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A SIMPLE SOUL
By Gustave Flaubert
CHAPTER I
For half a century the housewives of Pont-l'Eveque had envied Madame
Aubain her servant Felicite.
For a hundred francs a yearshe cooked and did the houseworkwashed
ironedmendedharnessed the horsefattened the poultrymade the
butter and remained faithful to her mistress--although the latter was
by no means an agreeable person.
Madame Aubain had married a comely youth without any moneywho died
in the beginning of 1809leaving her with two young children and a
number of debts. She sold all her property excepting the farm of
Toucques and the farm of Geffossesthe income of which barely
amounted to 5000 francs; then she left her house in Saint-Melaine
and moved into a less pretentious one which had belonged to her
ancestors and stood back of the market-place. This housewith its
slate-covered roofwas built between a passage-way and a narrow
street that led to the river. The interior was so unevenly graded that
it caused people to stumble. A narrow hall separated the kitchen from
the parlourwhere Madame Aubain sat all day in a straw armchair near
the window. Eight mahogany chairs stood in a row against the white
wainscoting. An old pianostanding beneath a barometerwas covered
with a pyramid of old books and boxes. On either side of the yellow
marble mantelpiecein Louis XV. stylestood a tapestry armchair. The
clock represented a temple of Vesta; and the whole room smelled musty
as it was on a lower level than the garden.
On the first floor was Madame's bed-chambera large room papered in a
flowered design and containing the portrait of Monsieur dressed in the
costume of a dandy. It communicated with a smaller roomin which
there were two little cribswithout any mattresses. Nextcame the
parlour (always closed)filled with furniture covered with sheets.
Then a hallwhich led to the studywhere books and papers were piled
on the shelves of a book-case that enclosed three quarters of the big
black desk. Two panels were entirely hidden under pen-and-ink
sketchesGouache landscapes and Audran engravingsrelics of better
times and vanished luxury. On the second floora garret-window
lighted Felicite's roomwhich looked out upon the meadows.
She arose at daybreakin order to attend massand she worked without
interruption until night; thenwhen dinner was overthe dishes
cleared away and the door securely lockedshe would bury the log
under the ashes and fall asleep in front of the hearth with a rosary
in her hand. Nobody could bargain with greater obstinacyand as for
cleanlinessthe lustre on her brass sauce-pans was the envy and
despair of other servants. She was most economicaland when she ate
she would gather up crumbs with the tip of her fingerso that nothing
should be wasted of the loaf of bread weighing twelve pounds which was
baked especially for her and lasted three weeks.
Summer and winter she wore a dimity kerchief fastened in the back with
a pina cap which concealed her haira red skirtgrey stockings
and an apron with a bib like those worn by hospital nurses.
Her face was thin and her voice shrill. When she was twenty-fiveshe
looked forty. After she had passed fiftynobody could tell her age;
erect and silent alwaysshe resembled a wooden figure working
automatically.
CHAPTER II
Like every other womanshe had had an affair of the heart. Her
fatherwho was a masonwas killed by falling from a scaffolding.
Then her mother died and her sisters went their different ways; a
farmer took her inand while she was quite smalllet her keep cows
in the fields. She was clad in miserable ragsbeaten for the
slightest offence and finally dismissed for a theft of thirty sous
which she did not commit. She took service on another farm where she
tended the poultry; and as she was well thought of by her masterher
fellow-workers soon grew jealous.
One evening in August (she was then eighteen years old)they
persuaded her to accompany them to the fair at Colleville. She was
immediately dazzled by the noisethe lights in the treesthe
brightness of the dressesthe laces and gold crossesand the crowd
of people all hopping at the same time. She was standing modestly at a
distancewhen presently a young man of well-to-do appearancewho had
been leaning on the pole of a wagon and smoking his pipeapproached
herand asked her for a dance. He treated her to cider and cake
bought her a silk shawland thenthinking she had guessed his
purposeoffered to see her home. When they came to the end of a field
he threw her down brutally. But she grew frightened and screamedand
he walked off.
One eveningon the road leading to Beaumontshe came upon a wagon
loaded with hayand when she overtook itshe recognised Theodore. He
greeted her calmlyand asked her to forget what had happened between
themas it "was all the fault of the drink."
She did not know what to reply and wished to run away.
Presently he began to speak of the harvest and of the notables of the
village; his father had left Colleville and bought the farm of Les
Ecotsso that now they would be neighbours. "Ah!" she exclaimed.He
then added that his parents were looking around for a wife for him
but that hehimselfwas not so anxious and preferred to wait for a
girl who suited him. She hung her head. He then asked her whether she
had ever thought of marrying. She repliedsmilinglythat it was
wrong of him to make fun of her. "Oh! noI am in earnest" he said
and put his left arm around her waist while they sauntered along. The
air was softthe stars were brightand the huge load of hay
oscillated in front of themdrawn by four horses whose ponderous
hoofs raised clouds of dust. Without a word from their driver they
turned to the right. He kissed her again and she went home. The
following weekTheodore obtained meetings.
They met in yardsbehind walls or under isolated trees. She was not
ignorantas girls of well-to-do families are--for the animals had
instructed her;--but her reason and her instinct of honour kept her
from falling. Her resistance exasperated Theodore's love and so in
order to satisfy it (or perchance ingenuously)he offered to marry
her. She would not believe him at firstso he made solemn promises.
Butin a short time he mentioned a difficulty; the previous yearhis
parents had purchased a substitute for him; but any day he might be
drafted and the prospect of serving in the army alarmed him greatly.
To Felicite his cowardice appeared a proof of his love for herand
her devotion to him grew stronger. When she met himhe would torture
her with his fears and his entreaties. At lasthe announced that he
was going to the prefect himself for informationand would let her
know everything on the following Sundaybetween eleven o'clock and
midnight.
When the time grew nearshe ran to meet her lover.
But instead of Theodoreone of his friends was at the meeting-place.
He informed her that she would never see her sweetheart again; forin
order to escape the conscriptionhe had married a rich old woman
Madame Lehoussaisof Toucques.
The poor girl's sorrow was frightful. She threw herself on the ground
she cried and called on the Lordand wandered around desolately until
sunrise. Then she went back to the farmdeclared her intention of
leavingand at the end of the monthafter she had received her
wagesshe packed all her belongings in a handkerchief and started for
Pont-l'Eveque.
In front of the innshe met a woman wearing widow's weedsand upon
questioning herlearned that she was looking for a cook. The girl did
not know very muchbut appeared so willing and so modest in her
requirementsthat Madame Aubain finally said:
"Very wellI will give you a trial."
And half an hour later Felicite was installed in her house.
At first she lived in a constant anxiety that was caused by "the style
of the household" and the memory of "Monsieur" that hoveredover
everything. Paul and Virginiathe one aged sevenand the other
barely fourseemed made of some precious material; she carried them
pig-a-backand was greatly mortified when Madame Aubain forbade her
to kiss them every other minute.
But in spite of all thisshe was happy. The comfort of her new
surroundings had obliterated her sadness.
Every Thursdayfriends of Madame Aubain dropped in for a game of
cardsand it was Felicite's duty to prepare the table and heat the
foot-warmers. They arrived at exactly eight o'clock and departed
before eleven.
