of convention gone? I WOULD have died game!

You crush, almost insult me, Jude! Go away from me!
She turned off quickly.

I will. I would never come to see you again, even if I
had the strength to come, which I shall not have any more.
Sue, Sue, you are not worth a man's love!

Her bosom began to go up and down. "I can't endure you to say that!"
she burst outand her eye resting on him a momentshe turned
back impulsively. "Don'tdon't scorn me! Kiss meoh kiss me
lots of timesand say I am not a coward and a contemptible humbug--
I can't bear it!" She rushed up to him andwith her mouth
on hiscontinued: "I must tell you--oh I must--my darling Love!
It has been--only a church marriage--an apparent marriage I mean!
He suggested it at the very first!"


I mean it is a nominal marriage only. It hasn't been more than
that at all since I came back to him!

Sue!he said. Pressing her to him in his arms he bruised
her lips with kisses: "If misery can know happinessI have
a moment's happiness now! Nowin the name of all you hold holy
tell me the truthand no lie. You do love me still?"

I do! You know it too well! ... But I MUSTN'T do this!
I mustn't kiss you back as I would!

But do!

And yet you are so dear!--and you look so ill----

And so do you! There's one more, in memory of our dead little children--
yours and mine!

The words struck her like a blowand she bent her head.

I MUSTN'T--I CAN'T go on with this!she gasped presently.
But there, there, darling; I give you back your kisses;
I do, I do! ... And now I'll HATE myself for ever for
my sin!

No--let me make my last appeal. Listen to this! We've both remarried
out of our senses. I was made drunk to do it. You were the same.
I was gin-drunk; you were creed-drunk. Either form of intoxication takes
away the nobler vision.... Let us then shake off our mistakes, and run
away together!

No; again no! ... Why do you tempt me so far, Jude! It is too merciless!
... But I've got over myself now. Don't follow me--don't look at me.
Leave me, for pity's sake!

She ran up the church to the east endand Jude did as she requested.
He did not turn his headbut took up his blanketwhich she had not seen
and went straight out. As he passed the end of the church she heard
his coughs mingling with the rain on the windowsand in a last
instinct of human affectioneven now unsubdued by her fetters
she sprang up as if to go and succour him. But she knelt down again
and stopped her ears with her hands till all possible sound of him had
passed away.

He was by this time at the corner of the greenfrom which the path
ran across the fields in which he had scared rooks as a boy.
He turned and looked backonceat the building which still contained Sue;
and then went onknowing that his eyes would light on that scene
no more.

There are cold spots up and down Wessex in autumn and winter weather;
but the coldest of all when a north or east wind is blowing is
the crest of the down by the Brown Housewhere the road to Alfredston
crosses the old Ridgeway. Here the first winter sleets and snows
fall and lieand here the spring frost lingers last unthawed.
Here in the teeth of the north-east wind and rain Jude now pursued
his waywet throughthe necessary slowness of his walk from lack
of his former strength being insufficent to maintain his heat.
He came to the milestoneandraining as it wasspread his blanket
and lay down there to rest. Before moving on he went and felt
at the back of the stone for his own carving. It was still there;
but nearly obliterated by moss. He passed the spot where
the gibbet of his ancestor and Sue's had stoodand descended
the hill.

It was dark when he reached Alfredstonwhere he had a cup of tea
the deadly chill that began to creep into his bones being too much
for him to endure fasting. To get home he had to travel by a steam
tram-carand two branches of railwaywith much waiting at a junction.
He did not reach Christminster till ten o'clock.

ON the platform stood Arabella. She looked him up and down.

You've been to see her?she asked.

I have,said Judeliterally tottering with cold and lassitude.

Well, now you'd best march along home.

The water ran out of him as he wentand he was compelled to lean
against the wall to support himself while coughing.

You've done for yourself by this, young man,said she.
I don't know whether you know it.

Of course I do. I meant to do for myself.

What--to commit suicide?


Well, I'm blest! Kill yourself for a woman.