Every Monday morningthe dealer in second-hand goodswho lived under
the alley-wayspread out his wares on the sidewalk. Then the city
would be filled with a buzzing of voices in which the neighing of
horsesthe bleating of lambsthe grunting of pigscould be
distinguishedmingled with the sharp sound of wheels on the cobble-
stones. About twelve o'clockwhen the market was in full swingthere
appeared at the front door a tallmiddle-aged peasantwith a hooked
nose and a cap on the back of his head; it was Robelinthe farmer of
Geffosses. Shortly afterwards came Liebardthe farmer of Toucques
shortrotund and ruddywearing a grey jacket and spurred boots.
Both men brought their landlady either chickens or cheese. Felicite
would invariably thwart their ruses and they held her in great
respect.
At various timesMadame Aubain received a visit from the Marquis de
Gremanvilleone of her uncleswho was ruined and lived at Falaise on
the remainder of his estates. He always came at dinner-time and
brought an ugly poodle with himwhose paws soiled their furniture. In
spite of his efforts to appear a man of breeding (he even went so far
as to raise his hat every time he said "My deceased father")his
habits got the better of himand he would fill his glass a little too
often and relate broad stories. Felicite would show him out very
politely and say: "You have had enough for this timeMonsieur de
Gremanville! Hoping to see you again!" and would close the door.
She opened it gladly for Monsieur Bouraisa retired lawyer. His bald
head and white cravatthe ruffling of his shirthis flowing brown
coatthe manner in which he took snuffhis whole personin fact
produced in her the kind of awe which we feel when we see
extraordinary persons. As he managed Madame's estateshe spent hours
with her in Monsieur's study; he was in constant fear of being
compromisedhad a great regard for the magistracy and some
pretensions to learning.
In order to facilitate the children's studieshe presented them with
an engraved geography which represented various scenes of the world;
cannibals with feather head-dressesa gorilla kidnapping a young
girlArabs in the deserta whale being harpoonedetc.
Paul explained the pictures to Felicite. Andin factthis was her
only literary education.
The children's studies were under the direction of a poor devil
employed at the town-hallwho sharpened his pocket-knife on his boots
and was famous for his penmanship.
When the weather was finethey went to Geffosses. The house was built
in the centre of the sloping yard; and the sea looked like a grey spot
in the distance. Felicite would take slices of cold meat from the
lunch basket and they would sit down and eat in a room next to the
dairy. This room was all that remained of a cottage that had been torn
down. The dilapidated wall-paper trembled in the drafts. Madame
Aubainoverwhelmed by recollectionswould hang her headwhile the
children were afraid to open their mouths. Then"Why don't you go and
play?" their mother would say; and they would scamper off.
Paul would go to the old barncatch birdsthrow stones into the
pondor pound the trunks of the trees with a stick till they
resounded like drums. Virginia would feed the rabbits and run to pick
the wild flowers in the fieldsand her flying legs would disclose her
little embroidered pantalettes. One autumn eveningthey struck out
for home through the meadows. The new moon illumined part of the sky
and a mist hovered like a veil over the sinuosities of the river.
Oxenlying in the pasturesgazed mildly at the passing persons. In
the third fieldhoweverseveral of them got up and surrounded them.
"Don't be afraid" cried Felicite; and murmuring a sort of lamentshe
passed her hand over the back of the nearest ox; he turned away and
the others followed. But when they came to the next pasturethey
heard frightful bellowing.
It was a bull which was hidden from them by the fog. He advanced
towards the two womenand Madame Aubain prepared to flee for her
life. "Nono! not so fast" warned Felicite. Still they hurriedon
for they could hear the noisy breathing of the bull behind them. His
hoofs pounded the grass like hammersand presently he began to
gallop! Felicite turned around and threw patches of grass in his eyes.
He hung his headshook his horns and bellowed with fury. Madame
Aubain and the childrenhuddled at the end of the fieldwere trying
to jump over the ditch. Felicite continued to back before the bull
blinding him with dirtwhile she shouted to them to make haste.
Madame Aubain finally slid into the ditchafter shoving first
Virginia and then Paul into itand though she stumbled several times
she managedby dint of courageto climb the other side of it.
The bull had driven Felicite up against a fence; the foam from his
muzzle flew in her face and in another minute he would have
disembowelled her. She had just time to slip between two bars and the
huge animalthwartedpaused.
For yearsthis occurrence was a topic of conversation in Pont-
l'Eveque. But Felicite took no credit to herselfand probably never
knew that she had been heroic.
Virginia occupied her thoughts solelyfor the shock she had sustained
gave her a nervous affectionand the physicianM. Poupart
prescribed the salt-water bathing at Trouville. In those days
Trouville was not greatly patronised. Madame Aubain gathered
informationconsulted Bouraisand made preparations as if they were
going on an extended trip.
The baggage was sent the day before on Liebard's cart. On the
following morninghe brought around two horsesone of which had a
woman's saddle with a velveteen back to itwhile on the crupper of
the other was a rolled shawl that was to be used for a seat. Madame
Aubain mounted the second horsebehind Liebard. Felicite took charge
of the little girland Paul rode M. Lechaptois' donkeywhich had
been lent for the occasion on the condition that they should be
careful of it.
The road was so bad that it took two hours to cover the eight miles.
The two horses sank knee-deep into the mud and stumbled into ditches;
sometimes they had to jump over them. In certain placesLiebard's
mare stopped abruptly. He waited patiently till she started againand
talked of the people whose estates bordered the roadadding his own
moral reflections to the outline of their histories. Thuswhen they
were passing through Toucquesand came to some windows draped with
nasturtiumshe shrugged his shoulders and said: "There's a woman
Madame Lehoussaiswhoinstead of taking a young man--" Felicite
could not catch what followed; the horses began to trotthe donkey to
gallopand they turned into a lane; then a gate swung opentwo farm-
hands appeared and they all dismounted at the very threshold of the
farm-house.
Mother Liebardwhen she caught sight of her mistresswas lavish with
joyful demonstrations. She got up a lunch which comprised a leg of
muttontripesausagesa chicken fricasseesweet cidera fruit
tart and some preserved prunes; then to all this the good woman added
polite remarks about Madamewho appeared to be in better health
Mademoisellewho had grown to be "superb" and Paulwho hadbecome
singularly sturdy; she spoke also of their deceased grandparentswhom
the Liebards had knownfor they had been in the service of the family
for several generations.
Like its ownersthe farm had an ancient appearance. The beams of the
ceiling were mouldythe walls black with smoke and the windows grey
with dust. The oak sideboard was filled with all sorts of utensils
platespitcherstin bowlswolf-traps. The children laughed when
they saw a huge syringe. There was not a tree in the yard that did not
have mushrooms growing around its footor a bunch of mistletoe
hanging in its branches. Several of the trees had been blown downbut
they had started to grow in the middle and all were laden with
quantities of apples. The thatched roofswhich were of unequal
thicknesslooked like brown velvet and could resist the fiercest
gales. But the wagon-shed was fast crumbling to ruins. Madame Aubain
said that she would attend to itand then gave orders to have the
horses saddled.
It took another thirty minutes to reach Trouville. The little caravan
dismounted in order to pass Les Ecoresa cliff that overhangs the
bayand a few minutes laterat the end of the dockthey entered the
yard of the Golden Lamban inn kept by Mother David.