Listen to me, Arabella. You think you are the stronger; and so you are,
in a physical sense, now. You could push me over like a nine-pin. You did
not send that letter the other day, and I could not resent your conduct.
But I am not so weak in another way as you think. I made up my mind that a
man confined to his room by inflammation of the lungs, a fellow who had only
two wishes left in the world, to see a particular woman, and then to die,
could neatly accomplish those two wishes at one stroke by taking this journey
in the rain. That I've done. I have seen her for the last time, and I've
finished myself--put an end to a feverish life which ought never to have
been begun!

Lord--you do talk lofty! Won't you have something warm to drink?

No thank you. Let's get home.

They went along by the silent collegesand Jude kept stopping.

What are you looking at?

Stupid fancies. I see, in a way, those spirits of the dead again,
on this my last walk, that I saw when I first walked here!

What a curious chap you are!

I seem to see them, and almost hear them rustling. But I don't
revere all of them as I did then. I don't believe in half of them.
The theologians, the apologists, and their kin the metaphysicians,
the high-handed statesmen, and others, no longer interest me.
All that has been spoilt for me by the grind of stern reality!

The expression of Jude's corpselike face in the watery lamplight
was indeed as if he saw people where there was nobody. At moments
he stood still by an archwaylike one watching a figure walk out;
then he would look at a window like one discerning a familiar face
behind it. He seemed to hear voiceswhose words he repeated as if
to gather their meaning.

They seem laughing at me!


Oh--I was talking to myself! The phantoms all about here,
in the college archways, and windows. They used to look friendly
in the old days, particularly Addison, and Gibbon, and Johnson,
and Dr. Browne, and Bishop Ken

Come along do! Phantoms! There's neither living nor dead hereabouts
except a damn policeman! I never saw the streets emptier.

Fancy! The Poet of Liberty used to walk here, and the great Dissector

of Melancholy there!

I don't want to hear about 'em! They bore me.

Walter Raleigh is beckoning to me from that lane--Wycliffe--
Harvey--Hooker--Arnold--and a whole crowd of Tractarian Shades

I DON'T WANT to know their names, I tell you! What do I care about folk
dead and gone? Upon my soul you are more sober when you've been drinking
than when you have not!

I must rest a moment,he said; and as he pausedholding to the railings
he measured with his eye the height of a college front. "This is old Rubric.
And that Sarcophagus; and Up that lane Crozier and Tudor: and all down there
is Cardinal with its long frontand its windows with lifted eyebrows
representing the polite surprise of the university at the efforts of such
as I."

Come along, and I'll treat you!

Very well. It will help me home, for I feel the chilly fog from the meadows
of Cardinal as if death-claws were grabbing me through and through.
As Antigone said, I am neither a dweller among men nor ghosts. But, Arabella,
when I am dead, you'll see my spirit flitting up and down here among these!

Pooh! You mayn't die after all. You are tough enough yet,
old man.

It was night at Marygreenand the rain of the afternoon showed no sign
of abatement. About the time at which Jude and Arabella were walking
the streets of Christminster homewardthe Widow Edlin crossed the green
and opened the back door of the schoolmaster's dwellingwhich she often
did now before bedtimeto assist Sue in putting things away.

Sue was muddling helplessly in the kitchenfor she was not a good housewife
though she tried to beand grew impatient of domestic details.

Lord love 'ee, what do ye do that yourself for, when I've
come o' purpose! You knew I should come.

Oh--I don't know--I forgot! No, I didn't forget. I did it
to discipline myself. I have scrubbed the stairs since eight
o'clock. I MUST practise myself in my household duties.
I've shamefully neglected them!

Why should ye? He'll get a better school, perhaps be a parson,
in time, and you'll keep two servants. 'Tis a pity to spoil them
pretty hands.

Don't talk of my pretty hands, Mrs. Edlin. This pretty body of mine
has been the ruin of me already!

Pshoo--you've got no body to speak of! You put me more in mind
of a sperrit. But there seems something wrong to-night, my dear.
Husband cross?