During the first few daysVirginia felt strongerowing to the change
of air and the action of the sea-baths. She took them in her little
chemiseas she had no bathing suitand afterwards her nurse dressed
her in the cabin of a customs officerwhich was used for that purpose
by other bathers.
In the afternoonthey would take the donkey and go to the Roches-
Noiresnear Hennequeville. The path led at first through undulating
groundsand thence to a plateauwhere pastures and tilled fields
alternated. At the edge of the roadmingling with the bramblesgrew
holly bushesand here and there stood large dead trees whose branches
traced zigzags upon the blue sky.
Ordinarilythey rested in a field facing the oceanwith Deauville on
their leftand Havre on their right. The sea glittered brightly in
the sun and was as smooth as a mirrorand so calm that they could
scarcely distinguish its murmur; sparrows chirped joyfully and the
immense canopy of heaven spread over it all. Madame Aubain brought out
her sewingand Virginia amused herself by braiding reeds; Felicite
wove lavender blossomswhile Paul was bored and wished to go home.
Sometimes they crossed the Toucques in a boatand started to hunt for
sea-shells. The outgoing tide exposed star-fish and sea-urchinsand
the children tried to catch the flakes of foam which the wind blew
away. The sleepy waves lapping the sand unfurled themselves along the
shore that extended as far as the eye could seebut where land began
it was limited by the downs which separated it from the "Swamp" a
large meadow shaped like a hippodrome. When they went home that way
Trouvilleon the slope of a hill belowgrew larger and larger as
they advancedandwith all its houses of unequal heightseemed to
spread out before them in a sort of giddy confusion.
When the heat was too oppressivethey remained in their rooms. The
dazzling sunlight cast bars of light between the shutters. Not a sound
in the villagenot a soul on the sidewalk. This silence intensified
the tranquility of everything. In the distancethe hammers of some
calkers pounded the hull of a shipand the sultry breeze brought them
an odour of tar.
The principal diversion consisted in watching the return of the
fishing-smacks. As soon as they passed the beaconsthey began to ply
to windward. The sails were lowered to one third of the mastsand
with their fore-sails swelled up like balloons they glided over the
waves and anchored in the middle of the harbour. Then they crept up
alongside of the dock and the sailors threw the quivering fish over
the side of the boat; a line of carts was waiting for themand women
with white caps sprang forward to receive the baskets and embrace
their men-folk.
One dayone of them spoke to Felicitewhoafter a little while
returned to the house gleefully. She had found one of her sistersand
presently Nastasie Barettewife of Lerouxmade her appearance
holding an infant in her armsanother child by the handwhile on her
left was a little cabin-boy with his hands in his pockets and his cap
on his ear.
At the end of fifteen minutesMadame Aubain bade her go.
They always hung around the kitchenor approached Felicite when she
and the children were out walking. The husbandhoweverdid not show
himself.
Felicite developed a great fondness for them; she bought them a stove
some shirts and a blanket; it was evident that they exploited her. Her
foolishness annoyed Madame Aubainwhomoreover did not like the
nephew's familiarityfor he called her son "thou";--andasVirginia
began to cough and the season was overshe decided to return to Pont-
l'Eveque.
Monsieur Bourais assisted her in the choice of a college. The one at
Caen was considered the best. So Paul was sent away and bravely said
good-bye to them allfor he was glad to go to live in a house where
he would have boy companions.
Madame Aubain resigned herself to the separation from her son because
it was unavoidable. Virginia brooded less and less over it. Felicite
regretted the noise he madebut soon a new occupation diverted her
mind; beginning from Christmasshe accompanied the little girl to her
catechism lesson every day.
CHAPTER III
After she had made a curtsey at the thresholdshe would walk up the
aisle between the double lines of chairsopen Madame Aubain's pew
sit down and look around.
Girls and boysthe former on the rightthe latter on the left-hand
side of the churchfilled the stalls of the choir; the priest stood
beside the reading-desk; on one stained window of the side-aisle the
Holy Ghost hovered over the Virgin; on another oneMary knelt before
the Child Jesusand behind the altera wooden group represented
Saint Michael felling the dragon.
The priest first read a condensed lesson of sacred history. Felicite
evoked Paradisethe Floodthe Tower of Babelthe blazing cities
the dying nationsthe shattered idols; and out of this she developed
a great respect for the Almighty and a great fear of His wrath. Then
when she had listened to the Passionshe wept. Why had they crucified
Him who loved little childrennourished the peoplemade the blind
seeand whoout of humilityhad wished to be born among the poor
in a stable? The sowingsthe harveststhe wine-pressesall those
familiar things which the Scriptures mentionformed a part of her
life; the word of God sanctified them; and she loved the lambs with
increased tenderness for the sake of the Lamband the doves because
of the Holy Ghost.
She found it hardhoweverto think of the latter as a personfor
was it not a birda flameand sometimes only a breath? Perhaps it is
its light that at night hovers over swampsits breath that propels
the cloudsits voice that renders church-bells harmonious. And
Felicite worshipped devoutlywhile enjoying the coolness and the
stillness of the church.
As for the dogmashe could not understand it and did not even try.
The priest discoursedthe children recitedand she went to sleep
only to awaken with a start when they were leaving the church and
their wooden shoes clattered on the stone pavement.
In this wayshe learned her catechismher religious education having
been neglected in her youth; and thenceforth she imitated all
Virginia's religious practicesfasted when she didand went to
confession with her. At the Corpus-Christi Day they both decorated an
altar.
She worried in advance over Virginia's first communion. She fussed
about the shoesthe rosarythe book and the gloves. With what
nervousness she helped the mother dress the child!
During the entire ceremonyshe felt anguished. Monsieur Bourais hid
part of the choir from viewbut directly in front of herthe flock
of maidenswearing white wreaths over their lowered veilsformed a
snow-white fieldand she recognised her darling by the slenderness of
her neck and her devout attitude. The bell tinkled. All the heads bent
and there was a silence. Thenat the peals of the organ the singers
and the worshippers struck up the Agnes Dei; the boys' procession
began; behind them came the girls. With clasped handsthey advanced
step by step to the lighted altarknelt at the first stepreceived
one by one the Hostand returned to their seats in the same order.
When Virginia's turn cameFelicite leaned forward to watch herand
through that imagination which springs from true affectionshe at
once became the childwhose face and dress became herswhose heart
beat in her bosomand when Virginia opened her mouth and closed her
lidsshe did likewise and came very near fainting.
The following dayshe presented herself early at the church so as to
receive communion from the cure. She took it with the proper feeling
but did not experience the same delight as on the previous day.
Madame Aubain wished to make an accomplished girl of her daughter; and
as Guyot could not teach English or musicshe decided to send her to
the Ursulines at Honfleur.
The child made no objectionbut Felicite sighed and thought Madame
was heartless. Thenshe thought that perhaps her mistress was right
as these things were beyond her sphere. Finallyone dayan old
fiacre stopped in front of the door and a nun stepped out. Felicite
put Virginia's luggage on top of the carriagegave the coachman some
instructionsand smuggled six jars of jama dozen pears and a bunch
of violets under the seat.