No. He never is. He's gone to bed early.

Then what is it?

I cannot tell you. I have done wrong to-day. And I want to eradicate
it.... Well--I will tell you this--Jude has been here this afternoon,
and I find I still love him--oh, grossly! I cannot tell you more.

Ah!said the widow. "I told 'ee how 'twould be!"

But it shan't be! I have not told my husband of his visit;
it is not necessary to trouble him about it, as I never mean
to see Jude any more. But I am going to make my conscience right
on my duty to Richard--by doing a penance--the ultimate thing.
I must!

I wouldn't--since he agrees to it being otherwise, and it
has gone on three months very well as it is.

Yes--he agrees to my living as I choose; but I feel it is an indulgence I
ought not to exact from him. It ought not to have been accepted by me.
To reverse it will be terrible--but I must be more just to him. O why was I
so unheroic!

What is it you don't like in him?asked Mrs. Edlin curiously.

I cannot tell you. It is something ... I cannot say.
The mournful thing is, that nobody would admit it as a reason
for feeling as I do; so that no excuse is left me.

Did you ever tell Jude what it was?


I've heard strange tales o' husbands in my time,observed the widow
in a lowered voice. "They say that when the saints were upon the earth
devils used to take husbands' forms o' nightsand get poor women into all
sorts of trouble. But I don't know why that should come into my head
for it is only a tale.... What a wind and rain it is to-night! Well--
don't be in a hurry to alter thingsmy dear. Think it over."

No, no! I've screwed my weak soul up to treating him more courteously--
and it must be now--at once--before I break down!

I don't think you ought to force your nature. No woman ought
to be expected to.

It is my duty. I will drink my cup to the dregs!

Half an hour later when Mrs. Edlin put on her bonnet and shawl to leave
Sue seemed to be seized with vague terror.

No--no--don't go, Mrs. Edlin,she imploredher eyes enlarged
and with a quick nervous look over her shoulder.

But it is bedtime, child.

Yes, but--there's the little spare room--my room that was.
It is quite ready. Please stay, Mrs. Edlin!--I shall want you
in the morning.

Oh well--I don't mind, if you wish. Nothing will happen to my four
old walls, whether I be there or no.

She then fastened up the doorsand they ascended the stairs together.

Wait here, Mrs. Edlin,said Sue. "I'll go into my old room a moment
by myself."

Leaving the widow on the landing Sue turned to the chamber
which had been hers exclusively since her arrival at Marygreen

and pushing to the door knelt down by the bed for a minute or two.
She then aroseand taking her night-gown from the pillow
undressed and came out to Mrs. Edlin. A man could be heard
snoring in the room opposite. She wished Mrs. Edlin good-night
and the widow entered the room that Sue had just vacated.

Sue unlatched the other chamber doorandas if seized with faintness
sank down outside it. Getting up again she half opened the door
and said "Richard." As the word came out of her mouth she visibly shuddered.

The snoring had quite ceased for some timebut he did not reply.
Sue seemed relievedand hurried back to Mrs. Edlin's chamber.
Are you in bed, Mrs. Edlin?she asked.

No, dear,said the widowopening the door. "I be old and slow
and it takes me a long while to un-ray. I han't unlaced my jumps yet."

I--don't hear him! And perhaps--perhaps --

What, child?

Perhaps he's dead!she gasped. "And then--I should be FREE
and I could go to Jude! ... Ah--no--I forgot HER--and God!"

Let's go and hearken. No--he's snoring again. But the rain and the wind
is so loud that you can hardly hear anything but between whiles.

Sue had dragged herself back. "Mrs. Edlingood-night again!
I am sorry I called you out." The widow retreated a second time.

The strainedresigned look returned to Sue's face when she was alone.
I must do it--I must! I must drink to the dregs!she whispered.
Richard!she said again.

Hey--what? Is that you, Susanna?


What do you want? Anything the matter? Wait a moment.
He pulled on some articles of clothingand came to the door. "Yes?"

When we were at Shaston I jumped out of the window rather than that you
should come near me. I have never reversed that treatment till now--
when I have come to beg your pardon for it, and ask you to let me in.

Perhaps you only think you ought to do this? I don't wish
you to come against your impulses, as I have said.

But I beg to be admitted.She waited a momentand repeated
I beg to be admitted! I have been in error--even to-day. I have
exceeded my rights. I did not mean to tell you, but perhaps I ought.
I sinned against you this afternoon.


I met Jude! I didn't know he was coming. And----


I kissed him, and let him kiss me.

Oh--the old story!

Richard, I didn't know we were going to kiss each other till we did!

How many times?

A good many. I don't know. I am horrified to look back on it,
and the least I can do after it is to come to you like this.

Come--this is pretty bad, after what I've done! Anything else to confess?

No.She had been intending to say: "I called him
my darling love." Butas a contrite woman always keeps
back a littlethat portion of the scene remained untold.
She went on: "I am never going to see him any more.
He spoke of some things of the past: and it overcame me.
He spoke of--the children. Butas I have saidI am glad--
almost glad I mean--that they are deadRichard. It blots out
all that life of mine!"

Well--about not seeing him again any more. Come--you really mean this?
There was something in Phillotson's tone now which seemed to show that his
three months of remarriage with Sue had somehow not been so satisfactory as
his magnanimity or amative patience had anticipated.

Yes, yes!

Perhaps you'll swear it on the New Testament?

I will.

He went back to the room and brought out a little brown Testament.
Now then: So help you God!

She swore.

Very good!

Now I supplicate you, Richard, to whom I belong, and whom I wish
to honour and obey, as I vowed, to let me in.

Think it over well. You know what it means. Having you back in the house
was one thing--this another. So think again.

I have thought--I wish this!

That's a complaisant spirit--and perhaps you are right.
With a lover hanging about, a half-marriage should be completed.
But I repeat my reminder this third and last time.

It is my wish! ... O God!

What did you say 'O God' for?

I don't know!

Yes you do! But ...He gloomily considered her thin
and fragile form a moment longer as she crouched before him
in her night-clothes. "WellI thought it might end like this
he said presently. I owe you nothingafter these signs;
but I'll take you in at your wordand forgive you."

He put his arm round her to lift her up. Sue started back.

What's the matter?he askedspeaking for the first time sternly.
You shrink from me again?--just as formerly!

No, Richard--I I--was not thinking----

You wish to come in here?


You still bear in mind what it means?

Yes. It is my duty!

Placing the candlestick on the chest of drawers he led her
through the doorwayand lifting her bodilykissed her.
A quick look of aversion passed over her facebut clenching her
teeth she uttered no cry.

Mrs. Edlin had by this time undressedand was about to get
into bed when she said to herself: "Ah--perhaps I'd better
go and see if the little thing is all right. How it do blow
and rain!"

The widow went out on the landingand saw that Sue had disappeared. "Ah!
Poor soul! Weddings be funerals 'a b'lieve nowadays. Fifty-five years ago
come Fallsince my man and I married! Times have changed since then!"

DESPITE himself Jude recovered somewhatand worked at his trade
for several weeks. After Christmashoweverhe broke down again.

With the money he had earned he shifted his lodgings to a yet
more central part of the town. But Arabella saw that he was not
likely to do much work for a long whileand was cross enough
at the turn affairs had taken since her remarriage to him.
I'm hanged if you haven't been clever in this last stroke!
she would sayto get a nurse for nothing by marrying me!

Jude was absolutely indifferent to what she saidand indeed
often regarded her abuse in a humorous light. Sometimes his
mood was more earnestand as he lay he often rambled on upon
the defeat of his early aims.