At the last minuteVirginia had a fit of sobbing; she embraced her
mother again and againwhile the latter kissed her on the forehead
and said: "Nowbe bravebe brave!" The step was pulled up and the
fiacre rumbled off.
Then Madame Aubain had a fainting spelland that evening all her
friendsincluding the two LormeausMadame Lechaptoisthe ladies
RochefeuilleMessieurs de Houppeville and Bouraiscalled on her and
tendered their sympathy.
At first the separation proved very painful to her. But her daughter
wrote her three times a week and the other days sheherselfwrote to
Virginia. Then she walked in the gardenread a littleand in this
way managed to fill out the emptiness of the hours.
Each morningout of habitFelicite entered Virginia's room and gazed
at the walls. She missed combing her hairlacing her shoestucking
her in her bedand the bright face and little hand when they used to
go out for a walk. In order to occupy herself she tried to make lace.
But her clumsy fingers broke the threads; she had no heart for
anythinglost her sleep and "wasted away" as she put it.
In order to have some distractionshe asked leave to receive the
visits of her nephew Victor.
He would come on Sundayafter churchwith ruddy cheeks and bared
chestbringing with him the scent of the country. She would set the
table and they would sit down opposite each otherand eat their
dinner; she ate as little as possibleherselfto avoid any extra
expensebut would stuff him so with food that he would finally go to
sleep. At the first stroke of vespersshe would wake him upbrush
his trouserstie his cravat and walk to church with himleaning on
his arm with maternal pride.
His parents always told him to get something out of hereither a
package of brown sugaror soapor brandyand sometimes even money.
He brought her his clothes to mendand she accepted the task gladly
because it meant another visit from him.
In Augusthis father took him on a coasting-vessel.
It was vacation time and the arrival of the children consoled
Felicite. But Paul was capriciousand Virginia was growing too old to
be thee-and-thou'da fact which seemed to produce a sort of
embarrassment in their relations.
Victor went successively to Morlaixto Dunkirkand to Brighton;
whenever he returned from a trip he would bring her a present. The
first time it was a box of shells; the seconda coffee-cup; the
thirda big doll of ginger-bread. He was growing handsomehad a good
figurea tiny moustachekind eyesand a little leather cap that sat
jauntily on the back of his head. He amused his aunt by telling her
stories mingled with nautical expressions.
One Mondaythe 14th of July1819 (she never forgot the date)Victor
announced that he had been engaged on a merchant-vessel and that in
two days he would take the steamer at Honfleur and join his sailer
which was going to start from Havre very soon. Perhaps he might be
away two years.
The prospect of his departure filled Felicite with despairand in
order to bid him farewellon Wednesday nightafter Madame's dinner
she put on her pattens and trudged the four miles that separated Pont-
l'Eveque from Honfleur.
When she reached the Calvaryinstead of turning to the rightshe
turned to the left and lost herself in coal-yards; she had to retrace
her steps; some people she spoke to advised her to hasten. She walked
helplessly around the harbour filled with vesselsand knocked against
hawsers. Presently the ground sloped abruptlylights flitted to and
froand she thought all at once that she had gone mad when she saw
some horses in the sky.
Otherson the edge of the dockneighed at the sight of the ocean. A
derrick pulled them up in the airand dumped them into a boatwhere
passengers were bustling about among barrels of ciderbaskets of
cheese and bags of meal; chickens cackledthe captain swore and a
cabin-boy rested on the railingapparently indifferent to his
surroundings. Felicitewho did not recognise himkept shouting:
"Victor!" He suddenly raised his eyesbut while she was preparingto
rush up to himthey withdrew the gangplank.
The packettowed by singing womenglided out of the harbour. Her
hull squeaked and the heavy waves beat up against her sides. The sail
had turned and nobody was visible;--and on the oceansilvered by the
light of the moonthe vessel formed a black spot that grew dimmer and
dimmerand finally disappeared.
When Felicite passed the Calvary againshe felt as if she must
entrust that which was dearest to her to the Lord; and for a long
while she prayedwith uplifted eyes and a face wet with tears. The
city was sleeping; some customs officials were taking the air; and the
water kept pouring through the holes of the dam with a deafening roar.
The town clock struck two.
The parlour of the convent would not open until morningand surely a
delay would annoy Madamesoin spite of her desire to see the other
childshe went home. The maids of the inn were just arising when she
reached Pont-l'Eveque.
So the poor boy would be on the ocean for months! His previous trips
had not alarmed her. One can come back from England and Brittany; but
Americathe coloniesthe islandswere all lost in an uncertain
region at the very end of the world.
From that time onFelicite thought solely of her nephew. On warm days
she feared he would suffer from thirstand when it stormedshe was
afraid he would be struck by lightning. When she harkened to the wind
that rattled in the chimney and dislodged the tiles on the roofshe
imagined that he was being buffeted by the same stormperched on top
of a shattered mastwith his whole body bend backward and covered
with sea-foam; or--these were recollections of the engraved geography
--he was being devoured by savagesor captured in a forest by apes
or dying on some lonely coast. She never mentioned her anxieties
however.
Madame Aubain worried about her daughter.
The sisters thought that Virginia was affectionate but delicate. The
slightest emotion enervated her. She had to give up her piano lessons.
Her mother insisted upon regular letters from the convent. One
morningwhen the postman failed to comeshe grew impatient and began
to pace to and frofrom her chair to the window. It was really
extraordinary! No news since four days!
In order to console her mistress by her own exampleFelicite said:
"WhyMadameI haven't had any news since six months!--"
"From whom?--"
The servant replied gently:
"Why--from my nephew."
"Ohyesyour nephew!" And shrugging her shouldersMadame Aubain
continued to pace the floor as if to say: "I did not think of it.--
BesidesI do not carea cabin-boya pauper!--but my daughter--what
a difference! just think of it!--"
Felicitealthough she had been reared roughlywas very indignant.
Then she forgot about it.
It appeared quite natural to her that one should lose one's head about
Virginia.
The two children were of equal importance; they were united in her
heart and their fate was to be the same.
The chemist informed her that Victor's vessel had reached Havana. He
had read the information in a newspaper.
Felicite imagined that Havana was a place where people did nothing but
smokeand that Victor walked around among negroes in a cloud of
tobacco. Could a personin case of needreturn by land? How far was
it from Pont-l'Eveque? In order to learn these thingsshe questioned
Monsieur Bourais. He reached for his map and began some explanations
concerning longitudesand smiled with superiority at Felicite's
bewilderment. At lasthe took a pencil and pointed out an
imperceptible black point in the scallops of an oval blotchadding:
"There it is." She bent over the map; the maze of coloured lineshurt
her eyes without enlightening her; and when Bourais asked her what
puzzled hershe requested him to show her the house Victor lived in.
Bourais threw up his handssneezedand then laughed uproariously;
such ignorance delighted his soul; but Felicite failed to understand
the cause of his mirthshe whose intelligence was so limited that she
perhaps expected to see even the picture of her nephew!
It was two weeks later that Liebard came into the kitchen at market-
timeand handed her a letter from her brother-in-law. As neither of
them could readshe called upon her mistress.
Madame Aubainwho was counting the stitches of her knittinglaid her
work down beside heropened the letterstartedand in a low tone
and with a searching look said: "They tell you of a--misfortune. Your
nephew--"
He had died. The letter told nothing more.
Felicite dropped on a chairleaned her head against the backand
closed her lids; presently they grew pink. Thenwith drooping head
inert hands and staring eyes she repeated at intervals:
"Poor little chap! poor little chap!"
Liebard watched her and sighed. Madame Aubain was trembling.
She proposed to the girl to go to see her sister in Trouville.
With a single motionFelicite replied that it was not necessary.
There was a silence. Old Liebard thought it about time for him to take
leave.
Then Felicite uttered:
"They have no sympathythey do not care!"
Her head fell forward againand from time to timemechanicallyshe
toyed with the long knitting-needles on the work-table.
Some women passed through the yard with a basket of wet clothes.
When she saw them through the windowshe suddenly remembered her own
wash; as she had soaked it the day beforeshe must go and rinse it
now. So she arose and left the room.
Her tub and her board were on the bank of the Toucques. She threw a
heap of clothes on the groundrolled up her sleeves and grasped her
bat; and her loud pounding could be heard in the neighbouring gardens.
The meadows were emptythe breeze wrinkled the streamat the bottom
of which were long grasses that looked like the hair of corpses
floating in the water. She restrained her sorrow and was very brave
until night; butwhen she had gone to her own roomshe gave way to
itburying her face in the pillow and pressing her two fists against
her temples.
A long while afterwardshe learned through Victor's captainthe
circumstances which surrounded his death. At the hospital they had
bled him too muchtreating him for yellow fever. Four doctors held
him at one time. He died almost instantlyand the chief surgeon had
said:
"Here goes another one!"
His parents had always treated him barbarously; she preferred not to
see them againand they made no advanceseither from forgetfulness
or out of innate hardness.
Virginia was growing weaker.
A coughcontinual feveroppressive breathing and spots on her cheeks
indicated some serious trouble. Monsieur Popart had advised a sojourn
in Provence. Madame Aubain decided that they would goand she would
have had her daughter come home at oncehad it not been for the
climate of Pont-l'Eveque.
She made an arrangement with a livery-stable man who drove her over to
the convent every Tuesday. In the garden there was a terracefrom
which the view extends to the Seine. Virginia walked in itleaning on
her mother's arm and treading the dead vine leaves. Sometimes the sun
shining through the cloudsmade her blink her lidswhen she gazed at
the sails in the distanceand let her eyes roam over the horizon from
the chateau of Tancarville to the lighthouses of Havre. Then they
rested on the arbour. Her mother had bought a little cask of fine
Malaga wineand Virginialaughing at the idea of becoming
intoxicatedwould drink a few drops of itbut never more.
Her strength returned. Autumn passed. Felicite began to reassure
Madame Aubain. Butone eveningwhen she returned home after an
errandshe met M. Boupart's coach in front of the door; M. Boupart
himself was standing in the vestibule and Madame Aubain was tying the
strings of her bonnet. "Give me my foot-warmermy purse and my
gloves; and be quick about it" she said.
Virginia had congestion of the lungs; perhaps it was desperate.
"Not yet" said the physicianand both got into the carriagewhile
the snow fell in thick flakes. It was almost night and very cold.
Felicite rushed to the church to light a candle. Then she ran after
the coach which she overtook after an hour's chasesprang up behind
and held on to the straps. But suddenly a thought crossed her mind:
"The yard had been left open; supposing that burglars got in!" And
down she jumped.
The next morningat daybreakshe called at the doctor's. He had been
homebut had left again. Then she waited at the innthinking that
strangers might bring her a letter. At lastat daylight she took the
diligence for Lisieux.
The convent was at the end of a steep and narrow street. When she
arrived about at the middle of itshe heard strange noisesa funeral
knell. "It must be for some one else" thought she; and she pulledthe
knocker violently.
After several minutes had elapsedshe heard footstepsthe door was
half opened and a nun appeared. The good sisterwith an air of
compunctiontold her that "she had just passed away." And at thesame
time the tolling of Saint-Leonard's increased.
Felicite reached the second floor. Already at the thresholdshe
caught sight of Virginia lying on her backwith clasped handsher
mouth open and her head thrown backbeneath a black crucifix inclined
toward herand stiff curtains which were less white than her face.
Madame Aubain lay at the foot of the couchclasping it with her arms
and uttering groans of agony. The Mother Superior was standing on the
right side of the bed. The three candles on the bureau made red blurs
and the windows were dimmed by the fog outside. The nuns carried
Madame Aubain from the room.
For two nightsFelicite never left the corpse. She would repeat the
same prayerssprinkle holy water over the sheetsget upcome back
to the bed and contemplate the body. At the end of the first vigil
she noticed that the face had taken on a yellow tingethe lips grew
bluethe nose grew pinchedthe eyes were sunken. She kissed them
several times and would not have been greatly astonished had Virginia
opened them; to souls like this the supernatural is always quite
simple. She washed herwrapped her in a shroudput her into the
casketlaid a wreath of flowers on her head and arranged her curls.
They were blond and of an extraordinary length for her age. Felicite
cut off a big lock and put half of it into her bosomresolving never
to part with it.
The body was taken to Pont-l'Evequeaccording to Madame Aubain's
wishes; she followed the hearse in a closed carriage.
After the ceremony it took three quarters of an hour to reach the
cemetery. Paulsobbingheaded the procession; Monsieur Bourais
followedand then came the principle inhabitants of the townthe
women covered with black capesand Felicite. The memory of her
nephewand the thought that she had not been able to render him these
honoursmade her doubly unhappyand she felt as if he were being
buried with Virginia.
Madame Aubain's grief was uncontrollable. At first she rebelled
against Godthinking that he was unjust to have taken away her child
--she who had never done anything wrongand whose conscience was so
pure! But no! she ought to have taken her South. Other doctors would
have saved her. She accused herselfprayed to be able to join her
childand cried in the midst of her dreams. Of the latterone more
especially haunted her. Her husbanddressed like a sailorhad come
back from a long voyageand with tears in his eyes told her that he
had received the order to take Virginia away. Then they both consulted
about a hiding-place.
Once she came in from the gardenall upset. A moment before (and she
showed the place)the father and daughter had appeared to herone
after the other; they did nothing but look at her.
During several months she remained inert in her room. Felicite scolded
her gently; she must keep up for her son and also for the other one
for "her memory."
"Her memory!" replied Madame Aubainas if she were just awakening
"Oh! yesyesyou do not forget her!" This was an allusion to the
cemetery where she had been expressly forbidden to go
But Felicite went there every day. At four o'clock exactlyshe would
go through the townclimb the hillopen the gate and arrive at
Virginia's tomb. It was a small column of pink marble with a flat
stone at its baseand it was surrounded by a little plot enclosed by
chains. The flower-beds were bright with blossoms. Felicite watered
their leavesrenewed the graveland knelt on the ground in order to
till the earth properly. When Madame Aubain was able to visit the
cemetery she felt very much relieved and consoled.
Years passedall alike and marked by no other events than the return
of the great church holidays: EasterAssumptionAll Saints' Day.