Every man has some little power in some one direction,
he would say. "I was never really stout enough for the stone trade
particularly the fixing. Moving the blocks always used to strain me
and standing the trying draughts in buildings before the windows are
in always gave me coldsand I think that began the mischief inside.
But I felt I could do one thing if I had the opportunity.
I could accumulate ideasand impart them to others. I wonder
if the founders had such as I in their minds--a fellow good for
nothing else but that particular thing? ... I hear that soon there
is going to be a better chance for such helpless students as I was.
There are schemes afoot for making the university less exclusive
and extending its influence. I don't know much about it.
And it is too latetoo late for me! Ah--and for how many worthier ones
before me!"

How you keep a-mumbling!said Arabella. "I should have thought
you'd have got over all that craze about books by this time.
And so you wouldif you'd had any sense to begin with.
You are as bad now as when we were first married."

On one occasion while soliloquizing thus he called her "Sue" unconsciously.

I wish you'd mind who you are talking to!said Arabella indignantly.
Calling a respectable married woman by the name of that--She remembered
herself and he did not catch the word.

But in the course of timewhen she saw how things were going
and how very little she had to fear from Sue's rivalryshe had a fit
of generosity. "I suppose you want to see your--Sue?" she said.
Well, I don't mind her coming. You can have her here if you like.

I don't wish to see her again.

Oh--that's a change!

And don't tell her anything about me--that I'm ill, or anything.
She has chosen her course. Let her go!

One day he received a surprise. Mrs. Edlin came to see him
quite on her own account. Jude's wifewhose feelings as to where
his affections were centred had reached absolute indifference
by this timewent outleaving the old woman alone with Jude.
He impulsively asked how Sue wasand then said bluntly
remembering what Sue had told him: "I suppose they are still only
husband and wife in name?"

Mrs. Edlin hesitated. "Wellno--it's different now.
She's begun it quite lately--all of her own free will."

When did she begin?he asked quickly.

The night after you came. But as a punishment to her poor self.
He didn't wish it, but she insisted.

Sue, my Sue--you darling fool--this is almost more than I can
endure! ... Mrs. Edlin--don't be frightened at my rambling--
I've got to talk to myself lying here so many hours alone--
she was once a woman whose intellect was to mine like a
star to a benzoline lamp: who saw all MY superstitions
as cobwebs that she could brush away with a word.
Then bitter affliction came to us, and her intellect broke,
and she veered round to darkness. Strange difference of sex,
that time and circumstance, which enlarge the views
of most men, narrow the views of women almost invariably.
And now the ultimate horror has come--her giving herself
like this to what she loathes, in her enslavement to forms!
She, so sensitive, so shrinking, that the very wind seemed to blow
on her with a touch of deference.... As for Sue and me when we
were at our own best, long ago--when our minds were clear,
and our love of truth fearless--the time was not ripe for us!
Our ideas were fifty years too soon to be any good to us.
And so the resistance they met with brought reaction in her,
and recklessness and ruin on me! ... There--this, Mrs. Edlin,
is how I go on to myself continually, as I lie here. I must be boring
you awfully.

Not at all, my dear boy. I could hearken to 'ee all day.

As Jude reflected more and more on her newsand grew more restless
he began in his mental agony to use terribly profane language
about social conventionswhich started a fit of coughing.
Presently there came a knock at the door downstairs. As nobody
answered it Mrs. Edlin herself went down.

The visitor said blandly: "The doctor." The lanky form was
that of Physician Vilbertwho had been called in by Arabella.

How is my patient at present?asked the physician.

Oh bad--very bad! Poor chap, he got excited, and do blaspeam terribly,
since I let out some gossip by accident--the more to my blame. But there--
you must excuse a man in suffering for what he says, and I hope God will
forgive him.

Ah. I'll go up and see him. Mrs. Fawley at home?

She's not in at present, but she'll be here soon.

Vilbert went; but though Jude had hitherto taken the medicines
of that skilful practitioner with the greatest indifference
whenever poured down his throat by Arabellahe was now so
brought to bay by events that he vented his opinion of Vilbert
in the physician's faceand so forciblyand with such
striking epithetsthat Vilbert soon scurried downstairs again.
At the door he met ArabellaMrs. Edlin having left.
Arabella inquired how he thought her husband was nowand seeing
that the doctor looked ruffledasked him to take something.
He assented.

I'll bring it to you here in the passage,she said.
There's nobody but me about the house to-day.

She brought him a bottle and a glassand he drank.

Arabella began shaking with suppressed laughter. "What is thismy dear?"
he askedsmacking his lips.

Oh--a drop of wine--and something in it.Laughing again she said:
I poured your own love-philtre into it, that you sold me at the
agricultural show, don't you re-member?

I do, I do! Clever woman! But you must be prepared for the consequences.
Putting his arm round her shoulders he kissed her there and then.

Don't don't,she whisperedlaughing good-humouredly. "My man will hear."

She let him out of the houseand as she went back she said
to herself: "Well! Weak women must provide for a rainy day.
And if my poor fellow upstairs do go off--as I suppose he will soon--
it's well to keep chances open. And I can't pick and choose
now as I could when I was younger. And one must take the old
if one can't get the young."

THE last pages to which the chronicler of these lives would ask the reader's
attention are concerned with the scene in and out of Jude's bedroom when leafy
summer came round again.

His face was now so thin that his old friends would hardly have known him.
It was afternoonand Arabella was at the looking-glass curling her hair
which operation she performed by heating an umbrella-stay in the flame
of a candle she had lightedand using it upon the flowing lock.
When she had finished thispractised a dimpleand put on her things
she cast her eyes round upon Jude. He seemed to be sleeping
though his position was an elevated onehis malady preventing him

lying down.

Arabellahattedglovedand readysat down and waited
as if expecting some one to come and take her place as nurse.

Certain sounds from without revealed that the town was in festivity
though little of the festivalwhatever it might have beencould be
seen here. Bells began to ringand the notes came into the room
through the open windowand travelled round Jude's head in a hum.
They made her restlessand at last she said to herself: "Why ever
doesn't Father come!"

She looked again at Judecritically gauged his ebbing life
as she had done so many times during the late monthsand glancing
at his watchwhich was hung up by way of timepiecerose impatiently.
Still he sleptand coming to a resolution she slipped from the room
closed the door noiselesslyand descended the stairs. The house
was empty. The attraction which moved Arabella to go abroad had
evidently drawn away the other inmates long before.

It was a warmcloudlessenticing day. She shut the front door
and hastened round into Chief Streetand when near the theatre could hear
the notes of the organa rehearsal for a coming concert being in progress.
She entered under the archway of Oldgate Collegewhere men were putting
up awnings round the quadrangle for a ball in the hall that evening.
People who had come up from the country for the day were picnicking
on the grassand Arabella walked along the gravel paths and under
the aged limes. But finding this place rather dull she returned
to the streetsand watched the carriages drawing up for the concert
numerous dons and their wivesand undergraduates with gay female companions
crowding up likewise. When the doors were closedand the concert began
she moved on.

The powerful notes of that concert rolled forth through the swinging
yellow blinds of the open windowsover the housetopsand into the still
air of the lanes. They reached so far as to the room in which Jude lay;
and it was about this time that his cough began again and awakened him.

As soon as he could speak he murmuredhis eyes still closed:
A little water, please.

Nothing but the deserted room received his appeal
and he coughed to exhaustion again--saying still more feebly:
Water--some water--Sue--Arabella!

The room remained still as before. Presently he gasped again:
Throat--water--Sue--darling--drop of water--please--oh please!

No water cameand the organ notesfaint as a bee's hum
rolled in as before.

While he remainedhis face changingshouts and hurrahs came
from somewhere in the direction of the river.

Ah--yes! The Remembrance games,he murmured. "And I here.
And Sue defiled!"

The hurrahs were repeateddrowning the faint organ notes.
Jude's face changed more: he whispered slowlyhis parched lips
scarcely moving:








Meanwhile Arabellain her journey to discover what was going on
took a short cut down a narrow street and through an obscure nook
into the quad of Cardinal. It was full of bustleand brilliant
in the sunlight with flowers and other preparations for a ball
here also. A carpenter nodded to herone who had formerly been
a fellow-workman of Jude's. A corridor was in course of erection
from the entrance to the hall staircaseof gay red and buff bunting.
Waggon-loads of boxes containing bright plants in full bloom were being
placed aboutand the great staircase was covered with red cloth.
She nodded to one workman and anotherand ascended to the hall on
the strength of their acquaintancewhere they were putting down a new
floor and decorating for the dance.