Household happenings constituted the only data to which in later years
they often referred. Thusin 1825workmen painted the vestibule; in
1827a portion of the roof almost killed a man by falling into the
yard. In the summer of 1828it was Madame's turn to offer the
hallowed bread; at that timeBourais disappeared mysteriously; and
the old acquaintancesGuyotLiebardMadame LechaptoisRobelinold
Gremanvilleparalysed since a long timepassed away one by one. One
nightthe driver of the mail in Pont-l'Eveque announced the
Revolution of July. A few days afterward a new sub-prefect was
nominatedthe Baron de Larsonniereex-consul in Americawho
besides his wifehad his sister-in-law and her three grown daughters
with him. They were often seen on their lawndressed in loose
blousesand they had a parrot and a negro servant. Madame Aubain
received a callwhich she returned promptly. As soon as she caught
sight of themFelicite would run and notify her mistress. But only
one thing was capable of arousing her: a letter from her son.
He could not follow any profession as he was absorbed in drinking. His
mother paid his debts and he made fresh ones; and the sighs that she
heaved while she knitted at the window reached the ears of Felicite
who was spinning in the kitchen.
They walked in the garden togetheralways speaking of Virginiaand
asking each other if such and such a thing would have pleased herand
what she would probably have said on this or that occasion.
All her little belongings were put away in a closet of the room which
held the two little beds. But Madame Aubain looked them over as little
as possible. One summer dayhowevershe resigned herself to the task
and when she opened the closet the moths flew out.
Virginia's frocks were hung under a shelf where there were three
dollssome hoopsa doll-houseand a basic which she had used.
Felicite and Madame Aubain also took out the skirtsthe
handkerchiefsand the stockings and spread them on the bedsbefore
putting them away again. The sun fell on the piteous things
disclosing their spots and the creases formed by the motions of the
body. The atmosphere was warm and blueand a blackbird trilled in the
garden; everything seemed to live in happiness. They found a little
hat of soft brown plushbut it was entirely moth-eaten. Felicite
asked for it. Their eyes met and filled with tears; at last the
mistress opened her arms and the servant threw herself against her
breast and they hugged each other and giving vent to their grief in a
kiss which equalised them for a moment.
It was the first time that this had ever happenedfor Madame Aubain
was not of an expansive nature. Felicite was as grateful for it as if
it had been some favourand thenceforth loved her with animal-like
devotion and a religious veneration.
Her kind-heartedness developed. When she heard the drums of a marching
regiment passing through the streetshe would stand in the doorway
with a jug of cider and give the soldiers a drink. She nursed cholera
victims. She protected Polish refugeesand one of them even declared
that he wished to marry her. But they quarrelledfor one morning when
she returned from the Angelus she found him in the kitchen coolly
eating a dish which he had prepared for himself during her absence.
After the Polish refugeescame Colmichean old man who was credited
with having committed frightful misdeeds in '93. He lived near the
river in the ruins of a pig-sty. The urchins peeped at him through the
cracks in the walls and threw stones that fell on his miserable bed
where he lay gasping with catarrhwith long hairinflamed eyelids
and a tumour as big as his head on one arm.
She got him some linentried to clean his hovel and dreamed of
installing him in the bake-house without his being in Madame's way.
When the cancer brokeshe dressed it every day; sometimes she brought
him some cake and placed him in the sun on a bundle of hay; and the
poor old creaturetrembling and droolingwould thank her in his
broken voiceand put out his hands whenever she left him. Finally he
died; and she had a mass said for the repose of his soul.
That day a great joy came to her: at dinner-timeMadame de
Larsonniere's servant called with the parrotthe cageand the perch
and chain and lock. A note from the baroness told Madame Aubain that
as her husband had been promoted to a prefecturethey were leaving
that nightand she begged her to accept the bird as a remembrance and
a token of her esteem.
Since a long time the parrot had been on Felicite's mindbecause he
came from Americawhich reminded her of Victorand she had
approached the negro on the subject.
Once evenshe had said:
"How glad Madame would be to have him!"
The man had repeated this remark to his mistress whonot being able
to keep the birdtook this means of getting rid of it.
CHAPTER IV
He was called Loulou. His body was greenhis head bluethe tips of
his wings were pink and his breast was golden.
But he had the tiresome tricks of biting his perchpulling his
feathers outscattering refuse and spilling the water of his bath.
Madame Aubain grew tired of him and gave him to Felicite for good.
She undertook his educationand soon he was able to repeat: "Pretty
boy! Your servantsir! I salute youMarie!" His perch was placed
near the door and several persons were astonished that he did not
answer to the name of "Jacquot" for every parrot is calledJacquot.
They called him a goose and a logand these taunts were like so many
dagger thrusts to Felicite. Strange stubbornness of the bird which
would not talk when people watched him!
Neverthelesshe sought society; for on Sundaywhen the ladies
RochefeuilleMonsieur de Houppeville and the new habituesOnfroy
the chemistMonsieur Varin and Captain Mathieudropped in for their
game of cardshe struck the window-panes with his wings and made such
a racket that it was impossible to talk.
Bourais' face must have appeared very funny to Loulou. As soon as he
saw him he would begin to roar. His voice re-echoed in the yardand
the neighbours would come to the windows and begin to laughtoo; and
in order that the parrot might not see himMonsieur Bourais edged
along the wallpushed his hat over his eyes to hide his profileand
entered by the garden doorand the looks he gave the bird lacked
affection. Loulouhaving thrust his head into the butcher-boy's
basketreceived a slapand from that time he always tried to nip his
enemy. Fabu threatened to ring his neckalthough he was not cruelly
inclinednotwithstanding his big whiskers and tattooings. On the
contraryhe rather liked the birdandout of devilrytried to
teach him oaths. Felicitewhom his manner alarmedput Loulou in the
kitchentook off his chain and let him walk all over the house.
When he went downstairshe rested his beak on the stepslifted his
right foot and then his left one; but his mistress feared that such
feats would give him vertigo. He became ill and was unable to eat.
There was a small growth under his tongue like those chickens are
sometimes afflicted with. Felicite pulled it off with her nails and
cured him. One dayPaul was imprudent enough to blow the smoke of his
cigar in his face; another timeMadame Lormeau was teasing him with
the tip of her umbrella and he swallowed the tip. Finally he got lost.
She had put him on the grass to cool him and went away only for a
second; when she returnedshe found no parrot! She hunted among the
busheson the bank of the riverand on the roofswithout paying any
attention to Madame Aubain who screamed at her: "Take care! you must
be insane!" Then she searched every garden in Pont-l'Eveque and
stopped the passers-by to inquire of them: "Haven't you perhaps seen
my parrot?" To those who had never seen the parrotshe described him
minutely. Suddenly she thought she saw something green fluttering
behind the mills at the foot of the hill. But when she was at the top
of the hill she could not see it. A hod-carrier told her that he had
just seen the bird in Saint-Melainein Mother Simon's store. She
rushed to the place. The people did not know what she was talking
about. At last she came homeexhaustedwith her slippers worn to
shredsand despair in her heart. She sat down on the bench near
Madame and was telling of her search when presently a light weight
dropped on her shoulder--Loulou! What the deuce had he been doing?
Perhaps he had just taken a little walk around the town!
She did not easily forget her scare; in factshe never got over it.
In consequence of a coldshe caught a sore throat; and some time
later she had an earache. Three years later she was stone deafand
spoke in a very loud voice even in church. Although her sins might
have been proclaimed throughout the diocese without any shame to
herselfor ill effects to the communitythe cure thought it
advisable to receive her confession in the vestry-room.
Imaginary buzzings also added to her bewilderment. Her mistress often
said to her: "My goodnesshow stupid you are!" and she wouldanswer:
"YesMadame" and look for something.
The narrow circle of her ideas grew more restricted than it already
was; the bellowing of the oxenthe chime of the bells no longer
reached her intelligence. All things moved silentlylike ghosts. Only
one noise penetrated her ears; the parrot's voice.
As if to divert her mindhe reproduced for her the tick-tack of the
spit in the kitchenthe shrill cry of the fish-vendorsthe saw of
the carpenter who had a shop oppositeand when the door-bell ranghe
would imitate Madame Aubain: "Felicite! go to the front door."
They held conversations togetherLoulou repeating the three phrases
of his repertory over and overFelicite replying by words that had no
greater meaningbut in which she poured out her feelings. In her
isolationthe parrot was almost a sona love. He climbed upon her
fingerspecked at her lipsclung to her shawland when she rocked
her head to and fro like a nursethe big wings of her cap and the
wings of the bird flapped in unison. When clouds gathered on the
horizon and the thunder rumbledLoulou would screamperhaps because
he remembered the storms in his native forests. The dripping of the
rain would excite him to frenzy; he flapped aroundstruck the ceiling
with his wingsupset everythingand would finally fly into the
garden to play. Then he would come back into the roomlight on one of
the andironsand hop around in order to get dry.
One morning during the terrible winter of 1837when she had put him
in front of the fire-place on account of the coldshe found him dead
in his cagehanging to the wire bars with his head down. He had
probably died of congestion. But she believed that he had been
poisonedand although she had no proofs whateverher suspicion
rested on Fabu.
She wept so sorely that her mistress said: "Why don't you have him
stuffed?"
She asked the advice of the chemistwho had always been kind to the
bird.
He wrote to Havre for her. A certain man named Fellacher consented to
do the work. Butas the diligence driver often lost parcels entrusted
to himFelicite resolved to take her pet to Honfleur herself.
Leafless apple-trees lined the edges of the road. The ditches were
covered with ice. The dogs on the neighbouring farms barked; and
Felicitewith her hands beneath her capeher little black sabots and
her baskettrotted along nimbly in the middle of the sidewalk. She
crossed the forestpassed by the Haut-Cheneand reached Saint-
Gatien.
Behind herin a cloud of dust and impelled by the steep inclinea
mail-coach drawn by galloping horses advanced like a whirlwind. When
he saw a woman in the middle of the roadwho did not get out of the
waythe driver stood up in his seat and shouted to her and so did the
postilionwhile the four horseswhich he could not hold back
accelerated their pace; the two leaders were almost upon her; with a
jerk of the reins he threw them to one sidebutfurious at the
incidenthe lifted his big whip and lashed her from her head to her
feet with such violence that she fell to the ground unconscious.
Her first thoughtwhen she recovered her senseswas to open the
basket. Loulou was unharmed. She felt a sting on her right cheek; when
she took her hand away it was redfor the blood was flowing.
She sat down on a pile of stonesand sopped her cheek with her
handkerchief; then she ate a crust of bread she had put in her basket
and consoled herself by looking at the bird.
Arriving at the top of Ecquemanvilleshe saw the lights of Honfleur
shining in the distance like so many stars; further onthe ocean
spread out in a confused mass. Then a weakness came over her; the
misery of her childhoodthe disappointment of her first lovethe
departure of her nephewthe death of Virginia; all these things came
back to her at onceandrising like a swelling tide in her throat
almost choked her.
Then she wished to speak to the captain of the vesseland without
stating what she was sendingshe gave him some instructions.
Fellacher kept the parrot a long time. He always promised that it
would be ready for the following week; after six months he announced
the shipment of a caseand that was the end of it. Reallyit seemed
as if Loulou would never come back to his home. "They have stolen
him" thought Felicite.
Finally he arrivedsitting bold upright on a branch which could be
screwed into a mahogany pedestalwith his foot in the airhis head
on one sideand in his beak a nut which the naturalistfrom love of
the sumptuoushad gilded. She put him in her room.
This placeto which only a chosen few were admittedlooked like a
chapel and a second-hand shopso filled was it with devotional and
heterogeneous things. The door could not be opened easily on account
of the presence of a large wardrobe. Opposite the window that looked
out into the gardena bull's-eye opened on the yard; a table was
placed by the cot and held a wash-basintwo combsand a piece of
blue soap in a broken saucer. On the walls were rosariesmedalsa
number of Holy Virginsand a holy-water basin made out of a cocoanut;
on the bureauwhich was covered with a napkin like an altarstood
the box of shells that Victor had given her; also a watering-can and a
balloonwriting-booksthe engraved geography and a pair of shoes; on
the nail which held the mirrorhung Virginia's little plush hat!
Felicite carried this sort of respect so far that she even kept one of
Monsieur's old coats. All the things which Madame Aubain discarded
Felicite begged for her own room. Thusshe had artificial flowers on
the edge of the bureauand the picture of the Comte d'Artois in the
recess of the window. By means of a boardLoulou was set on a portion
of the chimney which advanced into the room. Every morning when she
awokeshe saw him in the dim light of dawn and recalled bygone days
and the smallest details of insignificant actionswithout any sense
of bitterness or grief.
As she was unable to communicate with peopleshe lived in a sort of
somnambulistic torpor. The processions of Corpus-Christi Day seemed to
wake her up. She visited the neighbours to beg for candlesticks and
mats so as to adorn the temporary altars in the street.
In churchshe always gazed at the Holy Ghostand noticed that there
was something about it that resembled a parrot. The likenesses
appeared even more striking on a coloured picture by Espinal
representing the baptism of our Saviour. With his scarlet wings and
emerald bodyit was really the image of Loulou. Having bought the
pictureshe hung it near the one of the Comte d'Artois so that she
could take them in at one glance.
They associated in her mindthe parrot becoming sanctified through
the neighbourhood of the Holy Ghostand the latter becoming more
lifelike in her eyesand more comprehensible. In all probability the
Father had never chosen as messenger a doveas the latter has no
voicebut rather one of Loulou's ancestors. And Felicite said her
prayers in front of the coloured picturethough from time to time she
turned slightly towards the bird.
She desired very much to enter in the ranks of the "Daughters of the
Virgin." But Madame Aubain dissuaded her from it.
A most important event occurred: Paul's marriage.
After being first a notary's clerkthen in businessthen in the
customsand a tax collectorand having even applied for a position
in the administration of woods and forestshe had at lastwhen he
was thirty-six years oldby a divine inspirationfound his vocation:
registrature! and he displayed such a high ability that an inspector
had offered him his daughter and his influence.
Paulwho had become quite settledbrought his bride to visit his
mother.
But she looked down upon the customs of Pont-l'Evequeput on airs
and hurt Felicite's feelings. Madame Aubain felt relieved when she
left.
The following week they learned of Monsieur Bourais' death in an inn.