The cathedral bell close at hand was sounding for five o'clock service.

I should not mind having a spin there with a fellow's arm round my waist,
she said to one of the men. "But LordI must be getting home again--
there's a lot to do. No dancing for me!"

When she reached home she was met at the door by Stagg
and one or two other of Jude's fellow stoneworkers.
We are just going down to the river,said the formerto see
the boat-bumping. But we've called round on our way to ask
how your husband is.

He's sleeping nicely, thank you,said Arabella.

That's right. Well now, can't you give yourself half an hour's relaxation,
Mrs. Fawley, and come along with us? 'Twould do you good.

I should like to go,said she. "I've never seen the boat-racingand I
hear it is good fun."

Come along!

How I WISH I could!She looked longingly down the street.
Wait a minute, then. I'll just run up and see how he is now.
Father is with him, I believe; so I can most likely come.

They waitedand she entered. Downstairs the inmates were
absent as beforehavingin factgone in a body to the river
where the procession of boats was to pass. When she reached
the bedroom she found that her father had not even now come.

Why couldn't he have been here!she said impatiently.
He wants to see the boats himself--that's what it is!

Howeveron looking round to the bed she brightenedfor she
saw that Jude was apparently sleepingthough he was not in
the usual half-elevated posture necessitated by his cough.
He had slipped downand lay flat. A second glance caused her
to startand she went to the bed. His face was quite white
and gradually becoming rigid. She touched his fingers;
they were coldthough his body was still warm. She listened
at his chest. All was still within. The bumping of near
thirty years had ceased.

After her first appalled sense of what had happened the faint notes
of a military or other brass band from the river reached her ears;
and in a provoked tone she exclaimedTo think he should die just now!
Why did he die just now!Then meditating another moment or two she
went to the doorsoftly closed it as beforeand again descended
the stairs.

Here she is!said one of the workmen. "We wondered if you
were coming after all. Come along; we must be quick to get
a good place.... Wellhow is he? Sleeping well still?
Of coursewe don't want to drag 'ee away if--"

Oh yes--sleeping quite sound. He won't wake yet,she said hurriedly.

They went with the crowd down Cardinal Streetwhere they presently
reached the bridgeand the gay barges burst upon their view.
Thence they passed by a narrow slit down to the riverside path-now
dustyhotand thronged. Almost as soon as they had arrived
the grand procession of boats began; the oars smacking with a
loud kiss on the face of the streamas they were lowered from
the perpendicular.

Oh, I say--how jolly! I'm glad I've come,said Arabella.
And--it can't hurt my husband--my being away.

On the opposite side of the riveron the crowded barges
were gorgeous nosegays of feminine beautyfashionably arrayed
in greenpinkblueand white. The blue flag of the boat
club denoted the centre of interestbeneath which a band
in red uniform gave out the notes she had already heard
in the death-chamber. Collegians of all sortsin canoes
with ladieswatching keenly for "our" boatdarted up and down.
While she regarded the lively scene somebody touched Arabella
in the ribsand looking round she saw Vilbert.

That philtre is operating, you know!he said with a leer.
Shame on 'ee to wreck a heart so!

I shan't talk of love to-day.

Why not? It is a general holiday.

She did not reply. Vilbert's arm stole round her waist
which act could be performed unobserved in the crowd.
An arch expression overspread Arabella's face at the feel
of the armbut she kept her eyes on the river as if she did
not know of the embrace.

The crowd surgedpushing Arabella and her friends sometimes
nearly into the riverand she would have laughed heartily

at the horse-play that succeededif the imprint on her mind's
eye of a palestatuesque countenance she had lately gazed
upon had not sobered her a little.