There were rumours of suicidewhich were confirmed; doubts concerning
his integrity arose. Madame Aubain looked over her accounts and soon
discovered his numerous embezzlements; sales of wood which had been
concealed from herfalse receiptsetc. Furthermorehe had an
illegitimate childand entertained a friendship for "a person in
Dozule."
These base actions affected her very much. In March1853she
developed a pain in her chest; her tongue looked as if it were coated
with smokeand the leeches they applied did not relieve her
oppression; and on the ninth evening she diedbeing just seventy-two
years old.
People thought that she was youngerbecause her hairwhich she wore
in bands framing her pale facewas brown. Few friends regretted her
lossfor her manner was so haughty that she did not attract them.
Felicite mourned for her as servants seldom mourn for their masters.
The fact that Madame should die before herself perplexed her mind and
seemed contrary to the order of thingsand absolutely monstrous and
inadmissible. Ten days later (the time to journey from Besancon)the
heirs arrived. Her daughter-in-law ransacked the drawerskept some of
the furnitureand sold the rest; then they went back to their own
home.
Madame's armchairfoot-warmerwork-tablethe eight chairs
everything was gone! The places occupied by the pictures formed yellow
squares on the walls. They had taken the two little bedsand the
wardrobe had been emptied of Virginia's belongings! Felicite went
upstairsovercome with grief.
The following day a sign was posted on the door; the chemist screamed
in her ear that the house was for sale.
For a moment she totteredand had to sit down.
What hurt her most was to give up her room--so nice for poor Loulou!
She looked at him in despair and implored the Holy Ghostand it was
this way that she contracted the idolatrous habit of saying her
prayers kneeling in front of the bird. Sometimes the sun fell through
the window on his glass eyeand lighted a spark in it which sent
Felicite into ecstasy.
Her mistress had left her an income of three hundred and eighty
francs. The garden supplied her with vegetables. As for clothesshe
had enough to last her till the end of her daysand she economised on
the light by going to bed at dusk.
She rarely went outin order to avoid passing in front of the second-
hand dealer's shop where there was some of the old furniture. Since
her fainting spellshe dragged her legand as her strength was
failing rapidlyold Mother Simonwho had lost her money in the
grocery businesscame very morning to chop the wood and pump the
water.
Her eyesight grew dim. She did not open the shutters after that. Many
years passed. But the house did not sell or rent. Fearing that she
would be put outFelicite did not ask for repairs. The laths of the
roof were rotting awayand during one whole winter her bolster was
wet. After Easter she spit blood.
Then Mother Simon went for a doctor. Felicite wished to know what her
complaint was. Butbeing too deaf to hearshe caught only one word:
"Pneumonia." She was familiar with it and gentlyanswered:--"Ah! like
Madame" thinking it quite natural that she should follow her
mistress.
The time for the altars in the street drew near.
The first one was always erected at the foot of the hillthe second
in front of the post-officeand the third in the middle of the
street. This position occasioned some rivalry among the women and they
finally decided upon Madame Aubain's yard.
Felicite's fever grew worse. She was sorry that she could not do
anything for the altar. If she couldat leasthave contributed
something towards it! Then she thought of the parrot. Her neighbours
objected that it would not be proper. But the cure gave his consent
and she was so grateful for it that she begged him to accept after her
deathher only treasureLoulou. From Tuesday until Saturdaythe day
before the eventshe coughed more frequently. In the evening her face
was contractedher lips stuck to her gums and she began to vomit; and
on the following dayshe felt so low that she called for a priest.
Three neighbours surrounded her when the dominie administered the
Extreme Unction. Afterwards she said that she wished to speak to Fabu.
He arrived in his Sunday clothesvery ill at ease among the funereal
surroundings.
"Forgive me" she saidmaking an effort to extend her arm"I
believed it was you who killed him!"
What did such accusations mean? Suspect a man like him of murder! And
Fabu became excited and was about to make trouble.
"Don't you see she is not in her right mind?"
From time to time Felicite spoke to shadows. The women left her and
Mother Simon sat down to breakfast.
A little latershe took Loulou and holding him up to Felicite:
"Say good-bye to himnow!" she commanded.
Although he was not a corpsehe was eaten up by worms; one of his
wings was broken and the wadding was coming out of his body. But
Felicite was blind nowand she took him and laid him against her
cheek. Then Mother Simon removed him in order to set him on the altar.
CHAPTER V
The grass exhaled an odour of summer; flies buzzed in the airthe sun
shone on the river and warmed the slated roof. Old Mother Simon had
returned to Felicite and was peacefully falling asleep.
The ringing of bells woke her; the people were coming out of church.
Felicite's delirium subsided. By thinking of the processionshe was
able to see it as if she had taken part in it. All the school-
childrenthe singers and the firemen walked on the sidewalkswhile
in the middle of the street came first the custodian of the church
with his halberdthen the beadle with a large crossthe teacher in
charge of the boys and a sister escorting the little girls; three of
the smallest oneswith curly headsthrew rose leaves into the air;
the deacon with outstretched arms conducted the music; and two
incense-bearers turned with each step they took toward the Holy
Sacramentwhich was carried by M. le Cureattired in his handsome
chasuble and walking under a canopy of red velvet supported by four
men. A crowd of people followedjammed between the walls of the
houses hung with white sheets; at last the procession arrived at the
foot of the hill.
A cold sweat broke out on Felicite's forehead. Mother Simon wiped it
away with a clothsaying inwardly that some day she would have to go
through the same thing herself.
The murmur of the crowd grew louderwas very distinct for a moment
and then died away. A volley of musketry shook the window-panes. It
was the postilions saluting the Sacrament. Felicite rolled her eyes
and said as loudly as she could:
"Is he all right?" meaning the parrot.
Her death agony began. A rattle that grew more and more rapid shook
her body. Froth appeared at the corners of her mouthand her whole
frame trembled. In a little while could be heard the music of the bass
hornsthe clear voices of the children and the men's deeper notes. At
intervals all was stilland their shoes sounded like a herd of cattle
passing over the grass.
The clergy appeared in the yard. Mother Simon climbed on a chair to
reach the bull's-eyeand in this manner could see the altar. It was
covered with a lace cloth and draped with green wreaths. In the middle
stood a little frame containing relics; at the corners were two little
orange-treesand all along the edge were silver candlesticks
porcelain vases containing sun-flowersliliespeoniesand tufts of
hydrangeas. This mount of bright colours descended diagonally from the
first floor to the carpet that covered the sidewalk. Rare objects
arrested one's eye. A golden sugar-bowl was crowned with violets
earrings set with Alencon stones were displayed on green mossand two
Chinese screens with their bright landscapes were near by. Loulou
hidden beneath rosesshowed nothing but his blue head which looked
like a piece of lapis-lazuli.
The singersthe canopy-bearers and the children lined up against the
sides of the yard. Slowly the priest ascended the steps and placed his
shining sun on the lace cloth. Everybody knelt. There was deep
silence; and the censers slipping on their chains were swung high in
the air. A blue vapour rose in Felicite's room. She opened her
nostrils and inhaled with a mystic sensuousness; then she closed her
lids. Her lips smiled. The beats of her heart grew fainter and
fainterand vaguerlike a fountain giving outlike an echo dying
away;--and when she exhaled her last breathshe thought she saw in
the half-opened heavens a gigantic parrot hovering above her head.