The fun on the water reached the acme of excitement; there were immersions
there were shouts: the race was lost and wonthe pink and blue and yellow
ladies retired from the bargesand the people who had watched began to move.

Well--it's been awfully good,cried Arabella. "But I think I
must get back to my poor man. Father is thereso far as I know;
but I had better get back."

What's your hurry?

Well, I must go.... Dear, dear, this is awkward!

At the narrow gangway where the people ascended from the riverside
path to the bridge the crowd was literally jammed into one hot mass--
Arabella and Vilbert with the rest; and here they remained motionless
Arabella exclaimingDear, dear!more and more impatiently;
for it had just occurred to her mind that if Jude were discovered to
have died alone an inquest might be deemed necessary.

What a fidget you are, my love,said the physicianwhobeing pressed
close against her by the thronghad no need of personal effort for contact.
Just as well have patience: there's no getting away yet!

It was nearly ten minutes before the wedged multitude moved sufficiently
to let them pass through. As soon as she got up into the street Arabella
hastened onforbidding the physician to accompany her further that day.
She did not go straight to her house; but to the abode of a woman
who performed the last necessary offices for the poorer dead;
where she knocked.

My husband has just gone, poor soul,she said. "Can you come
and lay him out?"

Arabella waited a few minutes; and the two women went along
elbowing their way through the stream of fashionable people
pouring out of Cardinal meadowand being nearly knocked down
by the carriages.

I must call at the sexton's about the bell, too,said Arabella.
It is just round here, isn't it? I'll meet you at my door.

By ten o'clock that night Jude was lying on the bedstead at
his lodging covered with a sheetand straight as an arrow.
Through the partly opened window the joyous throb of a waltz
entered from the ball-room at Cardinal.

Two days laterwhen the sky was equally cloudlessand the air equally still
two persons stood beside Jude's open coffin in the same little bedroom.
On one side was Arabellaon the other the Widow Edlin. They were both
looking at Jude's facethe worn old eyelids of Mrs. Edlin being red.

How beautiful he is!said she.

Yes. He's a 'andsome corpse,said Arabella.

The window was still open to ventilate the roomand it being
about noontide the clear air was motionless and quiet without.
From a distance came voices; and an apparent noise of
persons stamping.

What's that?murmured the old woman.

Oh, that's the doctors in the theatre, conferring honorary degrees on
the Duke of Hamptonshire and a lot more illustrious gents of that sort.
It's Remembrance Week, you know. The cheers come from the young men.

Aye; young and strong-lunged! Not like our poor boy here.

An occasional wordas from some one making a speechfloated from the open
windows of the theatre across to this quiet cornerat which there
seemed to be a smile of some sort upon the marble features of Jude;
while the oldsupersededDelphin editions of Virgil and Horace
and the dog-eared Greek Testament on the neighbouring shelfand the few
other volumes of the sort that he had not parted withroughened with
stone-dust where he had been in the habit of catching them up for a few
minutes between his laboursseemed to pale to a sickly cast at the sounds.
The bells struck out joyously; and their reverberations travelled round
the bed-room.

Arabella's eyes removed from Jude to Mrs. Edlin. "D'ye think she will come?"
she asked.

I could not say. She swore not to see him again.

How is she looking?

Tired and miserable, poor heart. Years and years older
than when you saw her last. Quite a staid, worn woman now.
'Tis the man--she can't stomach un, even now!

If Jude had been alive to see her, he would hardly have cared
for her any more, perhaps.

That's what we don't know.... Didn't he ever ask you to send for her,
since he came to see her in that strange way?

No. Quite the contrary. I offered to send, and he said I
was not to let her know how ill he was.

Did he forgive her?

Not as I know.

Well--poor little thing, 'tis to be believed she's found
forgiveness somewhere! She said she had found peace!

She may swear that on her knees to the holy cross upon her
necklace till she's hoarsebut it won't be true!" said Arabella.
She's never found peace since she left his arms, and never will
again till she's as he is now!